2 weeks of sad, and my July Bujo Theme

Hi.

First of all, I am tired.

Second of all, there's nothing I can do about it.

Which then leads me to being super upset. I couldn't even push myself to do anything else but willow in self pity. I couldn't open my journal to write down my feelings. I didn't even start my Bujo July Theme until 15th July! Imagine!

So, here's what's that look like:

I forgot who's July Theme inspired me to do mine but it wasn't AmandaRachLee. hmmm..let me just *check my History on youtube* Ok, it was from annika's leaf.

It was simple and I thought I could use a change; from drawing/coloring myself to using craft papers.

which I happened to have a lot of. 

(these two are the only one I have at the moment)

After I finished that I thought I'd be happy or temporarily so but I wasn't. 

My heart was still heavy and my eyes burned. 

to simply put, I am not happy. Not at all. Yeah I laugh out loud but only becoz I can't be upset in front of people. 

No one cares. 

No one listens.

It's not their problem.

It's mine.

and I'm ashamed to admit but my brain, it went dark. it still is. 

I'm aware of it going dark. I remind myself to not be. but it continues. 

I know people's gonna say "You're overreacting" "You're being dramatic" "it's all in your head" and I'm telling you, I am aware. I'm aware that maybe I am overreacting. Maybe I am being dramatic. Yes, it's all in my head. 

but explain this:

I was listening to EXO -  Power, the supposedly uplifting song in Kpop and one of my favorite song as well but why the hell was I thinking about is jumping of a bridge?

tell me what was that all about?

I imagine a better future, I can see them but at the same time, I'm not going anywhere. I'm stuck here. in this body. in this shell of a body. and I am not happy.

I. am. not. happy.

I. am. not.

Tell me where I can find help.

. . .

Rainbow

Hi guys,

a quick recap and info: I was rereading my Skin Care Update post and I saw that I said that I'm going to post something on Make-Up "next". I have not forgotten about it, I just, keep putting it on hold, cost the picture preparation for that is overwhelming to me. LOL but I assure you, that post is coming. 

For now, I wanted to share this superstitious I just learned about Rainbow.

My fellow blogger friend posted a double rainbow pictures and I was reminded of that superstitious incident.

I was walking out of my office, halfway meeting a friend, when I saw the rainbow and excitedly pointed at it, gasping, "Rainbow!"

picture dated: 17th June 2019.

and she said to me, in urgency, "Baik ko isap tu jari mu ah!" Direct translation: You must suck on that finger.  (Get your head out of the gutter LOL!)

I looked at her scandalously, "Why?"

but the thing is, I forgot what she answered me with. 

😂😂😂

No, no. I'm not dismissing her beliefs. We both Malays and I have never heard of that before. Or maybe I have but have forgotten about it. 

So, naturally, I'm curious. 
why must I suck on my finger after I pointed at the rainbow? and the way my friend was instructing me to, it was like, I shouldn't have pointed at it in the first place and sucking on the finger is like a counter-measure thing to offset my doings. or something.
so now, I have another question: why can't I point at a rainbow?

🤔🤔🤔

I have my own theory(ies) tho:
1. we shouldn't have pointed at anything in general. You know, coz it's considered rude. 
2. what if we TERpoint arah 'invisible being' and they got offended and we got cursed? I know, this theory is soooooo melayuuuuu~~
3. these words formed in my head after I asked why: "Karang putus jari mu" direct translation: Later, lose your finger. 🤔
4. Leprechaun. Cauldron full of Gold. 🍀🍀💚🧡

hahaha that fourth one is a joke! I don't have any other theories.

I shall asked this friend tomorrow if I see her.

for the time being, what do you think is the reason? Do any of my theory make sense?

share your thoughts in the comment box below.

. . .

Hello July

Hi guys.

I am recovering from a fever caused by my tonsillitis. or "tongsil" as I like to pronounce it. No, not an excuse as to why I'm not making any post. I'm not posting becoz I ran out of topic for June. (▰˘◡˘▰)

Here we are in July, starting the other half of the year. Hmm.. reflection time?

I started off slow this year with blogging; 1 post in January and 1 post in April. and I'm still not sure what drove me to make 12 posts in May. I guess I was just motivated to do so 🤷. I know what drove me with making 11 posts in June; competition with myself. LOL I know, I have issues. 

