Positivity VS Negitivity

Third Day of Raya.

I have never been so care-free.

I guess I aged well. LOL Not really

Raya used to be such a stressful ordeal but this year, I barely cared.

I'm that pressured to the point that I don't want to care.

It's not because of work. 

Becoz as stressful as work gets, at the end of the day, it's what happened when you go home.

the environment at home is the most integral part of your being. 

I'm the type that shuts office off the moment I walked out of the office. Yes, I may talk about it or the people in it when I meet my freinds but non of that conversation ever been about the work itself. 

When you come home to a house full of negative vibes, that actually put more harm to your health than work could ever did.

If you can't be positive at home after a full day of negativity, then what are you going to be?

yeah yeah

It's all come down to how you react to things.

but everybody has their limits.

There is only so much patient in ones body.

 . . .

Challenge Accepted

안녕 여러분

in light of my (other) current obsession,
I am challenging myself to learn some of my favorite korean songs.

the real challenge will be *drum rolls*
to only learn them reading the hangul lyrics.

Yup!
that is right!
ONLY the korean lyrics.

I'm still a very slow hangul reader but I'm pretty sure I can do it.

The first song I learned was Taeyeon's Fine 
took me about a week to finally get the hang of reading the lyrics with the singing LOL
(start Mar 25th, so-so mastered Apr 4)
of course that one I learned with the help of the romanized lyrics too.

what I learned (berapa banyak perkatan 'learn' dahhhh) from that experienced is that
the romanized lyrics confused me. 
coz I know how it supposed to sound (of course with the help of listening to the song too)
and the romanized spelling does not spell like how you supposed to pronounce it.
I'm not saying the romanized is not helping. it helped A LOT. 
I'm saying its annoying when you confidently read the hangul and your eyes went down reading the romanized lyrics and it spelled different than what you were pronouncing.
*buat muka annoyed and mata ke atas*

Thus, I decided to challenge myself to learn my next song, BoA - 옆 사람 (Stand By) full on hangul lyrics.

its a ballad. slow song.

you bet yo ass I can't read and sing Korean songs when its upbeat/laju/fast-beat.

antah apa ku baca, antah apa ku sabut. (￣。￣)

HAHAHAHAHA

take it one step at a time.

Plus,

it's not like I'm going for a competition with this *air* talent *quote* 

¯\(©¿©) /¯

I'm just surprise that I'm not trying to learn SHINee songs first.

I guess I'm more comfortable singing girlie songs at the moment.

I mean, I'm not saying SHINee don't have good ballad to hafal, I'm just saying, I don't want to be greedy. LOL 
●_●
seriously, I have no reason why their songs isn't on my list of songs to hafal, ok?

So...

. . .

DIY design for phonecase Part 3

I honestly thought the previous post was a January post. :S
rupanya, bukan.
man time flies!

I am going to share with you what happened with my DIY phonecase no. 3: paper design.

Well, it's not really a design. 
it was mostly just shaped, cut and pasted.

Step 1. pick a phone case and measure the size.


Step 2. Cut your choice of background paper


Step 3. Choose your bias pictures


Step 4. Cut out bias picture


Step 5. Use craft glue to stick background paper and bias picture together

Step 6. Stick that onto the back of your clear casing. 


Step 7. Cover your paper up till the edge of your casing with your Multi Medium Matte adhesive.


Step 8. left to dry.

Step 9. use

Step 10. realizing the mistake you make 

Step 11. no longer using. now sits in my drawer for a self reminder of what not to do with DIY paper design for phonecase.


my mistakes:
a. I think I need to cut the background smaller so it fits the back side of the casing better.
b. I should have used the Glossy effect instead of Matte.
c. maybe a soft gel liked casing isn't the best material to use for paper DIY phonecase design.
d. maybe the type of paper I used is too thick that's why it wouldn't stick. 

Hmmm.. I don't know, I think I'm gonna give this DIY another try before i proceed with the 'painting' DIY.

. . .

a/n: I learn mostly from Youtube

18th Sep

Hello lovely people.

I decided to just post this now before I procrastinate again. :D

So, I went for a leisure (and in my head; SHOPPING!) trip to Kuala Lumpur on the 18th Sep - 21st Sep with Bazilah. 

We arrived at our hotel and finally into our room at around 8:30pm. we lived at Capitol Hotel, Bukit Bintang. (Bisai lah this hotel, turun saja, there's Starbucks, a burger place, 7Eleven, Low Yat Plaza, BB Plaza too. and within a walking distant to Fahrenheit 88, Lot 10 and Pavilion)

Once we rehat and settled sekajab, we went straight to Pavilion.

