What I hate the most

Ever since I know how to travel,

I learned new things to hate.

One of them being?
When people asked me about my travels and then they made me feel like I'm doing my travelling wrong.

Man! people are annoying sometimes.

I know what you're going to say, I shouldn't listen to this people.

I don't. but that doesn't mean I can't hate it.

For a long time since my first travel, I've told myself so many times, that different people, different style of travel:

• some travel to shop
• some to be with nature (this includes mount climbing, camping, etc)
• some for the extreme sports (like parasailing, skydiving, etc)
• some for the culture (this includes sight seeing)
• some for food adventure
• some for theme park hopping

Those are some of the examples.

I guess, I'm more of a mixture between shopping, sightseeing, and theme park hopping.

of course, mine also depends on what country I'm visiting.

Like, I've been to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, and Singapore a number of times before. So, for my next trip there, I usually plan for more sight seeing/relaxing, and less shopping. (keynote: Plan. we know how plans always go :P)

With all that explained, and hopefully you got the point,

I hate it when people started asking, "eh inda ko pigi ..." or "rugi ko inda (go somewhere/do something) ..."

Ummmm ani travel story ku kah or kau?

If you think I'm rugi this and that, why don't you do it, if you're so perfect? 

Coz as far as I'm concerned, there's a different between dreaming of doing this and that/planning this and that, with actually doing this and that when you finally arrive at the destination.

You can planned things for months but still fell short of your plan when you were actually doing it, no matter how thorough your plan/research is.

So, unless you've done more travelling than I do, chill ko di sana and stop raining on my parade.

I'm not the best traveller. I'm still a baby traveller. still trying to get to know this world of travels.

Yes, I might missed a certain place to visit or take picture at, but who said that's gona be my one and only time there? I could always visit again. why you so worked up?

There you go,

my little rant on why I don't really like talking about my travel to people.

coz a princess once said, "the most boring thing is to hear story about other people's travel"

LOL that doesn't really make sense but I was never good at explaining things. :P

Anyway,

that's all for now and I will see you on my next post!

Happy Weekend people.

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Hashtag

I've been playing a lot with this phone app called CAMERA360.

I don't know who uses this on a daily (or hourly) basis. but I guess to explain, this is similar to Snapchat thingy yg everybody like to post on their IG story.

Not my favorite app plang. 
coz, once you stopped using it for awhile, the next time you do, you have to download everything all over again.
I don't know if that's just mine but that's what happened to me.
So, no. not the best app of all times.

Anyhoo,

I posted below on 23rd Feb with one of the hashtag that reads: #plasticsurgery

ketawa dulu *laugh*

two of the first few yg liked my post were plastic surgeons.

LOL

Like,

yes, I want to do plastic surgery coz my face so easy timbul jerawat!

hahahaha

made my day lah pokok nya.

This reminds me why I don't like making hashtags nowadays. because I got likes from so many random people. 
I still prefer getting Likes from my actual followers. 
even if that means only 6 of my followers Liked my post. 
coz to me, when my followers liked my post, those likes are real. 
again, to me, there's a different between getting likes from your followers and from not your followers. #justme


to end this post,
here's another picture of me

xD


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song of this post: Daya - Sit Still, Look Pretty

My Faceshop galore

HERE IT IS

Finally here I am! with my long awaited post about my Faceshop haul 

So let's get to it!

24th September 2016,
the first time I shopped 'berabis' of their goods: 

Facial Scrub, Oil Clear:Poreshot Blur (kinda like a primer) and Facial Masks.

and since September is my bday month, I got below as a bday gift:

Free Sample of Heaven Grade's Toner and Emulsion

Facial Masks

 also my purchased that time entitled me to become a member xD yayyerrr


The next one I bought in Miri, Sarawak, Malaysia on 8th November 2016.

Heaven Grade's Toner.

From this purcahsed, I was given the Le Marche The Theraphy Anti-Aging Formula Kit

I LOVE FREE GIFTS!

I also become a member at Faceshop Miri. xD

NEXT


4th December 2016, 
I went to Miri again with the sole purpose of buying another items from The Faceshop.

I bought these items:

Le Marche The Theraphy Anti-Aging Serum, Mike Wazowski's CC Cushion and Eye Shadow pallette.

buying all the three items got myself:

a free the First serum free sample,

and a set of Chia Seed Whitening Discovery Kit.

on 25th December, I decided, I "needed" a concealer. I bought this in Faceshop, Brunei.

bought Hand Cream tarus. :P

the last one for this section of Faceshop haul, on 23rd Jan 2017, I bought below items;

Yehwadam Revitalizing Toner

and Le Marche The Theraphy The First Serum.

with those tow purchases, I got two free gifts:  

Yehwadam Revitalizing skincare Kit 

and the Heaven Grade Special Kit.

