I finally watched Diana, a movie starring Naomi Watts
and its about the love story of Diana, Princess of Wales, after her separation from Prince Charles.
I don't know much about the late Lady Di, but she was actually very famous for her humanitarian acts and charity works.
I only know about her during her funeral news/coverage. the news was so huge that it was all over the radio (Brunei used to have a live broadcast of Capital FM, a famous UK radio station at that time) and Television. I even bought a magazine that solely covers the Funeral with Prince William and Prince Harry shown on the cover. and I am ashamed to tell you that the reason I bought the magazine was because I thought Prince William was cute. (LOL-ing at my childishness)
but being me, I ended up being more curious about the history rather than the scandal that surrounds her at that time (or more correctly, I don't remember reading anything about her scandal at that time. it's when I was older that I heard and understand what was really going on before her tragic death)
So, watching the movie, I wasn't much interested in her lovey-dovey side. I just wanted to see how much truth was put in it. I like how they relived or revamped features or dresses or scenes and speeches from the real ones. I know they're not all truth but it made me happy thinking that they're showing a 'behind-the-scene' footage/story from what I used to see old pictures. I've always loved the "history" behind things. It made you connects and understand a little more why things happened the way they did.
One thing I need to point out though. Towards the end of the movie, it was showed that Lady Di was actually the one who exposed to the press of her whereabouts when she was on vacation with Dodi. As much as I want to understand her intention was actually to catch the attention of her former boyfriend, Hasnat, I just thought that she shouldn't have done it. I mean, she could do little with the coverage, don't you think? She was already being swarmed by paparazzi as it is. I don't know if that part was made up or not but as I said, it would have been less stressful if she hadn't.
all the time when I was watching this movie, a One Direction song kept popping into my mind. it was called, Diana.
even from when i first heard this song, I was thinking about Lady Di. the chorus lah, very fitting. but thats just me. Lady Di is the only famous Diana that I know of.
After the movie ended, it occurred to me that yesterday would marked the 14 years of her death. She was killed in a car accident in Paris on 31th August 1997. in the movie, they remake the final moment of her life, thru the security footage at a Hotel's lift and also exit, and the date on at the bottom of the screen was 31.08.97. i feel sad for a second thinking about it. a final moment's in someone's life. how would you feel if that was actually a footage of your love ones?
RIP Diana, Princess of Wales. You showed people what should be done when you were given powers; help the underprivileged and raise the voice of the unheard. You were an amazing humanitarian.
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Hello again.
as promise, I'll be posting an interrelated post (from yesterday's) today.
Remember how I told you about this Master holder person?
Well, dot dot dot is actually her first job experience. and even though she's a Master holder (is this what you call this people? coz aku main hantam sja ni. LOL), has the brain to absorb all those knowledge, she is yet to apply it.
meaning?
meaning, her theory knowledge is as good as my practical knowledge of the job.
No, don't get me wrong. Why I'm telling you all this story about her, is not to bad mouth/talk bad/mengucap about her (ok, maybe a little. since she's so over confident that she knows it all -___-. LOL) but it's becoz she made me realise something. something that had been said over and over again.
She made me realise that it's ok. it's ok that I'm lacking academically (though it would've still be nice if I have it) because, while I lack on one thing, I gain another. My Geography tutor, Mr. Fletcher once said, "you win some, you lose some". I have those words embedded in my brain to this day. Coz it's so true. I applied it on everything I do.
In this case, I may not have a Master (yet) but for the past 5 years (and counting) I've gained so much knowledge that CAN'T be learn in books;
1. those accounting calculations I do at the end of every month or every year end, isn't as it was shown in the book during high school/ college.
2. Customer always right? My foot.
3. to smile while answering a phone. to smile even when you really wanted to do is smack the other person's head.
4. to manage your time (eg. deadlines) coz this is not high school/college. you don't get second chances.
5. Life is tough. Remember how teachers said that it'll be easier after A Level? My foot.
6. and my communicating skill is a lot better. I got less nervous. a tat
bit confident when needed. I learned not to be too shy when the occasion
calls for it.
I could list a lot more but lupa ku sudah. but those are the few things that I learned.
I learned all these things from the bottom up.
I'm not saying I'm a better person. i'm just saying, as a worker, I'm a lot more confident, practically, then she is. and I don't have to be cocky about it.
sigh. i'm expressing this all wrong.
