been on both sides

hi guys!

let's discuss Marshmello & Anne-Marie - FRIENDS vs Westlife - Obvious.

I've been on both sides of this story. Yes, I see them as a story. 😂

When I first listened to FRIENDS, I understand it right away but didn't think too much of it. but few days ago, as my phone shuffled to the song again, I was like, "dam!" 

the lyrics was like, 
"We're nothing more than friends, You're not my lover, more like a brother...don't mess it up, talking that shit, only gonna push me away...Haven't I made it obvious, haven't I made it clear, want me to spell it out for you? ...We're just friends"
Like, there are people I wanted to dedicate this song to 😏

but also, at the same time, "dam!" I was reminded of the time I was on the other side. back in my teens. LOL

Westlife's Obvious read like this:
"We started as friends, but something happened inside me...You never seemed to notice me turning on my charm or wonder why I'm always where you are..I've made it obvious...Every time I asked you out, you never move past friendly...you never know how I stare when we're alone or wonder why I keep you on the phone"

basically, back in my teens, I was Westlife's Obvious and the guy probably was thinking Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS. but in my 30s, I'm Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS and the guy is insisting Westlife's Obvious.

been on both sides of this story. wow. just, wow. the realization hit me hard. must be the age factor? 😂😂

This realization also put things into perspectives. as in, I shouldn't be so mean about it. coz I have been on Westlife's Obvious side and I know how my heart aches over it. but being kind DOES NOT MEAN giving in tho. 
I think it's healthy to remind someone that we're just friends and I also think it's our right to be FIRM on reminding them that. and if firm means singing like Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS, then so be it.

here's the two songs for listening purposes

Marshmello&Anne-Marie - FRIENDS


Westlife - Obvious



tell me what other points you came up with listening to these two songs. let's discuss in the comment box below.

. . .

Wonderful Life

Take a look around and see the world we think we know

Then look closer

There's more to life than meets the eye

A beauty to behold

It's all much bigger than we know

It's only just beginning to unfold

So let it all unfold

Far beyond all reason in your mind

There's a world mysterious

There for you to find

All these questions

That we always have

All we are is curious

There's nothing wrong with that

So go 'round every corner

Search every part of the sky

'Cause a life that's full of wonder

Is a wonderful life

Dig beneath the surface

Find the lessons there to learn

And then dig deeper

Feed your intuition

Don't leave any stone unturned

Be the seeker of the truth

Listen when you hear it calling you

You know it's calling you

Far beyond all reason in your mind

There's a world mysterious

There for you to find

All these questions that we always have

All we are is curious

There's nothing wrong with that

So go 'round every corner

Search every part of the sky

'Cause a life that's full of wonder

Is a wonderful life

Is a wonderful life

Is a wonderful life

Is a wonderful life

And the answers aren't that far away

Look closer

Look closer

Look closer

Look closer

From: Smallfoot

Sang by: Zendaya

Hesitation

Why do you spend all your time 

Watching life pass you by;

Hanging on to your pride?

All that you can anticipate 

Hoping all your mistakes will somehow fade away

Why the hesitation 

Gotta' stop procrastinating;

Why the hesitation;

You can pick your destination

And the risk is so worth taking

Your heart will never be the same

Giving up drama's days;

Letting go uneasy ways

When will you ever realize

Letting go all your lies;

All the pain will subside

What are you gonna' do with this

It's either hit or miss

You know the answer now;

I know you hurt inside;

I know the reason why

Don't wait a moment;

Come on and give you heart away

Why the hesitation

Gotta' stop procrastinating

You're only wasting time Hesitating

. . .

Stacie Orrico - Hesitation

Rose-colored boi

found via Google

by Noxmoony on DeviantArt

Rose-colored boy

I hear you making all that noise

About the world you want to see

And oh, I'm so annoyed

'Cause I just killed off what was left of the optimist in me

I'm right at the end of my rope

A half-empty girl

Don't make me laugh, I'll choke

Just let me cry a little bit longer

I ain't gon' smile if I don't want to

Hey man, we all can't be like you

I wish we were all rose-colored too

I want you to stop insisting that I'm not a lost cause

'Cause I've been through a lot

Really all I've got is just to stay pissed off

Leave me here a little bit longer

I think I wanna stay in the car

I don't want anybody seeing me cry now

You say "We gotta look on the bright side"

I say "Well maybe if you wanna go blind"

You say my eyes are getting too dark now

But boy, you ain't ever seen my mind

Just let me cry a little bit longer

I ain't gon' smile if I don't want to

Hey, man, we all can't be like you

I wish we were all rose-colored too

. . .

