Showing posts with label Beautiful Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Beautiful Life. Show all posts

Wednesday, 26 February 2020

My Allergy


hi guys.

Updates.

My allergic reaction to cats.



back story:
Ever since I was little, We, as a family, have always had cats; house cats, stray cats outside, etc. 

In my teenage years, I began having this sneezing fit whenever I pet/hugged/played with cats
BUT the reaction subsides after I washed/blew my nose. I'll have blocked nose for awhile but in the end, I'll be fine and I even slept in one bed with the cats. it's like, I became immune.
At one point (the point when we had two house cats), my mom started saying, "Ko ani allergic kucing kali" coz this sneezing fit happened almost every time I played with cats. I blatantly stopped my mom by saying, "apa plang allergic yg dari damit (aku) tinggal sama kucing". and that was that of that conversation.


Fast forward:
by this point we have lived at our new home for 5 years and for that duration, our previously house cats have been living in their own house outside of our house (properly sheltered and comforted, don't worry). Meaning, I have never stayed in one room with any cats for longer than 15 minutes top. Sometimes I don't even see them for a whole day. Mind you, these are family aka my mom's cats, sooo she see/baby-ed them more often than I do.
anyway,
my sneezing fit reaction still exists but the moment I get away from their place, it usually stops. and that was that.



1st major incident.
I was at my sister's house. she has a house cat named Tiger. 


LOOK AT HIM!

I used to house-sit her house whenever they go vacation. and of course, sneezing fit will occur but after I do my clean-nose-under-running-water-wash-face-wash-hand routine, it'll stop. as always.
but for some reason, earlier this month, when I went to her house to hang out, my sneezing fit became a little severe? and all I did was pet si Tiger macam biasa kalau aku ke rumah durang. Like, what gives?
No matter how many times I blew my nose and washed it, the sneezing won't stop. I soon developed a blocked nose, headache and my upper teeth felt like it was about to fall off.

I knew it was the cat and I knew if the usual clean up routine didn't work, the best thing to do is to take myself out of that environment. So, I left my sister's house unusually early.
It was like I had a common cold. hence, when I get home, I took Panadol ActiFast before going to bed.
I was fine the next day.


2nd Major incident.
happened just last Monday at Zawir's. LOL

It was a mini birthday celebration for the sister. and I was invited.
as I arrived, the mom introduced their house cat to me.

The moment the cat was shown to me, I started having itchy nose and soon enough, my sneezing fit arrived. but that didn't stop me from playing with the cat! Like, it's so ranik and easily entertain, like, you have to play with it.

IMAGE NOT MINE
but the cat look similar to the real thing tho

The whole time, I tried to mask the irritation. LOL fail tho. Zawir thought it was the airconditioning. It was not bro. It was the cat.
Despite the reaction, I actually stayed sampai pukul 7 malam. hashtag stubborn. coz I really thought it would go away. Guess who is wrong~~? 
but really by that time, I really cannot tahan the feeling of my upper teeth about to fall off. So, sis balik.
When I arrived home, my eyes felt 'thick' and when I looked in the mirror, they were slightly puffy (no picture guys, you gotta take my word for it). I quickly clean up and eat my trusty Panadol ActiFast and within the next couple of hours, the symptoms subsides. except the blocked nose. that one took longer.
but unlike last time, the next day, I still have runny nose. my only worry now is people might be suspicious of me, what's with the corona virus issue and all. 



In conclusion, I declared myself allergic to cats now. Like, REALLY allergic to cats now. Dulu, bulih lagi ku cuba clean my nose and get myself ammune but I can no longer do that. Hashtag Faktur Umurrrrr.
I still love cats tho. I will still pet them. or gumas2. or param2. or pirik2. LOL I mean, cats have been with me my entire life! I can't just be without cats! don't be ridikulus.
Paksa belimit saja lah from now on.

BUT WHY THO?!

WHY NOW?

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Saturday, 19 October 2019

Updates!!

