Klaus, the one Netflix original I don't hate

 Klaus, as the title suggested, I is the one original movie I don't hate.

I know, I know. it's not even jolly season yet but it was in the suggestion list, and I was intrigued. I don't celebrate chrismas but most animated chrismas movies often have some similar values we all cherish; love, family, be kind, and it was never about physical gifts.

actually, what caught my attention was the 'Royal Postal Academy' eh spoilerss..LOL 

but really, i think it was a different approach to the ever so many version of Santa Claus. I like it. also, the way they 'showed' the origin story without the involvement of magic, reminds me of my other fav fairytale that doesn't involve magic; Ever After. 😆

why I don't hate it:-

• it's animated a.k.a. katun
• good storyline from start to finish
• katun

10/10 will watch again.

. . .

Mulan

 hi gengs!

only one post in Sept so far?! I need to fix that now.

First of, Mulan, the live action remakes.

if you came across my previous post about me trying to buy Colorpop x Mulan make up, you know how oassionate I am with the 1998 version.

Mulan finally premiered in Brunei back on 3rd or 4th Sep. and I kena belanja to watch on 5th Sep. and I watched again a second time on the 6th Sep.

So, the first time I watched, I was, sooooo underwhelmed. I don't know man. I was a little heart broken? I thought it was the 'no mushu' part but the second time I watched, I was actually more 'accepting' of the no-mushu part. the part that 'ruin' the movie for me was actually the action/martial art parts. they all looked, CGI? ok, Donnie Yen was doing his IP Man martial art thing, Jet Li was magic. I don't know man. the martial art part was annoying as fuck and I am not feeling it.

In conclusion, I will stick to my 1998 version. 

oh, also, there were no musical numbers. Like, THE FCUK WITH THAT?!

SIGH. 

the new OST maybe cool but its not enough redemption.

On IG I gave this movie 8/10. but now that I am making this, I don't think its 8/10 anymore.

lemme me share you some reviews that resonates with me:

1. by Jon Solo

2. Xiran Jay Zhao

3. Accented Cinema

Have you watch the movie? what do you think about it?

. . .

movie review that you don't ask for no.2

The Little Mermaid 2018
(Distributed by Netflix)

Kerana mu, William Moseley. in case you didn't know, his Peter from Narnia.

Hi again guys. another movie review. coz it's been a while. 😊

Like the previous post, I tried to be open minded when watching this but I guess it wasn't open enough to accept the dialogues. Like, WHO WROTE THIS?!

Here's what wrote on a piece of paper (so that I have something better to do than to cringe the entire time):

• Siapakah yg membuat dialogue ani? Either pelakon nya inda pandai belakun OR the dialogue is just ..not good.
• The Storyline was, once again, weak. I enjoyed their version of The Little Mermaid legend. I really do. but that was about the only thing I like after William.
• I was disappointed with the graphic/CGI thing. Remember, this movie was made in 2018, not 1998. dammm daniell..
• *ok this line is super harsh but I have to include it* The 'green-screen' was baddd! I duno man. its so stupid. watching this make me stupid. LOL macam menyasal ku meliat.
• Kerana mu, William Moseley.
• Writing this 11:59 to finish. The 'soft' almost 'ASMR' speaking tone thing. THEY MADE IT A THING. then suddenly, SOMEONE BOOM THEIR TONE. apakannnnnn
• This is so embarassing. what even is this storyline. macam inda ku pecaya yg this movie was made with 5million budget.
• The ending kinda, lame but less disappointing.
• "ok, that was not the ending"
• "This is the ending and its lame as fuck"

I am never watching a Netflix movie ever again.

I'm not even gonna try and rate this movie.

bye.

Kidding.

