TGIF: Throw back 14th Sep 2016

HELLO!

I think, I need to reconsider about doing that post about my Japan trip.

butt

I usually ended up talking/typing too much.
I'm afraid that bores people to death

*cringe*

I'll think about it lagi lah.

for now, I wana share this photo.

this was taken by a guy (with a backpack, kinda like the one used for hiking and stuff) on our way up the Inari Mountant, who asked us, "are you really going to go up mountain in flip flops?" and I, with so much exhilaration said, "yeah!"

in all honesty, we (Buzz and I) wasn't planning at all. 
I myself didn't know yg we were at the start of the climb!
I was just trying to get rid of the crowds.
I thought, the higher I get, the less crowded it'd become and we could take photos more peacefully.

So, there we were climbing the stone steps, a step a time (REALLY a step a time coz that 'flip flop' is really quite a challenge if you are not careful), and suddenly this guy started talking to us.
I don't remember much now but I remember him asking the cost of the Kimono to which I nervously replied, "around 3000 yen". 
and then he asked to take a picture of us (the above picture) coz he wondered if we already taken proper picture of just us two.
at first he took one with his phone and then he offered to take one with my phone coz I had mine on my hand at the time.
and then he asked if we really serious going to top with just flip flop. again, I answered yes.
and he hurriedly says his thanks (coz his other friends already ran pass him) and wish us luck with our flip flops. 
as he ran up the steps I shouted, "you too!" to which he turned back one last time, chortling or laughing and continue his ran up the mountain.

What I love most about that moment was, my relief feeling.
I voiced out my gratefulness to Buzz right away.
I told her, that's the longest conversation I have with a stranger. 
in English!
We were on our 6th day in Japan, and that guy reminds me that I can speak English properly and people understand me.
Pasal the last five days, I've been communicating in VERY broken English and often frustrated with myself for not being able to speak Japanese.

CAUTION: I'm not saying my English is great (as you can see from my Grammatical mistake on all of my post), I'm just saying it felt good to speak to a stranger, with my second language, and he understands it, without me struggling to make myself understood. 
that is all.

When we finally back at our hotel, I search for this guy on Instagram, but of course, that mission fail.
coz, I don't know what I should be searching for. 
I search for our photo with the hashtag FushimiInariShrine but do you know how many thousand people uses that hashtag?
let me tell you.
TERLALU BANYAK!
So, I gave up.

I regret not being brave enough to ask to take picture of him or with him too.
I couldn't even remember his face.

I guess, thank you sir! 
for the small talk. 
for taking proper picture of us two. 
I also hope that you are not a psycho or a creep. 
I pray that you are genuinely a good and nice person.

. . .

a/n: I am inspired to make another post  ≧◡≦

In the End, It doesn't even matter

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you


- In The End, Linkin Park.

. . .

Hello December the 10th

Hi guys~
What is up?

I know~
there I go again, neglecting my blog for almost a month.

LOL

not even sorry at this point.

hahaha

Seriously.

Apart from being overly exhausted from work, I just didn't have the energy to bring myself to compose a post here. Even when I do, I chose to just lay on my bed, scroll throw my IG, laughing at some crazy shit people posted, etc. you get the drift.

now, here we are.

to kick of my first post of the month,
I wana share with you guys the new song I found via youtube

Jojo - FAB. (feat Remy Ma)




*insert laughing with tears here*

Fake Ass Bitches. there goes your FAB feel.

I don't know how I got there but I was actually looking up for her other song, Fuck Apologies, music videos. Fuck Apologies was introduced to me by cBestie, Zoey deChanel. Thanks bruh




Some of you might not know,
but let me tell you a little bit about Jojo

She shot to fame with her debut song 'Leave (Get Out)' in 2004.



and 

the second best song of her (at least to me) was 'Too Little Too Late' which was released in 2006.




after that she was somewhat, gone.

and years later baru I found out yg she had record label battle thingy going on.

I guess the battle's over now and she is releasing her long awaited album called 
Mad Love.