Bazilah shopped at MAC for her mother's compact powder. 

Then we went to find food coz we so hungry balum makan since 3pm++ (we didnt eat on the plane). We decided to eat at Subway. Sandwich yumminess!

We searched for Sketchers store afterwards (we were rushing; it was almost closing time) coz I wanted to buy the shoes that was similar to Onew's (don't judge me, please) but nada that shoe. I shrugged it off and said I'll look for it tomorrow. at some other mall.

Because of all the constructions going on around Bukit Bintang, we got lost on our way home. I was mostly worried coz it was just us two. It wasn't deserted though the place that we past thru, but I was cautious. when we finally walked out of an alley, We saw Nandos and since I've been craving for Nandos chicken for SO. LONG. I decided that we should rest for awhile there and Googled our way back to the hotel. Bazilah Googled while I ordered for take-aways. when our food was ready, we went out again and lucky I recognized a certain parking lot and convinced Bazilah to just walked down that road to our hotel. Alhamdulillah, finally kejumpahan tah jua hotel kami ani. Sikit lagi ku panic attack bah. LOL

Sudah di Hotel atu, we freshened up and eat our Nandos. 

hahah tangah2malam lah jua kami mengasak makanan atu and chit chatting till maybe around 1am++  then soon enough, Day 1 was over.

I didn't sleep till 4am in the morning though. Normal plang tu. For me at least. I always have a hard time sleeping in a 'new' place.

What I like most that from Day 1 was that I didn't think about work. at. all. 

and before I end this post, this is how the room looked like;

 ada tuk iron baju. I was thinking on renting them before I came that day. turns out kena provide for use. awesomeness!

and a real space saver; that complimentary drinks/boiling-water-kettle/cawan were all put in the almari.

I forgot to take picture of the bathroom. Hose/Pipe water was provided near the toilet. a must for Bruneian, I guess. LOL thumbs up for that.

It was a very comfy stay.

 . . .

A/N: Day 2 is up next. 

. . .

Failing isn't forever

So, I failed again and was very sad about it.

I thought I've tried my best but I guess my best isn't good enough.

My sister said, 'Redha'. and I just nodded. 

I was said for a few hours on Saturday and indulged myself with food from Mr. Baker. 

It was supposed to be a celebration food but oh well...

Now that I've been given a clearer picture of what I should do next, I'm going to, as the Robinson said, 'Keep Moving Forward'. I'm still trying to consult myself to not look back even though its a tat bit hard to do.

I guess, as long as I'm not still here, right?

a/n: listening to Westlife - Try Again.

was I harsh?

Hey there.
yeah, it's me again.

Today, I've decided to put my plan into action; Removing photos of me from FB. esp the ones yg I'm not wearing tudung.

I even asked my closest of friends to do it on their accounts too. I mean, I can't remove them pictures if I'm not the one who uploaded them.

Of course, most people are supportive and reacted instantly. while, others, nyeh.

I think I hurt someone today and I can't even explain to them 'why'.

I mean, I can. but I don't know eh.

when I said 'esp the ones yg aku inda betudung', does that not make sense? can't you figure out why I want them remove? It's nothing to do with you or against you, it's about me. and tani sama2 Islam, inda kan inda teklik? especially when you treat FB like your everyday newspaper. Inda kan inda membaca post2 urg pasal agama atu?

Sigh. it upsets me that people thought I just want those pictures remove because I don't treasure the memories. 
WHAT. ARE. YOU. TALKING. ABOUT.
OF COURSE I DO!

but it's not how much affection you show me on FB that counts! it's how much you show me outside of FB. 

I've said it once and I'm going to say this again, FB tu tempat mengambang saja tu.

and that's why I want them pictures of me not wearing tudung removed.

I know it's a lot of work and a lot of hassle but believe me, this will benefit all of us. 

So, once again, THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE! I LOVE YOU! and sorry if I made you do some mini scavenger hunting today. kekeke I really appreciate this! A LOT!

. . .

Bersyukur

Hello again. 

as promise, I'll be posting an interrelated post (from yesterday's) today.

Remember how I told you about this Master holder person?
Well, dot dot dot is actually her first job experience. and even though she's a Master holder (is this what you call this people? coz aku main hantam sja ni. LOL), has the brain to absorb all those knowledge, she is yet to apply it. 
meaning?
meaning, her theory knowledge is as good as my practical knowledge of the job.
No, don't get me wrong. Why I'm telling you all this story about her, is not to bad mouth/talk bad/mengucap about her (ok, maybe a little. since she's so over confident that she knows it all -___-. LOL) but it's becoz she made me realise something. something that had been said over and over again.

