a tad bit disappointed

Last Sunday, I finally collected my SHINee Surprise Vacation DVD at Yeszone. (Thanx Zawir~~!!)

yayyy.

So far I've watched Onew's, Jonghyun's and Taemin's.

I love it. of course but for such $$$ I expected there'll be more footage than the ones I downloaded off Youtube. Hence, my disappointment. -.-

Yes, there is the 'making' DVD as well but that was only for 30mins.

again, disappointed.

It has English subs (one of the reason why I wanted it in the first place). but Taemin's got a little jumble up. I may not speak Korean but I've heard and read enough to know that the audio and subs wasn't syncing. -.-

these companies should REALLY consider hiring (example;) SHINee Subs people. those people subs even the smallest of details its impressive and awesome! non-Korean fans REALLY appreciate that kind of dedication. Sharing is love.

atu lah yg aku disappointed most on.

beside that

I CAN WATCH ALMOST NAKED JONGHYUN OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!

(not really. malu plang ku kn liat..hahaha but, thanks Jonghyun. next time, ask Onew to take of his tops often too, yeah? ;) )

hahaha the upside of things. :P

Will try and watch Key's and Minho's by end of this week.

klu ku rajin jua tu...wawawa

. . .

and there's another two

Shane Filan made his solo debut last year with You and Me album.

and earlier this year, another two Westlife members; Mark Feehily and Kian Egan, are about to come out with their on solo album.

Hashtag EXCITED

Honestly, I've always thought Mark would be the first to come out with a solo album. 

*sigh dreamily* if only  they decided one day that they would make a joined concert together with Nicky Byrne as their witty Host. Hashtag WISHFULTHINKING

Well, one can only dream so much.

all in all, I'm so looking forward for their solo debut. I imagined Kian's style would be all rocknroll while Mark's would be all Prince+JamesBrown(-theDancing) kinda music. (Shane's so country! and so perfect as ever! fangirl mode)

All the best my boys!!

A/N: ECSTATIC

. . .

Seahorse

Hellew~~

days passed and I still have nothing interesting to post.

So, I figured, might as well post something about Seahorse.

I know. So random.

*ketawa*

Back in November, I went to a Training with this guy I REALLY like and he mentioned something very fascinating (at least, fascinating to me coz I never knew and I remembered becoz, duh, i like him alot. LOL) about Seahorse that day.

He said, the male Seahorse yg get preggy. and I thought (since the instructor/facilitator said the training is partly about gaining knowledge and such), 'yup. I learn something today'.

and then as I was watching that old (but never gets old) TV Series F.R.I.E.N.D.S. (the Seahorse was mentioned in Season 8 Episode 22), I thought, 'ohhhh so that's where he gets it'. I mean, I would've learned about the Seahorse too if I had watched the series before tonight. LOL

but then again, he probably IS just super smart. and knew all that before it got mention in F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

I mean, there's Discovery Channel and Animals Planet everywhere. *tangan di bahu, mata ke atas*

Oh well, there ya go. a Seahorse.

A/N: feels like a very weird thing to do posting about Seahorse. *~* but on second thought, it is fitting seeing this year is the year of the Horse. MUAHAHAHA yes, I figured it out too late. -,-

. . .

was I harsh?

Hey there.
yeah, it's me again.

Today, I've decided to put my plan into action; Removing photos of me from FB. esp the ones yg I'm not wearing tudung.

I even asked my closest of friends to do it on their accounts too. I mean, I can't remove them pictures if I'm not the one who uploaded them.

Of course, most people are supportive and reacted instantly. while, others, nyeh.

I think I hurt someone today and I can't even explain to them 'why'.

I mean, I can. but I don't know eh.

when I said 'esp the ones yg aku inda betudung', does that not make sense? can't you figure out why I want them remove? It's nothing to do with you or against you, it's about me. and tani sama2 Islam, inda kan inda teklik? especially when you treat FB like your everyday newspaper. Inda kan inda membaca post2 urg pasal agama atu?

Sigh. it upsets me that people thought I just want those pictures remove because I don't treasure the memories. 
WHAT. ARE. YOU. TALKING. ABOUT.
OF COURSE I DO!

but it's not how much affection you show me on FB that counts! it's how much you show me outside of FB. 

I've said it once and I'm going to say this again, FB tu tempat mengambang saja tu.

and that's why I want them pictures of me not wearing tudung removed.

I know it's a lot of work and a lot of hassle but believe me, this will benefit all of us. 

So, once again, THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE! I LOVE YOU! and sorry if I made you do some mini scavenger hunting today. kekeke I really appreciate this! A LOT!