I don't know about other songs from this new album but FAB is my current favorite :)

I was looking thru the song list on itunes and more than 3 of her songs are marked as 'E' which i think means explicit. hahaha

welp. maybe she was angry when she wrote her songs. *shrug*

anyway,
bonus video
coz lupa ku yg aku suka this song too. hahah from her first album, Jojo.
Baby, it's You (feat Bow Wow)




. . .

my 8th anniversary was 2 days ago and I didn't reach my goal of posting 1000 posts.
but it's ok. it's just a number.
I would like to thank all my readers; especially the silent ones. you're the best.
Thank you especially to Jessica too for leaving comments often, ;) appreciate it.

and 

here's to another 8 years.

*throws confetti*

. . .

Pressies!!

tenth of August

a month until my actual birthday

and

29 days until my Japan trip.

Excited and Nervous at the same time.

not a very comfortable feeling to have :S

BUTT

that is not why this post is made.

this post is dedicated to 

first,

MY BELOVED SISTER! hashtag KakaKuSayang hashtag LOL

She bought me the Harry Potter eighth (script) book as an early birthday present.

initially she wanted to buy me this via bookdepository.com coz she's buying 'academic' books there but since I couldn't stand the idea yg someone who is isn't a Potterhead, showing it off on their IG like they actually read the previous seven books when in reality they were just watching the movies, thus I gotta have the book NOW! (My sister's reaction to this reasoning? 'Oba polangg')

So, my sister bought me the book.

kekeke

thanks ka!

and also, I feel the need to mentions this:

the fastest 14 likes I got this year

woohoo!!

second,

my boss.

She told me not to 'blab' but I'm gona thank her still

I was about 'done' but when she explained to us of why she gave us this, I thought, well, there are some truth in that and its the thoughts that counts.

So, thank you boss. and thank you for saying what you said.

I feel a tat bit better.

In conclusion,

it's not my birthday 

but heck I love presents!

whether or not its meant for my bday.

. . .

Yaayyerrrr

I finally caught up with my August Challenge 
and just in time too.

D27: Comic

who doesn't read Doraemon when they were young? I know someone who still reads them to this day. v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

D28: A Memory

this was that one memory that I could not really remember other than it's a very funny one. Zoey and Kuch would remembered. We laughed so hard at that time.

Another thing yg I remembered was I wanted to be sick so bad!

(and I did get sick the next day LOL!)

To those who do not know; when you combine Durian with any carbonated drinks it makes your stomach grumble and for me it made me had a 'homemade' diarrhea. 

LOL!!! x10!!!!

D29: Embarrassing Moment

well.. I don't like reliving my most embarrassing moment. it usually resurfaces when I was about to fall to sleep. I'm telling you, it wasn't a pleasant feelings. So, for me to try and draw those moments is really a big nonononononononononononono (x infinity)

D30: Loved Ones

It's not really a 'enough said' coz nothing is ever gona be 'enough said' for the ones you love.

D31: Banner to Congratulate yourself for being able to complete this challenge

YAYYER! ♪┏ ( ･o･) ┛♪┗ (･o･ ) ┓♪┏(･o･)┛♪

the lightness I feel in my heart and in my head when I finally finished that banner.

Thank you for a fulfilling August, Esma. you awesome! thank you for this. it has been awhile since I last had a goal to achieve. So, with this finish, I feel happy. and of course, relief. hahahah

maybe in September I can concentrate with my Shoot Straight story?

. . .

Kim Jonghyun part 2

In the middle of planning this post, I suddenly feel guilty.
I didn't bother doing this kind of 'promotion' for the other two SHINee members who had debuted as solos; Key and Taemin.