I think this last purchased was my favorite coz I got two full travel size kits. kekeke 

I LOVE FREE GIFTS!!

Erm, as for results from using these, I mean from using the Toner and Serum, hmmm... 
better than before, at least.
I have oily complexion, these products aint helping much on that issue but i think my face isn't as dull as before.
before this, I usually just wash my face and that was it. and after I popped any zit I usually used traditional ointment to cure it.
Now, after I wash my face, I used toner, and then the serum. lepas tu, if i have sore zit area, i still use the traditional ointment on it. 
I haven't use The First Serum, coz I'm want to finish using the Ginseng toner and the theraphy serum dulu. After I finished those, baru tah I start using the First Serum, Yehwadam Toner and the Yehwadam Serum.
the Yehwadam Serum I'm planning to purchase soon. :P

Sooooo
there you go
my Faceshop haul!
from September 2016 to January 2017.
mengobsess tahap gaban.
hahahah

I will continue to purchase from both Brunei's and Miri's  Faceshop until they have nothing else to offer to me. muahahaha

until then,
ciao~

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Happy 2016

would you look at that; 6th Jan 2016.

I'm not sure what to post now.

Every time I started to compose things, I ended up being too personal about it.

I don't like it.

that's why post here is lacking.

but I do want to mention this (as a new year's resolution sort of)

"I've been a Yes Lady for as long as I remember. So if ever I became so demanding and wanting things my way, I hope you understand. I've yes-ed people, so expect people to yes-ed me back"

You'll figure it out at some point, if not tonight.

Ok fine, it's not so much of a resolution.

I guess, this is my new year's resolution;

1. be awfully patient
2. finish things
3. repeat no.1 and no. 2

Yup!

*clap*

alrighty, that is all for today.

I will try and post some other things tomorrow.

maybe an Onew Post

or

a Bieber Post.

see how my mood goes

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Close To Me

Close To Me by BoA

taken from her Shout It Out single.

Coz I am jobless and hating my job (plus a certain someone) to death (╹◡╹)凸

I am making myself busy by trying to memorize this song by the end of this week.

This song was supposed to be easy because it has so much English that I don't understand why is it not in English saja? щ（ﾟДﾟщ）

But it's not easy. I'm always off key during the chorus (not saying I wasn't during any other part of the song; it's just I am more off-key-err during the chorus). and I really don't know how I else I should do it.

I only just realize that I actually have the minus one (meaning the karaoke version or on the official Track List says 'Close To Me (Inst)' Inst being instrument only) version of this song! Now I can record myself (as I usually do when I'm "memorizing" a song) and pretended that I'm in some kind of a studio, recording my new single (n˘v˘•)¬ 
Currently I've recorded two and I'm not very happy with the outcome. 

Practice makes perfect they said.

But I say, lets just give it a rest for tonight and try again ...say, next month.

ahahahaha

So for now, enjoy. 

Here's the romanized lyrics for you to read. 

Let's memorize together! xD

Sitting alone kabe ni motare reminiscing

Taiyo falling thru kigi no suki ma kara

Now I'm so sorry Konnanimo afure teru

Amai kaori ni

kizuite you're my something I'll be next to you

Am I getting too close? I just want you to stay

Zutto isshoda yo and don't go away

you're always here with me Ima, ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide

Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni

Now I'm getting you close to me

Mayoikonda koneko no yo It's embarrassing

Kako mo, ima mo, mirai everyday

I'm looking at pictures and know you and then donna ni datte

Aoku tada so clear

Kizuite you're my something I'll be next to you

Am I getting too close? I just want you to stay

Zutto isshoda yo and don't go away

You're always here with me imma ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide

Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni

now I'm getting you close to me

You are the sin, you are the light

You are in my perfect picture, here I am

mo hitostu can I ask

Oh am I getting too close

I just want you to stay zutto isshoda yo and don't go away

you're always here with mr imma ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide

Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni

and now I'm getting you close to me (close to me)

oh I'll be next to you now I'm getting you close to me

Here's also the live version

I have a love/hate thing with this live version. i hate it coz she used too much nostril voice. I love it coz towards the end when she builds up the song, it's her awesome live voice that made me love her so much! 
but no matter, you gotta respect BoA for getting where she is now. I know she deserves it. I'm not really a 'constant' fan of hers but from where I've been following her up until now, I've seen her hard work and versatility. I just hope she will stop trying so hard to break it into the US (as in becoming English). She is great where she is now, she should focus on that. I'm not saying she shouldn't try at all. I'm saying stop 'trying too hard' and lose focus. that's all I'm saying.
Remember her Make Your Move movie? BoA was the female lead and at one point the movie was just trying so hard to make this Aya's character 'awesome' like she can switch languages without trouble; speaking Japanese to her friend and then spoke Korean with her brother in the same conversation. It's just, maybe not the best way to sell a movie? I don't know. 
Critical Analyzing maybe one of the Sept characteristics but Music/Movie business isn't really my forte so, imma shut dap now. 