Anyway, reflections..hmmm..
I've done a lot of self reflects this year, in fact, I've been doing that a lot since last year. mostly on things like, "Why is this happening to me?" "Oh maybe it's karma" "I should control myself from doing that/ acting like that" "Not everybody gonna like me but that doesn't mean I should stop being nice" "Don't be too nice though or people may step on you"
Also, I've been thinking a lot about "Cutting people off". I had this thought a lot last year too. I'm not saying I'm gonna be better off without these people or that I'm gonna get lonely since my circle of friends is already so small, but I think, I just wanna be happy. and if cutting people yang continue to bring me heartaches will bring me peace, then, so be it.

Let's talk about Happiness.
to me, shopping, in any type, shape, or form, is my temporary happiness.
What I've been longing for is true happiness; a peace of mind, and a lighter heart.
That's the kind of happiness that I'm looking for. 
I'm not sure I'm getting there or not yet but I'm pushing thru. Hwaiting 💪

Speaking of happiness, coming back to this blog bring me a sense of purpose. a sense of purpose leads to accomplishing a certain task. and finishing a task brings me happiness/joy, no matter how small.
I know me posting here doesn't give me any financial income 🙄 but it gives me something to look forward to. It gives me the momentum I need to practice on for my next project. You know, posting at least once a week, preparing notes on what to post, etc. Blogging keeps me busy, it helps me from just looking at my phone for hours at night, it stimulates my brain. and as mentioned above, when my mind feels that sense of accomplishment, I feel happy. 💖

Another part of happiness, I am back to reading!
I finished reading Wonder by R.J. Palacio and I feel accomplished and happy 🤗
Currently reading (already half way thru) Songs About A Girl by Chris Russell. I believe this book has a sequel. I remember seeing it at the book shop but I'm not sure and I haven't Google to be sure.

wow, yo girl can write!
dam!

Ok, i think, that is enough for this post. Thank you for reading this far. 🙇‍♀️

I'm planning on making a post about my scary experience in Seoul next. So, please anticipate. 😉

Until then, ciao~

. . .

2019: A Year of Change

for some reason, this was in the draft section since 10th Mar 2019 and was empty.

hmmm

Hi guys.

we are now in June 2019! half way thru the year already. wow. time flies.

So, as mentioned, this draft was left empty since 10th Mar 2019. I checked thru my draft notes in my laptop and found one notes that was dated 10 Mar too. It was obviously raw and not suitable for direct posting. I might hurt a few hearts. but do I really care? muahahah 

I actually still care, hence, the edited version below.

Here go:

composed on 10th Mar 2019.

Hello everyone and anyone.

I know, I abandoned this page for so long.

I even almost not come back at all. 

but here I am.

I really don't know why I should continue to be here. It's not like my life depended on it.

I guess I'm just not ready to part ways from this part of my old life.


Blogging had been my life since forever. I think I started when I was 15? Back when Friendster was a thing. LOL Friendster had a blog feature where your friends got notification whenever you posted something and when I finally switched to Blogspot, none of my readers came along with me. 

it demotivated me a little bit but I still continued to post. soon after, friends started making their own blog and we shared/exchanged stories and comments.

As we grew as an individual, I guess people grew out of blogging too. Except me. I'm still here, as if holding up the fort.

more years passed and I mentioned a lot in my posts on how me too no longer 'feeling it'.

Am I grown?

or

Am I tired of holding the fort?

Maybe I am.

I turned 31 last year. I'll be 32 this year. For some reason, that hit me hard.

at first, I thought it was becoz I thought I lagged behind everybody. Thirty One years Old and still the same old me; achieving only in growing old, stuck in the same old routine year after year.

You would think, someone who read a lot like myself wouldn't have such negative thoughts. 
You thought wrong.
I used to tell people how I'm a self-motivated person. I began believing in it too. 
Until I realized how tiring that ish was (still is).
Your mind is spent and your heart is heavy, do you have any idea how hard it is to stay motivated/positive during that phase?
I also used to think that I was strong mentally and physically.
boy, was I mistaken. LOL
Well, maybe I am strong both mentally and physically or I wouldn't be here talking about this right now.

Realizing all this and accepting that my life has come to this, I decided to let go on a lot of things.

