Appreciated

First recognition EVER!

I had been with this company for 15 years at that point and never had I ever been given an appreciation/recognition award! this was awarded to me during the Mid Year Closing.

When I heard the description of the reason I was receiving the award, my initial thought was, "it's no big deal" and realized how brainwashed I was to be thinking that. When in reality, if it was that not big of a deal, someone else should've done. So yeah. Never down play your contribution to the department my girlie, you've contributed more than enough.

The award was actually a shared award with my officer as well coz we both worked on the task together. 

So yay me! 🥳🥳🥳

I was definitely motivated to do a lot more at the time. Coz suddenly it was worth it.

I received another similar award after this one and this was awarded to me during End Year Closing.

but I forgot that one pasal apa. LOL coz I wasn't really listening but I believe it was more about me being recognized doing at least 3 people's job most of the time LOL I remember thinking "memang patut di appreciate my effort ani!" ahaha yeah I was bitter.

no this is not the picture. Apparently no picture was taken that day. and the event was done in Nov instead of Dec LOL

I needed this

Hi guys,

a very quick one.

I came across this vlogger as I was searching for Universal Studio Japan content (coz I wanna go back sooo bad!).

Her name is Gita. her USJ video was very entertaining and 'educational'? I like how she talked like a host show; straight forward and to the point. Curious, I clicked on her channel and found below video.

it's half an hour video and took a little patient to watch if this is not the kind of video you watch but give it a chance. I did. and i like it.



I hope, someone else will find this video insightful and hope it lightens your heart in any way, shape or form.


. . .

Selamat Hari Raya

hi guys,

quick update on the blogspot-not-loading thingy: I confirmed that it's my internet connection. Coz, yesterday, when I wanted to update my blog, it refused to load the page. and today, it was ok again. Sooooo...current-internet-provider, bye!

onto the our topic; Selamat Hari Raya!! 

a little too late coz it's already the third week of Raya? i think? All I know is, our house already cleaned of any Hari Raya trace. wawawa

This year's Raya is a bit sad coz my baju raya arrived late. 

📣📣 STORY TIMEEEEEE 📣📣

I decided this year that I'm going with the ready-made saja, coz you know, I don't have to paning2 pikir design apa mau buat. 
I purchased from Zalora.com on 17th May, received ordered at around 10am on 22nd May, I did quick fittings and they were all too big (I ordered XXL and, rupanya, I'm not size XXL LOL!), went to Zalora.com app to request exchange at around 11ish am, and quickly went to a specific courier service for drop off at around 1ish pm, THAT VERY SAME DAY 22nd MAY! 
I only received respond from Zalora.com that 11ish am, them acknowledging my request.
I was panicking when I didn't received any respond by 30th May; they said request would take at least 3 days to be processed, and I was giving them grace period of 8 DAYS! 
but of course, I was being understanding, you know, festive traffic and all that cheese.
Finally received an email from zalora.com on 2nd Jun, they just received my returned package. and I was like, "what the actual fuck?" I sent 22nd May and you received 2nd Jun? what?!
on 3rd Jun zalora.com sent another email to me saying my items are on their way.
🙄
by now, I was already so done.
I actually went to SF Express (that specific courier service) on the 4th Jun, to try my luck, to at least ask. coz I've been trying to call them since 3rd Jun but their phone rang a few times and after that, cut off. like, what even? but when I arrived at their office, they already closed. 
I tried again on the 5th Jun but still no one answering the phone. I got pissed and didn't bother stressing anymore.
Raya fell on 6th Jun in Brunei, so sis redha and pakai baju lama sja beraya. 😭

It was a long holiday here in Brunei for Hari Raya, we were given 3 days public holidays, obviously, I didn't want to pressure SF Express and just waited till 10th Jun.
10th Jun arrived and I actually logged onto my Zalora account and found out that my parcel already arrived in Brunei on 3rd Jun 8ish pm. 

like, why didn't I check this thing earlier? LOL my baddd~~

So, I went to SF Express, they were opened, I showed the guy at the collection counter the screenshot I took, and he was actually too calm for my liking.
He checked on his computer and tried to tell me what I already know ("oh, we received the item on 3rd June malam and we-") and I just ✋.
I was surprised at how calm I was when I raise my hand like ✋, stopping him and said, smiling, "can I collect now?" to which he replied, "yes, you can collect today. just give me some time to find your package". I smiled, "thank you". MY CUSTOMER SERVICE ASS AT WORK BITCHES!
I don't think I waited long, maybe 5 minutes top, and I received my package! I quickly left before my anger raise from the depth of my guts.

