What I hate the most

Ever since I know how to travel,

I learned new things to hate.

One of them being?
When people asked me about my travels and then they made me feel like I'm doing my travelling wrong.

Man! people are annoying sometimes.

I know what you're going to say, I shouldn't listen to this people.

I don't. but that doesn't mean I can't hate it.

For a long time since my first travel, I've told myself so many times, that different people, different style of travel:

• some travel to shop
• some to be with nature (this includes mount climbing, camping, etc)
• some for the extreme sports (like parasailing, skydiving, etc)
• some for the culture (this includes sight seeing)
• some for food adventure
• some for theme park hopping

Those are some of the examples.

I guess, I'm more of a mixture between shopping, sightseeing, and theme park hopping.

of course, mine also depends on what country I'm visiting.

Like, I've been to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, and Singapore a number of times before. So, for my next trip there, I usually plan for more sight seeing/relaxing, and less shopping. (keynote: Plan. we know how plans always go :P)

With all that explained, and hopefully you got the point,

I hate it when people started asking, "eh inda ko pigi ..." or "rugi ko inda (go somewhere/do something) ..."

Ummmm ani travel story ku kah or kau?

If you think I'm rugi this and that, why don't you do it, if you're so perfect? 

Coz as far as I'm concerned, there's a different between dreaming of doing this and that/planning this and that, with actually doing this and that when you finally arrive at the destination.

You can planned things for months but still fell short of your plan when you were actually doing it, no matter how thorough your plan/research is.

So, unless you've done more travelling than I do, chill ko di sana and stop raining on my parade.

I'm not the best traveller. I'm still a baby traveller. still trying to get to know this world of travels.

Yes, I might missed a certain place to visit or take picture at, but who said that's gona be my one and only time there? I could always visit again. why you so worked up?

There you go,

my little rant on why I don't really like talking about my travel to people.

coz a princess once said, "the most boring thing is to hear story about other people's travel"

LOL that doesn't really make sense but I was never good at explaining things. :P

Anyway,

that's all for now and I will see you on my next post!

Happy Weekend people.

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Girl Power

Hello 
before we proceed with our main topic,
some other 'net' topics worth mentioning;

1. First of May most posted:

"It's gonna be May"

2. Fourth of May most posted:

"May the Fourth be with you"

it's 5th of May now and I know, 'ko terlambat roy~' ^o^

oh well < (^^,) >

So today's choice of topic is 
(wait for it) 
Meghan Trainor.

our power lady is well known for her All About That Bass single.
a song that talks about how it's ok if you have flabby skins on you. you shouldn't be sad about it. not all men love skinny bitches, stick figure barbie doll. and it's ok to tell him to 'move along' if your 'big' size is not his type.
in Brunei my size is kinda normal but the baju yg kena sale here are always Japanese-size small. even the one yg ckp 'free size' is actualy just meant 'free size for all the small-size body'.
for a girl who is not a 'size 2' like myself, this song is like a therapy.

her next song yg I'm attracted to is Lips Are Movin
I don't know what this song really means. Maybe it means she knows his a playa and she was cautious about everything that he said to her.
this song reminds me of a certain 'org gila' who broke my heart and make the skeptic that I am today towards sweet-talker guy.

next song: Dear Future Husband.
this song is like a letter to the future husband listing down things on what he should do, what he should know about the future wife, and how the things that she wants are pretty simple.
this song makes me realize that it's ok to demand things from your future husband. I think what caught into liking this song is that part when she sang 'I never learn to cook'  ^o^
hahaha 
if a guy is allowed to list down what his 'ideal' wife should be like, than a lady can do it too.

the last and final song about this power lady; NO



the songs talk about getting a man is not a priority and it's ok to say NO.
Know what you want, when you want it and when you don't.


Now, after elaborating the meaning of selected songs of Ms Trainor,
I'm going to talk about why this particular topic is made today.

a local radio DJ was introducing this song when it made to his Top20 chart one weekend.
He was introducing her song alright but towards the end, he was talking shit.
He said something about Trainor being an 'attention seeker' with her choice of words in her lyrics even from her previous top hit songs. 
So, I'm guessing, he's not too happy when Trainor:
1. dissing skinny people, 2. dissing a playa not being faithful, 3. demanding too much out of her future husband.
hmmm...
You know I over think on a lot of things and you bet I have something to say about this DJ.
He's probably the kind who is against women being in control, who know what they want, and not afraid to speak up their mind. 
Ok, maybe 'against' is a strong word but the way he said it during that time, he made it sound like what Trainor said in her song is wrong.
So, what? Trainor should be like the rest of the other female singer yg sang about being submissive towards men? is that it?
my goodness, what era is he in? 
if this is not what he meant then he's the one yg attention seeking on air. 
or maybe I'm just pissed at how very nonconstructive his criticism was. I just taught being a DJ, you're supposed to be neutral or something that even when you're about to judge people, you need to be constructive with your words. tsk
I used to love his show (coz it plays all the latest songs mostly) but becoz of his stupid comment, I don't even like it when I heard his voice doing an 'iklan'

damn!
I'm not even a fanatic of Meghan Trainor to be making such long post.
I just love her songs.

do your homework before you go to work, man! don't just sprout hateful things like that. seriously. 
there's a different between attention seeking and inspirational.