Ok, I'm sure they are all good actors but why was it lay out like that? why is it so bad? whyyyyyy


 . . .

movie review that you don't ask for no.1

Secret Obsession
(a Netflix Original)

obviously, I'm only interested to watch thanks to Brenda Song. aka London Tipton.
From the moment the movie started, I already felt, uninterested. LOL I don't know. Maybe I was already super annoyed with the world when I decided to give this movie a go. or maybe it's just CinemaSins. 🤣

Here's what I wrote:

• the most unrealistic scenario of a movie ever.
• for one you already know who the bad guy is.
• The 'plot-twist' was mediocre.
• Sigh - maybe i watched too much crime documentaries but come on now. That was basic criminology 101!  (Spoiler Alert!!) The detective only began covering his mouth/nose and screwing up his face when he was like 10 feet away from a week old dead bodies. BODIES! A WEEK! he should've been gagging the moment he stepped on the curb side. fyi, the dead bodies were in the bedroom. The camera even showed a decaying human bodies! arghhhhhhhhh
• Another one; for maybe about the same time, another body was kept in a trunk of a car. *heavy sigh* again, that one person only screwing his face when he opened the trunk from outside. BUT WAIT! there was a person hiding at the back seat of that car. which is obviously closer to the trunk, no? BUT she didn't even smell shit?! AKUSMI?!
• There was ONE particular character yg I don't know why was given the time of day but nothing came out of it other than to become a false suspect. I understand their need to make his character exist BUT my problem is WHY HIS DIALOGUE MISLEADING?! (again, SPOILER ALERT!) He was acting like he was the scandal or something. Very suspicious. but his character was just killed off? what??
• Oh the detective back-story connection with the present-story was weak. Like, mesti kah?
• Ending was 'nyeh'
• CinemaSins - I'm blaming you for making me this annoyed with a movie.

D for effort? 

am I going to recommend this movie to you? God, no.

. . .

Mulan, March 2020

Hi guys!

live action Mulan is coming! in March 2020.

I am EXCITED to watch this one.

Just like, Aladdin, Mulan is another of my fav Disney movie to watch over and over again without feeling bored.

When the news first came out and it said there will be no dragon but a phoenix instead, I was livid. coz Mushu, the dragon in the animated version, is my fav character! and I remember posting my disagreement over that decision on my FB status.
Only to realize my opinion wouldn't make a different in the slightest. 

Fast forward, July 2019, (I have a lot of things prepared in July it seems LOL).
I came across a thread on Twitter. talking or explaining, why the live action Mulan is what it is.

I didn't screenshot everything, just the beginning. It was very insightful. I'm always a sucker for ancient history, so I appreciate the effort put into this explanation.

also, this guy, playing Fa Zhou, I recognized him from Rush Hour. So, already I decided to watch Mulan becoz I recognized him from Rush Hour. LOL

I don't recognize this lady but I'm looking forward to her playing Mulan too.

I will remind myself to not have high expectation. I don't want to be disappointed. Again, it's only becoz, Mulan is one of my utmost favorite EVER! I got my fav nickname, Vengeance, from Mulan.

I can't wait for March 2020. 

here are the trailers in the meantime;





THAT BACKGROUND MUSIC THO! 

I think my only disappointment with this new one is they not gonna be doing I'll Make A Man Out of You.

and I recognized two other people, Donnie Yen and Gong Li. I read somewhere, that Jet Li's gonna be in it too. So, awesome casts. all the more reason to watch.

😍😍😍

. . . 

MIB International

Hi guys.

Feeling nice seeing me everyday? wehwehweh

It's becoz I missed so many days in June and I'm just trying to raise the number I posted this month. So...here I am.

MIB International

the next movie I watched at the cinema after Aladdin.

this was actually Zawir's idea. coz I think he likes MIB 3. I think.

I wanted to watch becoz it's Thor and the Valkyrie lady.

Not giving out spoiler like I did with Aladdin but Aladdin wasn't so much of a spoiler since it was a remake...so, I don't know where I'm going with that. hahaha

anyhoo... 6.7/10. becoz I feel like the storyline was short and somewhat rushed. THE COMEDY THO! funny as fuck. not all the time but most of the time. I enjoyed their comedy most. 

I wanna say something but then I realized that could be a spoiler. soooo..I'm just gonna leave the trailer here.



Are you going to watch this movie? and have you enjoyed the first 3 movies? share share share (in the comment box!)