. . .

just. BIZARRE

So, I found out about this 'remove Jonghyun from SHINee' news, like 15 mins or so ago.
and I made it my business to know whats really going on.

Turns out it's about Jonghyun supporting this movement about Gay Rights (or something like that).

I saw his tweet that time and I even saw how it stirred up the cyber world (or maybe just the kpop world). at that time I thought, it wasn't that big of a deal. I mean, to each their own, right?

Skali, today, when I opened my asianfanfics account, I saw someone posted a petition to counter the petition 'remove Jonghyun from SHINee'.
and I was like, "COME ON".
I really still think that it wasn't that big of a deal.

because, Jonghyun was just supporting them thru his own perspective point of view. and I quote "As a celebrity who deals with the public, I feel a sense of loss in a world that does not acknowledge changes."

So what if he's really gay? I don't care! (coz he's not Onew. so, it's fine. LOL)

I mean, didn't the kpop world (or just Shawol) always going on about shipping JongKey? a.k.a. Jonghyun and Key?
Isn't Key a boy/guy/man/male?
don't these people kept on and on and on about what a cute couple they would be?

alright, maybe these people didn't actually petition to throw Jonghyun out of SHINee. maybe it's from a different crowd.

BUT STILL!

it's his life! it's his opinion!

who are we to judge (anybody), really?!

I find it bizarre especially when people wanted him out of SHINee. I mean, come on! without Jonghyun SHINee wouldn't be here. he's that important to that group.

and so much more bizarre that I'm making this post about him. LOL

all I'm saying is that, we all have our own opinion on something. and supporting Gay Rights is Jonghyun's, so why can we just let that be?

. . .

Super Junior all over again.

watching the first episode of EXO Showtime.

and trying to remember the faces and their names.

it's like Super Junior all over again.

Good Luck, Az.

A/N: so far, I think I like Chanyeol. and i think the picture above is one of the earliest pictures of them. and didn't quite do any justice. I'll find a newer one next time. 

oh wait. here it is. I found it.

 this should help me to remember. (LOL)

 

. . .

WHAT. THE. WHAT.

I mean, WHAT. THE. WHAT.

take a look at this!!

do you wana know what it means?

I'll tell ya what it means.

It means *JO.SE. TIN. BI. BO. REL. CHO. HA. HAE* in another word (I don't know what it means exactly but, roughly it means) *Justin Bieber. Like* (Ok fine! I googled it and it means *I Like Justin Bieber*)

just what. the. fuck. is (whomsoever yg meng-edit!) think (whomsoever yg meng-edit) doing?! THAT'S NOT EVEN HANJA IS IT?

but hey, I was just being silly. and trying to show off yg I can actually read Hangul. :P LOL (key point: read but not quite understand)

ah well. they probably thought it'd be a laugh.

and it made me laugh.

Ha ha ha ha.

just!

WHAT. THE. WHAT.


. . .

Please Understand

I know I've said this one before, but I'm just gona say it again. (or write it down)

Just because I WORK IN a Bank, doesn't mean I OWN the bank.

Unless the bank's name is AJEERAH BANK BERHAD, mana saja tah ya.

I'm still just a kuli, ok?

I just want people to understand that.

. . .

Anna?

BBB Annual Dinner is coming up. Feb 8th, 2014 to be exact.

and I think I've decided on what I'm gonna wear that night.

the theme is Fairy Tale.

at first I thought, I wana be Fiona (the one, in case you don't know, in SHREK).

then, I watched Frozen. Twice.

So now, I think I wana be Anna.

the baju is simple enough to make. and design. I think.


but if that doesn't work out, I'll settle with a couple of outfits that resembles Anna.

Yup. fully decided.

BUT! if I can't make it out like the above, I just have to wing it. with Tshirts and Jeans.

. . .

I U

I know! this is shocking to me too.

but her song 우울시계* (Feat. 종현 of SHINee) is kinda cute.

NOOO! really!! bukan pasal ada sora cJonghyun. it really is cute.

alright! maybe it is because of cJonghyun! so what?

at least now i like her a little, more. maybe.

:P

hahaha let's just have a listen now. and I'm sure you'll agree with me.




* it means Gloomy Clock

. . .

THIS IS NOT A DRILLL!

then again, it was.

Hello happy people. Happy Wednesday.
I've always love Wednesday; 1. the first I learned about my birthday, it happened on a Wednesday, and 2. it's half thru the week!! 
Yup, I'm already looking forward to the weekend. -.-

anyhoo, let's go back to the 'this is not a drill' post.