Challenge Accepted

안녕 여러분

in light of my (other) current obsession,
I am challenging myself to learn some of my favorite korean songs.

the real challenge will be *drum rolls*
to only learn them reading the hangul lyrics.

Yup!
that is right!
ONLY the korean lyrics.

I'm still a very slow hangul reader but I'm pretty sure I can do it.

The first song I learned was Taeyeon's Fine 
took me about a week to finally get the hang of reading the lyrics with the singing LOL
(start Mar 25th, so-so mastered Apr 4)
of course that one I learned with the help of the romanized lyrics too.

what I learned (berapa banyak perkatan 'learn' dahhhh) from that experienced is that
the romanized lyrics confused me. 
coz I know how it supposed to sound (of course with the help of listening to the song too)
and the romanized spelling does not spell like how you supposed to pronounce it.
I'm not saying the romanized is not helping. it helped A LOT. 
I'm saying its annoying when you confidently read the hangul and your eyes went down reading the romanized lyrics and it spelled different than what you were pronouncing.
*buat muka annoyed and mata ke atas*

Thus, I decided to challenge myself to learn my next song, BoA - 옆 사람 (Stand By) full on hangul lyrics.

its a ballad. slow song.

you bet yo ass I can't read and sing Korean songs when its upbeat/laju/fast-beat.

antah apa ku baca, antah apa ku sabut. (￣。￣)

HAHAHAHAHA

take it one step at a time.

Plus,

it's not like I'm going for a competition with this *air* talent *quote* 

¯\(©¿©) /¯

I'm just surprise that I'm not trying to learn SHINee songs first.

I guess I'm more comfortable singing girlie songs at the moment.

I mean, I'm not saying SHINee don't have good ballad to hafal, I'm just saying, I don't want to be greedy. LOL 
●_●
seriously, I have no reason why their songs isn't on my list of songs to hafal, ok?

So...

. . .

After Laughter

Just when I thought there were no more good lyricist in the world,
Paramore came out with this album.

Let's read the lyric for Hard Times below:


All that I want
Is to wake up fine
Tell me that I'm alright
That I ain't gonna die
All that I want
Is a hole in the ground
You can tell me when it's alright
For me to come out

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don't know how I even survive
Hard times
Hard times

And I gotta get to rock bottom

Walking around
With my little rain cloud
Hanging over my head
And it ain't coming down
Where do I go?
Gimme some sort of sign
You hit me with lightning!
Maybe I'll come alive

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don't know how I even survive
Hard times
Hard times

And I gotta hit rock bottom

Tell my friends I'm coming down
We'll kick it when I hit the ground
Tell my friends I'm coming down
We'll kick it when I hit the ground
When I hit the ground


Aren't they genius?

I love it! it's like they know what's in my head or something.

psychic!

Hashtag Raven

Now let's watch the MV



Kinda rugged right this concept?

I'm living for it.

Hashtag GOPARAMORE

. . .

Beautiful Life

This is one of those long overdue post.

SHINee - Beautiful Life.



When I first heard this song, I fell in love with it right away.
I love it more when I learned that Onew wrote the lyrics. :P
But seriously, the song is very soothing and being the lazy person that I am, I haven't got the chance (until today) to check out the English translation.
all I know and assume is that this song is a beautiful, happy song.

Until today.

I have never been so fooled by a song in my entire life.

SERIOUSLY.

Kindly read below for the English Translation.
I borrowed it from klyrics.net :P 

SHINee – Beautiful Life English Translation

The alarm isn’t ringing
I’m alone again today
Can’t I see you next to me ever again?

You, who were like the dazzling weather
Your bright face
They are now parts of old memories
Saying I have one wish

In the picture on the table
You are smiling

Every day we kissed
And spent time together
But now it’s getting forgotten

Just one word, just one word
You can get angry and upset
Just one word
If I can go back
I would hold your hand
So you wouldn’t look back
Please just one moment
Just one word, just one word
Just one word, just one word

You used to lay on my lap
You said the light was so beautiful
They’re not leaving my head

Out of the many people
You shined the most
Everyone stared at you

The kiss on your red lips
Your warm hands and feet
They won’t leave me

Just one word, just one word
You can get angry and upset
Just one word
If I can go back
I would hold your hand
So you wouldn’t look back
Please just one moment
Just one word, just one word
Just one word, just one word

Your scent that comes over with the wind
Your cheek that I touch is so cold

I can’t believe it
I’m seeing you again

It’s a beautiful Beautiful Life
Oh oh It’s a beautiful

Just one word, just one word
You can get angry and upset
Just one word
If I can go back
I would hold your hand
So you won’t ever leave
Please just one moment

Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful Life
Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful Life
Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful Life
Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful Life


Like, why?