OH!! when I hear Liam Neelson talked, I was like, "GASP! ASLAN!" not as loud as I'd loved to be but "GASP! ASLAN!" becoz earlier in the day, Fox Movies was playing Narnia: Prince Caspian and I watched it like I never watched the movie before. yup. "ASLAN!"

ok, bye.

wait! one more. 

Fun Fact: In Brunei MIB means something else to us Bruneian. it's our (as mentioned on Wiki) national philosophy: Melayu Islam Beraja.

. . .

Aladdin

Hi guys!

Welcome back. 

I realized, as I'm preparing for this post that it's been a long time since my last movie review post.
and what's more awesome than starting again with reviewing Aladdin, the live action version that came out 23rd May 2019.

I watched the movie the next day, 24th May, and was crazily madly in love with it!!!!!

Ok, brief background story, I'm a huge HUGE fan of the classic Aladdin. I watched it many times as a kid. Like, I claimed myself (on the internet, username etc) as Princess Jasmine from when I was 16 years old! and I remembered when I started working, old colleague even bought me a Princess Jasmine pillow! I was that obsessed! 

but of course, as I got older, I wasn't anymore.

UNTIL!

Will Smith posted the live action trailer on his IG. He played Genie and I saw that Naomi Scotts played Jasmine and I was like, "GASP! WHEN?!" coz, One, Will Smith? my fav actor of all time. Two, Pink Ranger as Jasmine? BRING. IT. ON. 
and also, I was feeling nostalgic.

So, when the movie premiered, I was like, I have to watch this. and I did.

In the cinema, as the iconic Disney's castle intro begins, I literally took a deep breath and told myself, "don't high expectation", and exhale. Best pep talk I've ever given myself! coz as the movie started, my mind was open and I allowed this movie in. Yes, there were moments where i remember thinking, "hmm..not as the cartoon but ok" but I don't hate the not-like-the-cartoon bits. In fact, I fell in love with them and for someone who was so obsessed with the cartoon, that's saying something!

and don't get me started on the songs.
Like, music to my ears! I love them! I usually don't like new version of my fav songs but these OST are amazing! love love love! 

Let's listen to one of them below:

Naomi Scotts - Speechless



I DIDN'T KNOW SHE CAN SING TOO!

also, there's a Zayn Malik and Zhavia Ward version of A Whole New World, and hmm 🤔..imma stick with "I usually don't like new version of my fav songs" ◎[▪‿▪]◎ but I still like the live action movie version of A Whole New World. movie version is love.


Ok, now, I know I gave this movie 10/10 but I was curious about one thing: 
why is the guard/soldier/army of the Sultan/Agrabah dressed like the Persian army? 
(I recognized the head gear coz I've been re-watching Prince of Persia for the past couple of weeks ٩◔‿◔۶)
I had to wiki that ish, obviously.
but there was no mentioned of Agrabah being made base on Persia. the only Persian thing related to the live action was the Palace set's design. 
thus, I concluded my research with, Agrabah is a middle-east country, meaning, its military outfit can be similar to or influenced by the Persian army which are also from the middle-east.

still 10/10!

In my opinion, Will Smith made Genie his own version. well done *applause*

Side characters that I like: Dalia and Hakim. ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ

I think that is all the reviews I have for this movie.

by the time this is posted, I probably watched the movie twice more. LOL

Thank you for reading this far.

You the MVP. (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

Ciao~

. . .

oh! i bought the Only In Cinema cup
(sorry, couldn't be bothered to take my own picture at the moment LOL)

I'll post proper pictures some other time ;)

Wonderful Life

Take a look around and see the world we think we know

Then look closer

There's more to life than meets the eye

A beauty to behold

It's all much bigger than we know

It's only just beginning to unfold

So let it all unfold

Far beyond all reason in your mind

There's a world mysterious

There for you to find

All these questions

That we always have

All we are is curious

There's nothing wrong with that

So go 'round every corner

Search every part of the sky

'Cause a life that's full of wonder

Is a wonderful life

Dig beneath the surface

Find the lessons there to learn

And then dig deeper

Feed your intuition

Don't leave any stone unturned

Be the seeker of the truth

Listen when you hear it calling you

You know it's calling you

Far beyond all reason in your mind

There's a world mysterious

There for you to find

All these questions that we always have

All we are is curious

There's nothing wrong with that

So go 'round every corner

Search every part of the sky

'Cause a life that's full of wonder

Is a wonderful life

Is a wonderful life

Is a wonderful life

Is a wonderful life

And the answers aren't that far away

Look closer

Look closer

Look closer

Look closer

From: Smallfoot

Sang by: Zendaya

Too Soon

there are two things that I find too soon for me;

