TGIF: Throw back 14th Sep 2016

HELLO!

I think, I need to reconsider about doing that post about my Japan trip.

butt

I usually ended up talking/typing too much.
I'm afraid that bores people to death

*cringe*

I'll think about it lagi lah.

for now, I wana share this photo.

this was taken by a guy (with a backpack, kinda like the one used for hiking and stuff) on our way up the Inari Mountant, who asked us, "are you really going to go up mountain in flip flops?" and I, with so much exhilaration said, "yeah!"

in all honesty, we (Buzz and I) wasn't planning at all. 
I myself didn't know yg we were at the start of the climb!
I was just trying to get rid of the crowds.
I thought, the higher I get, the less crowded it'd become and we could take photos more peacefully.

So, there we were climbing the stone steps, a step a time (REALLY a step a time coz that 'flip flop' is really quite a challenge if you are not careful), and suddenly this guy started talking to us.
I don't remember much now but I remember him asking the cost of the Kimono to which I nervously replied, "around 3000 yen". 
and then he asked to take a picture of us (the above picture) coz he wondered if we already taken proper picture of just us two.
at first he took one with his phone and then he offered to take one with my phone coz I had mine on my hand at the time.
and then he asked if we really serious going to top with just flip flop. again, I answered yes.
and he hurriedly says his thanks (coz his other friends already ran pass him) and wish us luck with our flip flops. 
as he ran up the steps I shouted, "you too!" to which he turned back one last time, chortling or laughing and continue his ran up the mountain.

What I love most about that moment was, my relief feeling.
I voiced out my gratefulness to Buzz right away.
I told her, that's the longest conversation I have with a stranger. 
in English!
We were on our 6th day in Japan, and that guy reminds me that I can speak English properly and people understand me.
Pasal the last five days, I've been communicating in VERY broken English and often frustrated with myself for not being able to speak Japanese.

CAUTION: I'm not saying my English is great (as you can see from my Grammatical mistake on all of my post), I'm just saying it felt good to speak to a stranger, with my second language, and he understands it, without me struggling to make myself understood. 
that is all.

When we finally back at our hotel, I search for this guy on Instagram, but of course, that mission fail.
coz, I don't know what I should be searching for. 
I search for our photo with the hashtag FushimiInariShrine but do you know how many thousand people uses that hashtag?
let me tell you.
TERLALU BANYAK!
So, I gave up.

I regret not being brave enough to ask to take picture of him or with him too.
I couldn't even remember his face.

I guess, thank you sir! 
for the small talk. 
for taking proper picture of us two. 
I also hope that you are not a psycho or a creep. 
I pray that you are genuinely a good and nice person.

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a/n: I am inspired to make another post  ≧◡≦

Be Kind, it's free

Mom is the kind of person who is so nice to other people even if that people was so damn mean to her in the past.

I could never understand her.

until I was a little bit older.
and recent events inspired me to make this post


1. Regarding work
no matter what personal hatred you have to your work mate, kerja tetap kerja. Think of your 'periuk nasi'. No one else will jaga that. so, peduli apa with what they say behind your back or whatever. bukan durang yg bagi ko gaji. So, maintain your work etiquette.

2. Relatives
you know how some cousins don't get along with each other? well, I have them too. and I know my family is not the only one yg ada this kind of relatives. but be kind. biar tia urg bejahat arah tani, jangan tani pun ikut bejahat jua. If like that, sama lah tani dengan durang. it's better to be remembered being the kind one than being remembered the opposite, right?

of course, I'm only human.

Being kind is a very exhausting.

not just mentally but spiritually as well.

I see Korean-related things EVERYWHERE

You know when you like something so much, everything around you reminds you of it.

Example:

I was at work that one time and a colleague had this hair do 

which reminds me of this 'old' Korean hair do

LOL!