Hi guys,



Yes, I have been gone! 
I don't know if I am back coz I said that last time and I went back to being gone.
So.. ðŸ¤·

Life updates!
Obviously I'm still very active in real life (or I wouldn't be doing this post now ðŸ˜œ)



First update!
I turned 32 on 10th Sep. 

and I got myself a new car. 




"Wahhh so fancy~" I can already here you guys.
No. 
One, it's a loan. Two, I have a project for buying a new car (i'll update on this nanti 😉). and
Three, buying a new car is actually a long-time-coming thing. I wanted to 'buy' one back in July 2019 but becoz purchasing a car is a long time commitment (in Brunei, as far as I know, it's a loan for 7 years), I have to give a thorough consideration; will I be able to commit myself to it? how will my budget be once I have it? is it sustainable? that kind of considerations.
Some smart-ass will be thinking, "tapi ko single, apa yang kan ko ingau kn?" (but you're single, what are you worrying for?) Well, to that, I say, SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS!



which bring us to the next update; my thoughts on being Single and Worry-less.

For a long time, I've been hearing this "You're still single, no commitment" or "wait until you have family, lagi banyak kan dipikirkan" or "eh single, tapi stress"
💆
Ya Allah, give me the patience to remain classy in responding to this ricecooker!

For the longest time as well, I succumbed to feeling that yes, they were right. I'm single. I shouldn't be like this or I shouldn't feel like this. I should be carefree.
until..I come to my senses and brace!
Every one of us, every EACH of us live differently. I have the rights to worry just as much as the next person!
Sapa cakap aku single aku inda buleh stress?! who said that? who set that standard?!
My stress, my worry, or even my my-head-is-so-full-i-can't-brain-anymore, has nothing to do with me being single.
I don't understand how other people associate stress/worry/deep-thoughts with marital status.
THE FUCK WITH THAT SHIT!
Yes, aku single. but do you know, and I am speaking from my own experience here, that I have more commitment and responsibilities than that of a married couple?

Here's a chart to explain:




Ok, right. this chart only talk about MONEY and we all know money is not everything (everything else needs money tho ðŸ¤”)
BUT
trust me, when you don't have much, it becomes a struggle. AND I'm not saying I don't have enough. I have enough, ya Allah, alhamdulillah. 
BUT again.
My stress was never solely becoz how much money I don't have.
hmm how can I explain this better?
I'm not by any means "struggling" but imagine, you just have enough to get by and add that up with your environment; at home, at work, or even school! add those stress up, just try and add them up, and tell me ko inda stress? ðŸ˜•
Sedangkan, from where I sit, listening to your worry about money WHEN I KNOW you have so much more than me, just add work-load, sudah tah ko jadi a banshee.
So, please, imagine, aku single ani, managing home and personal finance on my own, dengan workplace yg very testing, ko rasa, aku will remain, stress-free? I don't have the emotional range of a teaspoon like Ron.

WHO SET THE STANDARD THAT EMOTIONS ARE ASSOCIATED TO YOUR MARITAL STATUS?!

On the contrary, pasal aku single ani tah membuatkan aku kana bagi so much responsibilities. becoz people thought I have NO commitment and they forgotten they have already given me so much before they add up a new one. like, hello? I'm drowning here.

Someone just said to me, "in other words, your the breadwinner" and only then I realized, "yeah, I am the breadwinner" becoz, portions of my money goes to the house and other expenses while other people's money goes to themselves. Like, damn.

Anyway, whatever, sis redha. sis moving on now.





Onward! to the final updates for this post; Depression.

We (when I said we, I meant the kpop world) were shocked once again with the news of dead by suicide.
Sulli, ex-member of f(x), artist under SM, died on 14th Oct by suicide and it was strongly due to the non-stop malicious comment towards her. 
For once, I was numb. becoz she was my least fav in f(x) and I had one post being so mean about her, and I was very upset with that but I can't erase what I have done and for that action, I am sorry, Sulli.
Even though I mentioned in this blog many times before that we will never know what's really going on within that company and what's really going on among themselves, I should have kept my frustration to myself or in my personal diary where only my eyes can see. I should have kept that comment offline. I am truly and deeply sorry, Sulli. my opinions are not your responsibility.
You don't deserve the hate. 
Yes, I only posted one heat post on her but that could be the one heat comment that triggers her. 
I feel responsible.

