how do i resume?

 Hi, September is hereeee

and we know what time it isssss...its turning a year wiser is soon!

but lets not go there today.

Today, I wanna be serious and learn how to do resume / cv.

My sister shared me a vacancy post which I'm very interested in applying.

BUTT I have not done any resume making in a very long time and I don't want to mess this up. I would like to get the job! 🙏🙏🙏

So, I Google. and almost got myself scammed.

as always, we choose the ones on the first search page. I chose the second one. At first I thought I was looking at Resumer Templates but turned out it was like a Resumer creator? 

I almost typed out my name but I got suspicious. I saw that they have Twitter account soooo thats where I went and found these:

and their replies were very not convincing. Like, DM me to resolve? No thank you. 

What bothers me is how the website / twitter acct still up.

*shudders* lucky aku alum taip apa-apa.

I just want a sample to do my resume!

sigh.

oh well..I guess we gotta go manual now.

wish me luck gaiss...

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2 weeks of sad, and my July Bujo Theme

Hi.

First of all, I am tired.

Second of all, there's nothing I can do about it.

Which then leads me to being super upset. I couldn't even push myself to do anything else but willow in self pity. I couldn't open my journal to write down my feelings. I didn't even start my Bujo July Theme until 15th July! Imagine!

So, here's what's that look like:

I forgot who's July Theme inspired me to do mine but it wasn't AmandaRachLee. hmmm..let me just *check my History on youtube* Ok, it was from annika's leaf.

It was simple and I thought I could use a change; from drawing/coloring myself to using craft papers.

which I happened to have a lot of. 

(these two are the only one I have at the moment)

After I finished that I thought I'd be happy or temporarily so but I wasn't. 

My heart was still heavy and my eyes burned. 

to simply put, I am not happy. Not at all. Yeah I laugh out loud but only becoz I can't be upset in front of people. 

No one cares. 

No one listens.

It's not their problem.

It's mine.

and I'm ashamed to admit but my brain, it went dark. it still is. 

I'm aware of it going dark. I remind myself to not be. but it continues. 

I know people's gonna say "You're overreacting" "You're being dramatic" "it's all in your head" and I'm telling you, I am aware. I'm aware that maybe I am overreacting. Maybe I am being dramatic. Yes, it's all in my head. 

but explain this:

I was listening to EXO -  Power, the supposedly uplifting song in Kpop and one of my favorite song as well but why the hell was I thinking about is jumping of a bridge?

tell me what was that all about?

I imagine a better future, I can see them but at the same time, I'm not going anywhere. I'm stuck here. in this body. in this shell of a body. and I am not happy.

I. am. not. happy.

I. am. not.

Tell me where I can find help.

. . .

FRUSTRATING

MY GOSH!!!!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I SHOULD DO.

at time like this, I wish I have some IT background knowledge

😪

Why?

Because I noticed lately ..wait, not lately, it's been like this since I changed my blog template/design ...I lupa when but within this year plang..maybe awal tahun... hmm 🤔

anyway,

What I noticed was there is no 'newer post' and 'older post' at the bottom of a post.

But there's a widget that says 'popular post'

like, gurlll...we both know my blog ain't that popular. watchu playing at??

So, to fix this shiz, I go to my trusted internet buddy, Google.

I found this.

I followed the instructions to the T!

but 

what do you know, nothing happened.

atau pun aku yang inda paham instructions. 😂

My page continue to show none of the newer/older post buttons.

Like, why?

What makes you think it's ok to not include those 'links' at the bottom of the page?

W.H.Y.

I could search up more in the attempt to fix it

but I'm not gonna. coz

NOBODY AIN'T GOT TIME FOR THAT.

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