Yesterday, Baiduri Bank BHD, Kiarong Branch, Block B held a full pledge Fire Drill Session.
I'd only find out 30 minutes before it started. (apparently, we weren't supposed to know since, you know, it's a drill. they wanted to know whether we know what we were supposed to do if such incident happened; bank procedure, security, etc etc). 
Several colleagues and I were nervous. I know, what for?? LOL but it was a good laugh.
So, when the Fire Alarm broke, I was like, 'Laju Arman, this is no time to walk in this pace. Move! Move! Move!' and 'this is not a drill! move! move! move!'. hahaha i was so into the 'action', bringing up the rear! hahahaha

when we were 'secured' at the Assembly Point, we were all excitedly (or penyeluru kinda way) making a head counts to which, our unit missed a person. we told our Fire Marshall immediately, to which he replied, "Mati ya". I laughed and then -.- bleh kh, klu serious for once? but turns out, the missing person was indeed 'Dead' (acting as more like. lol!).

the Bomba came soon after (to which we were all made that 'what.the.' tone when the Firemen couldn't even open the door to get out of their vehicle. "Cemana kn menyelamat kn kami ni mun buka pintu pun inda pandai?" said a colleague). the Police (blocking up roads), and later, the Ambulance.

I didn't quite get about what the whole drill was all about. it was fun (inda payah kaja for almost an hour or so xD) but it was also Panas and boring.

A car was smashed. bad construction ordeal. (poor Belinda. time2 kan bonus ani jua lah)

the fire was towards the inner part of the building, but the Firemen watered the wrong side of the building. everybody was making fun of it. it was all for a good laugh. I know it was a drill but can't you make it a tad bit more realistic?

and towards the end, the excitements were wearing off and people became restless. I, for once, decided to take a picture. 

LOL.

took a picture with Edy too. (his car was being washed oleh bomba. "nasib jua andangnya kamah").

all in all. it was just another 'work day out' day. it finsihed around 11am and we all quickly went back into the office, not for the work but for the AIRCOND!! lol.

A/N: at least now I know what to do when there's a Fire.

. . .

Writers

after spending so much time on Asianfanfics.com these past years, I realized something.

real authors need real (heavily constructive) criticism.

I mean the most I see people comment about a story is about how cute this character look (when in actualness the author has not even describe their cuteness in words) or how cute the main characters were together (hmm. I guess that's the disadvantage of writing a fan fiction. coz you're using characters from the real life; Kpop artists and such).

Point is, i don't think most of us want this.

I, for one, would love a criticism on the way I laid out the story, my grammar (though i wouldn't listen much on that since English is only my second language. LOL), and you know, REAL criticism!

but I guess (again) I have to take into account that that website if full of hormonal teenagers, who was so keen into the story line alone (without really caring how the words were laid down as long as there's the name of their fav kpop artists in it) than how it was laid out etc etc.

I'm not saying I'm THAT good! gawd, no. I've got a lot to learn too.

it just frustrates me that I'm posting my story there in the hope that I would get decent, constructive, criticism that would help me improve myself in one way or another, but I got this childish review instead.

I had one good review once for one of my stories and although it stinks and i kinda don't like it in the beginning, I still appreciate it. it got me where I am today.

but since me and that person are not talking to each other anymore, I have no one else to ask harsh review from. 

sigh.

You really don't miss your water, till the well runs dry.

ANYWAY~~

I WANT CONSTRUCTIVE REVIEWS ON MY STORY! 

ANYBODY WANTS TO BE THE REVIEWER?! 

also, desperate time calls for desperate measures.


. . .

Hellew

heard this last few weeks (or maybe even last month)

"You ruined me and I settle for less" - unknown (coz I'm not sure if it's from a movie or a song I first heard it from)

and I thought, and nodded, "banar tu".

Skali, while I was 'menjamur' laundry tadi, it came to me. 

No, that's not 'banar'. Not in my case any way.

My heart was trampled on so bad that I have lost trust in men completely. that's not settling for less, is it?

The one that approaches me after that reminded me so much of him (that they would trampled on my heart too). that's not settling for less. 

I know I have crushes (YES plural) but that's just it. crushes (from a far).
I may have dreamt about them being this so called Prince Charming that every girl wishes to have but again, it's just a dream.

I may have settled for him(1) if ever he's going to notice me.

or

him(2) if he doesn't have a girlfriend already.

My life is full of 'might have' right now. I would approach either men but then what would become of my dignity/pride/ego?

sigh. odd possibilities.

ok, what's this post becoming into? ahahaha

ah, well.. point is, I don't settle for less. and that Quote is not for me.

coz, if it is, I would be dating some lowly, scumbags, who I have to take care of by now. when in reality, I need someone to take care of me for once. coz I think I'm getting tired of taking care of everybody else but me. seriously.