Maybe I should try and stay focus instead ~(◠﹏⊙✿)

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My Shoe, My Post, Mine all the way

I've been very cautious of what I write AND post on social media.

Like, I'm taking care of everyone's feelings for them.

BUT I thought, It's my account, my social media, then it's only relevant that I post what I want.

IF you can't handle my posts (coz apparently, everything I post are meant for them), then I suggest you unfollow/delete/block/etc me from your social media accounts.

NO, I'm not threatening you because I think you wouldn't do it. Instead, I VERY MUCH APPRECIATE IT IF YOU UNFOLLOW ME. Why? because it'd be less heartache for each sides. 

I've been wondering why I have to avoid logging in into my own account just so I can avoid people's post. 

I shouldn't have done it. I should've just do what I want, when I want it.

I shouldn't have to "terasa" from others' posts. 

I shouldn't have make their post my problem.
Because it's not.
It's theirs.

I'm pretty sure people be saying the same thing (of the above) to me.

So, all I'm saying is that, my posts are mostly random; random rage, random boredom, or simply just random random. If somehow it affects you in any way, then, that's not my problem. 

like the old saying goes, IF THE SHOE FITS, WEAR IT!

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that Feeling

you know that feeling when you are so down and everything around you insisted to be wrong?

yeah, I'm having that feelings now.

it's frustrating and discouraging and demotivating.

maybe I'm the one who is unhappy in the first place but instead of everything else remain neutral as I wished, things just, don't.

So, all I'm doing right now is, to remain stagnant. like how my life has been for the past few years.

I'm usually a self-motivate person but today, I don't feel like motivating myself. I mean, what's the point really?

a/n: images are not mine

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Not hating. Just stating.

nothing annoys me more in the world.
like, keep your insecurity to yourselves.
or at least, if you can't, go to the people who would like to humor you by saying something that you wanna hear.
coz I certainly won't be humoring you.

Just so you know.

cr: as shown in the water marks. I'm just sharing this awesome creations. thanks to the respective owner. :)


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Orange

I realized I've been very orange these past few weeks;

bought this

(Paper Towel Box)

my 'bento'

(dengan fork ku sekali warna Oren hahaha. used to have spoon too but that went missing hmm)

been using this tshirt

Not even the first time. I've been choosing Orange over other colors if Purple was not available.

eg:
Phone Case

is Orange the new Purple for me now?


a/n: even this site has a lot of Orange.

 
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Why?

Most of the time, I'm not even sure who am I doing this for?

Is it really for me? 

or for whom ever that I'm supposed to prove myself to?

I've always thought, when I'm older, I'd be certain about alot of other things but I guess we are forever the student of life. 
because no matter what you've learned last year or the year before that, you just don't have a clue. or you do have a clue but too stubborn to change your ways.

and why am I so angry all the time? and bitter? why?

I've consulted myself, saying, I'm worth the while. No matter how much I've lagged behind,  I am worth something. 

So, why do I feel like I'm worthless? why do I feel like I'm not good enough?

Am I doing this wrong? Niat tu salah kh?

I just want to know. 

I know and very well adapted to 'everything happened for a reason' concept.  but didn't you wish, even once, that you know what those reasons are?

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Really?

Did you ever get told off for not wanting to go to a Wedding functions?

I did.

and I often said to my mom, 'Bukannya drg kenal aku punn'.
and my mom would be all, 'pasal kamu jarang mengaga urg' and bla bla bla..

-.-

I am confident to say that among my siblings, I'm the only one yg selalu ikut functions.  but ironically, people only ever remembered my older sister and sometimes my older brother. Mcm, hellew~ masa anak mu number (ke berapa kh?) kawin, aku ganya yg mama ku bawa? nama ku Ajeerah. anak no. 3? ring any bell?

So, I don't get it.

I dun think the concept is right anyway; 'krg kamu kawin nada urg mengaga' if we inda mengaga urg kawin.

because, for example, my sister. She hardly ever go to any wedding functions in her life but during her wedding, bukan lagi panuh kem, sampai inda kan cukup bah kem/tempat duduk/makanan.

So, I think, it's not the anak yg kana count when it comes to attending wedding functions. it's actually our parents.
My mom rajin mengaga urang kawin ani. I'm pretty sure pasal atu ramai urg membalas balik during cKaka tu kawin.

therefore, can I be excuse from attending anymore weddings?

I don't like it.

esp when people started going on about 'Ko bila lagi?' -.-

Honestly, I am fine being single. why do you have to make it look bad that aku balum kawin lagi?