Now, let me tell you why I need to rant:

*clears throat

1. I understand that it was Hari Raya season and it was hectic closer to the date, the least they can do is give customer a call if they couldn't deliver them to their doorstep. I mean, yeah, maybe ada customer yang being fussy as fuck about that but I'm sure I'm not the only one yang willing to collect my items on my own COZ IT'S MY BAJU RAYA DAMMIT!
2. that guy at the counter. THE 👏 AU 👏 DA 👏 CI 👏TY 👏! dude, my parcel arrived on 3rd Jun, 7 days later, here I am in front of you, already in the 5th day of Raya wearing old baju, SF Express didn't even bother to give me a call that you've been keeping my items/package for 6-7 days, AND YOU WANT TO GIVE ME EXCUSES AS TO WHY THIS IS HAPPENING? boy ✋, stand up, and quickly get my package before I blow that place up.

*exhale heavily

I know, ada lagi urang yang lebih susah dari aku, I should be grateful I still have decent baju to wear on Hari Raya.

What I learned from this?

• lain kali, order awal lagi sikit if it's for Raya
• supaya dapat exchange far more quickly
• or, check size measurement banar2. last year I ordered from a brand Zalia and the size XL was too fit on me. This year I ordered from brand Lubna, and thought I should order XXL so it'd be a little loose but damn! Different brand has different measurement. So, check that section thoroughly
• Zalora.com still deliver fast to Brunei, within 3-5 working days. I think it's just the exchange that took forever. or maybe it's just during Hari Raya. I have never exchange anything for the last 5-6 times purchasing from them. So, I wasn't aware of that process. and I chose Hari Raya to test that process. Brilliant.
• I almost menyamal but I have 2 items in my basket right at this moment. LOL~!

anyway,

my anger subsides when I returned to work on the 12th Jun and asked Faizah to take my OOTD. wawawa

first two was taken by Faizah, the third obviously not. No idea when the official OOTD with that baju will be done. maybe this coming Friday. it will be up on my IG when done. 😉

hows your Hari Raya so far? I hope better than mine. Mine wasn't bad, I just, lazy. LOL I have other things to focus on 😉

alright, that is all for this post.

See ya tomorrow. Hopefully.

Ciao~

. . .

2019: A Year of Change

for some reason, this was in the draft section since 10th Mar 2019 and was empty.

hmmm

Hi guys.

we are now in June 2019! half way thru the year already. wow. time flies.

So, as mentioned, this draft was left empty since 10th Mar 2019. I checked thru my draft notes in my laptop and found one notes that was dated 10 Mar too. It was obviously raw and not suitable for direct posting. I might hurt a few hearts. but do I really care? muahahah 

I actually still care, hence, the edited version below.

Here go:

composed on 10th Mar 2019.

Hello everyone and anyone.

I know, I abandoned this page for so long.

I even almost not come back at all. 

but here I am.

I really don't know why I should continue to be here. It's not like my life depended on it.

I guess I'm just not ready to part ways from this part of my old life.


Blogging had been my life since forever. I think I started when I was 15? Back when Friendster was a thing. LOL Friendster had a blog feature where your friends got notification whenever you posted something and when I finally switched to Blogspot, none of my readers came along with me. 

it demotivated me a little bit but I still continued to post. soon after, friends started making their own blog and we shared/exchanged stories and comments.

As we grew as an individual, I guess people grew out of blogging too. Except me. I'm still here, as if holding up the fort.

more years passed and I mentioned a lot in my posts on how me too no longer 'feeling it'.

Am I grown?

or

Am I tired of holding the fort?

Maybe I am.

I turned 31 last year. I'll be 32 this year. For some reason, that hit me hard.

at first, I thought it was becoz I thought I lagged behind everybody. Thirty One years Old and still the same old me; achieving only in growing old, stuck in the same old routine year after year.

You would think, someone who read a lot like myself wouldn't have such negative thoughts. 
You thought wrong.
I used to tell people how I'm a self-motivated person. I began believing in it too. 
Until I realized how tiring that ish was (still is).
Your mind is spent and your heart is heavy, do you have any idea how hard it is to stay motivated/positive during that phase?
I also used to think that I was strong mentally and physically.
boy, was I mistaken. LOL
Well, maybe I am strong both mentally and physically or I wouldn't be here talking about this right now.

