Mulan, March 2020

Hi guys!

live action Mulan is coming! in March 2020.

I am EXCITED to watch this one.

Just like, Aladdin, Mulan is another of my fav Disney movie to watch over and over again without feeling bored.

When the news first came out and it said there will be no dragon but a phoenix instead, I was livid. coz Mushu, the dragon in the animated version, is my fav character! and I remember posting my disagreement over that decision on my FB status.
Only to realize my opinion wouldn't make a different in the slightest. 

Fast forward, July 2019, (I have a lot of things prepared in July it seems LOL).
I came across a thread on Twitter. talking or explaining, why the live action Mulan is what it is.

I didn't screenshot everything, just the beginning. It was very insightful. I'm always a sucker for ancient history, so I appreciate the effort put into this explanation.

also, this guy, playing Fa Zhou, I recognized him from Rush Hour. So, already I decided to watch Mulan becoz I recognized him from Rush Hour. LOL

I don't recognize this lady but I'm looking forward to her playing Mulan too.

I will remind myself to not have high expectation. I don't want to be disappointed. Again, it's only becoz, Mulan is one of my utmost favorite EVER! I got my fav nickname, Vengeance, from Mulan.

I can't wait for March 2020. 

here are the trailers in the meantime;





THAT BACKGROUND MUSIC THO! 

I think my only disappointment with this new one is they not gonna be doing I'll Make A Man Out of You.

and I recognized two other people, Donnie Yen and Gong Li. I read somewhere, that Jet Li's gonna be in it too. So, awesome casts. all the more reason to watch.

😍😍😍

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2019: A Year of Change

for some reason, this was in the draft section since 10th Mar 2019 and was empty.

hmmm

Hi guys.

we are now in June 2019! half way thru the year already. wow. time flies.

So, as mentioned, this draft was left empty since 10th Mar 2019. I checked thru my draft notes in my laptop and found one notes that was dated 10 Mar too. It was obviously raw and not suitable for direct posting. I might hurt a few hearts. but do I really care? muahahah 

I actually still care, hence, the edited version below.

Here go:

composed on 10th Mar 2019.

Hello everyone and anyone.

I know, I abandoned this page for so long.

I even almost not come back at all. 

but here I am.

I really don't know why I should continue to be here. It's not like my life depended on it.

I guess I'm just not ready to part ways from this part of my old life.


Blogging had been my life since forever. I think I started when I was 15? Back when Friendster was a thing. LOL Friendster had a blog feature where your friends got notification whenever you posted something and when I finally switched to Blogspot, none of my readers came along with me. 

it demotivated me a little bit but I still continued to post. soon after, friends started making their own blog and we shared/exchanged stories and comments.

As we grew as an individual, I guess people grew out of blogging too. Except me. I'm still here, as if holding up the fort.

more years passed and I mentioned a lot in my posts on how me too no longer 'feeling it'.

Am I grown?

or

Am I tired of holding the fort?

Maybe I am.

I turned 31 last year. I'll be 32 this year. For some reason, that hit me hard.

at first, I thought it was becoz I thought I lagged behind everybody. Thirty One years Old and still the same old me; achieving only in growing old, stuck in the same old routine year after year.

You would think, someone who read a lot like myself wouldn't have such negative thoughts. 
You thought wrong.
I used to tell people how I'm a self-motivated person. I began believing in it too. 
Until I realized how tiring that ish was (still is).
Your mind is spent and your heart is heavy, do you have any idea how hard it is to stay motivated/positive during that phase?
I also used to think that I was strong mentally and physically.
boy, was I mistaken. LOL
Well, maybe I am strong both mentally and physically or I wouldn't be here talking about this right now.

Realizing all this and accepting that my life has come to this, I decided to let go on a lot of things.

They say it's never too late to push reset and start over.

So, for the past six months I've been working on my well being;
1. Me is enough
2. Me matter
3. I can't change the world overnight. so chill.
4. Stop worrying about what others think of me.
5. Control my emotion especially at work (coz GOD know I have a problem in that ish place LOL)
6. my self improvement is important.

And something happened on my 7th month.

I've worked hard for this mindset and soul to be at peace and for me to fall back into the me from 6 months ago is such a waste of time. 
To fall back to the same routine/dark-mindset all over again? I don't have the capacity in my mind and in my soul for such burden anymore.
I used to think "let's just follow the flow" but I don't want to be that easy anymore.
I wanna work hard towards a new goal in life. Especially with my life. I'm important too. 
I have the obligation to better myself before I can worry about other people.

I really don't want to go back to 6 months ago. I can't and I refuse. I am only going to focus on moving forward.


Wow! I was so deep back in March. LOL wow.
I surprise myself too most of the time. Every time I read back my old thoughts, I'm impressed on how well I write/type. HAHAHAH and now back to the present.