Meghan Trainor is inspirational.

and you, mister DJ, you're the kind of person she made the song about.

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This is Me

I've been trying to post something positive or something kpop but it's kinda hard, especially when your real life (outside this virtual world) is soooo negative.

ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ

I should mention that I am trying not to be so negative, not to be angry all the time and most importantly, trying not to lose myself.

It has been pointed out to me that I wasn't the same person as I was before. 

hmm...

Initially, I was shocked and upset finding that out coz it sounded like a bad thing coming out from the 'pointer's' mouth.
but being me, I over think it. 
Of course I'm not the same person as I was before!
I'm a living thing, I evolve!
Egg.

I guess the pointer only meant that I no longer follow their wishes.
Before, I used to just do what I was told coz I was afraid of being 'frown upon' which ended up me being bullied into doing other people's job too.
but now that I built up my own confidence, I questioned everything before I do what I was told to do.

It has also been pointed out to me that I've been watched and turned out, I have quite the temper.

Surprise.

They told me that I have an attitude problem. they even put that on my appraisal.

Lovely.

I wanted to be honest and say that I don't have an attitude problem but God knows I do, so, yeah, I have an attitude problem. 
the question is, why? Coz if they've been watching me, they should know that I don't just act up out of no where.

They asked me all the right questions plang but what really ticked me off is that they already know the answer but still want me to say it out loud.
Not that I have any problem on speaking my mind out loud, i just thought that it isn't fair that I'm being singled out and be the bad person alone.
Since they already know the real problem, why not address the 'problem' instead of trying to 'fix' my attitude because of that problem? 
I am channeling Ginny right now and will call this Problem, from today onward, Phlegm.

Seriously, when I'm not focusing on these silliness, I'm ok. my temper only raises when I think about it.
So, I'm gonna leave this here and hoping someone from the office will read this and do something about it.
Yes, issue dari office. 
hahahah
So much for being discreet.
my foot.

Anyway, they said they've been watching me kan? They should also see that temper-mental or not, I still do my job well. Not excellent but at least still exceed their expectation. 
but being the bias person that they are, I'm sure they didn't see that good side of me, only the bad one for them to use against me.

and to that I say,

☉▵☉凸

and have a nice life.

my ability to 'lead' was also brought into question. and all I can think about right now is Dumbledore.
Just because we don't hold higher position, that doesn't mean that we are not right.

I remember saying, "maybe they had forgotten what it was like down here" not exactly in that words but same meaning.

sigh.

I know it's time to go. It's not even worth it anymore.

PAN

frying pan!! or dalam bahasa Brunei nya, parimpan. 
hahaha

and I have never wanted to hit someone in the head with a frying pan before. until this movie.

I watched this new movie Pan at our local cinema, 
starring Hugh Jackman who played Blackbeard.

It's a story about the beginning of Peter Pan. before that story where he met Wendy. 
I wasn't expecting much when I watch Pan, so I find it very interesting and touchy, especially towards the end. 

but it isn't about the movie that I decided to make a post of this

it was actually about some very offensive actions that some mother and daughter did that made me post this;

not even half thru the movie, these two people stood up and after that changed to the empty seats in front of their previous seats (we sat at the top most seat (Row A), basically the best seats and they changed to seat (Row B) ). and noticing their action, suddenly i was conscious.

It was the mother (who sat next to me) who stood up first and I saw they contemplated for a minute than took the row B seats. then Zawir was like, "Pindah duduk durang ah" and I said "Yeah" and remember feeling really offended and embarrassed.
Earlier before the movie, me and Zawir had our dinner at Burger King and our burgers had onion rings in it.
So, I was thinking, was it my breath? was it stinking too much for the mother to move seat?
or
was it my quiet laughter? yes, i have learned to control my 'barking' laugh to a quiet, shy laugh when I'm in the cinema.

Although I still enjoy the movie and was really into it, every time I cast my eyes to those two beings, it made me wonder what i did wrong?

I even almost confronted them when the movie ended! like, i was that embarrassed and did not appreciate their offensive manner!

But after that, as we walked out of the cinema, I thought, it's not me. it's just that mother being 'annoyed' with me somehow. She's the one with the problem, not me.
If I stink, I am sorry.
If i laugh too much or giggle at every little bit (coz I'm probably some crazy nutter who cannot control my imagination), I am not sorry for that.
Coz, lets face it 'mother' of someone. if you want peace and quiet while watching a movie in a public cinema, I suggest, you don't.
I suggest, it is better for you to watch them at home. later, when the HD version of the movie is release in DVD format, yeah?

