My Allergy

hi guys.

Updates.

My allergic reaction to cats.

back story:
Ever since I was little, We, as a family, have always had cats; house cats, stray cats outside, etc. 
In my teenage years, I began having this sneezing fit whenever I pet/hugged/played with cats
BUT the reaction subsides after I washed/blew my nose. I'll have blocked nose for awhile but in the end, I'll be fine and I even slept in one bed with the cats. it's like, I became immune.
At one point (the point when we had two house cats), my mom started saying, "Ko ani allergic kucing kali" coz this sneezing fit happened almost every time I played with cats. I blatantly stopped my mom by saying, "apa plang allergic yg dari damit (aku) tinggal sama kucing". and that was that of that conversation.

Fast forward:
by this point we have lived at our new home for 5 years and for that duration, our previously house cats have been living in their own house outside of our house (properly sheltered and comforted, don't worry). Meaning, I have never stayed in one room with any cats for longer than 15 minutes top. Sometimes I don't even see them for a whole day. Mind you, these are family aka my mom's cats, sooo she see/baby-ed them more often than I do.
anyway,
my sneezing fit reaction still exists but the moment I get away from their place, it usually stops. and that was that.


1st major incident.
I was at my sister's house. she has a house cat named Tiger. 

LOOK AT HIM!

I used to house-sit her house whenever they go vacation. and of course, sneezing fit will occur but after I do my clean-nose-under-running-water-wash-face-wash-hand routine, it'll stop. as always.
but for some reason, earlier this month, when I went to her house to hang out, my sneezing fit became a little severe? and all I did was pet si Tiger macam biasa kalau aku ke rumah durang. Like, what gives?
No matter how many times I blew my nose and washed it, the sneezing won't stop. I soon developed a blocked nose, headache and my upper teeth felt like it was about to fall off.
I knew it was the cat and I knew if the usual clean up routine didn't work, the best thing to do is to take myself out of that environment. So, I left my sister's house unusually early.
It was like I had a common cold. hence, when I get home, I took Panadol ActiFast before going to bed.
I was fine the next day.


2nd Major incident.
happened just last Monday at Zawir's. LOL
It was a mini birthday celebration for the sister. and I was invited.
as I arrived, the mom introduced their house cat to me.
The moment the cat was shown to me, I started having itchy nose and soon enough, my sneezing fit arrived. but that didn't stop me from playing with the cat! Like, it's so ranik and easily entertain, like, you have to play with it.

IMAGE NOT MINE

but the cat look similar to the real thing tho

The whole time, I tried to mask the irritation. LOL fail tho. Zawir thought it was the airconditioning. It was not bro. It was the cat.
Despite the reaction, I actually stayed sampai pukul 7 malam. hashtag stubborn. coz I really thought it would go away. Guess who is wrong~~? 
but really by that time, I really cannot tahan the feeling of my upper teeth about to fall off. So, sis balik.
When I arrived home, my eyes felt 'thick' and when I looked in the mirror, they were slightly puffy (no picture guys, you gotta take my word for it). I quickly clean up and eat my trusty Panadol ActiFast and within the next couple of hours, the symptoms subsides. except the blocked nose. that one took longer.
but unlike last time, the next day, I still have runny nose. my only worry now is people might be suspicious of me, what's with the corona virus issue and all. 

In conclusion, I declared myself allergic to cats now. Like, REALLY allergic to cats now. Dulu, bulih lagi ku cuba clean my nose and get myself ammune but I can no longer do that. Hashtag Faktur Umurrrrr.
I still love cats tho. I will still pet them. or gumas2. or param2. or pirik2. LOL I mean, cats have been with me my entire life! I can't just be without cats! don't be ridikulus.
Paksa belimit saja lah from now on.

BUT WHY THO?!

WHY NOW?

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been on both sides

hi guys!

let's discuss Marshmello & Anne-Marie - FRIENDS vs Westlife - Obvious.

I've been on both sides of this story. Yes, I see them as a story. 😂

When I first listened to FRIENDS, I understand it right away but didn't think too much of it. but few days ago, as my phone shuffled to the song again, I was like, "dam!" 

the lyrics was like, 
"We're nothing more than friends, You're not my lover, more like a brother...don't mess it up, talking that shit, only gonna push me away...Haven't I made it obvious, haven't I made it clear, want me to spell it out for you? ...We're just friends"
Like, there are people I wanted to dedicate this song to 😏

but also, at the same time, "dam!" I was reminded of the time I was on the other side. back in my teens. LOL

Westlife's Obvious read like this:
"We started as friends, but something happened inside me...You never seemed to notice me turning on my charm or wonder why I'm always where you are..I've made it obvious...Every time I asked you out, you never move past friendly...you never know how I stare when we're alone or wonder why I keep you on the phone"

basically, back in my teens, I was Westlife's Obvious and the guy probably was thinking Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS. but in my 30s, I'm Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS and the guy is insisting Westlife's Obvious.

been on both sides of this story. wow. just, wow. the realization hit me hard. must be the age factor? 😂😂

This realization also put things into perspectives. as in, I shouldn't be so mean about it. coz I have been on Westlife's Obvious side and I know how my heart aches over it. but being kind DOES NOT MEAN giving in tho. 
I think it's healthy to remind someone that we're just friends and I also think it's our right to be FIRM on reminding them that. and if firm means singing like Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS, then so be it.

here's the two songs for listening purposes

Marshmello&Anne-Marie - FRIENDS


Westlife - Obvious



tell me what other points you came up with listening to these two songs. let's discuss in the comment box below.