. . .

Seducing Onew part 3

part three hundred and one.

BAHAHAHAHAH!

seriously, mcm apa.

Onew is so much more than chicken, ok?

he's a Cow too.

LOL!!!

. . .

Friends

Met an old friend last week. it felt good that we could just fall back into conversation like we never parted for a very long time.

and at some point of that coversation, she admitted that she envied the circle of friends I have. and I told her, I envied her for having a new circle of friends. to which she replied, "But they never last".

I sat there, shock with realization, for a second. I totally agree with her.

Her expression was something and made me thankful of what I have. When she wishes to be a part of our circle, I wish I grew out of mine.

Mr. Fletcher was right. "You win some, You lose some". I may have lost in the number of friends I have but the ones I have means so much more than just a number.

So, what I'm trying to say, is that, I love you guys!! *emotional* Like, SERIOUSLY!

I would love to mention names but you know who you are. :)

and thank you for always being there for me.

YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!!

. . .

Family my foot.

I was at a family function a couple of weeks ago
and I noticed/realised a lot of things.

• their sister-in-laws were treating us like what.
• the younger cousins were doing it too.
• the cousins, of course, lagi dashyat.

People are just prone to be a blind judge.

I mean, what ever happened in the past had nothing to do with me, or you. it's our parents disputes.

So, what the hell are we doing?

Mom always drag me to 'these' cousins functions because the adults are 'all over it' (so they say). but they'd forgotten what they had done to the next generation of cousins.

I would've act neutral if they would. but everytime I set my mind to be neutral, smiling and greet people politely, they always ended up like a fucktard bitch. EVEN the men/guys/boys.

LIKE SERIOUSLY WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?!

and my mom wondered why I never wanted to go?

Mom knew of course, or knew just a little and often telling me off when I got mad. she said, 'tani jangan tah ikut2an bejahat. Mun inda, sama tah tani jua macam drg tu'.
*rolled eyes*
Tau plang ku. ganya, I'm still just human and a human can only stand to a certain limit.

and My way of not bad mouthing them is TO NOT see them. EVER.
the less I see the lot of them , the better I feel. the less I 'mengumpat'. the less I 'sakit hati'.

I know they're not all like that. they are VERY nice people too. just not much.

and it's just THAT side of that family. always.

I don't know what their problem is.

all I'm asking is, just, GET OVER YOURSELVES. THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND YOU. 

. . .

the world is not split into good people and Death Eaters - Sirius Black.

Wish list

as promised, here's my new set of Wish List.

sounds of *$$$$*

Please note that this wish list may change without further notice.

LOL.

1. Ipad Mini 

(in all honesty, I'm not really a gadget freak. So when I was Googling for a picture of this, i raised my eyebrows and said, "Wow, Ipad 5th Gen and Ipad Mini 2nd Gen already?". and I only wanted to buy this because, i wana play all my Line games and PlantVSZombie (1 and 2) and Tiny Village and..others...on a bigger screen!)

2. MacBook Pro

(I know a couple of people who'd be advising me to buy macbook air instead. but, I duno. 'pro' seems more professional *shrugged*)


3. LG flat screen TV. (like the one SNSD have)

(awesome looking! alum plang ku teliat bejual dBrunei (since bila jua aku rajin kn masuk kadai jual tb kn?)

4. Win free tickets - with all expenses paid for - to London (so I can go visit Harry Potter Studio)

5. Win free tickets - with all expenses paid for - to Seoul (duh. SHINee!!)

Yeah. aku pun pikir banyak lagi. rupanya ani saja.
hahahaha.
the first two lah yg banar2 ku mau.
Nunggu bonus next year. sounds of *$$$$* again, muahahah
InsyaAllah.

. . .

Movember

HELLOOOOOO

I've got lots to post but too lazy to post.

You see my problem here?

hahaha

in true honesty, I don't know what else to post here.

it's getting kinda boring.

it's either I post about some little thingies I got or SHINee. or Kpop. it goes around in a loop.

Don't you guys feel like my blog is a tad bit boring?

I wonder what else I should be posting about.

Coz, for some personal rage, I posted them in my diary. (no, this is not my diary.)

So, yeah.