They say it's never too late to push reset and start over.

So, for the past six months I've been working on my well being;
1. Me is enough
2. Me matter
3. I can't change the world overnight. so chill.
4. Stop worrying about what others think of me.
5. Control my emotion especially at work (coz GOD know I have a problem in that ish place LOL)
6. my self improvement is important.

And something happened on my 7th month.

I've worked hard for this mindset and soul to be at peace and for me to fall back into the me from 6 months ago is such a waste of time. 
To fall back to the same routine/dark-mindset all over again? I don't have the capacity in my mind and in my soul for such burden anymore.
I used to think "let's just follow the flow" but I don't want to be that easy anymore.
I wanna work hard towards a new goal in life. Especially with my life. I'm important too. 
I have the obligation to better myself before I can worry about other people.

I really don't want to go back to 6 months ago. I can't and I refuse. I am only going to focus on moving forward.


Wow! I was so deep back in March. LOL wow.
I surprise myself too most of the time. Every time I read back my old thoughts, I'm impressed on how well I write/type. HAHAHAH and now back to the present.

Like, I said, the above is filtered for 'tayangan umum'. There were two more pages of thoughts but I don't think it's quite relevant for today's title.

I don't think I planned that post as a New Year Resolution coz I hate that term: 'Resolution'. who started that ish? I think i just want to say that I'm trying to change my life routine and be selfish for once. obviously old habit die hard; I can't just be completely selfish. but I'm gonna try.

Have you ever feel or felt this way before? How did you overcome or deal with yours? Share your thoughts down in the comment box.

if you read up till here, you the real MVP. and thank you.

See you in the next post.

ciao~

. . .

Aging like a fine wine?

Hi guys!

first of, Happy 11th Anniversary to SHINee 🎉🎉🎉

second of all, in light of anniversary topic, I decided to discuss something related to how I'm aging. since you know, anniversary means another year past and another year you're growing older.

I went window shopping with my mom last week at Rimba Point. My mom wanted to check some ready made baju for Raya.
As we walked around, we came across a socks stall. I never knew that I was but I. LOVE. SOCKS. especially the cute printed ones. and you wouldn't believe how the socks game had been stepping up these past few years! *cough* kpop *cough*
the pricing is 1 for $5 and 3 for $12.
My mom got interested and I asked her to pick which one she likes as I went and choose mine. Ten guesses which one I choose.

I picked the one with the fries print first and my mom was, "inda kan katun". I stopped for a minute and replied, "why not?" while in my head I was thinking, what's wrong with picking such cute socks? they're just socks and no one really sees them. Is she calling me out for picking a socks that is not my age appropriate? Yes, I was so defensive by her comment.
but soon after that, I thought, maybe she thought i was picking a socks for her. LOL No, mam. this cute socks is for me. since, you know, 3 for $12.

From the above story, I was reminded of a story not too long time ago.

I was going out with c Zawir and he somewhat say the same thing, "macam kanak-kanak" in regards to a fashion choice I made. We were window shopping too at that time. I think.
I forgot what it was but I remember thinking, "so my outfit today is childish lah" or something along the line "I'm not dressing according to my age?"

Hmmm..i think it was about a shoe pick. I really could not remember.

So,

I'm 31, becoming 32 this year.

it's not like I don't want to dress my age or appropriate to my age but

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WORK IT TOOK TO DRESS DECENT?

I mean, i do try to dress nicely for work. Yes, I prefer wearing pants most of the time coz they make me feel skinnier than I actually am LOL.

but for weekends? I prefer to dress comfortably.

As far as I know, I do dress appropriately. I mean, have you seen these famos women? 

they are definitely much older than me and you're telling me I can't rock my dope white shoes?

What do you think? too much?

I mean, i feel like it is too much since I don't wear that on a daily basis. LOL but look at me, don't I owned that look?!

Hmmm..I don't know. I think my feelings got hurt. Not because people criticize my fashion choice but because people criticize my fashion choice.
you feel me?
I mentioned this a lot, everybody is different.
Yeah~ I did judged the two women every time I came across their IG post on my explore page wearing something "cool" but soon after, I would be thinking, "if a 'mom' can pull that off amazingly, I most definitely can too", you know, turned that negative judging ass of mine into a positive motivational thing instead.

