Family Vacation after a long time..

First family vacation in a long time - Trip ke KK. 31 Mar 2024 - 2 Jun 2024.

It was short but it was fun spending time with fam although some of us just stayed in the hotel most of the time wawawa.

We need to do another trip where we spend a little more time visiting places (aka museums LOL) together.

a/n: 2024 recap number 9

Hello July

So, after my last Sungkai out last week,
I went on to another 4;

5. with my sister again @ Escapade Sushi Sungkai Buffet. brilliant choice of food!

(These pictures were taken when the place was almost closed. that's why the food seem not many :P)

6. with me familia

7. with my colleagues

8. at Kuching's house in Tutong. (sorry, no picture. :P)


We have 2-3 days left of Puasa, I'm certain that I wont have anymore Sungkai Out after this. xP

I finally made my cornflake madu.

it's so easy but I don't know why it took me at least 2hr30mins (plus plus) to finish everything. hahaha Geng Keras said they're 'nyaman' so I'm pleased xD

Even so, I'm still not feeling the Hari Raya.

I have not ready with my baju raya yet. Maybe if i started with them, I will finally feel the Raya excitement? ¯\(©¿©) /¯


. . .

Living in your shadow

I'm 27 years old and soon to be 28.

I think I can live on my own.

I always dream about living alone in a small apartment; doing things at my own pace at my own time.

It's not the norm here in Brunei, of course. Unless you live in Bandar but work in KB or Temburong which most people often either share rented house with other colleagues or stay with a relative. but if you live in Bandar and work in Bandar, it's weird to not live at your own house. (I've never heard anyone of my cousins (yg bujang) ever live alone di Bandar ani. So I don't know about other people ah).

I wonder what the reaction would be if I was to make this dream of mine reality. Kajut beruk kali eh semua urg.

hahahah

I mean, 
One; I'm perempuan. I don't think it's advisable to live alone. (but I'm often left alone when semua urg jalan/melepak/etc till so late at night. When we were in the phase of moving house, I was often alone coz my mom stayed at the new house during renovations.)

Two: I can just hear my uncles and aunties saying, 'Rumah mama mu basar atu, inda kan tinggal arah lain?' 'Kesian jua mama mu sorang2 tu' yadda yadda yadda 

Three: My mom would think we all trying to leave her. as in 'buang' ia or something. -.- my question to those parents who felt like they are being left behind is this, "Didn't you live your parents to raise your family?" If they answer me "atu lain" my retort would be "sama saja pun. you leave them behind, to build a life of your own. and visited them (if rajin) on weekends only" am I correct? or am I right?

Four: People would think I'm selfish. Yes, maybe. but isn't this the dream of so many people? Inda kan aku mesti kawin baru tah bulih pindah rumah? Didn't mother always said to me (to us all really) to 'Pandai-pandai tah kamu bah eh' which translated into 'be independent'?? So how am I supposed to be independent when I still live with my mom? right? ლ(ﾟдﾟლ)

I was once labelled 'too liberal' by some saloon aunty, I remember blushing when she said that but I don't know if I was offended or ashamed or 'caught'.
But i think now that I don't mind being labelled 'liberal' which in her context it means 'freedom' 'independent'. 
Coz I know I can be independent if you would just give me the chance, mom!
(┛◉Д◉)┛彡┻━┻

Haha

I wish I've discussed the above matter with mom but no. of course not. I'm Asian with a very strict Asian mom. you think I would win this debate? (￣□￣)

Possibility of losing and ended up cutting my mom of my life would be too high.

Hahahaha

Well, as a good friend of mine once said, "Angan-angan atu free"

☜-(ΘLΘ)-☞

. . .

2nd Raya

turned out, I did take pictures on the 2nd day of Raya.

I found out about it when i was 'cleaning' out my Photo Gallery in my phone.

Photo no. 1 (taken from home before beRaya-ing)

 Selca with abg Fateh

Selca with abg Fatzeem

Photo no. 2 (taken at my uncle's house)

 my broh with Farhana~ (cousin (3)'s 5th daughter)

Kaka Pipah and I (cousin (3) 2nd daughter)

Photo no. 3 (taken at another uncle's house)

Fatzeem finally 'down' after being super active at the last 3 houses. hahaha precious baby when they're asleep.

annndddd that is all.