Realizing all this and accepting that my life has come to this, I decided to let go on a lot of things.

They say it's never too late to push reset and start over.

So, for the past six months I've been working on my well being;
1. Me is enough
2. Me matter
3. I can't change the world overnight. so chill.
4. Stop worrying about what others think of me.
5. Control my emotion especially at work (coz GOD know I have a problem in that ish place LOL)
6. my self improvement is important.

And something happened on my 7th month.

I've worked hard for this mindset and soul to be at peace and for me to fall back into the me from 6 months ago is such a waste of time. 
To fall back to the same routine/dark-mindset all over again? I don't have the capacity in my mind and in my soul for such burden anymore.
I used to think "let's just follow the flow" but I don't want to be that easy anymore.
I wanna work hard towards a new goal in life. Especially with my life. I'm important too. 
I have the obligation to better myself before I can worry about other people.

I really don't want to go back to 6 months ago. I can't and I refuse. I am only going to focus on moving forward.


Wow! I was so deep back in March. LOL wow.
I surprise myself too most of the time. Every time I read back my old thoughts, I'm impressed on how well I write/type. HAHAHAH and now back to the present.

Like, I said, the above is filtered for 'tayangan umum'. There were two more pages of thoughts but I don't think it's quite relevant for today's title.

I don't think I planned that post as a New Year Resolution coz I hate that term: 'Resolution'. who started that ish? I think i just want to say that I'm trying to change my life routine and be selfish for once. obviously old habit die hard; I can't just be completely selfish. but I'm gonna try.

Have you ever feel or felt this way before? How did you overcome or deal with yours? Share your thoughts down in the comment box.

if you read up till here, you the real MVP. and thank you.

See you in the next post.

ciao~

. . .

Pointing Finger

I just had these thoughts lately and I think its important

I remember in one of my Team Building workshop, the facilitator mentioned about 'Pointing Finger'.

What I understood at that time was he was talking about blaming others but yourself.

He showed us this gesture

You see, when you point at someone, one finger is pointing to them, while three fingers are pointing at yourself.

In other words,

don't be easy to point faults in others. you might be at fault too.

Just something I've been thinking a lot.

and stop thinking that this post is dedicated to someone. 
I'm only posting this to reflect upon myself.

or am I?

LOL

but really, I've been so angry with a lot of people right now, and I think it's becoming a problem with me. mentally and physically.

it's not good.

and that 'pointing finger' thing pops up in my head.

it calms me down, little by little.

When you realized that you are not that perfect too, this 'gelora di jiwa' is not so worth it. 

coz there's just no point on getting work up over everything.

and that's all I'm gonna say, 

I have a lot on my plate right now, I can't be bother taking care of everybody else.

. . .

Thought of the day

Maturity isn't claimed.

Maturity is not something you declared yourself to be.

Its just not what you think it is.

Even these quotes are not all it.

Maturity is just.

#self-reflect

or is it?

muahahaha

. . .

a/n: I know there are certain things where you can claim yourself to be, but claiming to be mature while condemning someone childish, is not it.

I'm only human

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days

If that's what you want

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh

If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it

But I'm only human 
and I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
I crash and I break down

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of the world
If that's what you need

I can do it

But I'm only human

Just a little human

I can take so much

Until I've had enough

. . .

from the song Human by Christina Perri.

Post Worthy 7.1016

So, it's Hari Raya and you know what that means?

it's that time of the year you go visiting (which called BERAYA to) your grandma's place, cousin's place and friend's place.

you know what's more tear jerking moment than reminiscing the old times?
it's when you go Beraya but you were on your phone the entire visit.

I have a first hand experience on that.

Might as well you don't come and visit if you're gona be on your phone all the time.

Don't blame people if you no one wants to talk to you or bother to make a conversation.

don't even blame the phone.

Coz you're the human one and the decision, the choice is yours.

#PutDownYourPhone and #MakeRealConversation

Image credit to respective owners.

. . .

Be Kind, it's free

Mom is the kind of person who is so nice to other people even if that people was so damn mean to her in the past.

I could never understand her.

until I was a little bit older.
and recent events inspired me to make this post


1. Regarding work
no matter what personal hatred you have to your work mate, kerja tetap kerja. Think of your 'periuk nasi'. No one else will jaga that. so, peduli apa with what they say behind your back or whatever. bukan durang yg bagi ko gaji. So, maintain your work etiquette.