Lagipun, what is age appropriate outfit for my age?
Am I not supposed to wear "cool" outfit?
or is it my size? That a size like me shouldn't be wearing that kind of outfit?
Is wearing a concert merchandise sweater not age appropriate?
Is wearing colorful socks not age appropriate? in what way?

Besides (this is just another way of saying 'Lagipun' without being repetitive LOL!), I'm 31 going 32. I'm not that old.

and I one hundo persen (100%) refused to dress like I'm an old lady.
why?
Because you only as old as you feel.
and I'm don't feel like I'm old yet.

True, I realized that I am growing old whenever I feel sleepy at an unappropriated time. coz apparently getting to bed early is an age factor.
but still, I don't feel like I'm 60 years old and must dress like a grandma.

As unfashionable as I am, I do want to dress 'my age'; whatever that means to other people. To me, as long as I don't show my gummy tummy, or fried chicken thigh, I'm all good. and I try so hard not to dress like a mom. coz I am not a mom yet.

WHY WOULD I WANT TO DRESS LIKE I'M OLD ANYWAYS?!

Even a mom dress more nicer than me.

GASP! A thought just hit me!

IS MY FASHION CHOICE UNFLATTERING TO ME?! ARE YOU SAYING MY FASHION CHOICE IS UGLY?!

OMFG!

i'm ugly.

ok, wait. calm the fuck down.

I still think I dress decent. My choices are fine. If in the eye of other people my outfit "look too young" for "my old face" then, that's their opinion. as far as I'm concerned, I've dressed myself appropriately.

So, you can put a sock up in your opinion. you too, mom. HAHAHAH

Ok. that is enough for today's rant. On SHINee anniversary too. sorry boys, my life does not revolve around you all the time.

😂

I hope you enjoy reading.

You the MVP.

until next time,
ciao~

. . .

A/N: do you know what makes making a blog longer to compose and publish? the pictures attachment. Yes, the gambar2. Baik lagi menaip what's in your mind down ni, you can finish in a minute. but the pictures? especially when you thought of an old picture you took in the year you don't even remember? Good Luck.

Penny Thoughts

composed/edited last: 15th Apr
updated 20 Dec 6:32pm
ready to post 20 Dec 7:40pm

This draft was titled Internet and after reading and retyping everything, 
I'm just gonna title it Penny Thoughts (coz Penny For Your Thoughts)


I didn't know how to internet until I was 15.
But only becoz I don't have a complete excess to it.
I couldn't even 'search' for Westlife with whatever search engine there was back then.

I don't know where I'm going with this but bear with me, yeah?


I don't how I started, but whenever anything happened, I would recall back everything that I did before that particular happening.

For example, when bad things happened, I would go back and think of the things I did that wasn't particularly right or nice.

come to think of it, I only ever wonder of the bad things, never the good things.

Sometime I remember old memories in details and I don't like it.
It's funny how I remember them like that but can't remember the important stuff for school/work to safe my life. ๏̯͡๏

I think the reason why I remember the embarrassing part of my life the most is because God is telling me stop being so judgmental coz I'm worse. LOL

Stopped judging people who are less fortunate, like not knowing certain things, becoz you didn't know better back then too.

I think the reason why I was hard on some people is becoz their behavior now reminded me of myself back then and I don't want them to end up doing embarrassing things like I did. (◡‿◡✿)

I want people to be better than me

or, to put it simply

i hate seeing myself in other people, it's not really a pleasant thing to experience.

that is why I want you to be better than I was. than I am.

You gotta.


I was once told, me feeling bad for myself is all in my head and that no one could help me with that.

I don't think I'm even mildly a depress person but that is not something you should say to anyone. If you can't offer a word of comfort, the least you could do is to just nod and make a sympathetic expression.

what if I'm a real depress individual? what if I have suicidal tendency?



Where am I going with this? ◐.̃◐

Right

hahahaha


I'm not going anywhere with this coz I'm only trying to write down my thoughts.

😂😂

I told someone that 2 years prior (me telling her that story), I was depressed. I didn't realize that I was until it passed. When I was telling her that, I only meant how that work environment made me depressed. you know, sharing stories and shiz.
2 years later, you wanna know what I found out ? 
This person told someone else, "She's not depressed. Just seeking for attention"

and I was like, ◔̯◔ "Wow. Thanks".

