another Lip Tint Story

Hi guys~
on to the second week of 2017
hows your year so far?

I can't complain.
not to a human being at least
but what I complain in my journal is completely different story altogether

anyway~

I'm going to review my second (new) lip tint.

this one is called Wine Lip Tint by Man Zi Miao (I think thats the owner/maker).

at the back (or another side) it says Lipgloss Water Proof : RD02 NEBBIOLO RED

the reason why I want it was because the cap was purple in color. I didn't know the packaging indicates the color red LOL!

i/ you shouldn't try and smear lip tint. coz it will stained your finger instead

(the white thingy is not booger :P its my make-up remover balm)

ii/ I realised that the color on the lips differ in different lighting

my room

My car

at the office

iii/ the tint dried matte and it does not transfer

iv/ like the previous tint, when putting a second coat, it becomes patchy/has dark spots.

v/ too bad it really is not 'water proof' coz the moment water touches my lips, the tint came off.
no picture here.

vi/ then I realized I don't have to use any of my make-up removers. I just rub my lips with water and the color will washes off. although not at once. 

this is after I put a lipbalm on coz both this lip tint and the previous one isn't moisturizing like the packaging said. 

see how very stained my lips were? I know thats the purpose of a lip tint but I would like it to be off when I want it off, namsayin?

My only peeve (with any lipstick/lip gloss/lip tint) is really the stain
but despite that,
Will I wear this again?
YES
coz I'm not about wasting
besides, I like how dark it gets under office lighting. kekeke
although I can not really use them during normal office hour coz dark shades lips isn't allowed for frontliners (a.k.a. to those who attend customer at the counter). that picture was taken on Saturday, not normal working day.

*shrug*
seriously, how do you end your post? how you phrase it?

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Next, I feel like posting my Face Shop haul from November/December 2016 and January 2017.
reason: because I think I spent too much on the brand in less than two months

feel baru tu, alum action.
( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Pray for my rajin-ness.

Until then,
see yah~

. . .

Youtube 2.016

So, I was watching some 5-minute-make-up tutorial on youtube last night (not that I'm gonna be using it. I was just 'nosy' xP)

and tau-tau

I came across and watched these videos 

(thats why kena recommended to me today on my home page)

videos about removing ingrown hair on skin (on every part of your body) and removing white-heads/acne prevention on your face, etc.

they're disgusting, I know but somehow VERY satisfying!

and when you read the comments on each video, you'll find that I am not the only one yg feel that way. Some even find peace in watching them!

I've always have white-heads problems on my face and I've been obsessing over doing my own 'facial' every other night. 

*whispers : that's why I seldom post selfie, coz my face full of 'pilat' or scars. hahahah

I need to stop watching these videos coz if I continue, I might not be able to 'beraya' once I do my 'facial'

. . .

THIS IS NOT A DRILLL!

then again, it was.

Hello happy people. Happy Wednesday.
I've always love Wednesday; 1. the first I learned about my birthday, it happened on a Wednesday, and 2. it's half thru the week!! 
Yup, I'm already looking forward to the weekend. -.-

anyhoo, let's go back to the 'this is not a drill' post.

Yesterday, Baiduri Bank BHD, Kiarong Branch, Block B held a full pledge Fire Drill Session.
I'd only find out 30 minutes before it started. (apparently, we weren't supposed to know since, you know, it's a drill. they wanted to know whether we know what we were supposed to do if such incident happened; bank procedure, security, etc etc). 
Several colleagues and I were nervous. I know, what for?? LOL but it was a good laugh.
So, when the Fire Alarm broke, I was like, 'Laju Arman, this is no time to walk in this pace. Move! Move! Move!' and 'this is not a drill! move! move! move!'. hahaha i was so into the 'action', bringing up the rear! hahahaha

when we were 'secured' at the Assembly Point, we were all excitedly (or penyeluru kinda way) making a head counts to which, our unit missed a person. we told our Fire Marshall immediately, to which he replied, "Mati ya". I laughed and then -.- bleh kh, klu serious for once? but turns out, the missing person was indeed 'Dead' (acting as more like. lol!).

the Bomba came soon after (to which we were all made that 'what.the.' tone when the Firemen couldn't even open the door to get out of their vehicle. "Cemana kn menyelamat kn kami ni mun buka pintu pun inda pandai?" said a colleague). the Police (blocking up roads), and later, the Ambulance.

