Feelings

Remember when I said I was a little down these past few months?
well..I just heard an old song and thought, "this describe EXACTLY how I feel"

Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life

lets quote some of the verses:

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place,

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you?

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you're screaming?

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more

Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like

No, you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

I know, such deep shit.

but really, this is how I feel.
I'm not even exaggerating.
the one coded in blue is how I think of other people.
I know, that is very negative of me. and very unfair to other people coz I don't know what they've gone through to be what they are just as they don't know what I'm going through.

I don't know since when but I've been saying that I am self-motivated person.
today, I realized that maybe I got that from doing my CV.
which leads me to realize that I really am not (a self-motivated person).
I just thought that I am.

I feel sorry for myself
coz no one else going to be

#ToughLove
#StrongHeart
#ToughLuck

but I guess, that's just life.

a/n: I know I said I'm gona stop posting things like this one but I think its worth the share. maybe this post will motivate other people to be better at controlling their feelings and thoughts than I do.

. . .

Harry Potter.

I know

what you're thinking, 'Harry Potter sja jua anak ni".

Well, I can't help it, ok? Or maybe I can but I. Am. Weak.

LOL!

Since last month, I've been rereading my Harry Potter novels; Order of the Phoenix, Half-Blood Prince and the Deathly Hallows. 

Just now I finished the Philosopher's Stone.

and now I'm about to start with the Chamber of Secrets.

I don't know.

maybe I just feel like I need to do something at this moment. Well, I'm supposed to be doing something else but I'm demotivated. So, here I am, reminiscing the good books of JK Rowling.

or maybe, I just wana be taken away from the real world and into a fantasy. 

or maybe because it stops me from "over-thinking" for awhile.

So, I don't know. 

Reading helps.

a/n: it's saturday night and I'm being boring. *ketawa*

. . .

Worth Having? I. Think. Not.

I don't think it's worth having anymore.

nor does it worth fighting for.



Ingat aku nada perasaan kh? andang jua bukn angel aku ani kn telampau baik. I have my limit too.

I've lowered my pride for your sake but if that's how you're gonna act,
so be it.

I think I've had enough.

I'm gona let go.

and this is not the first time either.

WHAT THE HELL AM I?!

. . .

Strength

Being Strong.




I wasn't always.

. . .