Because what you did was very offensive. and no manner. 

I know I am to blame if i have bad breath but if its because of my laughing, that's just..go home, woman!

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a/n: I could go on about how maybe she had some OCD and I shouldn't be saying things about her but still, I have never been so humiliated in public! and I am sure to go on about this again when I'm reminded of it. #MannersIsForAll

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My Shoe, My Post, Mine all the way

I've been very cautious of what I write AND post on social media.

Like, I'm taking care of everyone's feelings for them.

BUT I thought, It's my account, my social media, then it's only relevant that I post what I want.

IF you can't handle my posts (coz apparently, everything I post are meant for them), then I suggest you unfollow/delete/block/etc me from your social media accounts.

NO, I'm not threatening you because I think you wouldn't do it. Instead, I VERY MUCH APPRECIATE IT IF YOU UNFOLLOW ME. Why? because it'd be less heartache for each sides. 

I've been wondering why I have to avoid logging in into my own account just so I can avoid people's post. 

I shouldn't have done it. I should've just do what I want, when I want it.

I shouldn't have to "terasa" from others' posts. 

I shouldn't have make their post my problem.
Because it's not.
It's theirs.

I'm pretty sure people be saying the same thing (of the above) to me.

So, all I'm saying is that, my posts are mostly random; random rage, random boredom, or simply just random random. If somehow it affects you in any way, then, that's not my problem. 

like the old saying goes, IF THE SHOE FITS, WEAR IT!

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Shoot Straight

seriously,
I need to update this story.
I've left it hanging for two weeks now.
No, nothing the matter.
I'm just dead lazy.
hahaha
and to make a legit excuse, for the last two weeks, my weekend had been dedicated to moving things from the old house to the new.

I know, I should be posting this on my blog at asianfanfics.com instead of here but like I said, I am lazy to go there. wawawa 
besides, I want to show off this amazing poster made by ALY_VIP 
she made it for my story.
I am impress by others ability to edit pictures and make posters like this. 
just so impress. 
I remember trying when I was in lower Six. Not a complete failure but not a success either. hahaha
Again, I moved on and now I think it's easier to give such task to people who actually know how and love doing it.


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sci2 BBQ hang outz

Hello again. xD

last Sunday, sci2 people went out for an outing; BBQ at Pantai Simpanan Berakas.

and as always, those who came were those yg memang selalu attend (Hanif, Rahmat, Hasrin, Zawir, ME, Iqral, Buzz, Azhar, Edy n Beah, Aliff, Aziz) plus Syima and Fatin;

Obviously Rasyid was not there (only via Whatapps. ahaha) and two other people were missing too but i'll get back to that at the end of this post ;)

the things we did:

• we (of course) mostly eat and chat. 

• played cards (UNO and some other card 'games' that Fatin encountered when she was studying in KL. I wasn't always there playing with them but from what I heard, she changed game everytime she loses. LOL that girl). 

• went down to the beach, I mean, sudah di sana atu jua kan. ( I went down twice and got sunburned. -___- I don't remember that it stings)

It was nice catching up with everybody. and I realized that it had been years since we left high school. everybody's all grown up now. *tears* hahaha mcm apa~ but really, catching with your oldest of friends made you realise of where you came from and what you wana be from now onwards.

Thank You for always keeping my feet on the ground guys. We may not see each other often but I hope we stay in contact for more years to come and not be awkward at some point.

Let's plan on another gathering, yes? Sungkai Out perhaps?

and in regards about the two people (yg selalu nya hadir) missing; Amirah and Amal K, it was because... jeng jeng jeng..  

Amal K got engaged. she looked so prettyyy~~ cMyra yg took the picture above. that was how I know and understand why both of them couldn't make it. 
at first I was hesitating to post it here but then I realize, barang baik, apa kan tapuk2? and cMyra and herself did post arah Instagram, so I guess, it's ok lah kn for me to post it here too? hehe (since inda jua beribu urg membca blog ku ani :P) So, Congratz Mal. ;)

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People will be people

나도 알아

I know.

since before aku paham erti hidup (aseh! :P), I know.

I know that no matter what, good or bad, people are gonna talk.

• Praising you.

• bad-mouthing you.

• Exaggerate things for you.

• They'll do it all.

As a human being, I can't help but feel super upset when I learned that a certain someone (or two) were/are actually talking behind my back. I know i'm not always a 'saint', and I know about 'karma' too but it still hurts.

What I often do when something like this happened, I tell myself that people are gonna talk. no matter how much you want to make them happy (impress them, whatever), they'll never gonna stop talking about you. Those kind of people don't matter. what was that saying? (menggoogle~~ :P) ah. "Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind" by Bernard M. Baruch.

*nod nod*

but still, sedih ku. 

am I that bad of a person?

Sometimes I think that I am.

#Twitter @Factsionary - Psychologists have proven that we tend to overestimate ourselves -- We are not as nice as we think we are. 

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