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Aging like a fine wine?

Hi guys!

first of, Happy 11th Anniversary to SHINee 🎉🎉🎉

second of all, in light of anniversary topic, I decided to discuss something related to how I'm aging. since you know, anniversary means another year past and another year you're growing older.

I went window shopping with my mom last week at Rimba Point. My mom wanted to check some ready made baju for Raya.
As we walked around, we came across a socks stall. I never knew that I was but I. LOVE. SOCKS. especially the cute printed ones. and you wouldn't believe how the socks game had been stepping up these past few years! *cough* kpop *cough*
the pricing is 1 for $5 and 3 for $12.
My mom got interested and I asked her to pick which one she likes as I went and choose mine. Ten guesses which one I choose.

I picked the one with the fries print first and my mom was, "inda kan katun". I stopped for a minute and replied, "why not?" while in my head I was thinking, what's wrong with picking such cute socks? they're just socks and no one really sees them. Is she calling me out for picking a socks that is not my age appropriate? Yes, I was so defensive by her comment.
but soon after that, I thought, maybe she thought i was picking a socks for her. LOL No, mam. this cute socks is for me. since, you know, 3 for $12.

From the above story, I was reminded of a story not too long time ago.

I was going out with c Zawir and he somewhat say the same thing, "macam kanak-kanak" in regards to a fashion choice I made. We were window shopping too at that time. I think.
I forgot what it was but I remember thinking, "so my outfit today is childish lah" or something along the line "I'm not dressing according to my age?"

Hmmm..i think it was about a shoe pick. I really could not remember.

So,

I'm 31, becoming 32 this year.

it's not like I don't want to dress my age or appropriate to my age but

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WORK IT TOOK TO DRESS DECENT?

I mean, i do try to dress nicely for work. Yes, I prefer wearing pants most of the time coz they make me feel skinnier than I actually am LOL.

but for weekends? I prefer to dress comfortably.

As far as I know, I do dress appropriately. I mean, have you seen these famos women? 

they are definitely much older than me and you're telling me I can't rock my dope white shoes?

What do you think? too much?

I mean, i feel like it is too much since I don't wear that on a daily basis. LOL but look at me, don't I owned that look?!

Hmmm..I don't know. I think my feelings got hurt. Not because people criticize my fashion choice but because people criticize my fashion choice.
you feel me?
I mentioned this a lot, everybody is different.
Yeah~ I did judged the two women every time I came across their IG post on my explore page wearing something "cool" but soon after, I would be thinking, "if a 'mom' can pull that off amazingly, I most definitely can too", you know, turned that negative judging ass of mine into a positive motivational thing instead.

Lagipun, what is age appropriate outfit for my age?
Am I not supposed to wear "cool" outfit?
or is it my size? That a size like me shouldn't be wearing that kind of outfit?
Is wearing a concert merchandise sweater not age appropriate?
Is wearing colorful socks not age appropriate? in what way?

Besides (this is just another way of saying 'Lagipun' without being repetitive LOL!), I'm 31 going 32. I'm not that old.

and I one hundo persen (100%) refused to dress like I'm an old lady.
why?
Because you only as old as you feel.
and I'm don't feel like I'm old yet.

True, I realized that I am growing old whenever I feel sleepy at an unappropriated time. coz apparently getting to bed early is an age factor.
but still, I don't feel like I'm 60 years old and must dress like a grandma.

As unfashionable as I am, I do want to dress 'my age'; whatever that means to other people. To me, as long as I don't show my gummy tummy, or fried chicken thigh, I'm all good. and I try so hard not to dress like a mom. coz I am not a mom yet.

WHY WOULD I WANT TO DRESS LIKE I'M OLD ANYWAYS?!

Even a mom dress more nicer than me.

GASP! A thought just hit me!

IS MY FASHION CHOICE UNFLATTERING TO ME?! ARE YOU SAYING MY FASHION CHOICE IS UGLY?!

OMFG!

i'm ugly.

ok, wait. calm the fuck down.

I still think I dress decent. My choices are fine. If in the eye of other people my outfit "look too young" for "my old face" then, that's their opinion. as far as I'm concerned, I've dressed myself appropriately.

So, you can put a sock up in your opinion. you too, mom. HAHAHAH

Ok. that is enough for today's rant. On SHINee anniversary too. sorry boys, my life does not revolve around you all the time.

😂

I hope you enjoy reading.

You the MVP.

until next time,
ciao~

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A/N: do you know what makes making a blog longer to compose and publish? the pictures attachment. Yes, the gambar2. Baik lagi menaip what's in your mind down ni, you can finish in a minute. but the pictures? especially when you thought of an old picture you took in the year you don't even remember? Good Luck.

Short and Simple

I was browsing, scrolling thru my old post on this blog

and

I realized how I have (had?) two styles; 
1. short and simple, 
and 
2. long and winding.

there were no in between.

LOL

I even dared to post just words. absolutely not a single picture attached.

Impressed!

So, what changed?

What makes me so stressful about making a post?

Why do I feel like I have to explain so much when I post a certain topic?

I was in my late teens / early twenties when I started.
is it the age factor?

If its about the amount of readers I have, its not that much of a difference from back then to now.

So, what gives?

Well,

what ever it is, I would really love to try and post something in its simplest of form.

yeah, sometimes things need to be explained but I hope I don't end up posting a three-pages essay. lol


That being said, 
I just want to say, thank you for being here, lovely readers.
You have no idea how much your time spent here means to me.

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