2026, in search of Happiness. If it means enjoying every little trinkets and stationery on the daily, then so be it. Coz temporary happiness, is still happiness.
Wednesday, 2 February 2022
Freaked out Some more
Sunday, 19 December 2021
WASSUUPP 2.0
how to post after 9 months of not posting anything? how to make it less awkward? how to make it not sound ignorant?
* apologize in youtuber *
😂
I guess I'm just gonna update you guys about the happening when I was not posting here.
Update No. 1: I have two IGs. and no, I wasn't as active at either of them. lol I tried to be active on the second one becoz I've continued to buy creative supplies and if i'm not posting about that addiction there, then what is the purpose? So I posted more on the second IG than the first one. I still active reposting posts I liked on both IG stories tho. So that's that. oh, last September 2021 was my one year anniversary with my second IG 🥳️🥳️🥳️
Update no. 2: ummm nothing much happened really in between April and Jul. Just another friendship fall out and I guess I'm to blame, as another friend said to me, "PMS ko kh?" I guess a woman is always at fault for being too emotional 🤷🏻♀️ hahaha people my age are getting married / having babies left and right and here I am, still having friendship problems. 🤣🤣
Update no. 3: Second wave of the pandemic hits Brunei in August 2021 where partial lockdown was implemented. it was very bleaked. I forgot how I got thru the first one and it seems like I kenot take it. I still worked at the office. My team split into two. I'm with Team 1 at the main office. Like, i said. this second one is especially tiring. We may be given permission to go home one hour early or whenever the work is finished. But my boss is the type that don't like for you to go home early before everything is finish. So, even when Team 2 has done their part and go home, Team 1 still have to finish up and sometimes still go home at 5pm the earliest and me, what is balik awal?
On 15th Dec 2021 tho, Brunei entered the Endemic Phase. I don't know what that means. coz it still feels like partial lockdown. I am still working like normal. working hour back to normal, balik 5:30pm but thats normal for me. hahaha i don't see the difference. We still work in a split team. I don't see the point.
Update no. 4: That same August month, I was officially diagnosed with Hypertension. I was 33.
I was actually first told I have 'high blood pressure' when my company was having this 'wellness check' back in December 2020. My BP was too high at that time that they want to call an ambulance straight away to bring me to the emergency. but i know my boss won't let me and i was right. when i informed her about it she was like, "just go on Saturday" that day was Tuesday; four days later. So, I sat on my work place and thought 'welp. if she thinks it can wait till Saturday, i guess its not important'. Realizing too late tho, that night, she did told me to go to nearby clinic to "have a peace of mind" as she put it and get myself checked again. Here's the truth about her that I have known but never spoke out loud; her only worry about me going into emergency that Tuesday was she will have one short staff when she was in the middle of a project and my absence will effect the operation flow.
I did go and have myself checked twice with the same doctor, and once with another doctor, and then another doctor. These three doctors informed me that I was too young to be given a medicine; short info, once you eat high BP medicine, you kenot stop. like ever. So they suggested a change in my diet, exercise, and one doctor insist that I should sleep more. that was the best advise I've ever heard from anyone. but I have been having trouble sleeping for years. Some say it's the internet. some say it's a heart break. but I say, I'm just stress.
I used to be able to sleep like *snap fingers* like that. but not anymore. I told that doctor that the reason why I sleep so late was becoz, night time is the only time I can be creative; journaling. it's the only time I feel like I am myself after hours during the day spent at the office. His other suggestion was, sleep early and do my stuff in the morning before I go to work. it's the nicest thing people ever suggested me do. Most people told me stop and be an adult. like, have you been one? it's so bleak!
Anyway, thats a little bit of story about my medical journey. It wasn't fun. being diagnosed with hypertension doesn't make me less stress, it actually heighten it. Especially on that August Day when the Hospital doctor scolded me for agreeing to other doctors to not start eating the medicine. like, bruh! they're the doctors! of course I listened to them. apadaa.. So, yeah. I makan ubat sekarang. 😬 oh, actually, one of the other doctors actually noticed my high BP back in early Jan 2020 but he told me, high BP won't effect my driving. I just nodded at that time. It wasn't until that Dec 2020 that i realized why the doctor was talking about high BP when I don't even know that I have it. So scary. my sister-in-law did say that many of the youngster that was hospitalized have strokes becoz they didn't know they had high BP. alhamdulillah I finally found out about it but currently hanya bertawaqqal for continuous good health. Aminn ya Rabb.