Currently, in the kpop world, they are petitioning the Sulli Act, an act to punish malicious comment towards celebrities, which they are tying to push for their something election in December 2019. I pray the bill will pass.
People were quick to mention our Jonghyun during this sad times but I am fine. 
After a few minutes updating myself with the news, I decided for myself that, it was better for me to not read so much into it anymore becoz, reading blames upon blames towards SM, towards her EX, towards the anti, won't bring her back. Damage is done. Only thing to do now, is to be a better person from now onward.

Depression is still a taboo topic in this part of the world. 
I have my fair share on that. which I decide from now onward, to never disclose to anyone anymore.
Nobody really care.






So, what do we learn from this post?


  1. turning 32 doesn't stop you from starting over with your life.
  2. Single people has worries. You, non-single, family person, have worries but at least you have your spouse to share them with. And if you FREAKIN rich heir, you don't have the rights WHATSOEVER to tell me I can't worry about shit. Go sit down, Gemma.
  3. Mean comments are mean no matter how well you can justify it. I'm gonna try and not do that anymore. 
  4. it's not hard to be kind.
  5. I am a strong person.
  6. Japan trip 2020 will be my motivation to stay sane. ...LOL!

Ok,
bye.


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Sunday, 23 July 2017

Beautiful Life

This is one of those long overdue post.

SHINee - Beautiful Life.



When I first heard this song, I fell in love with it right away.
I love it more when I learned that Onew wrote the lyrics. :P
But seriously, the song is very soothing and being the lazy person that I am, I haven't got the chance (until today) to check out the English translation.

all I know and assume is that this song is a beautiful, happy song.

Until today.

I have never been so fooled by a song in my entire life.

SERIOUSLY.

Kindly read below for the English Translation.
I borrowed it from klyrics.net :P 

SHINee – Beautiful Life English Translation

The alarm isn’t ringing
I’m alone again today
Can’t I see you next to me ever again?

You, who were like the dazzling weather
Your bright face
They are now parts of old memories
Saying I have one wish

In the picture on the table
You are smiling

Every day we kissed
And spent time together
But now it’s getting forgotten

Just one word, just one word
You can get angry and upset
Just one word
If I can go back
I would hold your hand
So you wouldn’t look back
Please just one moment
Just one word, just one word
Just one word, just one word

You used to lay on my lap
You said the light was so beautiful
They’re not leaving my head

Out of the many people
You shined the most
Everyone stared at you

The kiss on your red lips
Your warm hands and feet
They won’t leave me

Just one word, just one word
You can get angry and upset
Just one word
If I can go back
I would hold your hand
So you wouldn’t look back
Please just one moment
Just one word, just one word
Just one word, just one word

Your scent that comes over with the wind
Your cheek that I touch is so cold

I can’t believe it
I’m seeing you again

It’s a beautiful Beautiful Life
Oh oh It’s a beautiful

Just one word, just one word
You can get angry and upset
Just one word
If I can go back
I would hold your hand
So you won’t ever leave
Please just one moment

Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful Life
Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful Life
Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful Life
Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful Life


Like, why?

How is having this sorta heartbreak 'a beautiful life' ?????

Onew-ssi? WTH  (⊙︿⊙✿)

but other than that, I still love it.

I love how Minho has so many lines in this song and how beautiful Minho's voice can be too.
Onew's voice suit this song well...I mean, he did write the lyrics for this. xD
I think I love this song mostly because the lines are evenly contributed among the 5 members.

"This is SHINee Five, and we're right by your side"

. . .


a/n: Kpop is always a safe topic to post when you have nothing else to post. :P