1. to read Five Days Left by Julie Lawson Timmer

2. to watch Along with the Gods : The Two Worlds

the book was too raw for me coz I tried to baca on early Jan. but by the beginning of chapter 3, I can not take it and stopped.
the story was about a woman sick with cancer and planned to take her own life at her own term. Instead of waiting for the cancer to claim her life, she decided to take her own life before the cancer did.
the part yg made me felt a lump in my throat was when she set the date of when she's going to take her life.
I feel like Jonghyun was like that too. He already set a date. there was excert from an interview where he said he wanted to rest in Dec/2017 no matter what. I just thought, as I read that book first chapter, "he planned it"
there was that security guard punya witness account about what Jonghyun was doing in the last moment at the apartment he rented; he was driving fast and making lots of noise with his car. a fan said he was contemplating. He must've had second thoughts. sigh
every time I thought if this, there are lots of "if only"

The Two Worlds was a lot tougher to handle but I get thru it. (Pasal liat diwayang. nothing else I can do but watch sampai habis LOL)
this one lagi dashyat. my heart skipped a bit part the funeral scene.
as we know, I have read a lot of article during/after Jonghyun's funeral.
Part yg aku feel was when the movie's main character's mother sat in front of her son potrait and then there was an annoucement about putting the body into the casket.
during Jonghyun's, a post said his was done privately in the presence of  his loved ones.
So, from reading to watching and hearing an enactment of that scene is hard.
I shed a tear towards the end of the movie. bukan nangis berabis. just shed a tear. LOLbut really ut was mostly becoz I was so emerse in that movie. argh! no wonder it become 2nd highest grossing Korean movie. thumbs up

I finally understand when people posted warnings before continue reading a post.

I felt a lump in my throat and my hear skipped a beat from the above. I'm sure others might be a lot more emotional and will be triggered easily.

Some still need to time to heal

I don't know if I am healed or apa, but like i once said, you can never get over a death of your love ones, you just learn to cope and move on.

. . .

Composed on: 15th Feb 2018
Edited on: 14th Mar 2018

1. finished reading Five Days Left (read most of the book on 3rd and 4th Mar, and finished the rest on 9th Mar) and boy that was tough! I kept catching my breath at some parts. I kept wondering if that was what went thru Jonghyun's head. Like, he kept having second thoughts but certain things happened and his decision became more resolute.
2. Life goes on.

I believe today is White Day

14h March 2018

I think today is a White Day.

*starts Googling*
Yup, today is White Day.

I am only reading the difference between White Day and Valentine Day in Japan. where on V-day, Girls give Guys chocolate or things, while on White Day, Guys give Girls chocolate or things.

If you wanna know more, click here for White Day and here for Valentine Day.
all are for reading purposes only.

Anyway,
I'm not sure what to post at the moment.
I have a lot to get out of my chest.

I have 2 drafts on here that I need to post pranto.
The reason why they are still in Draft mode is because, I composed them when I was angry and fed up. So, I'm still contemplating whether I should re-write or post them as it is.

Decisions~ decisions~

Hmmm...

what else to mention?

I have a wand!

#WandsReady

and I am ready for FantasticBeast: The Crimes of Grindelwald!



but the movie is not until November 2018. *mata ke atas*

at least that's one thing to look forward to before this year ends.

hmmmm...

I shall end this post here.

until the next post, ciao~

. . . 

Passengers

HI guys!

first day of work in 2017 wasn't so bad.
at least, not as bad as I expected; nothing I couldn't handle, anyway~
A good start.

for today's post, I'm going to review (or lack of) this movie I watched last week, Passengers.
a sci-fi, romance, kinda movie.

