Youtube, and how I was inspired to make a post from it

have you ever browse something on youtube and ended up on a video not related to the first video you watch?
Same.

Today, I was watching Justin Timberlake's ESPYS (some sport award show) hosting. He was really funny there. then, I went on watching Jamie Fox's hosting the same event from the previous years. and then, I watched Jamie serenade Serena Williams (that famous female tennis player).
Pastu,
some minutes later
I was watching this



Onew and Luna singing Can I Have This Dance at SMTown Concert in Staple Center NY (I think. if not, maybe the one in Japan, I am not sure and lazy to go and find out where).

LOL

I remember watching Deleted Scenes from HSM3 (that's High School Musical 3 for those who don't know) and also remember watching Sharpay and Ryan version of What I've Been Looking For. I know I kept repeating the A Night To Remember coz the dancing was awesome. 

oh, i found the version of Gotta Go My Own Way that I like most



by Nikki Gil

anyway,
what I wanna know is how did I go from Justin's hosting an award show 
to watching song clips or movie videos of High School Musical?!
like, what is the connection?!

LOL

I could've been sleeping (￣。￣)～ｚｚｚ by now coz I felt so tired and yawning a lot at the office today
but
yeah
youtube happened.

About that Onew/Luna video, I was reading the comment coz there was a part where Onew supposed to be singing but he didn't (I remember during that time, fancams were everywhere and I also remember someone commenting about Onew forgetting his line).
You wanna know what I found?
people going gaga over LuNew. ~(⊕⌢⊕)~
and mostly praising these two singers 

example:


don't get me wrong. Luna is about the only girl in the industry that I ship my Onew with. 
It's just, how deaf and blind a fan can be?
it took several scrolls to finally found sometwo commenting about it

1.



2.


I've forgotten how the song goes in the movie but I know I love the HSM3 version just as much. because by that 3rd movie, Zac and Vanessa sounded a lot mature and less squeaky. 

Others also kept going on and on about how tired Onew looked. 
well, i bet he was, SHINee was promoting Lucifer at that time and Onew was doing a musical too. and they flown across the continent to do a concert there. go figure.

In conclusion, 
I wanna thank youtube for recommeding what video I should watch next.
because of that, I am able to make this post.
I thank you and good night!

. . .

Sigh

Remember how I was so excited about the SMTown concert in August? I am no longer in that phase.

I have finally decided that I didn't wana go to Seoul for the SMTown concert and just wait for the next SHINee World Concert 3.

Well, that dream kinda crash and burn.

Not because I don't want to go, but because they (SHINee/SMEnt) announced that SHINee World Concert 3 in Jakarta will be the final concert in the series.

They announced it during the concert (and I found out thru Twitter).

I duno if I should be relief or complete depress.

Relief because now Onew can really rest well.

Completely depress because; BILA TAH KU KAN JUMPA cONEW NI?!

I think durang make the Jakarta one the last concert pasal cOnew. kan he's recovering from his throat surgery. maybe he can not recover dalam masa terdekat ani. So, instead of postponing the concerts, they decided to finish it early. Lagi pun, they've traveled to South America for the concert too. I guess that covers the concert 'quotas' or something.

this theory is purely untuk menyamankan rasa hati ku.

-_-

So sad. I was told by 'beloved' friend's' to save money for the upcoming SWC3, thinking of going to the one in Singapore if they planned on bringing the concert there.

but I guess ... Not.

SIGH~

Inda ku tau kan cakap apa lagi. I am lost for words.

A/N: I miss Onew.

I know he's just a fictional character in my head but not seeing him with the other SHINee members is just, not complete.

. . .

Really?

Did you ever get told off for not wanting to go to a Wedding functions?

I did.

and I often said to my mom, 'Bukannya drg kenal aku punn'.
and my mom would be all, 'pasal kamu jarang mengaga urg' and bla bla bla..

-.-

I am confident to say that among my siblings, I'm the only one yg selalu ikut functions.  but ironically, people only ever remembered my older sister and sometimes my older brother. Mcm, hellew~ masa anak mu number (ke berapa kh?) kawin, aku ganya yg mama ku bawa? nama ku Ajeerah. anak no. 3? ring any bell?

So, I don't get it.

I dun think the concept is right anyway; 'krg kamu kawin nada urg mengaga' if we inda mengaga urg kawin.

because, for example, my sister. She hardly ever go to any wedding functions in her life but during her wedding, bukan lagi panuh kem, sampai inda kan cukup bah kem/tempat duduk/makanan.