I don't know if I've shared enough here but I'm a big fan of Korean Historical drama. I think I'm more fascinated with their garments than anything else. 
That is why the hair do above became a topic for tonight's post.

hahaha

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Time

I went out for lunch with a office mate, Mel, couple of weeks ago and one conversation stuck with me and made me want to make this post.

It's about friends, making time, and keeping the friendship.

I don't remember how the conversation come to be but it was when I mentioned about me having lunch with my lovelies; Zawir, Buzz and Kuch. 

I aslo mentioned to her that we've been friends since high school.

and Mel said, 'bisai ah you guys still hang out together. Kalau aku, my friends always so busy and can not make it'. 

I literally paused for a couple of seconds. then I said to her, 'well, we were too but we find time'.

and I remember still thinking about what she just said and what my real thoughts were all through out lunch break.

I mean, you find time. these are your lovely friends and yes you are now busy with your own commitment and what not but when one of us suggested something like having lunch or brunch or whatever, you will find time. you make time. 

I'm a lazy person (yes, being fairly honest) but I would love to just make my time for these lovely people. Unless I really can't then I would just tell them that I can't.

and I was glad. Glad I have the friends that I have now and wouldn't trade them with anything in this world. I'm not just talking about Zawir, Buzz and Kuch. I meant my other (elbeit small) circle of friends; ex-colleague and ex-classmates. I may not be as close to them as I do the other three but they are still friends and I will make time.
besides, it's good to hang out out of your normal circle once in a while. you need it. it's good for the brain. 'broaden your mind! and you can see the future~!' Hermione mimicking Prof. Trelawney in Prisoner of Azkaban. (LOL!).

Point is ladies and gentlemen, it's your choice whether or not you want to keep the friendship. If you make time, you'll keep the friendship and if you don't make time, then, paham paham lah. 

I know we don't all need friends and be just glad to be with our family members. but I guess everybody have their own stories and some of us need that outside influences to get thru life.

Just, make the time.

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a/n: I feel sorry for these people; who don't make time or are not given time.

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Wait till you're a lot older

This is a random rage post.

there was a post on IG (a  Kpop confession acct) 

and I agreed to it.

then some kid decided to give some of us (who agreed to the confessor) a piece of his/her mind.

So, I got angry. I know I shouldn't be. I should've have known better and let it go or shit. but I think I'm gona post a piece of MY mind here. In my blog. 

" The thing is, I've been obsessed with a boyband before and I know it feels like 'this love is real' right now but trust me 'girls', it is not. It'll die down and you will realize just how stupid you are ..one day. when you're older. and wiser (hopefully). and you'll be too embarrass to admit your stupidity and laugh it off. Dismissively denying shit when everybody (I mean EVERYBODY) seen you being stupid. *scoff* *rolled eyes* puhlease...
Then when you realized that I was right, you'd be like 'BAHAHAHAH! SO TRUE!' "

I know what she commented back to us got nothing to do with what I just typed above but you know what I mean right? No? Ok. read below.

THE POINT IS! I'm not homophobic!  

maybe I am but that's my religious point of view and there's nothing you can do about it. 
I have guy friends who are gay but I'm not like disgusted with them. I am still very much close with them. I just don't disagree nor do i encourage them about it. I have my own beliefs. *giving you the incredulous look*

my reply to that girl was 'Thanks. To each their own, yeah?'
and she responded back by saying, 'Hmm? what?!'

-.-

I just assumed she wasn't English.
and that was when I decided to make this post.

Like the confessor said, we were just disgusted that someone would actually post a Photoshopped images like that.

Why make such a big deal out of it?

OR MAYBE this sk.jongsuk person IS gay or bi or lesbian or transgendered or anything. that's why this post and its comments offended him/her so. Defensive ya di sana atu.
No artists asked you to defend them, so just chill, ok? 
If you believe that we're in the Era, and I quote 'where a lot of people are gay or bi now so learn to deal with it', you should first learn that there are still millions other people millons different views from you. Coz, sweetheart, if you can't be open-minded about other people having different views from you, then, i think, you should just ... *whispers* stay out of the debate club. 
or at least, get to know where you really stand before you argue your case.