Like, I said, the above is filtered for 'tayangan umum'. There were two more pages of thoughts but I don't think it's quite relevant for today's title.

I don't think I planned that post as a New Year Resolution coz I hate that term: 'Resolution'. who started that ish? I think i just want to say that I'm trying to change my life routine and be selfish for once. obviously old habit die hard; I can't just be completely selfish. but I'm gonna try.

Have you ever feel or felt this way before? How did you overcome or deal with yours? Share your thoughts down in the comment box.

if you read up till here, you the real MVP. and thank you.

See you in the next post.

ciao~

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Taeyeon Japanese Debut

Stay. MV released 29th June.




She released this song soon after her Korean's comeback (Something New, MV released 18th June, which I'm not really feeling) so I was thinking, "argh, maybe it will suck too"

but boy, was I wrong!

I LOVE THE SONG!

and her voice?! (✿ ♥‿♥)

This song gives me the same reaction as I did when I first listened to her I song.

I love this song and it's Japanese, you already know what's coming next:

Time to 'study' this song.

here comes the lyric!

Chikagoro yume sae mo minai anata ga inai koto ga
Nichijou ni natteku nante shinjirarenai
Dare ni mo ienai koto zenbu uchiakete shimaeta no wa
Anata dake datta no ni tonari ni wa inai no

Ima mo mimi ni nokoru Your Voice
Mou ichi do yonde hoshii My name
Naita mama de ichi ni tsuite kao wo agete miru

Go Way hitori da tte igai to takaku toberu watakushi wa ima
Saisei kanō desho? Renewable Energy Maybe yes Maybe no
Way kowaku tatte yuuki wo kakiatsumete fumikiru no yo
Saihai wo furu no wa watakushi yo Maybe yes Maybe no

Haretara kokoro mo harete ame nara ochikomu
Wakari yasui moro sani iki ga kurushiku naru

Ima mo anata nashi ja So Sad tsuyoku dakishimete yo All Again
Nakijakutte nemuri ni tsuku me wo samasanakucha

So Stay hitori datte tamani wa umaku toberu hi mo arukara
Daijōbu datte tsuyogaru no Stay with me Stay with me
Stay naiteta tte jikan wa yōshanaku kitto nagarete yuku
Saikai wo matsu no wa tsurai no (itai no) Stay with me Stay with me

(Ah Ah) Nani ga tarinai?
(Woo Woo) Hitsuyō na mono wa
Sashidashite kara te ni hairu no kanashii koto ja nai

Go Way hitori datte igai to takaku toberu watakushi wa ima
Saisei kanō desho? Renewable Energy Maybe yes Maybe no
Way kowaku tatte yuuki wo kakiatsumete fumikiru no yo
Saihai wo furu no wa watakushi yo (dakedo)
Stay with me Stay with me Stay or go Stay or go


they might not be spelled correctly but yeah...it's still something I can work with ヘ(^_^ヘ)

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Similarity v.2.0

When I said Similar, I don't mean on the way they look.

I mean, maybe ada lah sedikit similarities but inda banyak.

When I said similar, I mean, in the way they played their character when they acting.

Hello.

Fancy seeing me again, yeah?

my last post is still very true. I am still not believing it but it is still true. it is so unreal but it's soooo real.

thus,

I decided to not deal so much on that coz emotion is exhausting, and try post about something else.

I was watching National Treasure the other day, and the character Abigail Chase reminds me of somebody else. 

Abigail Chase was played by Diane Kruger. btw 

and her Abigail character reminds me of Abigail Breslin.

Abigail Breslin is a child actor who is super talented. 

mcm Dakota Fanning. 

as mentioned above, I'm not saying they look similar, I'm saying their acting reminds me of each other.

the next pair that I'm going to mention is between Natalie Portman and Millie Brown.

I first saw Millie during those hypes from Stranger Things. I personally haven't watch that series.

and the way Millie presented herself, reminds me so much of Natalie Portman. that confident! #bringitgurl

I don't even know these young actors (although Abigail is all grown up now, 21 years old) but they make me proud.

I hope they continue to bring their A game in their career!

all the best girlies

hashtag girlpower

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Lindsay Lohan

this is a scheduled post.
(as many of my posts have been muahahah)

. . .

So, I was just watching an interview video of Lindsay Lohan from facebook and it was really interesting.




the topic that she was talking/discussed about is another matter

but what was interesting to me is the way she conveyed them.

The way she chooses her words and how very collected or knowledgeable of her to be able to convey what she wanted to say.

the way she acknowledged her past and refuses to talk more or dwell on it, shows how grown she has become.

I'm a fan of her work (and I don't really follow her 'dark' period) and seeing her in that interview makes me proud of her.
Not that I know her on a personal level, but because - womenhood. 
I think I'm in that phase of trying to find myself and what I like doing. Seeing that Ms. Lohan here is half-way there finding herself makes me feel that I have a chance too. 
I mean, her hardship was highly publicized! if she can raise up from that, why can't I?