How is having this sorta heartbreak 'a beautiful life' ?????

Onew-ssi? WTH  (⊙︿⊙✿)

but other than that, I still love it.

I love how Minho has so many lines in this song and how beautiful Minho's voice can be too.
Onew's voice suit this song well...I mean, he did write the lyrics for this. xD
I think I love this song mostly because the lines are evenly contributed among the 5 members.

"This is SHINee Five, and we're right by your side"

. . .


a/n: Kpop is always a safe topic to post when you have nothing else to post. :P

In the End, It doesn't even matter

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you


- In The End, Linkin Park.

. . .

I'm only human

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days

If that's what you want

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh

If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it

But I'm only human 
and I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
I crash and I break down

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of the world
If that's what you need

I can do it

But I'm only human

Just a little human

I can take so much

Until I've had enough

. . .

from the song Human by Christina Perri.

Feelings

Remember when I said I was a little down these past few months?
well..I just heard an old song and thought, "this describe EXACTLY how I feel"

Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life

lets quote some of the verses:

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place,

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you?

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you're screaming?

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more

Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like

No, you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

I know, such deep shit.

but really, this is how I feel.
I'm not even exaggerating.
the one coded in blue is how I think of other people.
I know, that is very negative of me. and very unfair to other people coz I don't know what they've gone through to be what they are just as they don't know what I'm going through.

I don't know since when but I've been saying that I am self-motivated person.
today, I realized that maybe I got that from doing my CV.
which leads me to realize that I really am not (a self-motivated person).
I just thought that I am.

I feel sorry for myself
coz no one else going to be

#ToughLove
#StrongHeart
#ToughLuck

but I guess, that's just life.

a/n: I know I said I'm gona stop posting things like this one but I think its worth the share. maybe this post will motivate other people to be better at controlling their feelings and thoughts than I do.

. . .

SM released. and My opinion on it.

I didn't mean to start of my post (after a week of absence) with this; but its about the only thing I can get going on...hahaha please just beruang (bear) with me on this one.

First off,
Jonghyun 2nd Mini Album.
a song called 02:34 is one of the song that have been played most among the 9 songs on the album.



The first song of this album, called The End of the Day, was actually very Jonghyun-i~ and I like it.



and this song, Like You, deserves a mention. not because I like it but because I literally laugh out loud at one point coz I thought I heard him say 'fcuk u' (not the one during the chorus. the one around 1:09-1:12 is the start. you can hear it again thru out the song) hahahaha
have a listen



and the rest of the songs in this album are just ..I'm not crazy about them.  
Maybe it's the music. as Kris (ex-member of EXO) once said, "Naega style aniya".
I know I should be more constructive with my 'criticism' but since I'm no expert (and I'm dead lazy kan berhujah or ber-debate) that's about the only polite way to say it.
that low key, breathy way of singing is also Naega Style Aniya 
I admit that I'm always so proud when I see on some article that says Jonghyun wrote the lyric of this songs and Jonghyun write and compose a song for other artists but that doesn't mean I have to like it, right? I am still entitle to my own opinion and feelings.
I listen to music to get my mind off things, and most of Jonghyun musics make me feel uncomfortable. Not because of the lyrics (coz God knows I don't understand Korean) but just the way it was 'presented'. I don't know eh cemana kan explain lagi. Go figure it out yourselves. but if you happened to like Jonghyun songs, good for you. Jonghyun made this album for you. you don't need to bash me. I still bought his original as a way of supporting his career. even though I'm just one person and may seems like I don't contribute much, the Emperor from Mulan said, 'A single grain of rice can tip the scale. One man maybe the difference between victory and defeat'. LOL nah ko! sampai Mulan ku bawa kemari ani...jua lagi aku inda making my point...hahaha

and btw, his album 'skin' is literally no skin at all. there are no Jonghyun face anywhere.
these are some of the photos from the booklet;

 I thought, "He got it wrong. this is Onew's. His should be a puppy"

this is pretty. almost like Alice in Wonderland theme. Mad-Hatter-ly.