2. Relatives
you know how some cousins don't get along with each other? well, I have them too. and I know my family is not the only one yg ada this kind of relatives. but be kind. biar tia urg bejahat arah tani, jangan tani pun ikut bejahat jua. If like that, sama lah tani dengan durang. it's better to be remembered being the kind one than being remembered the opposite, right?

of course, I'm only human.

Being kind is a very exhausting.

not just mentally but spiritually as well.

DIY design for phonecase Part 3

I honestly thought the previous post was a January post. :S
rupanya, bukan.
man time flies!

I am going to share with you what happened with my DIY phonecase no. 3: paper design.

Well, it's not really a design. 
it was mostly just shaped, cut and pasted.

Step 1. pick a phone case and measure the size.


Step 2. Cut your choice of background paper


Step 3. Choose your bias pictures


Step 4. Cut out bias picture


Step 5. Use craft glue to stick background paper and bias picture together

Step 6. Stick that onto the back of your clear casing. 


Step 7. Cover your paper up till the edge of your casing with your Multi Medium Matte adhesive.


Step 8. left to dry.

Step 9. use

Step 10. realizing the mistake you make 

Step 11. no longer using. now sits in my drawer for a self reminder of what not to do with DIY paper design for phonecase.


my mistakes:
a. I think I need to cut the background smaller so it fits the back side of the casing better.
b. I should have used the Glossy effect instead of Matte.
c. maybe a soft gel liked casing isn't the best material to use for paper DIY phonecase design.
d. maybe the type of paper I used is too thick that's why it wouldn't stick. 

Hmmm.. I don't know, I think I'm gonna give this DIY another try before i proceed with the 'painting' DIY.

. . .

a/n: I learn mostly from Youtube

Hello, Hello

Honestly, the reason behind my lack of posting is because every time I feel like posting, 
it was always about me complaining about ..stuff.
So, in the end, I decided to not post anything.

Let's face it, no one really cares.
I noticed, in many different occasions, that people don't really have an interest when I tried to 'meluahkan perasaan'. I guess they just have their own problem to worry about.
So, I try not to take it into heart sometimes.
I guess, I'm right again. 
Writing things down in my diary is far more satisfying!

muahahah! 

anyways,
that is all for today.
I will try and post something not-kpop tomorrow, or later after midnight.

I sincerely hope that your days had been far better off than mine.

a/n: at my age, I finally understand what they meant when they say, "Quality in friends versus Quantity".

. . .

PAN

frying pan!! or dalam bahasa Brunei nya, parimpan. 
hahaha

and I have never wanted to hit someone in the head with a frying pan before. until this movie.

I watched this new movie Pan at our local cinema, 
starring Hugh Jackman who played Blackbeard.

It's a story about the beginning of Peter Pan. before that story where he met Wendy. 
I wasn't expecting much when I watch Pan, so I find it very interesting and touchy, especially towards the end. 

but it isn't about the movie that I decided to make a post of this

it was actually about some very offensive actions that some mother and daughter did that made me post this;

not even half thru the movie, these two people stood up and after that changed to the empty seats in front of their previous seats (we sat at the top most seat (Row A), basically the best seats and they changed to seat (Row B) ). and noticing their action, suddenly i was conscious.

It was the mother (who sat next to me) who stood up first and I saw they contemplated for a minute than took the row B seats. then Zawir was like, "Pindah duduk durang ah" and I said "Yeah" and remember feeling really offended and embarrassed.
Earlier before the movie, me and Zawir had our dinner at Burger King and our burgers had onion rings in it.
So, I was thinking, was it my breath? was it stinking too much for the mother to move seat?
or
was it my quiet laughter? yes, i have learned to control my 'barking' laugh to a quiet, shy laugh when I'm in the cinema.

Although I still enjoy the movie and was really into it, every time I cast my eyes to those two beings, it made me wonder what i did wrong?

I even almost confronted them when the movie ended! like, i was that embarrassed and did not appreciate their offensive manner!

But after that, as we walked out of the cinema, I thought, it's not me. it's just that mother being 'annoyed' with me somehow. She's the one with the problem, not me.
If I stink, I am sorry.
If i laugh too much or giggle at every little bit (coz I'm probably some crazy nutter who cannot control my imagination), I am not sorry for that.
Coz, lets face it 'mother' of someone. if you want peace and quiet while watching a movie in a public cinema, I suggest, you don't.
I suggest, it is better for you to watch them at home. later, when the HD version of the movie is release in DVD format, yeah?