I guess, I didn't hate Jonghyun as much as I thought. hahaha besides, he promote himself well on his Twitter and IG account. (Yes, 'himself'. he fanboyed over himself like mad ever since the news about him doing a solo came out)

this post is mostly about me posting out images I 'screenshot' that I find very funny and completely obnoxious of Jonghyun. hahaha

So, here goes.

keymkeybum comments is like on the dot and sad.very very sad. LOL

 but then he became human (hahah) and thank everyone.

and then on the 8th Jan (i think) he had his Showcase which someone posted something I can really relate.

hahaha deep.

these are a couple of extracts of interviews which had many Shawols aww-ing.

and a fan comment

Minho and Taemin was there. I don't know where Key was. Onew was in Singapore with SuJu's leader Leeteuk.

He's a very sweet person to be thanking people non-stop like that. you should've seen my newsfeed. it's flooded with his obnoxiousness and humbleness. I didn't even know those two can be combine in one sentence! That's just Jonghyun for you. our Bling Bling Jonghyun.

 

I hope I can catch his performance on Music Bank live next week. I wanna see his obnoxious face. live. 

LOL

I can't wait for my copy of the album to arrive. Not exactly kan listen to the song. just. looking forward to the photos. 

BAHAHAHA!

ok bye.

A/N: it's been a while since I last fangirling over Kpop. this is fun. xD

. . .

10th Sep

I have turned 27!!!

no, i wasn't that excited but I'm sure as hell not going to deny it anymore.

LOL
anyhoo..

utk memulakn cerita, I just wana share a short version of how my day went on during the 10th of Sep.

it didn't start off well. I spent half my morning at the workshop 

coz my car broke down the night before. but even that wasn't all bad; I finished reading my book The Moment Collector by Jodi Lynn Anderson that day (which is a very rare accomplishment these days).
and since it was my birthday, my family members were generous and gave me money as birthday present, as a way to pay for my broken (now fixed) car. I can stop saying 'alhamdulillah'. I was somewhat lucky that day despite the broken (now fixed) car. SO thank you family members! I love you!

then, during dinner, I was given a birthday surprise by two beloved friends; Bazilah and Zawir. I cried. and I got lovely presents from them too. thank you lovelies.

pastu, we spent some 'wasting time till 1am' time at the empire. did you know you can just walk in there eventhough you are not guest at the hotel? No? well, now you do. 

all in all, it was a good birthday. I wouldn't wanna have it any other way.

thank you all.

a/n: my birthday present to my self came early; Harry Potter diary and a Anchor casing (bought from eBay). Love it. xD

 

. . .

and there's another two

Shane Filan made his solo debut last year with You and Me album.

and earlier this year, another two Westlife members; Mark Feehily and Kian Egan, are about to come out with their on solo album.

Hashtag EXCITED

Honestly, I've always thought Mark would be the first to come out with a solo album. 

*sigh dreamily* if only  they decided one day that they would make a joined concert together with Nicky Byrne as their witty Host. Hashtag WISHFULTHINKING

Well, one can only dream so much.

all in all, I'm so looking forward for their solo debut. I imagined Kian's style would be all rocknroll while Mark's would be all Prince+JamesBrown(-theDancing) kinda music. (Shane's so country! and so perfect as ever! fangirl mode)

All the best my boys!!

A/N: ECSTATIC

. . .

was I harsh?

Hey there.
yeah, it's me again.

Today, I've decided to put my plan into action; Removing photos of me from FB. esp the ones yg I'm not wearing tudung.

I even asked my closest of friends to do it on their accounts too. I mean, I can't remove them pictures if I'm not the one who uploaded them.

Of course, most people are supportive and reacted instantly. while, others, nyeh.

I think I hurt someone today and I can't even explain to them 'why'.

I mean, I can. but I don't know eh.

when I said 'esp the ones yg aku inda betudung', does that not make sense? can't you figure out why I want them remove? It's nothing to do with you or against you, it's about me. and tani sama2 Islam, inda kan inda teklik? especially when you treat FB like your everyday newspaper. Inda kan inda membaca post2 urg pasal agama atu?

Sigh. it upsets me that people thought I just want those pictures remove because I don't treasure the memories. 
WHAT. ARE. YOU. TALKING. ABOUT.
OF COURSE I DO!

but it's not how much affection you show me on FB that counts! it's how much you show me outside of FB. 