I mean, she was acting all snob just becoz she got that Officer position. when in reality, she shudn't be. because that position doesn't say that you are knowledgeable of the job. you don't know the job as well as we, your seniors, do. Chill down a little. be humble. remember, you jumped steps. If you're not careful, you might fall.
Ok, this post has gone too far from its original purpose. LOL.
What I'm trying to say is that, while others go gain knowledge academically, I gain experience working. I'm not totally losing in life (coz seeing others succeed in their academic life made me feel like I'm such a losers sometimes -___-"). I have something. Something to be proud of too.
and becoz of that, I am happy how my life turns out to be. Aku bersyukur that I've gone thru all that to get to where I am today. I just want to keep my feet firmly on the ground as Shane Filan once said. Know who you are, know where you come from.
I may not have the highest ambition among my friends but I planned on working hard for my future. It's a tat bit hard when you don't have a higher education but we'll manage, won't we?
A/N: I decided to insert a few GIFs to make this post a lil bit lively. or it would've been too dull. -___-
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A/N: this is going to be a very lengthy post. So, brace yourself.^_^Y
I've encountered two must-give-chances people in recent months.
Both are of higher level position. (an Officer and Asst. Manager level)
When I first met them, I was like;
for Asst. Manager, 'Gila, bossy jua. Baru masuk sudah mengada2'
for Officer, 'Gila, snob. Mahal banar jua senyuman atu!
For Asst. Manager tu, it took me a while to finally understands her, from a far. Yes, from a far sja pasal she's not, kira, ada kena mengena ngan unit kami. but her table is near to mine thus after a lot of observing and a lot of formal communications, I figured that she's actually a very nice person and cared alot about her staffs. not by words, but by actions. which is very the rare to see di dot dot dot atu. (LOL! paksa ber censored. Krg kana tangkap ku :P). and she also has that very amazing communicating skill. like, you know business like kinda talk. So, sometimes, becoz she's so well mannered when she talks, its so hard to be all rude to her even when you feel like she's bossing you around. ahahah like i said, took me awhile to not be rolling my eyes when she talks. hahah sorry, Asst. Manager.
For Officer. hmmm. I didn't get much time to observe her or communicate long enough with her to be able to say what kinda of person she is (not that I have any rights whatsoever in general, to be judging people..but this is just my thoughts). she has this snob-face on whenever. like, really whenEVER. When she first approached me to study/observe my job, she was all friendly and we got chatty a bit. i thought we were gona be ok (coz you know, since it seems like we got off the wrong foot). Skali, when we crossed each other: I went out for break n she just came in after her break, I smiled at her and then she just gave me that snob-face, like she's challenging me or something. I duno. penggalar ku, snob berabis. After that, we sat together again, she chatted like she never gave me that face. I was like, 'whhaaaa'. Then I found out that she was actually a Master holder, i was like, 'oh patut snob semacam'. Maybe in her mind, she's above everybody else kali. Coz, as far as I know, nada urg yg berMaster bah arah kami tu.
So, in conclusion, I duno. unlike, Asst. Manager, I havent come to term with liking her, yet. there's that bar between us still. I just, can't. . . . . . .
I guess, the point of me making this post, is that, chances are not only for others but for yourselves as well. I mean, I give myself a chance to get to know Asst. Manager. Now, she's no longer the least fav person in dot dot dot (hahaha membagi ketawa bah :P). as for cOfficer, hmm. ketawa dulu *ketawa sampai guling2* sigh. bukan plang inda mau bagi myself a chance to like or befriend her, it's just, SNOB WAH IA ATU! HOW?! hahaha isuk2 tah membagi chance rh diri ku untuk lebih mengenali ia. mana tau kami kan jadi the best of friends? *sarcasm sarcasm*
hahahaha.
A/N: too lengthy? got tired reading? wait till you see my next post. it's inter-related. wawawawa
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나도 알아
I know.
since before aku paham erti hidup (aseh! :P), I know.
I know that no matter what, good or bad, people are gonna talk.
- Exaggerate things for you.
As a human being, I can't help but feel super upset when I learned that a certain someone (or two) were/are actually talking behind my back. I know i'm not always a 'saint', and I know about 'karma' too but it still hurts.
What I often do when something like this happened, I tell myself that people are gonna talk. no matter how much you want to make them happy (impress them, whatever), they'll never gonna stop talking about you. Those kind of people don't matter. what was that saying? (menggoogle~~ :P) ah. "Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind" by Bernard M. Baruch.
*nod nod*
but still, sedih ku.
am I that bad of a person?
Sometimes I think that I am.