Update no.5: looks like we will be allowed to travel again by next year. I hope so. coz I can't take it anymore! I have to at least go far away at least once a year. far away where no one can reach me easily. I see artist are now doing live concerts again so there's hope. I was watching fancams of NCT127 The Link live concert in Seoul and it was weird. I only watched clips of it but its weird to watch a fancam and not here screaming. they mostly claps but dammmm be more enthusiastic czennies! like clap until your hand sore. dammm. it's like, the atmosphere would've been better online. at least the artist can here screaming. ani mcm, *bunyi crickets or chacadas* anyway,
I WANNA TRAVEL 2022! 🤲🤲SOLO JAPAN TRIP 2.0 IN 2022 MANIFEST! 🤲🤲
Update no.6: we have new baby fruities; a sweet baby gurlll! Now I have 4 nephews and 2 nieces.
Update no.7: currently recovering well from a fever that suddenly attacks me on 17th Dec right as i was trying to sleep. I couldn't kept waking up every hour until 1am. and thats when I realized my face and neck was warm and freaked out coz I need to go to work on 18th Dec (coz some management decided it was a good idea to drastically changed their system on 9th Dec and expect everyone to update before 20 Dec. like why?). So I ate medicine to cool my fever and it worked but my body was so weak still as i arrived at the office at 8:30am and by 5pm I was so done. I requested from my boss to leave early than 5:30pm, the time was like 5:19pm when I finally finished end of day report and she was still unhappy looking but FU. You lucky I still push myself to come to work. other people would've not. Lucky I'm not the fainting type too coz if I was, I would've sued. 😊
Monday, 27 May 2019
Blogger at it again!
Yes, Blogger's at it again.
I know, I know. I posted an update about Blogger JUST last week ago saying that they are working now.
They really did. that time.
but at around 16th May to 17th May, I noticed that when I checked my blog via my phone (safari.com) the images on my blog were gone. Like, where the picture was supposed to be are now black.
Even my profile picture showing that 'broken image' icon. like, what is going on?
But really, my initial thought was, "Not again".
After trying all weekend to no avail, I gave up and sisredha.
The next week came and I asked from Zawir to see if he can see my blog, can see my pictures? He said he can. and I asked him to screenshot for me. he did.
My theory is confirmed!
Blogger only works when using wifi, a proper internet connection.
Blogger does not encourage tethering, an internet connection wanna-be.
Blogger is breaking my heart.
at first I was like, I'm gonna be spending so much time at Starbucks now.
and then I thought, I could be like everyone else in Brunei, apply for TelBru espeed (internet cable).
but should I really tho? would it be worth it? I mean would it worth my money?
Here's a little story time;
I've been hanging out in Starbucks for a while.
Thanks to my colleague who has been doing this since forever.
in the beginning, I was doing it to download my fav old movies and now, I still used it to download movies LEL!
She taught me how to download these movies using the TelBru Prepaid Wifi.
when she first mentioned that, my head hurt coz it sounded so complicated but when she showed me how to do it, it was actually very hassle free.
and I've been doing this every weekend since. My solace! *haaaaaaa*
This Prepaid wifi cost me $3 for 24hrs usage. I count it as $1 per hour and as long as I spent more than 3 hours there, kira balik model lah 😜. $3 per weekend, 4 times a month, equals $12. Good bargain. of course, jangan kira makan minum di Starbucks lah ah..😂😂
So, should I really apply for espeed?
the cheapest package with high-speed data is $75 30mbps 50GB.
I don't know if I want to commit to that every month.
I don't mind going out every weekend, coz at least I don't spend all day cope up at home doing nothing. Going out is good. even though it means I'll be spending some money.
I'll be spending money anyway!
sigh.
I don't know. I've been thinking about espeed for a while now. but never come to any conclusion.
I guess, it's not that urgent yet.
I mean, Blogger still work, just not at home.
and as annoying as that sounds, I think I can manage.
For now.
hmmm..
and the best I can do with my blog posts is scheduled them. Like, I can prepared them at home first, think of what image to attach and shit, then on the weekend I can upload.
yeah
that could work.
or i will make it work.
Alright, that is all for now and I see you in the next post.
Raya is comming.
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Tuesday, 21 May 2019
Updates and answers
quick updates and answers to my own questions.
First, regarding this Blogspot website.
On 27th Apr 2019, I bitched about how Blogger won't load on my phone and on my laptop when using my phone internet data.
But when I got home afterwards, I tried opening my blogs using my phone and what do you know?
the page load perfectly. I even tried opening the website via laptop, also using my phone data, it worked too!
I'm guessing it's nothing to do with my phone service provider, and Blogger has finally fixed their site?
I hope so.
Coz, this is the second scheduled post I made from home.
I AM SO PUMPED RIGHT NOW!
Secondly, regarding NCT 4th sub-unit, WayV.
I learned from Wiki that I was right, WayV is NCT's Chinese promoter.
They debuted first in August 2018 with the name NCT - China and again in January 2019 with the name WayV.
They released their first EP The Vision. in it has 3 songs: Regular (Chinese version. obviously), Comeback, and Dream Launch.
and that's it.
that's the updates.