Second off,
Taeyeon 1st Mini Album
fav song? I 



I listened and watched the mv at the same time. My initial reaction was touched. or sebak di dada. or something like that. I hate Taeyeon's acting. but the rest of the mv with the song reminds me of Ireland. I don't know why. maybe it's the green-field scene with kambing. I don't know. it just reminds me of Ireland.
and I've never been to Ireland, mind you. I mostly ever seen glimpse of it from Westlife's DVD footage. So, maybe it just reminds me of Westlife and ultimately of Ireland too.
I like the entire album. the songs choice fits Taeyeon's voice (in my opinion). music wise is well received by my ears and brain. 
But her live performance sucks. and I'm not even sorry for that. She could've done so much better. I don't know what she's trying to hide or why she's holding back. she can do better and I hope that she will. 

annddd
there ya go.
my me-making-an-effort-to-post today.

this post just shows just how you can never judge people from the outside. We will never know what's going on inside their head.
Like me; I LOVE SHINee but I can't seem to kid myself to go gaga over Jonghyun's music releases. and Taeyeon, I have been feeling annoyed with her (all the other SNSD members, really) ever since the Jessica's Cast Out drama. So, I was surprised when I fell in love with her album.

you can never know.

. . .

Close To Me

Close To Me by BoA

taken from her Shout It Out single.

Coz I am jobless and hating my job (plus a certain someone) to death (╹◡╹)凸

I am making myself busy by trying to memorize this song by the end of this week.

This song was supposed to be easy because it has so much English that I don't understand why is it not in English saja? щ（ﾟДﾟщ）

But it's not easy. I'm always off key during the chorus (not saying I wasn't during any other part of the song; it's just I am more off-key-err during the chorus). and I really don't know how I else I should do it.

I only just realize that I actually have the minus one (meaning the karaoke version or on the official Track List says 'Close To Me (Inst)' Inst being instrument only) version of this song! Now I can record myself (as I usually do when I'm "memorizing" a song) and pretended that I'm in some kind of a studio, recording my new single (n˘v˘•)¬ 
Currently I've recorded two and I'm not very happy with the outcome. 

Practice makes perfect they said.

But I say, lets just give it a rest for tonight and try again ...say, next month.

ahahahaha

So for now, enjoy. 

Here's the romanized lyrics for you to read. 

Let's memorize together! xD

Sitting alone kabe ni motare reminiscing

Taiyo falling thru kigi no suki ma kara

Now I'm so sorry Konnanimo afure teru

Amai kaori ni

kizuite you're my something I'll be next to you

Am I getting too close? I just want you to stay

Zutto isshoda yo and don't go away

you're always here with me Ima, ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide

Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni

Now I'm getting you close to me

Mayoikonda koneko no yo It's embarrassing

Kako mo, ima mo, mirai everyday

I'm looking at pictures and know you and then donna ni datte

Aoku tada so clear

Kizuite you're my something I'll be next to you

Am I getting too close? I just want you to stay

Zutto isshoda yo and don't go away

You're always here with me imma ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide

Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni

now I'm getting you close to me

You are the sin, you are the light

You are in my perfect picture, here I am

mo hitostu can I ask

Oh am I getting too close

I just want you to stay zutto isshoda yo and don't go away

you're always here with mr imma ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide

Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni

and now I'm getting you close to me (close to me)

oh I'll be next to you now I'm getting you close to me

Here's also the live version

I have a love/hate thing with this live version. i hate it coz she used too much nostril voice. I love it coz towards the end when she builds up the song, it's her awesome live voice that made me love her so much! 
but no matter, you gotta respect BoA for getting where she is now. I know she deserves it. I'm not really a 'constant' fan of hers but from where I've been following her up until now, I've seen her hard work and versatility. I just hope she will stop trying so hard to break it into the US (as in becoming English). She is great where she is now, she should focus on that. I'm not saying she shouldn't try at all. I'm saying stop 'trying too hard' and lose focus. that's all I'm saying.
Remember her Make Your Move movie? BoA was the female lead and at one point the movie was just trying so hard to make this Aya's character 'awesome' like she can switch languages without trouble; speaking Japanese to her friend and then spoke Korean with her brother in the same conversation. It's just, maybe not the best way to sell a movie? I don't know. 
Critical Analyzing maybe one of the Sept characteristics but Music/Movie business isn't really my forte so, imma shut dap now. 

Maybe I should try and stay focus instead ~(◠﹏⊙✿)

. . .

It's not fair, is it?

Why do good things happened to bad people?

Bad people don't deserve it.

Why do bad things happened to good people?

Good People don't deserve it.

A1 - Good Things, Bad People.