Because what you did was very offensive. and no manner. 

I know I am to blame if i have bad breath but if its because of my laughing, that's just..go home, woman!

. . .

a/n: I could go on about how maybe she had some OCD and I shouldn't be saying things about her but still, I have never been so humiliated in public! and I am sure to go on about this again when I'm reminded of it. #MannersIsForAll

. . .

He shouldn't have

went on a movie 'outing' with a colleague last couple of weeks. Lelaki. and just us two.

at first, I thought, nyeh normal outing, mcm sama cZawir.

but as soon as we met at the agreed meeting place, boy was I wrong.

ok, maybe I am reading too much into this but there were serious 'hitting on' that night. I wont go into details but it was so creepy and embarrassing to say the least.

If he agreed that that night was just a normal 'colleague' movie outing, he shouldn't;

• Suggested to me that I should wear a shortlegged coverall with knee-high socks when I was wearing a longsleeve tshirt and bertudung. Excuse me? were you embarass about my appearance? I said I wouldn't read too much into it but it is still offensive.
• He also shouldn't have suggested how I can cover up before going out of the house and changed once outside. Because, I may not be that close with my mom but we have an unspeakable trust between us. and i have never deceived her that way.
• Let me carry the tray of food from the counter to our seats. I know. to some, maybe this is nothing. but to me, it's THAT big of a deal.
• Hide the fact that he was not officially broken off his engagement. (I know he was engaged. I heard rumors that he wasn't anymore and before the movie outing, I asked him 'tunang mu ok inda?' to which he shook his head and I didnt press on becoz I don't want to seem insensitive about the subject. You know, mana tau ia broken hearted kh, bru di putusnya tunang kh. but stupid me! I should've known better. 'Org Gila' said the same thing, didn't he? and he didn't actually broke it off, did he? JUST. STUPID.) and had me guarded the whole night. scared that I would be a victim of 'kana tampar mengajut' and called 'perampas tunang orang' or something. I was mostly embarass about this part. more embarrass than when I was carrying the tray. ARGH! MEN ARE SO STUPID!
• have treated me like I was that easy. coz, I would've kick your sorry ass, if you thought that your sap story about your relationship would make me all sorry and all over you. 
• have make me feel so stupid about myself. Coz, I am not stupid.

But most of all, I shouldn't have agreed to go out with him in the first place. 

I'm not gona again. especially when he kept on bragging about how he didn't approach the girl and it was her who approach him. and that I was offering him to watch the movie instead of the other way round. I reminded him, of course, that it was his idea, not mine. 

ARGH! what. a. duche!

thank you man, for making me feel so stupid.

this should be a reminder to all that, don't be like me. Ok? I trust people too easy despite me being guarded and all. just do what Professor Moody told us to do, "Constant Vigilant!"
 
why can't genuinely good man ever happened to me??

. . .

Bersyukur

Hello again. 

as promise, I'll be posting an interrelated post (from yesterday's) today.

Remember how I told you about this Master holder person?
Well, dot dot dot is actually her first job experience. and even though she's a Master holder (is this what you call this people? coz aku main hantam sja ni. LOL), has the brain to absorb all those knowledge, she is yet to apply it. 
meaning?
meaning, her theory knowledge is as good as my practical knowledge of the job.
No, don't get me wrong. Why I'm telling you all this story about her, is not to bad mouth/talk bad/mengucap about her (ok, maybe a little. since she's so over confident that she knows it all -___-. LOL) but it's becoz she made me realise something. something that had been said over and over again.

She made me realise that it's ok. it's ok that I'm lacking academically (though it would've still be nice if I have it) because, while I lack on one thing, I gain another. My Geography tutor, Mr. Fletcher once said, "you win some, you lose some". I have those words embedded in my brain to this day. Coz it's so true. I applied it on everything I do. 
In this case, I may not have a Master (yet) but for the past 5 years (and counting) I've gained so much knowledge that CAN'T be learn in books; 
1. those accounting calculations I do at the end of every month or every year end, isn't as it was shown in the book during high school/ college.
2. Customer always right? My foot.
3. to smile while answering a phone. to smile even when you really wanted to do is smack the other person's head.
4. to manage your time (eg. deadlines) coz this is not high school/college. you don't get second chances.
5. Life is tough. Remember how teachers said that it'll be easier after A Level? My foot.
6. and my communicating skill is a lot better. I got less nervous. a tat bit confident when needed. I learned not to be too shy when the occasion calls for it. 