She made me realise that it's ok. it's ok that I'm lacking academically (though it would've still be nice if I have it) because, while I lack on one thing, I gain another. My Geography tutor, Mr. Fletcher once said, "you win some, you lose some". I have those words embedded in my brain to this day. Coz it's so true. I applied it on everything I do. 
In this case, I may not have a Master (yet) but for the past 5 years (and counting) I've gained so much knowledge that CAN'T be learn in books; 
1. those accounting calculations I do at the end of every month or every year end, isn't as it was shown in the book during high school/ college.
2. Customer always right? My foot.
3. to smile while answering a phone. to smile even when you really wanted to do is smack the other person's head.
4. to manage your time (eg. deadlines) coz this is not high school/college. you don't get second chances.
5. Life is tough. Remember how teachers said that it'll be easier after A Level? My foot.
6. and my communicating skill is a lot better. I got less nervous. a tat bit confident when needed. I learned not to be too shy when the occasion calls for it. 

I could list a lot more but lupa ku sudah. but those are the few things that I learned.

I learned all these things from the bottom up. 

I'm not saying I'm a better person. i'm just saying, as a worker, I'm a lot more confident, practically, then she is. and I don't have to be cocky about it. 

sigh. i'm expressing this all wrong.

I mean, she was acting all snob just becoz she got that Officer position. when in reality, she shudn't be. because that position doesn't say that you are knowledgeable of the job. you don't know the job as well as we, your seniors, do. Chill down a little. be humble. remember, you jumped steps. If you're not careful, you might fall. 

Ok, this post has gone too far from its original purpose. LOL.

What I'm trying to say is that, while others go gain knowledge academically, I gain experience working. I'm not totally losing in life (coz seeing others succeed in their academic life made me feel like I'm such a losers sometimes -___-"). I have something. Something to be proud of too.

and becoz of that, I am happy how my life turns out to be. Aku bersyukur that I've gone thru all that to get to where I am today. I just want to keep my feet firmly on the ground as Shane Filan once said. Know who you are, know where you come from.

I may not have the highest ambition among my friends but I planned on working hard for my future. It's a tat bit hard when you don't have a higher education but we'll manage, won't we?

A/N: I decided to insert a few GIFs to make this post a lil bit lively. or it would've been too dull. -___-

. . .

Remind Myself

 I found a piece of paper when I was doing my spring cleaning last two weeks. I wrote some self-motivational words on it. I don't know why I made a copy of it but I guess it was because I can relate so much to it. Even now.

So, I'm gonna share what I wrote on that piece of paper here. I hope it'll somebody too in one way or another. ;)

. . .

Life will get better; It always does.

You're a wonderful person, Just remember that you don't have to expect so much from yourself. Try pampering yourself a little more. Take more time just for you.

Try concerntrating on taking just one step and one situation at a time. Don't try to think about everything at once. Try putting your own best interest first.

Make time to take good care of yourself. you are precious and important, and you deserve peace and happiness, it will happen if you can just hang in there. - Barbara Cage.

. . .

Miss Me?

Annyeonghaeseyo

how have you all been? Good I hope. xD

I know..

I was on hiatus,

for various reasons...

Life is a lil too hard at the moment.

but that's ok. ada lagi hidup urg yg lebih 'payah' dari mine.

InsyaAllah, I will get thru this phase.

So, for now, I will try and post as much as I can this month.

(If aku ada rasa kn post jua tu..muahaha)

and try and be positive with Life.

in the mean time, try and not miss me too much (HAHAHAH perasan)

. . .

Yay me!

remember that time, back in 2009/10 I said that i'm gonna try and finish reading the books that I bought over the years but never got the time (or sebenarnya malas sja xP) to read them?

well guess what?

I hadn't really made any real progress since that post.

Until last March, aku banar2 mau bali Pretty Little Liars: Unbelievable.

tapi since buku atu abis stock dBrunei ani (even check smpi kMiri pun nada), I guess ada reason lah dsebaliknya.

and the reason being this: I told myself that if I didn't finish reading all the books that i bought, I will not allow myself to buy any new ones.

