how to post after 9 months of not posting anything? how to make it less awkward? how to make it not sound ignorant?
* apologize in youtuber *
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I guess I'm just gonna update you guys about the happening when I was not posting here.
Update No. 1: I have two IGs. and no, I wasn't as active at either of them. lol I tried to be active on the second one becoz I've continued to buy creative supplies and if i'm not posting about that addiction there, then what is the purpose? So I posted more on the second IG than the first one. I still active reposting posts I liked on both IG stories tho. So that's that. oh, last September 2021 was my one year anniversary with my second IG 🥳️🥳️🥳️
Update no. 2: ummm nothing much happened really in between April and Jul. Just another friendship fall out and I guess I'm to blame, as another friend said to me, "PMS ko kh?" I guess a woman is always at fault for being too emotional 🤷🏻♀️ hahaha people my age are getting married / having babies left and right and here I am, still having friendship problems. 🤣🤣
Update no. 3: Second wave of the pandemic hits Brunei in August 2021 where partial lockdown was implemented. it was very bleaked. I forgot how I got thru the first one and it seems like I kenot take it. I still worked at the office. My team split into two. I'm with Team 1 at the main office. Like, i said. this second one is especially tiring. We may be given permission to go home one hour early or whenever the work is finished. But my boss is the type that don't like for you to go home early before everything is finish. So, even when Team 2 has done their part and go home, Team 1 still have to finish up and sometimes still go home at 5pm the earliest and me, what is balik awal?
On 15th Dec 2021 tho, Brunei entered the Endemic Phase. I don't know what that means. coz it still feels like partial lockdown. I am still working like normal. working hour back to normal, balik 5:30pm but thats normal for me. hahaha i don't see the difference. We still work in a split team. I don't see the point.
Update no. 4: That same August month, I was officially diagnosed with Hypertension. I was 33.
I was actually first told I have 'high blood pressure' when my company was having this 'wellness check' back in December 2020. My BP was too high at that time that they want to call an ambulance straight away to bring me to the emergency. but i know my boss won't let me and i was right. when i informed her about it she was like, "just go on Saturday" that day was Tuesday; four days later. So, I sat on my work place and thought 'welp. if she thinks it can wait till Saturday, i guess its not important'. Realizing too late tho, that night, she did told me to go to nearby clinic to "have a peace of mind" as she put it and get myself checked again. Here's the truth about her that I have known but never spoke out loud; her only worry about me going into emergency that Tuesday was she will have one short staff when she was in the middle of a project and my absence will effect the operation flow.
I did go and have myself checked twice with the same doctor, and once with another doctor, and then another doctor. These three doctors informed me that I was too young to be given a medicine; short info, once you eat high BP medicine, you kenot stop. like ever. So they suggested a change in my diet, exercise, and one doctor insist that I should sleep more. that was the best advise I've ever heard from anyone. but I have been having trouble sleeping for years. Some say it's the internet. some say it's a heart break. but I say, I'm just stress.
I used to be able to sleep like *snap fingers* like that. but not anymore. I told that doctor that the reason why I sleep so late was becoz, night time is the only time I can be creative; journaling. it's the only time I feel like I am myself after hours during the day spent at the office. His other suggestion was, sleep early and do my stuff in the morning before I go to work. it's the nicest thing people ever suggested me do. Most people told me stop and be an adult. like, have you been one? it's so bleak!
Anyway, thats a little bit of story about my medical journey. It wasn't fun. being diagnosed with hypertension doesn't make me less stress, it actually heighten it. Especially on that August Day when the Hospital doctor scolded me for agreeing to other doctors to not start eating the medicine. like, bruh! they're the doctors! of course I listened to them. apadaa.. So, yeah. I makan ubat sekarang. 😬 oh, actually, one of the other doctors actually noticed my high BP back in early Jan 2020 but he told me, high BP won't effect my driving. I just nodded at that time. It wasn't until that Dec 2020 that i realized why the doctor was talking about high BP when I don't even know that I have it. So scary. my sister-in-law did say that many of the youngster that was hospitalized have strokes becoz they didn't know they had high BP. alhamdulillah I finally found out about it but currently hanya bertawaqqal for continuous good health. Aminn ya Rabb.
Update no.5: looks like we will be allowed to travel again by next year. I hope so. coz I can't take it anymore! I have to at least go far away at least once a year. far away where no one can reach me easily. I see artist are now doing live concerts again so there's hope. I was watching fancams of NCT127 The Link live concert in Seoul and it was weird. I only watched clips of it but its weird to watch a fancam and not here screaming. they mostly claps but dammmm be more enthusiastic czennies! like clap until your hand sore. dammm. it's like, the atmosphere would've been better online. at least the artist can here screaming. ani mcm, *bunyi crickets or chacadas* anyway,
I WANNA TRAVEL 2022! 🤲🤲SOLO JAPAN TRIP 2.0 IN 2022 MANIFEST! 🤲🤲
Update no.6: we have new baby fruities; a sweet baby gurlll! Now I have 4 nephews and 2 nieces.
Update no.7: currently recovering well from a fever that suddenly attacks me on 17th Dec right as i was trying to sleep. I couldn't kept waking up every hour until 1am. and thats when I realized my face and neck was warm and freaked out coz I need to go to work on 18th Dec (coz some management decided it was a good idea to drastically changed their system on 9th Dec and expect everyone to update before 20 Dec. like why?). So I ate medicine to cool my fever and it worked but my body was so weak still as i arrived at the office at 8:30am and by 5pm I was so done. I requested from my boss to leave early than 5:30pm, the time was like 5:19pm when I finally finished end of day report and she was still unhappy looking but FU. You lucky I still push myself to come to work. other people would've not. Lucky I'm not the fainting type too coz if I was, I would've sued. 😊
