Another life disappointment

I am upset. very the upset.

I don't want to be including the IG seller here coz I feel like its not her doing but I still wanna. on second thoughts, I'm not gonna. Not becoz I'm classy but becoz I am lazy to screenshot. (ANDDD proceeded to screenshot anyway coz I'm lazy to type the whole thing)

So, back story:

back on Mar 17, 2020, I came across a picture on IG; Colorpop x Mulan collection. 

I'm a huge fan of Mulan and is excited for the Live action movie (which is still delayed by the way. at Cineplex it says they will be showing Mulan in Aug 2020), obviously I want to have this collection. 

I clicked on the user and those items were on Pre-Order basis and ETA was 3-4 weeks.

On Mar 18,2020 9:27am I made the preOrder. Full pymt was required. I don't have account with the seller's bank so I only bank-in the same day at 7pm.

and then, Covid Lockdown happened to the world.

I'm the type of buyer that doesn't like to chase. I don't want to bother or annoy the seller. 🤷

May 1, 2020. I finally asked the seller the update on my orders. Seller came back with a screenshot from Colorpop.

I understood the situation and thank the seller? but in reality, i was not happy with the seller. They should have contacted EVERY buyer in regards to that updates. Don't just expect me to come and ask you. but like i said, I understand and let it go.

June 17, 2020. I asked again for update. 

again, not very happy with the respond but what am I supposed to do? this thing is global.

and lastly July 19, 2020. the most devastating follow up ever. 

Once again, this seller just expect people to read their post. 

and most of all, the item is never gonna come. argh. 

Again, I understand its out of the seller's control but I would appreciate if they would just return my money in the mean time. 

Like the other previous Colorpop seller; when there was another month delay, they offered to refund first but once the item arrive, they will comeback to me first before reselling it in case I still one to purchase that item. 

This is ridiculous man. From Mar 18 till Jul 19, thats 4 months! the seller should've refunded first. 

Not that I would take the refund becoz I really want those collections. LOL 

but seeing how they didn't even think of refunding me, they seems confident that them items will definitely arrive? albeit, super delayed? 

That was what I was rooting for; my items to arrive!

tapi now, poof. Hancur harapan.

and will be refunded in 6 weeks? after I waited for 4 months?! That June respond was unnecassary. "in USPS transit" konon. false hope.

I'm never gonna do preOrder anymore after this. I have no problem preOrdering, I just want my items to arrive. and don't be calling me impatient. I asked this seller once a month for an update and not once did I request for a refund (coz goddammit i really one those collections!). If that is not patient, I don't know what is.

Sigh.

Look at them. 

So pretty.

So red.

So Mulan.

hanya dalam mimpi.

but if you can find this item anywhere, let me know. I might order this via ebay actually. might cost a fortune to ship but at least I will have it.

DM me.  

FOR ONCE I WANT A MAKEUP COLLECTION SO BAD!

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Oh! here's the story from the Seller before this one.

Rose-colored boi

found via Google

by Noxmoony on DeviantArt

Rose-colored boy

I hear you making all that noise

About the world you want to see

And oh, I'm so annoyed

'Cause I just killed off what was left of the optimist in me

I'm right at the end of my rope

A half-empty girl

Don't make me laugh, I'll choke

Just let me cry a little bit longer

I ain't gon' smile if I don't want to

Hey man, we all can't be like you

I wish we were all rose-colored too

I want you to stop insisting that I'm not a lost cause

'Cause I've been through a lot

Really all I've got is just to stay pissed off

Leave me here a little bit longer

I think I wanna stay in the car

I don't want anybody seeing me cry now

You say "We gotta look on the bright side"

I say "Well maybe if you wanna go blind"

You say my eyes are getting too dark now

But boy, you ain't ever seen my mind

Just let me cry a little bit longer

I ain't gon' smile if I don't want to

Hey, man, we all can't be like you

I wish we were all rose-colored too

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Pointing Finger

I just had these thoughts lately and I think its important

I remember in one of my Team Building workshop, the facilitator mentioned about 'Pointing Finger'.

What I understood at that time was he was talking about blaming others but yourself.

He showed us this gesture

You see, when you point at someone, one finger is pointing to them, while three fingers are pointing at yourself.

In other words,

don't be easy to point faults in others. you might be at fault too.