So, untuk menyanangkn hati ku yg sedih ani, I decided, habis kn sja tia buku2 yg alum bebaca ani then after that, if kan bali smua Pretty Little Liars punya series skali gos pun, mana saja tah.. ahahaha

thus, recently, I finished reading 3 books.

tada! *self applause*

and I have 8 more to go. 

I feel like I've made an excellent progress with this. heh heh heh

until I cheated myself. 

-___-

if you read the previous2 post, I bought four Pretty Little Liars books in KL. and I'm gona read that one first before I continue reading the remaining eight. ahahaha xP

Gambatte? xD

p/s: the reason why it took me forever to finish both Flawless and Perfect is because I was busy rereading my Harry Potter series. ahahaha bukn apa, the first time aku bca HP series, aku bca buku library. So, when aku sendiri bali the buku, aku rasa, aku mesti bca lagi balik. Just, so, you know, aku bca buku yg ku bali atu. ahahaha

. . .

Silly Things

'Crazy' is such a strong word. so does 'Love'

So, in my own interpretation; People do silly things when the like someone so much..

LOL!

am just saying...

. . .

I never asked

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em
But I never asked

So let me thank you for time
And try to not waste any more of mine
Get out of here fast

Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

Sara Bareilles - King of Anything.

have a listen here:



. . .

maybe I'm just scared

I realized, I've been taking the easy way out for every decision that I've made.

I have to be more berani, bold and be more like Minho.


(since, you know, he'll all about being competitive and see failure as a big NO NO and whatnot) wawawawa


but seriously, this taking-the-easy-way-out-attitude has got to end. Now.

maybe I'm just scared.

. . .

Is it me

Falling on my heartbreak and I
Get my hopes up when I'm in love
Until we break up then I'm back to the
Same spot, I've been lonely, drowning
Cause every guy turns out to be the same
So now I'm questionin' is it me to blame

Is It Me? am I so complicated?
Is It Me? or is love over-rated?
Is It Me? cause I don't quite understand
Why it never turns out how I thought I planned it
Is It Me? am I too independent?
Is It Me? not ready for commitment?
Is It Me? cause it doesn't seem to last
And it's the only question that I never asked


Stacie Orrico - Is it me?

. . .

Hangul

yup..

been studying Korean these past few weeks.



I havent got the hang of it.

since the Korean class clashes with my Taekwondo training, I chose to go training every Tuesdays and go class every Thursdays.
this could be one of the reasons to why I still havent got the hang of it. I can do well listening. I just suck at reading. -____-

:S

plus, it's frustrating. coz I'm such a 'rajin' person.

ahahah

must. change.


i hope i can stay till the end of this year. Amin.


. . .

another tag game thingy

I was tagged by MizArWeN ;D thanx chingu~

So, here's the thing..I'm gona post the 'rules', answer her questions, and then not gona be asking 11 more questions for others to answer OR tagging anyone for that matter.

why? psl, I only have like, less than 5 active bloggers.

hehe this is for self entertainment purposes... ;D

So, yeah...here goes...


The rules of the game:
1. You must post these rules.
2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create eleven new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about “you are tagged if you are reading this”. You legitimately (AKA, really, truly, with all honesty) have to tag 11 people.


MizArWeN's question for her dolls;
1. In what part you and me clique? Korea!
2. How long we've been known each other? hmm..give or take two years?
3. Extreme sport that you really want to do? Figure Skating? Ice Hockey?
4. Peanut butter or chicken ham mayo sandwiches? chicken ham mayo sandwiches
5. Would you like to be my friend in real world? we ARE already friends in the real world ;)
6. What course/job that you into? my virtual job is writing fictions. real life work would be...
7. Risk taker or play safe? both. but dtg gila ku...ahahah
8. Do you find me attractive? Lol hahah yes
9. When is my birthday? 5th of May
10. Like SNSD too? well, yeah but not as much as I love SHINee xD
11. You are an early bird or an owl type of person? mostly owl type of person.


BUT

just in case someone feels like answering my question(s);

1. What is your fav color?
2. If you have to choose; Robert Pattinson or Daniel Radcliffe?
3. Live to eat or Eat to live?
4. is Pink the really the new black?
5. if 2012 were to come early, anything you regret not doing in 2011?
6. Chicken or Beef?
7. what's your greatest fear?
8. if i ask you to go bungee jumping with me, would you go?
9. which one do you prefer; reading a book (like a novel) or watching a movie?
10. Japanese or Korean?
11. can you say AAA~~ (LOL! coz I'm running out of questions)?

You can just leave your answer in the comment box if you want..i'd like to read them.. xD

. . .