She's another one of my inspiration today.

Here's another interview with Ellen.



a/n: some may say that she maybe faking this and is scripted. well, what do you know about hardship/mentallydepressed/onyourown ?

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Korean folk song

was watching Immortal Song 2 on KBS World late Saturday afternoon.

the theme for that episode was Korean Folk Song.

I wasn't actually planning to watch that show..I was playing games on my phone when the show started
but the first singer started singing, and I was hooked and actually watched the whole show. ahaha

Immortal Song is, to me, and awesome show to show case some of the Kpop artists (Yesung, Jonghyun, Taemin, Luna, and currently Hyoyeon from SMTown had been in that show. Ailee been there too. and that Hyorin kh? the one who sang Let It Go Korean ver also) ability to sing. at the same time, I found out singers that aren't that popular but should be.

I fell in love Sohyang performance for Arirang Alone.
note: pls skip to 2:10 of the video, that's when she start. unless you don't mind watching the whole thing. hahah


 

my reaction was quite similar to everything that you saw from that video clip. I cried at the end. LOL


and for Sohee's the Boatman's Song.
note: for this want, you can skip to 1:39 for the song.



was she like, yodeling? sounds like it, right?
I really like her dress. 
she's 19 and being able to rock that folk song is like, awesome. I can't even sing our own folk song without feeling a tat bit embarass and outdated. LOL sorry my country. I love you no matter what though. LOL
I saw once of her documentary. She was younger then. and somewhat the youngest prodigy of Korean folk song singer. I am no expert but she's good.

i applaused loud when they were done. macam aku liat live jua lah dsana atu. hahaha I was feeling it. 

I should watch the next episode of Immortal Song.
and I think our KBS is a tat bit behind the real scheduling. maybe Music Bank is on time but the rest of the show is not.
I thought about this because, right after the Immortal Song on TV finishes, I was browsing Instagram (as always) and saw a few video post of Immortal Song 2 with Hyoyeon of SNSD in it. like, I watched the entire episode but there was no Hyoyeon on TV but how come on IG got post like that? 
Not that aku rajin kan browse or dig further, I'll just be happy with still having a Korean channel on our cable. LOL 

alright, enough rambling.
till the next post .. 

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I'm just independent

I think that I am an independent woman.

I'm so used to being single that I wonder if that's the reason why I don't bother 'looking'.

I'm happier making my own choice even after I ask others for theirs. coz let's face it, when we were face with a certain crossroads and was about to make a choice, we already chose a road but to make sure that we chose the right one, we asked others for their opinions. and more often than not, we still choose the one we already chose in the beginning. 

Kan?

the main point of this post, 
this book.

I bought this a long time ago. i think i was still in high school when I had it. 

It must've been funny back then but I don't see it now. reading it again, i was annoyed.
macam, how desperate can we, women, be? 
the author of this book is a woman btw.
I know it was meant to be a joke/funny book.
I just don't see it now after experiencing so much shit. 

this goes back to the top; we don't need to be so desperate to get the guy/man we (thought we) love. Our lives don't depend on them. Not when they're such douchebags. I just believe that when you pour your heart out to the guy/man that you (thought you) love and they run the miles, they definitely not worth the chase. Coz from my sad (and stupid) experience, most guys/men just love the chase. That's why we women better stop chasing.
BUT
when you finally stop and realize how stupid you've been and he finally came running back to you
REMEMBER
NOT to give in easy and accept him back to your life.

I don't know about those love stories circling about the universe
but what happened to me was the guy came back only to see if he still have that 'power' over me. coz apparently his the type of guy JUST GOTTA cheat on his woman.
-_-
macam, get over yourselves, man.
Pastu, the other one kept hinting about shit but when I was about to give him the chance, rupanya sama jua, 'testing power' as my cousins put it and he actually got engaged to another woman.
-_-
macam, the fck, man.

this is too personal but I guess it's time to share this horrid 'love' story of mine
and maybe answer people's question as to why I'm still single.

Simpler answer? I DON'T TRUST MEN. 
I know i've been hurt only (maybe seriously) a couple of times in this life time tapi they run deep. 
Plus, from my work place, I heard and seen a lot of 'cheating'. It scares me just what the world is turning into.
I know not all men are like that but a lot of them are so I can't help but feel like they can't really be trusted.
I used to tell myself that if the man is brave enough to approach me, he's worth it.
But after those two, no, they are not worth it.
mikin berani drg approach you, mikin kuat lah 'skill' nya.

hahaha macam sikit lagi feminist post ani. tapi it's not. not really.

Lucky I still belief in 'the one' and the one for me is out there. 
just maybe not here in Brunei?

LOL

ah well, I've written down a little portion of my heart today andddddd I'm not gona reread this. 

Well said, FreshPrince, well said.

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