I was googling the movie poster and I was right that there was already a movie named Passengers before, starring Anna Hathaway. but aku inda pernah liat that movie walaupun I love Anna Hathaway.

this 2016, Passengers movie stars Chris Pratt and Jennifer Lawrence.



I only ever heard of this movie arah interview cJennifer and watched a tiny bit of the trailer on TV. 
Basically, I have no idea what this movie was about other than it being in space.

the reason why I'm even doing this is because
*drum rolls*
there are a number of scenes in this movie that reminds me of other movie that I've watched before.

Ender's Game

Wall-E

Prometheus

Titanic

Gravity

The Martian

I know, Titanic's the only one yg bukan movie pasal space.

but this is what this Passenger movie is all about; clever puns.
watch the trailer I shared here. you'll understand why I include Titanic. ahahaha

overall, I love this movie. 
I have zero expectation when I went in to watch it, so, it was a nice surprise. 
I thought I'd hate it!

A for effort! 

. . .

Struggle

you don't know real struggle

until you experience slow internet.

-_-"

I was trying to watch God of Egypt online.
it's a two hour movie.
I started at around 9pm and by 1:51am later, the movie is still not finish.





SERIOUSLY!

I can't really enjoy the movie with all the pausing and waiting.

I finally understand why this movie didn't 'air' in Brunei. 
also, the 'Beast' kurang labih usulnya dengan usul Sea of Monster from Percy Jackson.
the story was supposed to be the beginning of Egypt before the Pharoahs, so the story-line was interesting. 
I know the Egypt was considered awesome engineers but dalam this movie, the graphics were, mcm, telampau 'forward'. almost futuristic even. Still awesome plang. 

but like I said, I wasn't enjoying the movie much, so, A for effort.

and thank you internet for being the awesome-est.
a two hour movie became a five hour movie. 
fantastic.

. . .

Winter's War

Caution: Spoiler Alert!

I thought I'd love this movie to death

but boy was I wrong.

reason to watch this movie:
1. Emily Blunt
2. the trailer said its the story before Snow White, so my expectation was maybe its the story of the step mother, knapa ya jadi jahat and all that.
3. Emily Blunt.
4. I figured there's gonna be a fight for power between the two sisters and the Winter sister died coz she wasn't in Snow White and the Huntsman
5. Emily Blunt.

hahaha I really like her. she's versatile. I watched her played a snob character in Devil Wears Parda, and then being poise in Young Victoria and being funny as hell in 5 Years Engagement and she sings in Into The Woods! i know 4 movie saja to be all 'she awesome' 'great actress' but you gotta admit, she really is brilliant!

anyway,
I watched the movie and I was very disappointed.
the acting, the scenery, the funny punch line, were all on point.
but the storyline kinda suck!

first, the 'story before Snow White' was kinda short.
I thought the entire movie was a story told before Snow White
but it was not even half through the movie!
3/4 of the movie was during after Snow White reclaimed her kingdom!
what was that all about?!
such misleading trailer!

second, even if the trailer was misleading,
I thought the 'Winter's War' part would be on point.
but it's not!
I thought the 'Winter's War' was between the two sisters, and that Freya, the Winter Queen, miraculously win against the 'gold' Queen (that Queen from Snow White and the Huntsman).
sekali rupanya, it was more like a war during winter. or war that leads or turns to winter.
it wasn't even the the Winter Queen yg do all the fighting. it was all done by her 'children'.
memang ada a 'fight' between the two sisters but it was towards the end and almost insignificant.
I don't know. I'm just mad at how the story turned out.
so everything is just a huge disappointment to me.

third, Finnick was there. hahaha
I mean Prince William, apparently the husband of Snow White in Winter's War.
I thought she ended up with the Huntsman?
rasa wah kan masuk kan cFinnick ah! I guess becoz he so famous now.
Sam Claflin. he was in the most famos Hunger Games Catching Fire onwards,
Pirate of the Carribean Stanger's Tide, Love Rosie, and soon (if not already) in Me Before You.
both Love Rosie and Me Before You are movies from books adaptation.

how he looks like, if you're wondering ^.^

No, this is not the upside of the movie.
Prince William appeared for like 5 mins top jua ganya. again, not very important aside from Prince William telling the Huntsman about the missing Mirror. other people could've informed the huntsman. *shrugged*

fourth,
they should have more scenes on the funny dwarfs!

fifth,
why is the mirror so blur?
I doubt that you can see yourself in it.
but I guess it was more like mirroring whats inside of your brain and heart.
*another shrugged*

I guess that is all that I have to say for this movie.