OH! i took a picture of that girl who looked like Seohyong of SNSD but inda clear. konon kn curi gmbr ampir2 tapi since aku perempuan and ia perempuan, I kinda thought that it wouldn't be such a great idea if she caught me at it. ROFL!

ah well... having said all my worries and what not, I'll try posting something up soon. Maybe a wish list? I haven't done that in a while. keke

Until next time sluggers~

. . .

something New

Hello fellow readers.
Hows your October so far?
Mine? Ok lah. I realised aku bnyk hibernating, esp on weekends. 
Except today; ada two functions that i went to since 11am. Hashtag Tired

anyhoo.. on Friday, I was so malas di Opis and was browsing for songs in my iphone. skali, i came across this one new tab in the Music apps; Radio. ku click lah kan. skali it's like this online radio thingy that plays new songs or something. and I came across this Song, named 'Miss Movin On' by Fifth Harmony. rugged lah. I made a note to myself that when I get home that day, i was going to download that song.



Which I did. 

then aku terdiscover yg the song is actually from Fifth Harmony's EP album called 'Better Together'.
being me, apa g, ku dangar lah semua lagu2 nya (there are altogether six songs including the Miss Movin On song). and I fell in love with two more songs from that album; Who Are You and Don't Wanna Dance Alone. 

 Who Are You


Don't Wanna Dance Alone



I'm always so happy finding new songs.

but my itunes credit suffers. -.-"

album cShane Filan lagi next two weeks. 

Help~

(LOL! andangnya, mikin kn saving, mikin menjadi2 yg kan dbali ani...tsk..)


. . .

Something So Random Part 3 (Final)

this last one is so horrible that I almost deleted it.
But since I promise you'll be posting two more of this random shiz, tada! here it is.
these questions was from Ms. dubumints herself.
I wonder if this was pure fun or she made up for a living or something.
it's so gooey.
Like, wth gurl?!

but it's for the fun of things. I'll answer it for that sake alone.

Enjoy. (or cringe)
[the one bold/large is my answer. the one in italic is ms. dubumints A/N]

. . . . . . .

1.  Your bias is super thirsty, what would you make him drink to quench his thirst:

a. shampoo (at least it wont kill him. i think)

b. boiling water

c. poison.

2. Your bias is getting tortured! What scene is before you?

a. your bias getting his nails and teeth (without anesthesia!) pulled out.

b. your bias' bones being broken one by one.

c. your bias being skinned alive (at least you can 'jait' them together again. I hope.)

3. Would you rather:

a. stop your bias from being an idol (or anything in the entertainment field)

or

b. send your bias to military training forever

4. if you could be a thing that's used by your bias, what would you be?

a. his deodorant

b. his socks (Onew wears socks all the time so..it's good to know he'll be wearing me often LOL. gawd I hate socks!)

c. his cotton buds

5. You and your bias are starring in a film! What would the film be?

a. Human Centipede

b. Red Room

c. House of Wax

Were the questions too much? Okay, let me lighten it up a little.

6. Your bias finally tells you he's in love! So whom is his heart beating for?

a. your bestfriend

b. your sister

c. your number one enemy (so i don't have to kill those who are dear to me Hashtag ifthesituationcallsforkillingthatis)

7. You were given a chance to control your bias' fate. What would you give him:

a. non-stop sasaeng fans (at least they'll still be topping the charts and have a non crappy company that can take care of its artists)

b. songs that will never place in any music charts

c. a very crappy company that can't take care of its artists.

8. Your bias is stuck in a desolate island. What would you give him to help him survive?

a. earphones

b. cottons

c. comb (0_o)

9. What would you prefer?

a. ALL your favorite Kpop groups doing a concert JUST for you, but you can never HEAR a thing.

b. Your bias hugging you forever but you can't FEEL a thing.

c. Your bias group by your side (as in your house, your bed, etc.), but you can't SEE them.

10. What eccentric attitude would your bias have?

a. He's/She is a racist. (He can't be much worst than I am Hashtag LOLingForever)

b. He/She is a klepto.

c. He/She is cruel to animals.

LAST QUESTION! Before you guys go off to murder me for giving you such horrible questions and choices, let me save myself now! XD

11. Your bias finally tells you he/she loves you. What would be your response:

a. I'm sorry, I'm married and I have three beautiful children. (Coz let's face it. nothing is EVER gona happen between us)

b. I'm in love too...with your bandmate, that is.

c. I don't feel the same way; and I never will.

HA! I spent thirty minutes thinking of heart-squelching questions. ROFL.

Don't get mad! I made it really easy! I mean, it's multiple choice! You don't even need to explain anything! Pfft. Keke

. . . . . . .

I decided to just give a lil of my thoughts of why I chose my answer. 

Now, I'm wondering whether she is right in the head. she got that 'why so serious' thing going on with these questions.

it was nice though, me feeling like I killed Onew in the process of answering these questions. every other people's questions must be about how much you love your idol, this and that. this is definitely refreshing. 

you wana give it a try?

. . .