TO EACH THEIR OWN! 

I know I'm being childish posting this up but I just wana let it out of my system.

sigh. just wait till you're a lot older (and hopefully wiser too) then you will understand what my rage is all about. 

you're supposed to laugh at comments that are stupid and don't suits you! not make it personal and start an internet war or something. why waste your time like that?! Go study or something!! Jeep!

a/n: I'm an adult and I am allowed to waste my time on the net like this. 

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I know I should be posting my Day 3. I do that one on the next post :D

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He shouldn't have

went on a movie 'outing' with a colleague last couple of weeks. Lelaki. and just us two.

at first, I thought, nyeh normal outing, mcm sama cZawir.

but as soon as we met at the agreed meeting place, boy was I wrong.

ok, maybe I am reading too much into this but there were serious 'hitting on' that night. I wont go into details but it was so creepy and embarrassing to say the least.

If he agreed that that night was just a normal 'colleague' movie outing, he shouldn't;

• Suggested to me that I should wear a shortlegged coverall with knee-high socks when I was wearing a longsleeve tshirt and bertudung. Excuse me? were you embarass about my appearance? I said I wouldn't read too much into it but it is still offensive.
• He also shouldn't have suggested how I can cover up before going out of the house and changed once outside. Because, I may not be that close with my mom but we have an unspeakable trust between us. and i have never deceived her that way.
• Let me carry the tray of food from the counter to our seats. I know. to some, maybe this is nothing. but to me, it's THAT big of a deal.
• Hide the fact that he was not officially broken off his engagement. (I know he was engaged. I heard rumors that he wasn't anymore and before the movie outing, I asked him 'tunang mu ok inda?' to which he shook his head and I didnt press on becoz I don't want to seem insensitive about the subject. You know, mana tau ia broken hearted kh, bru di putusnya tunang kh. but stupid me! I should've known better. 'Org Gila' said the same thing, didn't he? and he didn't actually broke it off, did he? JUST. STUPID.) and had me guarded the whole night. scared that I would be a victim of 'kana tampar mengajut' and called 'perampas tunang orang' or something. I was mostly embarass about this part. more embarrass than when I was carrying the tray. ARGH! MEN ARE SO STUPID!
• have treated me like I was that easy. coz, I would've kick your sorry ass, if you thought that your sap story about your relationship would make me all sorry and all over you. 
• have make me feel so stupid about myself. Coz, I am not stupid.

But most of all, I shouldn't have agreed to go out with him in the first place. 

I'm not gona again. especially when he kept on bragging about how he didn't approach the girl and it was her who approach him. and that I was offering him to watch the movie instead of the other way round. I reminded him, of course, that it was his idea, not mine. 

ARGH! what. a. duche!

thank you man, for making me feel so stupid.

this should be a reminder to all that, don't be like me. Ok? I trust people too easy despite me being guarded and all. just do what Professor Moody told us to do, "Constant Vigilant!"
 
why can't genuinely good man ever happened to me??

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Remind Myself

 I found a piece of paper when I was doing my spring cleaning last two weeks. I wrote some self-motivational words on it. I don't know why I made a copy of it but I guess it was because I can relate so much to it. Even now.

So, I'm gonna share what I wrote on that piece of paper here. I hope it'll somebody too in one way or another. ;)

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Life will get better; It always does.

You're a wonderful person, Just remember that you don't have to expect so much from yourself. Try pampering yourself a little more. Take more time just for you.

Try concerntrating on taking just one step and one situation at a time. Don't try to think about everything at once. Try putting your own best interest first.

Make time to take good care of yourself. you are precious and important, and you deserve peace and happiness, it will happen if you can just hang in there. - Barbara Cage.

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