Don't give me bullshit about not having a topic for a conversation. there are plenty of topics to choose from. kenapa mesti 'Ko bila lagi'?

Really, one of these days, I'm gonna start that 'Kita bila lagi?' at a funeral. ahahahaha  See how they'll feel about it.

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was I harsh?

Hey there.
yeah, it's me again.

Today, I've decided to put my plan into action; Removing photos of me from FB. esp the ones yg I'm not wearing tudung.

I even asked my closest of friends to do it on their accounts too. I mean, I can't remove them pictures if I'm not the one who uploaded them.

Of course, most people are supportive and reacted instantly. while, others, nyeh.

I think I hurt someone today and I can't even explain to them 'why'.

I mean, I can. but I don't know eh.

when I said 'esp the ones yg aku inda betudung', does that not make sense? can't you figure out why I want them remove? It's nothing to do with you or against you, it's about me. and tani sama2 Islam, inda kan inda teklik? especially when you treat FB like your everyday newspaper. Inda kan inda membaca post2 urg pasal agama atu?

Sigh. it upsets me that people thought I just want those pictures remove because I don't treasure the memories. 
WHAT. ARE. YOU. TALKING. ABOUT.
OF COURSE I DO!

but it's not how much affection you show me on FB that counts! it's how much you show me outside of FB. 

I've said it once and I'm going to say this again, FB tu tempat mengambang saja tu.

and that's why I want them pictures of me not wearing tudung removed.

I know it's a lot of work and a lot of hassle but believe me, this will benefit all of us. 

So, once again, THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE! I LOVE YOU! and sorry if I made you do some mini scavenger hunting today. kekeke I really appreciate this! A LOT!

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Wow. let's go back

was browsing thru some old pictures and I came across this

and this

 
wow. I was thinner then. not thin thin but thinner than I am now! (kes kejiawa plang ni..hahaha)
that was back when I was so active with Taekwondo.
mesti tah ku active balik ni. LOL

a/n: I duno, maybe everybody else in the office are so werked up about getting healthier and at the same time thinner, aku pun ikut2an tah jua. besides, I'm the only one in my unit that is 'plus size' -__- you gotta feel me man. tekanan tu!

 

Yay me!

remember that time, back in 2009/10 I said that i'm gonna try and finish reading the books that I bought over the years but never got the time (or sebenarnya malas sja xP) to read them?

well guess what?

I hadn't really made any real progress since that post.

Until last March, aku banar2 mau bali Pretty Little Liars: Unbelievable.

tapi since buku atu abis stock dBrunei ani (even check smpi kMiri pun nada), I guess ada reason lah dsebaliknya.

and the reason being this: I told myself that if I didn't finish reading all the books that i bought, I will not allow myself to buy any new ones.

So, untuk menyanangkn hati ku yg sedih ani, I decided, habis kn sja tia buku2 yg alum bebaca ani then after that, if kan bali smua Pretty Little Liars punya series skali gos pun, mana saja tah.. ahahaha

thus, recently, I finished reading 3 books.

tada! *self applause*

and I have 8 more to go. 

I feel like I've made an excellent progress with this. heh heh heh

until I cheated myself. 

-___-

if you read the previous2 post, I bought four Pretty Little Liars books in KL. and I'm gona read that one first before I continue reading the remaining eight. ahahaha xP

Gambatte? xD

p/s: the reason why it took me forever to finish both Flawless and Perfect is because I was busy rereading my Harry Potter series. ahahaha bukn apa, the first time aku bca HP series, aku bca buku library. So, when aku sendiri bali the buku, aku rasa, aku mesti bca lagi balik. Just, so, you know, aku bca buku yg ku bali atu. ahahaha

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mr. David, you said it all

about being fat.

watch this shit right here... ahaha



"shut the hell up..pfft..jump off a bridge" LOL

"I'm hungry" that's so me! I'm hungry all the time...

"hopes and dreams?"


there's just something about this vid that spells 'ME' all over it.

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Apparently

So, something to share.

apparently, I'm gay.

being reason; been single since forever.

It started off as a joke but it ended up me being too sensitive about the subject.

NOOO, not the 'gay' part. tsk.

I mean the part where I'm still single. since. forever.

I know I shouldn't be. but I don't know. that subject ticked me off these days.

or maybe because I lack of sleep and I found out 'something' of mine being copied. and that person was being innocent about it. I hate it when it's my idea and then someone just came out with it first and claiming it to be theirs. I HATE IT!
tsk!! I am not amuse. period.

yes, I'm gay. thanx bro (my brother was the one who actually gave that statement of me being gay coz I'm still single) you just lifted up my love life spirit to the moon. Thanx.



p/s: no. I'm not always like this. I'm usually very positive about being single. Just let me have my moments of being cranky, hating, pissed, tick off, annoyed, irritated, etc about this subject.

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