I didn't quite get about what the whole drill was all about. it was fun (inda payah kaja for almost an hour or so xD) but it was also Panas and boring.

A car was smashed. bad construction ordeal. (poor Belinda. time2 kan bonus ani jua lah)

the fire was towards the inner part of the building, but the Firemen watered the wrong side of the building. everybody was making fun of it. it was all for a good laugh. I know it was a drill but can't you make it a tad bit more realistic?

and towards the end, the excitements were wearing off and people became restless. I, for once, decided to take a picture. 

LOL.

took a picture with Edy too. (his car was being washed oleh bomba. "nasib jua andangnya kamah").

all in all. it was just another 'work day out' day. it finsihed around 11am and we all quickly went back into the office, not for the work but for the AIRCOND!! lol.

A/N: at least now I know what to do when there's a Fire.

. . .

maybe I'm just scared

I realized, I've been taking the easy way out for every decision that I've made.

I have to be more berani, bold and be more like Minho.


(since, you know, he'll all about being competitive and see failure as a big NO NO and whatnot) wawawawa


but seriously, this taking-the-easy-way-out-attitude has got to end. Now.

maybe I'm just scared.

. . .

mr. David, you said it all

about being fat.

watch this shit right here... ahaha



"shut the hell up..pfft..jump off a bridge" LOL

"I'm hungry" that's so me! I'm hungry all the time...

"hopes and dreams?"


there's just something about this vid that spells 'ME' all over it.

. . .

~~Naega Ara~~

"Dream world is always perfect but that's not my real life. Wish you did but you don't know the me I am inside," Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana's Barefoot Cindrella.

I know that I've been living in my world of fantasy for as long as I can remember.
I know I've been obsessing TOO MUCH on these so call idols (Westlife, SuJu and SHINee to name a few),
I know I may come off carefree, shok sendiri, and love-less.

but here's the thing that you don't know...

My fantasy world: I KNOW IT'S NOT REAL. I KNOW IT'S A WASTE OF TIME. but it's the only way i could escape this madness we call REAL LIFE.

My Obsession: I KNOW THEY'RE JUST FIGURES. I KNOW AM NEVER GONA END UP WITH ANY OF THEM. IT'S JUST AN OBSESSION.

My shok sendiri kinda attitude: ever heard of attitude-cover-up? Just becoz I didn't tell you the story of my life, doesn't mean I haven't experience anything. and FYI i've been in love before. I've cried myself to sleep. and I even wished to die to some extend (for the cry myself to sleep and wishes to die atu, bukn pls love sja lah..psl A LOT OF THINGS. psl love skali sja ku pernah. and when i think about it, its the stupidest thing to do. -___-").

I know, at times, it looks like I don't know and not listening to what you're trying to convey to me. I do and I actually giving them extra thoughts, believe it or not. I believe I'm quite a thinker (too bad Fairies don't really exist or i'll be you're Tinkerbell in the sky~ xP) and when I'm super quiet there, best believe that my mind is working over time.

I once posted this on my Sasha fb acct. i forgot the exact word but it sounded close lah... erm... cemani... To tell everyone about your problems and whining about stuff; you're actually telling people of yr weaknesses. So it's best to just keep it to yrself. something cematu lah. i know bukn plang..but yeah. close.



To my bestfrens and closest of frens; I know i've kept so much from you guys but I think I have my rights to keep most things to myself. It's not that I don't trust you, but I don't want you guys to see me as a weak person. (I know I AM WEAK) I know most of you will still be there for me no matter what, but for now, I think, i'll deal with these madness on my own. thank you for the concerns you've showed. I ams touched. Don't worry. I KNOW am not alone.

P/s: yg buruk tu, kesilapan diri sendiri and semua yg baik atu, dtgnya dari Allah jua...yes, I know about this too.