I think I've talked about depression WAYYYYYYYYY before Dec 2017.

Just becoz I finally more open about it now, doesn't mean I'm going mainstream, ok?

Even if it's now mainstream, that doesn't mean it's any less real to the real sufferer.

Sigh.

I think, with everything that's been going on, it's coming back.

I'm scared that I'm losing it.

Which is why I'm trying to busy myself with so many things.

It's driving me nuts.


For months now, my head has been railing with so many thoughts. 

I mean it always has been but now it's overwhelming.

I feel myself feeling overwhelm by it.


the FAQs include;

Why I feel stagnant?

Why everything I do doesn't seem to be right?

Why is everyone so annoying?

Why can't I stand up?

Why am I not getting any better?


They say I will get over this, there'll be a better day, grass is just as green on this side, time heals all wounds, this too will passed.


But all I want is for it to pass now.

. . .

Hesitation

Why do you spend all your time 

Watching life pass you by;

Hanging on to your pride?

All that you can anticipate 

Hoping all your mistakes will somehow fade away

Why the hesitation 

Gotta' stop procrastinating;

Why the hesitation;

You can pick your destination

And the risk is so worth taking

Your heart will never be the same

Giving up drama's days;

Letting go uneasy ways

When will you ever realize

Letting go all your lies;

All the pain will subside

What are you gonna' do with this

It's either hit or miss

You know the answer now;

I know you hurt inside;

I know the reason why

Don't wait a moment;

Come on and give you heart away

Why the hesitation

Gotta' stop procrastinating

You're only wasting time Hesitating

. . .

Stacie Orrico - Hesitation

Positivity VS Negitivity

Third Day of Raya.

I have never been so care-free.

I guess I aged well. LOL Not really

Raya used to be such a stressful ordeal but this year, I barely cared.

I'm that pressured to the point that I don't want to care.

It's not because of work. 

Becoz as stressful as work gets, at the end of the day, it's what happened when you go home.

the environment at home is the most integral part of your being. 

I'm the type that shuts office off the moment I walked out of the office. Yes, I may talk about it or the people in it when I meet my freinds but non of that conversation ever been about the work itself. 

When you come home to a house full of negative vibes, that actually put more harm to your health than work could ever did.

If you can't be positive at home after a full day of negativity, then what are you going to be?

yeah yeah

It's all come down to how you react to things.

but everybody has their limits.

There is only so much patient in ones body.

 . . .

Guess who's Back?

Hi guys

I am late! 

I was supposed to post something on April 1st but I was just not rajin enough to on my laptop to do so.

Thus, here I am, April 7th.

Tomorrow's gonna be a touchy day and being me, I might forgot about it. So, that's a good thing.

I've been trying to read again.

I got thru a few chapters of Patrick Ness - More Than This.
up till chapter two, the story line reminds me of Constantine, the movie, where Keanu was in the parallel hell world scene. 
currently my book mark is in chapter three.

I also got thru a few couple of chapters on AFF; 
a story by Peanutbuttercup, called Water Lily. Click here if you are interested to read them. I'm not sure if you have to log in to read that but give it a try. ;) I don't call her story 'a fanfic' becoz her style of writing is beyond that. She's an awesome writer. So go and check it out, tell her Vengeance sent you xD

Usually, when I started reading, I become so in my bubble. 
and apparently that is bad for the society.

*mata ke atas*

but society can suck it

coz at the end of the day, I'm gonna have to take care of myself.

Also,

I've been trying to write.
I've wrote (checked Word)
*ketawa dulu*
hahahahaha
I must've love the number two. coz, I wrote two chapters baru. 
hahaha
it's still stagnant in chapter three. :P

I wanted to write and read again and I have this notion; I should just 'start'.
no matter how little the progress is, it is still a progress.

I wana feel like I have something more to do with my life after work.

I don't want to always feel like I need to go home just to scroll thru all my social media on my phone.

There has to be more.

I wanted more.

I just typed 'hope I will be myself again' and deleted it.

It made me wonder, 

who am I?

Coz I don't really know anymore.

I've been reading quotes where they say "it is ok if you are not who you are a year ago. becoz that's just mean, you are growing"
but
there's also this scene from Khloe's Revenge Body episode where a participant was trying to be his old self again coz the he now is so withdrawn from the world and became anti-social.