I've said it once and I'm going to say this again, FB tu tempat mengambang saja tu.

and that's why I want them pictures of me not wearing tudung removed.

I know it's a lot of work and a lot of hassle but believe me, this will benefit all of us. 

So, once again, THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE! I LOVE YOU! and sorry if I made you do some mini scavenger hunting today. kekeke I really appreciate this! A LOT!

. . .

He shouldn't have

went on a movie 'outing' with a colleague last couple of weeks. Lelaki. and just us two.

at first, I thought, nyeh normal outing, mcm sama cZawir.

but as soon as we met at the agreed meeting place, boy was I wrong.

ok, maybe I am reading too much into this but there were serious 'hitting on' that night. I wont go into details but it was so creepy and embarrassing to say the least.

If he agreed that that night was just a normal 'colleague' movie outing, he shouldn't;

• Suggested to me that I should wear a shortlegged coverall with knee-high socks when I was wearing a longsleeve tshirt and bertudung. Excuse me? were you embarass about my appearance? I said I wouldn't read too much into it but it is still offensive.
• He also shouldn't have suggested how I can cover up before going out of the house and changed once outside. Because, I may not be that close with my mom but we have an unspeakable trust between us. and i have never deceived her that way.
• Let me carry the tray of food from the counter to our seats. I know. to some, maybe this is nothing. but to me, it's THAT big of a deal.
• Hide the fact that he was not officially broken off his engagement. (I know he was engaged. I heard rumors that he wasn't anymore and before the movie outing, I asked him 'tunang mu ok inda?' to which he shook his head and I didnt press on becoz I don't want to seem insensitive about the subject. You know, mana tau ia broken hearted kh, bru di putusnya tunang kh. but stupid me! I should've known better. 'Org Gila' said the same thing, didn't he? and he didn't actually broke it off, did he? JUST. STUPID.) and had me guarded the whole night. scared that I would be a victim of 'kana tampar mengajut' and called 'perampas tunang orang' or something. I was mostly embarass about this part. more embarrass than when I was carrying the tray. ARGH! MEN ARE SO STUPID!
• have treated me like I was that easy. coz, I would've kick your sorry ass, if you thought that your sap story about your relationship would make me all sorry and all over you. 
• have make me feel so stupid about myself. Coz, I am not stupid.

But most of all, I shouldn't have agreed to go out with him in the first place. 

I'm not gona again. especially when he kept on bragging about how he didn't approach the girl and it was her who approach him. and that I was offering him to watch the movie instead of the other way round. I reminded him, of course, that it was his idea, not mine. 

ARGH! what. a. duche!

thank you man, for making me feel so stupid.

this should be a reminder to all that, don't be like me. Ok? I trust people too easy despite me being guarded and all. just do what Professor Moody told us to do, "Constant Vigilant!"
 
why can't genuinely good man ever happened to me??

. . .

Friends

Met an old friend last week. it felt good that we could just fall back into conversation like we never parted for a very long time.

and at some point of that coversation, she admitted that she envied the circle of friends I have. and I told her, I envied her for having a new circle of friends. to which she replied, "But they never last".

I sat there, shock with realization, for a second. I totally agree with her.

Her expression was something and made me thankful of what I have. When she wishes to be a part of our circle, I wish I grew out of mine.

Mr. Fletcher was right. "You win some, You lose some". I may have lost in the number of friends I have but the ones I have means so much more than just a number.

So, what I'm trying to say, is that, I love you guys!! *emotional* Like, SERIOUSLY!

I would love to mention names but you know who you are. :)

and thank you for always being there for me.

YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!!

. . .

Thank You Training organizers!!

I'll be having a Team Building Training today (18th) and tomorrow (19th).

 and it's an outside Training as well.

YEEHAAA!! inda payah masuk opis. 

and on Friday 22nd, I'll be having another training; Handling Customer Complaint. 

another YEEHAAA!!

so, basically, I'd only be working for two days this week.