LOL! seriously, malas bah ku kan mengambil gambar ah..too much hassle.

Until next time yeoreobun~ 

 . . .

6th Raya

this had to be my most happening Raya. EVER. 
hahah coz, we went beraya-ing in a specific time frame. Job well done, Az and Buzz. LOL
there were 5 open houses that day. we went to all.

biasa, open House ani kan all about eating (heavy food) and  parut melatop lah lapas tu. If you lose some weight during Fasting month, just say Welcome Back to all them weights/fat!

First house; Kuch's. Met Ruzaimah, Putri, Udi and Zul there. Even Amalia! We spent longer time at Kuch's house because it was in a different district.

Left to Right: Buzz, me, Pu3, Kuch, Amalia and Zaimah.

2nd House; my sister's, (we didnt managed to take picture with the host)

my sister's friend's son, Adam. cute ay?

3rd House; Edy's

Left to Right: Zawir, Edy, baby Maleeq, Be'ah and Buzz

 

4th House; Rasyid's

far right: Rasyid

the guys in blue are Buzz's nephews. bujang2 sudah.

gosh, I am old. -.-

5th House; Hasrin's. we kelurusan datang with Rahmat and Syima. then Alif and gf caught up with us too soon after we arrived.

 standing: Hasrin and Zawir

seating: Rahmat, Aziz (he was already there when we arrived) and Alif.

 Syima in cream and Alif's gf in red.

of course, being at Hasrin's, betamu lagi dengan Rahmat, some mandatory pictures must be taken but I posted the above saja in this blog. 18++ Rated. LOL #sci2favoritecouple

we went to a 6th house but that was not an open house; just simply berHari Raya. it was at Buzz's brother's house whose sons pictured above. spent longer time here because we busy watching Gunman in Joseon, a korean drama. LOL pasal korea, bulih lah terstuck disana atu. we left right before midnight. 

So, 6 houses in one day. sungguh tiring but fun at the same time. A long time ago, we used to do this without the open houses. it has become a trend to only visit people during open houses. 
maybe I should make one too? just a simple/small one? tapi kan, aku ani sungguh lah 'rajin'. so, let's not count on me for a open house at my own. LOL

. . .

4th Raya

I know, tarus 4th Raya.
Because no family picture on 2nd & 3rd Day of Raya.
I did take a picture of my sleeping nephew on 2nd Raya and posted it on Instagram. 

2nd and 3rd Raya were family Raya time for us; went to my uncles and aunties houses. as per normal.

then on the 4th was a bit ...usual. 
haha because, I went lepak-ing with my sister + cousins at Brunei International Airport. yes, THE airport.
Brunei is such a small country and I lived very near to the airport anyway, so no big D. One of my cousins is working at the airport and since we haven't seen her on the 1st for Raya, another cousin(5) decided to go 'hang out'. So we did. (except cousin(5), who suggested, it didn't even turn up -.-)

standing; me & cousin(4)

seating: cousin(1) & my sister.

the cousins are siblings.

these are the sons (whose mother in photo above) and 

daughters (whose mother cousin(3) can not join us) of my cousins.

I used to babysit them alot during functions when they were younger-er.

ani basar2 sudah, muda2.

time flies.

Kadang2, jarang2 bejumpa atu, rindu tah jua. we went home almost midnight. Since we love that moment so much, the cousins suggested that we go and watch Yasmine (the upcoming first Brunei Production movie) on cinema when it premieres. Hopefully that plan will go unhinched.

It was a time well spent.*thumbs up* until next time cousins~ xD

 

the reason

I missed sci2 Sungkai Out was because of this;

me Mom's birthday!

we family sungkai out at Shabu Me, Gadong to celebrate!

mostly pictures of my anak buah (supaya mereka tidak 'madam'. LOL). I'll just post a few.

 Fatzim (no. 2)

Fateh (no.1)

Farisha (no. 3)

Good food, good company. ;)

. . .