I was reading thru some old post and I came across the Book post with giveaways which nothing ever come of. I will make an update on that soonies.
For now,
I leave you with this music video that got recommended to me on the last Friday in April
the French dialoque in the beginning! AND pastels!
Side Note: Ever since I watched Black Mirror season 3, ep 1 Nose Dive, I've been seeing a lot pastel colored theme. Hmmm..
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Saturday, 27 April 2019
Hi Guys
I know, I was gone and in all honesty, it's not entirely my fault.
Why? Here's why. Storytime, lesgo!
Blogspot had been popping up alert about them no longer connected/related to Google, or something along those lines? and when they said it won't affect the users' experience, I didn't think much of it.
until! here we are.
I can only access my Blogspot page website version on my laptop AND when I'm using wifi.
as for on my phone, it refuses to load, telling me that there's no connection.
I'm using safari by the way. and when I used the same app to open AsianFanfics.com, it loads just fine. like, watchu mean connection lost?!
I don't know if I ever mention this before but I don't have internet wifi at home. My source of internet is my phone data.
So, I tethered my phone internet with my laptop, as i often do at home, and try to open my blog. it gave that t-rex No Internet connection thing.
I frowned in annoyance and tried opening Instagram and what do you know, the page load just fine!
At first, I blame blogspot. then i blame my phone connection provider, and then blame blogspot some more. coz we blame others first before we blame ourselves whenever something inconvenience us. ◕‿◕
but today, I decided, to just accept that I can't update my blog at home.
I'm in Starbucks right now composing this. wawawa
I have no actual pictures of my own to share. I did thought of just composing this here and edit the photos later at home but then I realized:
isn't this post about how I can't open my blog at home?? ◔̯◔
So, I'll Google related photo soon. DONE!
I guess, i shouldn't be complaining about this "can't get into my own blog page" -ish becoz let's be one hando persen real here; i have not been rajin for so long to update my blog anyway.
Also, it is sooooo my life; when I want it, i can't have it. LOL
Next!
Life update?
Not much..I might share a story or two from my Seoul Trip last February. :D
again, if you feel the need to update yourself with my life, you can always follow me on my social media accounts. which for safety reasons, I won't be giving them out here. LOL
Oh!
Onew, Key, and Minho are now doing their mandatory military service. I'm especially proud of Minho for going into the Marines. only about 3 other celebrities went there. It was said to be the toughest branch of the military. But I expect nothing less of Choi Minho. I am proud of all my SHINee boys thus far, all three of them went on to lead their platoon for the first phase of their 2 years service. I'll try sharing some pictures when I can find it.
satu ani saja lah. malas ku berusaha cari more. ☜-(ΘLΘ)-☞
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Saturday, 9 June 2018
I figured out something
I figured out something of Instagram when you log on thru their website (not from the App on your phone).
Remember last time I wanted to share with you guys a certain short clip I found on IG but wasn't able to upload the video here on blogspot?
Well,
I think I can now.
Let's do this.
Ok, you can't see this but the embedded copy has a lot of jargon and I prayed that it works.
coz I need it to work.
LOL
I need a post posted up tonight.
:P
*checked preview* *IT WORKS*
I hope it still works once I published this.
consider this a prologue to my next post. sorta.
ok. Bye
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Edit 11:46pm: IT WORKS!
Wednesday, 18 April 2018
My Sassy Girl
I know, gone again this girl.
hahahaha
ah well..here I am :P
Last night, I started something new as I'm trying to reset myself as previously wished.
and I came up with this To Do List I need to follow every night after work.
I start with something small saja lah. at least 3 task to achieve per night. I don't want to feel overwhelm.
The task includes; laundry, cooking, eating, reading, write down stuff, type stuff up, etc.
Tonight's task is:
- 1. Jot down plots for story (Checked),
- 2. Finish reading a chapter in More Than This (read 7 chapters! CHECKED)
- 3. Update blog (currently doing. will 'checked' when this is posted).
I also started watching My Sassy Girl, the Korean Historical Drama version.
I forgot I actually have that in my hard disk. LOL
Currently on Episode 17.
what's nice about this drama is that each episode is only 30 mins long. meaning, its easier to stop myself from continuing to watch after finishing an episode.
another thing that's awesome about this is becoz, I recognize (by face, not name) many actors/actresses; the main character guy is from The Good Doctor, the main character lady is that final Queen in Dong Yi, the King is from The Horse Doctor, the main character's mom is from The Moon Embraces the Sun.
to name a few.
LOL
seriously, I suck at trying to remember their names. all I know is I've seen them somewhere either in real time drama or historical drama. wawawa *shrug*
anyway,
that is all the update I have for you in this post.
pray that I will follow thru my To Do List *hwaiting*
with that said, I will see you on my next post
ciao~
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