*A VERY BROAD SMILE*


. . .

another one

finally decided to reactivate my facebook.

one, psl I need to keep the Sungkai Out with SCi2 punya pictures.

two, because of my Tiny Village.

I need the Friend Token. which I can only get from inviting friends thru FB, SMS or EMAIL. since aku inda akan me-SMS or me-EMAIL urg psl game, baik th FB sja, right? since it's so easy and well known(??? lol!)

So, in the end, I managed to collect some tokens

and tadaaa!!

I upgraded my Hotel and Mail Post.

*Happy Smile*

THANK YOU FACEBOOK!

Thanks, Zana

I've always wanted of a token of Strawberry Shortcake.

Zana bought it arah McD, a Happy Meal goodies. and she gave it to me.

katanya, as a kenang-kenangan when she's not around nanti. (she's leaving BBB soon to further her studies. Good Luck Zana!)

awu, ku ampai dh dOpis, kenangan ku bersama mu. ahaha

but really, thanx man! (KO tah bini2 paling hengsem dOpis ah. xP)

. . .

I hate you, Fahrul

but in reality, I was just SUPER envious him.

why?

Because he went to the SMTown Concert in Seoul, Korea on the 18th Aug. 

SMTOWN CONCERT I TELL YOU!!

not just the concert.

he even went to the SM.Art Exhibition in Coex. tsk. the nerve of him!

ahaha but really.

Kan aku ni SMEnt bias. of course, aku envious berabis.

aku pikir aku yg obsess, rupanya ada yg lebih menyanggupi smpi liat concert drg dKorea itself. (that part, I salute you lah man!)

he posted alot of his memories in Korea on his Instagram. I like it but at the same time my heart felt a lil tinge of jealousy there. that should've been me.

but rezki masing2. and i keep telling myself yg my time will come. no worries.

i took pictures with some of the things he brought home.

and my colleagues were there to to witness my fangirling/hyperventilating moments. -___- and now they wouldn't let it go.

Fahrul bought me SHINee paper folder too! and he told me to pick a few postcards from his SMArt Exhibition box. eheh i would've taken all SHINee members punya postcards but i took only Onew's and f(x) Luna's. eheh THANK YOU FAHRUL!! you're so sweet! 

(no really! ia memang sweet. when i was leaving he even asked 'cukup tu? sorry eh. atu sja yg i could grab' and i was like, 'are you kidding me?! this is more than enough man'. coz it really is. i know aku bleh bali online but seeing as he bought it there, in Korea, in the exhibition itself, what more can you ask for??)

So, yeah. Next time he plans on going, i told him to let me know too. Who knows we could go together. xD

oh, he's a fan of EXO(K & M) esp Luhan. (nasib bukn SHINee, mun inda, klaie ni..LOL!)

p/s: jeonmal gomawoyo, chingu/oppa/Fahrul-ssi! xD

. . .

Brief Update: Part 5

June 23rd

This isn't Goodbye, even as I watch you leave.
This isn't Goodbye.
I swear I won't cry, even as tears filled my eyes,
I swear I won't cry.

Westlife Farewell Tour came to an end.

*tears*

Thank You for all the years. You'll forever be in my heart; Nicky Byrne, Shane Filan, Kian Egan and Mark Feehily.

le gra, Me.

:')

Forever be in my Life - Jojo.

Brief update: Part 1

June 16th till June 18th.

went to KK with my colleagues in BBB.

it was a hella fun.

alot of roaming around, sight seeing, shopping. Thanks alot to Edy and wife, Be'ah. sanggup bwa kami everywhere. thank you thank you.

my staple food there was McD. LOL!! mcm dBrunei nada mcD kn?

and for a moment there, I was obsessing over Penyu. ahaha

I will cherish those moments forever.

xD

we all love gifts xD

So,

Thank You Esma for this cute turtle keychain.
it's so unique and cute. ;D


and


Thank You Pu3 for this Charm-chain Bear of the Tenorikuma.
I've always wanted something like this, so, thanx xD



THANK YOU FOR BEING SO THOUGHTFUL.


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