So, I think, it's not the anak yg kana count when it comes to attending wedding functions. it's actually our parents.
My mom rajin mengaga urang kawin ani. I'm pretty sure pasal atu ramai urg membalas balik during cKaka tu kawin.

therefore, can I be excuse from attending anymore weddings?

I don't like it.

esp when people started going on about 'Ko bila lagi?' -.-

Honestly, I am fine being single. why do you have to make it look bad that aku balum kawin lagi?

Don't give me bullshit about not having a topic for a conversation. there are plenty of topics to choose from. kenapa mesti 'Ko bila lagi'?

Really, one of these days, I'm gonna start that 'Kita bila lagi?' at a funeral. ahahahaha  See how they'll feel about it.

. . .

Writers

after spending so much time on Asianfanfics.com these past years, I realized something.

real authors need real (heavily constructive) criticism.

I mean the most I see people comment about a story is about how cute this character look (when in actualness the author has not even describe their cuteness in words) or how cute the main characters were together (hmm. I guess that's the disadvantage of writing a fan fiction. coz you're using characters from the real life; Kpop artists and such).

Point is, i don't think most of us want this.

I, for one, would love a criticism on the way I laid out the story, my grammar (though i wouldn't listen much on that since English is only my second language. LOL), and you know, REAL criticism!

but I guess (again) I have to take into account that that website if full of hormonal teenagers, who was so keen into the story line alone (without really caring how the words were laid down as long as there's the name of their fav kpop artists in it) than how it was laid out etc etc.

I'm not saying I'm THAT good! gawd, no. I've got a lot to learn too.

it just frustrates me that I'm posting my story there in the hope that I would get decent, constructive, criticism that would help me improve myself in one way or another, but I got this childish review instead.

I had one good review once for one of my stories and although it stinks and i kinda don't like it in the beginning, I still appreciate it. it got me where I am today.

but since me and that person are not talking to each other anymore, I have no one else to ask harsh review from. 

sigh.

You really don't miss your water, till the well runs dry.

ANYWAY~~

I WANT CONSTRUCTIVE REVIEWS ON MY STORY! 

ANYBODY WANTS TO BE THE REVIEWER?! 

also, desperate time calls for desperate measures.


. . .

You think..

You think I don't care kh?
You think when I said, 'I don't give a fcuk' aku banar2 don't give a fcuk kh?

INDA AH!

aku ani manusia yg akan sentiasa memikirkn smua yg terjadi ddunia ani.

GANYA

yg aku sasak,

AKU SAJA WAH YANG MEMIKIRKAN.

SANGAL KU YOH!

inda ko paham kh when I said, 'ngaleh ku'.

Ngaleh ku sudah memikirkn smua ani.

Ngaleh.

SUDAH TAH.

BERAKAL2 TAH.

. . .

Is it me

Falling on my heartbreak and I
Get my hopes up when I'm in love
Until we break up then I'm back to the
Same spot, I've been lonely, drowning
Cause every guy turns out to be the same
So now I'm questionin' is it me to blame

Is It Me? am I so complicated?
Is It Me? or is love over-rated?
Is It Me? cause I don't quite understand
Why it never turns out how I thought I planned it
Is It Me? am I too independent?
Is It Me? not ready for commitment?
Is It Me? cause it doesn't seem to last
And it's the only question that I never asked


Stacie Orrico - Is it me?

. . .

Worth Having? I. Think. Not.

I don't think it's worth having anymore.

nor does it worth fighting for.



Ingat aku nada perasaan kh? andang jua bukn angel aku ani kn telampau baik. I have my limit too.

I've lowered my pride for your sake but if that's how you're gonna act,
so be it.

I think I've had enough.

I'm gona let go.

and this is not the first time either.

WHAT THE HELL AM I?!

. . .

I. Just. Don't.

I don't know how many times do I have to tell you this but

I JUST DON'T EXPLAIN MYSELF WELL.

Not that I can't. of course, I CAN.

It's just, trying to explain yourself to people who already made up their mind about you, is a TOTAL waste of time.

or

Trying to explain a certain situation to those who pretended to understand things, is a COMPLETE waste of time.

or

Having to explain yourself every now and then to those people who have been with you since forever, is FRUSTRATING.
aren't they supposed to understand you by now??

I know it helps to explain things every once in awhile..(and in most cases, its one heck of a good thing)...but I guess, it's just me.

I have issues about trying to convey what I have in my mind into constructive words. -__-"

of course I know it's me who's having the problem. I'm not blaming you. I'm just saying,
I. JUST. DON'T. EXPLAIN. MYSELF. WELL.

besides, i think this one tweet I retweet is so true; Silence is often misinterpreted but never misquoted. #theLoveStories

So, would you mind taking notes, now?