Just something I've been thinking a lot.

and stop thinking that this post is dedicated to someone. 
I'm only posting this to reflect upon myself.

or am I?

LOL

but really, I've been so angry with a lot of people right now, and I think it's becoming a problem with me. mentally and physically.

it's not good.

and that 'pointing finger' thing pops up in my head.

it calms me down, little by little.

When you realized that you are not that perfect too, this 'gelora di jiwa' is not so worth it. 

coz there's just no point on getting work up over everything.

and that's all I'm gonna say, 

I have a lot on my plate right now, I can't be bother taking care of everybody else.

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Supermoon

So, last night was the appearance of a 'supermoon'

so people been talking about it

not excessively but enough to get me thinkin

about Sailor Moon instead.

"Dengan kuasa bulan, aku akan menghukum mu!"

HAHAHAHAH

I can't get over it.

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I saw the moon at around 6:30pm to 7pm (while I was driving back home from work) but it was normal to me.

You see.

I watched the moon often especially during full moon.

the ambiance surrounding the night sky on a full moon is 'something'.

So, when they say the moon gonna be super big, i was excited to see it

but boy was I misled

I know they say that the moon hasn't been seen that big since 1940s but i swear I saw the big moon during the time when I was active doing taekwondo; back in 2009/2010/2011

I remembered I was soooo fascinated by it, wanted to take picture but I was driving at the time. the moon was orangey colored too (IF i remember correctly :P)

SO, yeah.

a little upset that it was not as I thought it would be.

UNLESS!

did I miss the time frame? 

did I watch too early?

should I camped outside my house and watch the moon progresses into massive orbs?

New Face

So, Instagram has a new face aka App Icon.

From this --v

To this --v

personally, I hate it.

coz old Instagram logo/icon is unique.

why mesti drg change?

Facebook, Twitter, WhatApps and  LINE all have been around long and had been thru a lot of upgrades, but masih pun drg maintain drg punya 'logo'.

Believe me, I'm not the only one who thinks so. 

for me, the old logo is awesome and they should've kept it.

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Disappointment

I finally found this 'Egg' case I was once tagged on FB.

but when I finally bought and trying to wait patiently for it to be processed and shipped, the Seller decided to send me this

I was devastated.

I am not even joking.

I really wanted this case.

and the Seller had the nerve to ask me to choose another?

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! (┛◉Д◉)┛彡┻━┻

I browse thru their 'store' and of course, find nothing that interest me.

Now, I've made my decision (after 20 minutes) that I'm going to cancel the transaction.

or let it auto cancelled. 

muahahah!

what I don't understand is that, if it's out of stock, why is it up in the store?!
щ(ಥДಥщ)
like, why are you sooooo deceivinggggg????

I'm just gona willow in self pity now. 

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a/n: this would be the third time AliExpress disappoints me. I'm gonna stick with eBay from today onwards. Goodbye, AliExpress, you suck! (╹◡╹)凸

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that Feeling

you know that feeling when you are so down and everything around you insisted to be wrong?

yeah, I'm having that feelings now.

it's frustrating and discouraging and demotivating.

maybe I'm the one who is unhappy in the first place but instead of everything else remain neutral as I wished, things just, don't.

So, all I'm doing right now is, to remain stagnant. like how my life has been for the past few years.

I'm usually a self-motivate person but today, I don't feel like motivating myself. I mean, what's the point really?

a/n: images are not mine

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a tad bit disappointed

Last Sunday, I finally collected my SHINee Surprise Vacation DVD at Yeszone. (Thanx Zawir~~!!)

yayyy.

So far I've watched Onew's, Jonghyun's and Taemin's.

I love it. of course but for such $$$ I expected there'll be more footage than the ones I downloaded off Youtube. Hence, my disappointment. -.-

Yes, there is the 'making' DVD as well but that was only for 30mins.

again, disappointed.

It has English subs (one of the reason why I wanted it in the first place). but Taemin's got a little jumble up. I may not speak Korean but I've heard and read enough to know that the audio and subs wasn't syncing. -.-

these companies should REALLY consider hiring (example;) SHINee Subs people. those people subs even the smallest of details its impressive and awesome! non-Korean fans REALLY appreciate that kind of dedication. Sharing is love.

atu lah yg aku disappointed most on.

beside that

I CAN WATCH ALMOST NAKED JONGHYUN OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!