I hope the third one would we a lot better than this. if ever they decided to make a third installment of this series.

and I should lower my expectation next time.

. . .

that movie and a comeback

It was more like Funny and Egg!

LOL

I guess I expected that movie to be funny because Jack Black was in it.
and it was nice to find out that from the beginning, the main character was funny AH (as hell) too!

I laughed the hardest (spoiler alert!) during this one scene at the supermarket when Jack Black was spraying himself with deodorant! I laughed coz of his face but mostly because it was so girly and reminded me of a video Amber from f(x) posted on IG some time ago. hahaha so egg~

what I don't like about this movie is the scene towards the end. Literally before the ending punya scene. I don't like it. It's very disturbing. Like, what becomes of the reality?! 
You have to watch the movie to understand why I said it was disturbing. I'm dead lazy to explain. 
hahaha

BUT

not to lazy to mention this before I end this post;

f(x) comeback! 27th Oct! without Sulli!
YASSSS!

MV teaser was out 1hr ago!



looks promising but no high hopes coz SM loves to crash all your hopes and dreams.

So excited for this comeback! coz their 3rd Album comeback was dead short!

f(x) deserves all the love in the world!

. . .

PAN

frying pan!! or dalam bahasa Brunei nya, parimpan. 
hahaha

and I have never wanted to hit someone in the head with a frying pan before. until this movie.

I watched this new movie Pan at our local cinema, 
starring Hugh Jackman who played Blackbeard.

It's a story about the beginning of Peter Pan. before that story where he met Wendy. 
I wasn't expecting much when I watch Pan, so I find it very interesting and touchy, especially towards the end. 

but it isn't about the movie that I decided to make a post of this

it was actually about some very offensive actions that some mother and daughter did that made me post this;

not even half thru the movie, these two people stood up and after that changed to the empty seats in front of their previous seats (we sat at the top most seat (Row A), basically the best seats and they changed to seat (Row B) ). and noticing their action, suddenly i was conscious.

It was the mother (who sat next to me) who stood up first and I saw they contemplated for a minute than took the row B seats. then Zawir was like, "Pindah duduk durang ah" and I said "Yeah" and remember feeling really offended and embarrassed.
Earlier before the movie, me and Zawir had our dinner at Burger King and our burgers had onion rings in it.
So, I was thinking, was it my breath? was it stinking too much for the mother to move seat?
or
was it my quiet laughter? yes, i have learned to control my 'barking' laugh to a quiet, shy laugh when I'm in the cinema.

Although I still enjoy the movie and was really into it, every time I cast my eyes to those two beings, it made me wonder what i did wrong?

I even almost confronted them when the movie ended! like, i was that embarrassed and did not appreciate their offensive manner!

But after that, as we walked out of the cinema, I thought, it's not me. it's just that mother being 'annoyed' with me somehow. She's the one with the problem, not me.
If I stink, I am sorry.
If i laugh too much or giggle at every little bit (coz I'm probably some crazy nutter who cannot control my imagination), I am not sorry for that.
Coz, lets face it 'mother' of someone. if you want peace and quiet while watching a movie in a public cinema, I suggest, you don't.
I suggest, it is better for you to watch them at home. later, when the HD version of the movie is release in DVD format, yeah?

Because what you did was very offensive. and no manner. 

I know I am to blame if i have bad breath but if its because of my laughing, that's just..go home, woman!

. . .

a/n: I could go on about how maybe she had some OCD and I shouldn't be saying things about her but still, I have never been so humiliated in public! and I am sure to go on about this again when I'm reminded of it. #MannersIsForAll

. . .