I could list a lot more but lupa ku sudah. but those are the few things that I learned.

I learned all these things from the bottom up. 

I'm not saying I'm a better person. i'm just saying, as a worker, I'm a lot more confident, practically, then she is. and I don't have to be cocky about it. 

sigh. i'm expressing this all wrong.

I mean, she was acting all snob just becoz she got that Officer position. when in reality, she shudn't be. because that position doesn't say that you are knowledgeable of the job. you don't know the job as well as we, your seniors, do. Chill down a little. be humble. remember, you jumped steps. If you're not careful, you might fall. 

Ok, this post has gone too far from its original purpose. LOL.

What I'm trying to say is that, while others go gain knowledge academically, I gain experience working. I'm not totally losing in life (coz seeing others succeed in their academic life made me feel like I'm such a losers sometimes -___-"). I have something. Something to be proud of too.

and becoz of that, I am happy how my life turns out to be. Aku bersyukur that I've gone thru all that to get to where I am today. I just want to keep my feet firmly on the ground as Shane Filan once said. Know who you are, know where you come from.

I may not have the highest ambition among my friends but I planned on working hard for my future. It's a tat bit hard when you don't have a higher education but we'll manage, won't we?

A/N: I decided to insert a few GIFs to make this post a lil bit lively. or it would've been too dull. -___-

. . .

Remind Myself

 I found a piece of paper when I was doing my spring cleaning last two weeks. I wrote some self-motivational words on it. I don't know why I made a copy of it but I guess it was because I can relate so much to it. Even now.

So, I'm gonna share what I wrote on that piece of paper here. I hope it'll somebody too in one way or another. ;)

. . .

Life will get better; It always does.

You're a wonderful person, Just remember that you don't have to expect so much from yourself. Try pampering yourself a little more. Take more time just for you.

Try concerntrating on taking just one step and one situation at a time. Don't try to think about everything at once. Try putting your own best interest first.

Make time to take good care of yourself. you are precious and important, and you deserve peace and happiness, it will happen if you can just hang in there. - Barbara Cage.

. . .

those young years

you know that feeling when you're browsing thru your old pictures and came across pictures that made you think, 'I wana go back in time'?

I had that feelings a few weeks ago. 

those care-free years. How I wish I could turn back time and stop being so foolish. ahaha

oh well. I guess things happened for a reason. and that I've made footsteps on this world too.

p/s: Back then, I was still convinced that I was gonna be as famous as Britney Spears. BWAHAHAHAHA! goshh..pull yourselves together and smell reality.

p/p/s: I need to go and exercise. 0.0

maybe I'm just scared

I realized, I've been taking the easy way out for every decision that I've made.

I have to be more berani, bold and be more like Minho.


(since, you know, he'll all about being competitive and see failure as a big NO NO and whatnot) wawawawa


but seriously, this taking-the-easy-way-out-attitude has got to end. Now.

maybe I'm just scared.

. . .

Trust

took years to build

and only seconds to lose.

atu yg klu memang betaun2 dah dbuild, imagine yg staun jagung pun alum sampai?

hilang kepercayaan ku arah mu bui...never again..

and now everytime you talk, I have doubts.

sigh.

I feel like I want to turn back time and undo EVERYTHING about it but there's nothing that I can do and only have myself to blame.

I guess my sister was right, "pengalaman mengajar"

apa jua lagi yg patut ku buat kn? bersabar and learned from it.


. . .

Worth Having? I. Think. Not.

I don't think it's worth having anymore.

nor does it worth fighting for.



Ingat aku nada perasaan kh? andang jua bukn angel aku ani kn telampau baik. I have my limit too.

I've lowered my pride for your sake but if that's how you're gonna act,
so be it.

I think I've had enough.

I'm gona let go.

and this is not the first time either.

WHAT THE HELL AM I?!

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One at a time

note to self;

I should stick to one blog at a time.

I should post more here instead of on the other blog.

I should really make this blog a priority (blog-wise)

I should try and make an effort to blog here (more)

erm..

yeah..that's about it.

p/s: why? becoz I need to have more blog posts this year than last year...I can do this! hwaiting! gambate! maju sukan utk negara!

ahaha mcm apa~



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