S M Ballad the second

A/N: lupa ku kn post pasal ani. I was supposed to post this like 2/3 weeks ago. LOL. ah well~

Yes, SM Ballad is back. 

wasn't a big fan fan of SM Ballad the first (WALAUPUN ada cJonghyun masa atu).

but now, I do. (bought the Korean version of the mini album back in February)

Pasal bnyk yg ku suka in SM Ballad the second; Jonghyun (of course), Taeyeon (SNSD), Chen (EXO), Zhang Liyin (solo-ist, mainly in China, beautiful voice), Yesung (SuJu), Changmin (DBSK), ZhouMi (SuJu-M), and Krystal (fx). oh wait, semua yg ku suka. LOL. or at least from the group that I like. :P

the song Breath is ... I'm not so sure how I feel about it. 



it is sung by Jonghyun and Taeyeon.
Jonghyun tweeted that Taeyeon unnie's voice is 'honey'. I agree. I'm not even sure if they are still promoting the song at the moment (what's with SNSD comeback and SHINee World Concert kicking off this month). *shrugged*

BUT I know how I feel about this song:



it's called 'A Day Without You' sung by Jonghyun and Chen.
MY FAVORITE OF ALL!!
Amazing vocal collaboration. *thumbs up* 
nice lyrics too. (klu bukan pasal I found the lyrics accidentally today, I wouldn't be posting anything about SM Ballad the second at all hahahaha).

Breath is sung in 3 different languages; Korean, Japanese and Chinese. 
Japanese version is sung by Changmin and Krystal.
Chinese version is sung by Chen and Zhang Liyin.

I haven't heard anything about Zhang Liyin for a very long time, so I'm glad she's involve with SM Ballad now. her voice is amazing. Lupa ku how I came across about her dulu atu. but for sure pasal Super Junior and BoA lah... Anyhoo, I hope she'd be more active now. :)

enjoy the song peeps. Klu lapas2 putus cinta, bisai ni lagu ah..to help you move on..
(didn't help me though. ketawa ku, ada plang..LOL)

. . .

Memories worth keeping

you know how I got myself the 'Wreck This Journal' journal?

one of the things it asked me to do is to paste all the stamp I got in my entire life.

So, I went gathering all my received Stamps and found out I only have a few. *sad face* I always thought I have A LOT.

then, I realized, I received more of by-hand-birthday-card than by-mail-hari-raya-card.

these are the ones I got since I was 16th. It was nice and always so nice to receive a birthday card. it maybe cheap but the thoughts are just, tidak terkira! so thank you friends and families who thought of me a lot on my birthday! jeongmal gomawo! I will treasure this as long as I can. ;)

. . .

Family my foot.

I was at a family function a couple of weeks ago
and I noticed/realised a lot of things.

• their sister-in-laws were treating us like what.
• the younger cousins were doing it too.
• the cousins, of course, lagi dashyat.

People are just prone to be a blind judge.

I mean, what ever happened in the past had nothing to do with me, or you. it's our parents disputes.

So, what the hell are we doing?

Mom always drag me to 'these' cousins functions because the adults are 'all over it' (so they say). but they'd forgotten what they had done to the next generation of cousins.

I would've act neutral if they would. but everytime I set my mind to be neutral, smiling and greet people politely, they always ended up like a fucktard bitch. EVEN the men/guys/boys.

LIKE SERIOUSLY WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?!

and my mom wondered why I never wanted to go?

Mom knew of course, or knew just a little and often telling me off when I got mad. she said, 'tani jangan tah ikut2an bejahat. Mun inda, sama tah tani jua macam drg tu'.
*rolled eyes*
Tau plang ku. ganya, I'm still just human and a human can only stand to a certain limit.

and My way of not bad mouthing them is TO NOT see them. EVER.
the less I see the lot of them , the better I feel. the less I 'mengumpat'. the less I 'sakit hati'.

I know they're not all like that. they are VERY nice people too. just not much.

and it's just THAT side of that family. always.

I don't know what their problem is.

all I'm asking is, just, GET OVER YOURSELVES. THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND YOU. 

. . .

the world is not split into good people and Death Eaters - Sirius Black.

Close/Bias

being close to someone is not just.

it's about being there; to listen, to care, to support.

and from here, we cant help but be a little bias.

a little gestures goes a long way. a single heart ache can haunt you forever.

So, paham2 tah knapa aku bias.

(LOL!)

. . .