(not really. malu plang ku kn liat..hahaha but, thanks Jonghyun. next time, ask Onew to take of his tops often too, yeah? ;) )

hahaha the upside of things. :P

Will try and watch Key's and Minho's by end of this week.

klu ku rajin jua tu...wawawa

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Writers

after spending so much time on Asianfanfics.com these past years, I realized something.

real authors need real (heavily constructive) criticism.

I mean the most I see people comment about a story is about how cute this character look (when in actualness the author has not even describe their cuteness in words) or how cute the main characters were together (hmm. I guess that's the disadvantage of writing a fan fiction. coz you're using characters from the real life; Kpop artists and such).

Point is, i don't think most of us want this.

I, for one, would love a criticism on the way I laid out the story, my grammar (though i wouldn't listen much on that since English is only my second language. LOL), and you know, REAL criticism!

but I guess (again) I have to take into account that that website if full of hormonal teenagers, who was so keen into the story line alone (without really caring how the words were laid down as long as there's the name of their fav kpop artists in it) than how it was laid out etc etc.

I'm not saying I'm THAT good! gawd, no. I've got a lot to learn too.

it just frustrates me that I'm posting my story there in the hope that I would get decent, constructive, criticism that would help me improve myself in one way or another, but I got this childish review instead.

I had one good review once for one of my stories and although it stinks and i kinda don't like it in the beginning, I still appreciate it. it got me where I am today.

but since me and that person are not talking to each other anymore, I have no one else to ask harsh review from. 

sigh.

You really don't miss your water, till the well runs dry.

ANYWAY~~

I WANT CONSTRUCTIVE REVIEWS ON MY STORY! 

ANYBODY WANTS TO BE THE REVIEWER?! 

also, desperate time calls for desperate measures.


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Family my foot.

I was at a family function a couple of weeks ago
and I noticed/realised a lot of things.

• their sister-in-laws were treating us like what.
• the younger cousins were doing it too.
• the cousins, of course, lagi dashyat.

People are just prone to be a blind judge.

I mean, what ever happened in the past had nothing to do with me, or you. it's our parents disputes.

So, what the hell are we doing?

Mom always drag me to 'these' cousins functions because the adults are 'all over it' (so they say). but they'd forgotten what they had done to the next generation of cousins.

I would've act neutral if they would. but everytime I set my mind to be neutral, smiling and greet people politely, they always ended up like a fucktard bitch. EVEN the men/guys/boys.

LIKE SERIOUSLY WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?!

and my mom wondered why I never wanted to go?

Mom knew of course, or knew just a little and often telling me off when I got mad. she said, 'tani jangan tah ikut2an bejahat. Mun inda, sama tah tani jua macam drg tu'.
*rolled eyes*
Tau plang ku. ganya, I'm still just human and a human can only stand to a certain limit.

and My way of not bad mouthing them is TO NOT see them. EVER.
the less I see the lot of them , the better I feel. the less I 'mengumpat'. the less I 'sakit hati'.

I know they're not all like that. they are VERY nice people too. just not much.

and it's just THAT side of that family. always.

I don't know what their problem is.

all I'm asking is, just, GET OVER YOURSELVES. THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND YOU. 

. . .

the world is not split into good people and Death Eaters - Sirius Black.

Trust

took years to build

and only seconds to lose.

atu yg klu memang betaun2 dah dbuild, imagine yg staun jagung pun alum sampai?

hilang kepercayaan ku arah mu bui...never again..

and now everytime you talk, I have doubts.

sigh.

I feel like I want to turn back time and undo EVERYTHING about it but there's nothing that I can do and only have myself to blame.

I guess my sister was right, "pengalaman mengajar"

apa jua lagi yg patut ku buat kn? bersabar and learned from it.


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Disappointment/Sadness

tsk.

so much for seeing topless Onew.



tsk.

how could he?

tsk.

but no matter. I love the positive feedback from other fans.

One was saying something about Onew's photo teaser was the most decent one so far.
another said something like they like Onew better like this.
another one said Onew's photo potray the sweet/French/whatnot concept.

personally, I was sad. NOT entirely because he was not topless but because of his hair.

can you believe this?!

who the freakin hell is the stylist Onni/Oppa?? ahjumma/ahjusshi kali?!



Images are not mine. Credit to the perspective owner. xD


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