Post Worthy 7.1016

So, it's Hari Raya and you know what that means?

it's that time of the year you go visiting (which called BERAYA to) your grandma's place, cousin's place and friend's place.

you know what's more tear jerking moment than reminiscing the old times?
it's when you go Beraya but you were on your phone the entire visit.

I have a first hand experience on that.

Might as well you don't come and visit if you're gona be on your phone all the time.

Don't blame people if you no one wants to talk to you or bother to make a conversation.

don't even blame the phone.

Coz you're the human one and the decision, the choice is yours.

#PutDownYourPhone and #MakeRealConversation

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Failing isn't forever

So, I failed again and was very sad about it.

I thought I've tried my best but I guess my best isn't good enough.

My sister said, 'Redha'. and I just nodded. 

I was said for a few hours on Saturday and indulged myself with food from Mr. Baker. 

It was supposed to be a celebration food but oh well...

Now that I've been given a clearer picture of what I should do next, I'm going to, as the Robinson said, 'Keep Moving Forward'. I'm still trying to consult myself to not look back even though its a tat bit hard to do.

I guess, as long as I'm not still here, right?

a/n: listening to Westlife - Try Again.

not the right obsession

yup. ebay.com.

Not the right obsession.

Lama plang sudah ku dangar of the existent of ebay ani but only did I go and registered myself to that website and paypal. I've bought 7 things so far 

and none of them datang yet. Still hoping they would come no matter how long they would reach me. *being positive*

Then I continued to browse the website for more Kpop goodies. 

I wanted to buy them all but even I know that's just crazy. So, I'm gonna wait for the 7 things to arrive first before I buy other stuff.

Semoga iman ku kuat melawan nafsu shopping. (hahaha I mean, really, mudahan tah. Aminnn)

Tetapi. . . .

Melawat tah ku jua Malppy.Com

ha ha ha

and what do you know? I found something that I might buy too.

jeng jeng.

Pretty, isn't it? (mind you, not the kaki. THE SHOE!)

but alum lagi lah. tunggu tah dulu.

maybe next gaji? xD

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He shouldn't have

went on a movie 'outing' with a colleague last couple of weeks. Lelaki. and just us two.

at first, I thought, nyeh normal outing, mcm sama cZawir.

but as soon as we met at the agreed meeting place, boy was I wrong.

ok, maybe I am reading too much into this but there were serious 'hitting on' that night. I wont go into details but it was so creepy and embarrassing to say the least.

If he agreed that that night was just a normal 'colleague' movie outing, he shouldn't;

• Suggested to me that I should wear a shortlegged coverall with knee-high socks when I was wearing a longsleeve tshirt and bertudung. Excuse me? were you embarass about my appearance? I said I wouldn't read too much into it but it is still offensive.
• He also shouldn't have suggested how I can cover up before going out of the house and changed once outside. Because, I may not be that close with my mom but we have an unspeakable trust between us. and i have never deceived her that way.
• Let me carry the tray of food from the counter to our seats. I know. to some, maybe this is nothing. but to me, it's THAT big of a deal.
• Hide the fact that he was not officially broken off his engagement. (I know he was engaged. I heard rumors that he wasn't anymore and before the movie outing, I asked him 'tunang mu ok inda?' to which he shook his head and I didnt press on becoz I don't want to seem insensitive about the subject. You know, mana tau ia broken hearted kh, bru di putusnya tunang kh. but stupid me! I should've known better. 'Org Gila' said the same thing, didn't he? and he didn't actually broke it off, did he? JUST. STUPID.) and had me guarded the whole night. scared that I would be a victim of 'kana tampar mengajut' and called 'perampas tunang orang' or something. I was mostly embarass about this part. more embarrass than when I was carrying the tray. ARGH! MEN ARE SO STUPID!
• have treated me like I was that easy. coz, I would've kick your sorry ass, if you thought that your sap story about your relationship would make me all sorry and all over you. 
• have make me feel so stupid about myself. Coz, I am not stupid.

But most of all, I shouldn't have agreed to go out with him in the first place. 

I'm not gona again. especially when he kept on bragging about how he didn't approach the girl and it was her who approach him. and that I was offering him to watch the movie instead of the other way round. I reminded him, of course, that it was his idea, not mine. 

ARGH! what. a. duche!

thank you man, for making me feel so stupid.

this should be a reminder to all that, don't be like me. Ok? I trust people too easy despite me being guarded and all. just do what Professor Moody told us to do, "Constant Vigilant!"
 
why can't genuinely good man ever happened to me??

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People will be people

나도 알아

I know.

since before aku paham erti hidup (aseh! :P), I know.

I know that no matter what, good or bad, people are gonna talk.

• Praising you.

• bad-mouthing you.

• Exaggerate things for you.

• They'll do it all.

As a human being, I can't help but feel super upset when I learned that a certain someone (or two) were/are actually talking behind my back. I know i'm not always a 'saint', and I know about 'karma' too but it still hurts.

What I often do when something like this happened, I tell myself that people are gonna talk. no matter how much you want to make them happy (impress them, whatever), they'll never gonna stop talking about you. Those kind of people don't matter. what was that saying? (menggoogle~~ :P) ah. "Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind" by Bernard M. Baruch.

*nod nod*

but still, sedih ku. 

am I that bad of a person?

Sometimes I think that I am.

#Twitter @Factsionary - Psychologists have proven that we tend to overestimate ourselves -- We are not as nice as we think we are. 

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