So, is the me now better or not?
I feel like I'm not better.
I feel so stagnant like my third Chapter. 
I feel like, I need to be my old self back to move forward.

The old me usually have so much to do during the night that doesn't involve scrolling thru social media on her phone.
Some nights, she would write. another night, she would read. other nights, she would try and do some fancy DIY on her journal.

that's the me that I wanted to be again.

I just want to have that creative momentum going again.

coz the me now is not really feeling good on the inside.

. . .

Short and Simple

I was browsing, scrolling thru my old post on this blog

and

I realized how I have (had?) two styles; 
1. short and simple, 
and 
2. long and winding.

there were no in between.

LOL

I even dared to post just words. absolutely not a single picture attached.

Impressed!

So, what changed?

What makes me so stressful about making a post?

Why do I feel like I have to explain so much when I post a certain topic?

I was in my late teens / early twenties when I started.
is it the age factor?

If its about the amount of readers I have, its not that much of a difference from back then to now.

So, what gives?

Well,

what ever it is, I would really love to try and post something in its simplest of form.

yeah, sometimes things need to be explained but I hope I don't end up posting a three-pages essay. lol


That being said, 
I just want to say, thank you for being here, lovely readers.
You have no idea how much your time spent here means to me.

. . .

February Song

I know its already March
but this song kinda sings to me on a whole new level of feels.

February Song - Josh Groban.

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes
Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Morning is waking up
And sometimes it's more than just enough
When all that you need to love
Is in front of your eyes
It's in front of your eyes

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
Sometimes it's hard to find the ground
Cause I keep on falling as I try to get away
From this crazy world

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes
Opens his eyes

. . .

A/N: do read between the lines.

Onew Goodness

Jonghyun had his Inspiration Solo Concert last Saturday in Busan

and

Onew was there to support him.

When I first saw Onew's IG post, I couldn't really make out what it was but I liked it anyway,

coz, you know, Onew's post. XP

and then afterwards, I saw people posting bits and pieces from the concert.

So, it was a selfie (￣。￣)

Seriously, Key, teach your hyung how to take proper selfie

or Onew, please get a better selfie-phone

there's also this one

awww...how thoughtful of Jongie to take care of hyung's feelings.

below image had me laughing a long time 

coz, I literally JUST thinking about Onew being introvert during that time I saw this post.

the left picture was Minho showing his support for Jongie. if I remember correctly, from clips of videos going around that time was Minho screaming or shouting like the maniac that he is (^L^)

Here's some more

How I felt at least once during SMTown in Singapore. LOL

there was video circulating on IG, i only saw 2. its the same ones anyway. it shows how Onew remain seated and completely covering himself in his winter jacket. 

I honestly felt sorry for Onew coz he really didn't want people to pay attention to him during Jongie concert. 

or I feel like he would appreciate it if people don't pay attention to him when he's just trying to watch a concert.

Applause to Onew though coz 

DID YOU KNOW how hot it is being indoor, in a concert, and have a winter jacket on?

Hot a*s fcuk!

So, applause for being ..noble?

and then there's this

King of Poker Face. and of course he know he's special. 

He precious!

(づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

OR MAYBE!

he just wasn't impress.

HAAHAHAHA

OK, fine! ↁ_ↁ

the other logical explanation would be "maybe he watched it a million times before"

but seriously, what if?! you know?! HAHAHAHA

I love Jongie but SERIOUSLY

hahahahahahaha

Ok, ok. moving on \ᇂ_ᇂ\

Final screenshot that I'm gona share here would be this

kShawol are always thoughtful. 

although, I still saw one fanacct refusing to put the video down.

As much as I want to respect his privacy and all that, he is still someone famous. *shrug*

Beside that, Onew's action is applausable

He was being a good friend, a good hyung and most of all, a good leader.

You gotta love this man.

I don't know him that well, but his actions speak louder than words.

If you mean so much to him, he express more with actions than he do with words.

that's just how I feel about him.

completely irrelevant to 'knowing him well enough'.

I'm just saying what I see and read about him.

disclaimer: I don't know who Lee Jinki is. I only know who Onew is.

a/n: all screenshot are mine. although the original IG posts belong to respective owners as cropped.

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