Parental Guidance

I was supposed to post a topic on 'Guy Friend' tonight
but I was watching Parental Guidance, starring Billy Crystal (Or you might recognize his voice as Mike Wazowski from Monster Inc)
So, I got side track and decided to share my thoughts on this movie's moral instead.

This movie has been in my external hard disk for so long. 
I was bored and didn't know what else to watch tonight (coz I usually just watch other movies yg I already watched; Easy A, Mulan, Salt, etc). So, as i was scrolling thru the movies I had, I came across Parental Guidance and I double clicked it.

and I just finished crying.

Here's a synopsis taken from iMDb website;

Artie and Diane agree to look after their three grandkids when their type-A helicopter parents need to leave town for work. Problems arise when the kids' 21st-century behavior collides with Artie and Diane's old-school methods.

I think I cried because how Alice, Artie's daughter, think of her father reminds me of how I think of my mother. and the things Artie said, when they had their 'talk' makes me think that is how my mother must have felt.

I've never been close with my mother like other people do. Our relationship is strictly on mother and daughter basis; She's the superior and I am the kuli. I used to think that she raised me wrong but for so long now, I think she did what she was able. The terms 'I learned things on my own' is a lie. I don't learn things on my own, I had other people guiding me. I guess what makes me think that I was on my own was because they were not taught by my mother. All I can remember right now is how often I was being scolded by other parents for my 'unruly' behavior. 
I'm not saying my mom was a bad parent. 
She at least taught me how to be independent.

All I'm putting out tonight is that, we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves just because we were brought up that way. From what I've learned so far (coz believe me, I'm forever learning), you have a choice. You can choose to not be how your parents were. 
I heard sometimes ago that you can't break away from what you've been 'taught' growing up; meaning you are your parents child, and the way they brought you up is the only guidance you had on how you supposed to grow up to be. but that theory is stand to be corrected.
Because I've seen it. I've seen people with such horrible up bringing becoming so successful in life. I'm not talking about them getting better income or better lifestyle though that is the perks but I'm talking about successful for not being in such horrible situations anymore.
That is why I strongly believe you can break away from it.

I know old habits are hard to break.
My mom and I (with my other siblings too) are trying to 'reconcile' our 'relationship' since a few years back; coz we hardly ever talked with our mother like how you talked with your mother, 
but it's hard especially for me. 
The good thing is, we are still trying and willing to continue to try and be civil (coz one way or another, thing always ended up into a 'fight'). 
I think that is the most important thing; Try.
Coz you don't know until you try, right?

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disclaimer: I'm not saying me and my mother don't talk to each other. I'm saying we're just not as close as how other Mother and Daughter relationships that I've seen. Ok? OK.

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the 28th Birthday

Gosh I'm getting old.

but that's just how I feel when I look at the number.

Inside, honestly I feel normal. I still feel, well, me.

10th Sep

Spent most of my day time at home and in the toilet (coz I was sick with diarrhea. I still am ┐(‘～`；)┌)

Evening time, 

I went to the movie with Zawir. thanks for the movie treat, dude! 

he bought me a cupcake 

but since i was still sick, I didn't dare to eat it and plan on eating it at home but in our hurry, we lupa to bring the cupcake with us from the food court. hahaha

Scorch Trials, I can't rate it. Coz I am not happy with the 'zombie Apocalypse' . So, when I got home from the movie, aku tarus download the ebook. page 99 now. and you can just tell how much I love the book already. ◎[‿]◎

12th Sep

Lepak time with Geng Keras (+ 1 a.k.a. Kuch's Husband)

they surprised me with cakes (yes, cakes; a RedVelvet cupcake from Buzz, a rainbow cake from Kuch and Chocolate cake from Zawir; he said, 'no more utang ahh' LOL).

THANK YOU GUYS! You awesome! I was touched and thankful. as cKuch's husband said. "saranghaeyo" LOL (and I replied as I clapped 'my work here is done!') ♥‿♥

I was still sick of course, and felt sorry for them coz I kept disappearing to the toilet like, more than necessary LOL Sorry guys. I'll make sure my health will be in order by the next time we hang out. :D

on a brighter note, it has been a fun birthday altogether. ( ･_･)♡

thank you.

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