Do you remember the time ...

remember that time

when all I ever talked about was Westlife?

yeah, that was the good time.

or the worst for you guys?

I'm sure I've mentioned it at a hundred times before that I write fictions, right?
there was one time when a friend complaint to me and she said, "cBryan saja jua eh! nada lelaki lain kh?".
I was gobsmacked and ashamed
but it didn't stop me from continuing to use 'Brian' as the main male lead in my story. ┏(＾0＾)┛┗(＾0＾) ┓

Moving on~

Yesterday, when I was on my way home, as I changed the radio channel,
I heard Uptown Girl was playing.
but it was almost finished and I whined for changing the channel a little too late.

but another Westlife song was playing after that and from just the intro, I started fangirling; squealing like I have never heard the song playing on my iphone/laptop before.
the song was Something Right. the radio station was having some double request segment of some kind.

It maybe a 'sekadar' moment for you
but listening to ANY Westlife song kena play on air is such a nostalgic moment for me.
to cut things short; Westlife is such a big part of me growing up, its bittersweet listening to someone playing/listening to their song without me asking them to. T.T

Anyhoo
how about I share with you guys the awesome-est live video concert for Uptown Girl
the best live performance for this song, in my opinion.

lets clap and sing-a-long !!



I'm not Swedish but I wish I was everytime I see this. ＼（＾○＾）人（＾○＾）／

I wanted to apologize to people that I annoyed during my Westlife phase
but you should know: I was happy with my obsession (yes, I use the word obsess coz thats what I was back then)
and every time rakan2 sebaya point out my obsession to me during a meet up or a gathering, I felt such pride in that. I don't know how else to explain my feelings but I was proud of who I was back then (with my obsession towards Westlife sahaja. not the other things)

at least when people hear Westlife, they thought of their 'crazy obsess' friend, Az Nuur. (¬‿¬)

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Yaayyerrrr

I finally caught up with my August Challenge 
and just in time too.

D27: Comic

who doesn't read Doraemon when they were young? I know someone who still reads them to this day. v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

D28: A Memory

this was that one memory that I could not really remember other than it's a very funny one. Zoey and Kuch would remembered. We laughed so hard at that time.

Another thing yg I remembered was I wanted to be sick so bad!

(and I did get sick the next day LOL!)

To those who do not know; when you combine Durian with any carbonated drinks it makes your stomach grumble and for me it made me had a 'homemade' diarrhea. 

LOL!!! x10!!!!

D29: Embarrassing Moment

well.. I don't like reliving my most embarrassing moment. it usually resurfaces when I was about to fall to sleep. I'm telling you, it wasn't a pleasant feelings. So, for me to try and draw those moments is really a big nonononononononononononono (x infinity)

D30: Loved Ones

It's not really a 'enough said' coz nothing is ever gona be 'enough said' for the ones you love.

D31: Banner to Congratulate yourself for being able to complete this challenge

YAYYER! ♪┏ ( ･o･) ┛♪┗ (･o･ ) ┓♪┏(･o･)┛♪

the lightness I feel in my heart and in my head when I finally finished that banner.

Thank you for a fulfilling August, Esma. you awesome! thank you for this. it has been awhile since I last had a goal to achieve. So, with this finish, I feel happy. and of course, relief. hahahah

maybe in September I can concentrate with my Shoot Straight story?

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my Stress reliever

A couple of weeks ago, me and Buzz went to the Consumer Fair at ICC.

the fair was super ...neutral. coz it was the same as the previous (and previous nya lagi punya) year; local vendors selling clothing, shawls, cookies, electronics, FOOD! you know, the usual.

See that Anna sanitizer (click image to enlarge. it was attached on my bag)

I lost it as soon as I left ICC compound. I think I lost it in the bus coz I got stuck for a moment in it.

I was so upset about it.

the one thing different was the FREE photo booth at DST booth. It was the same as the one we had during our BBB annual dinner last Jan.

since me and buzz almost finish shopping (cBuzz shopping, I was mostly eating and drinking and looking around saja hahah), we agreed  to take some photos. It was free anyway.

Look at us. being funny. hahaha

and on our way to catch the bus which will bring us back to where we parked our car, we met Hasrin.

Then in the car, we ate our food.

We contacted Zawir during that time, for a lepaks.
We decided to watch Jurassic Park at Empire Cinema but  when we got there, there was no decent seats available. So, we ended up taking a stroll at the Empire beach ground.

Sekaliiiiiii

Hujan!
so we spent our time waiting for the rain to stop taking pictures.
Here's a couple of them

"Dancing in the rain"

Selepas itu, hujan teduh..and we balik.

so much for a happening night. hahaha

but still. I had a proper smile on my face after a tough week.

My awesome friend brings out the best in me. *cough* cheesy *cough*

. . .

Hmmm

this was taken on the first week of June, by my cheeky supervisor.

she thinks she so funny!

hahaha well, she is pulang. she brings up the fun in the office. I really appreciate her friendship in that hell hole. 

Instead of feeling ugly, I honestly like to think that I still have manners while eating in public.

BAHAHAHAH

I thought selama ani aku makan macam cavemen!

So, cheeky supervisor, thank you for showing the 'groupchat' that I wasn't. 


a/n: hate all you want but my shawl look awesome with our BBB tshirt aaand my awesome orange bag is in that picture too. this picture is perfectionnnnnnn 

. . .

me being a girl, ranting ...

I seriously need to polish my interviewee skill.

and I think interviewer should at least do their homework too. Like, prepare your questions? 

Just my opinion
but I believe conversation comes from both sides.
You can't expect me to just talk, can you?
It's the first time we are meeting each other. 
We both are awkward.
Since I'm the interviewee, I think I am allowed to 'speak when spoken to'.
You on the other hand should at least keep the conversation going.

Seriously, I've been interviewed by this company twice and both times been like that.

I know interviews are meant to be quote serious unquote but still.

I've been to a lot of interviews and no matter how strict the nature of the interview was at least they know what they were doing and asking of me.

I know. I'm ranting. and some of you might think, "It's not the interviewer, it's you" bla bla bla but really, as disappointed as I am with myself, I still think it could've been better on their side too.

Sigh.

Not all of us is a natural in keeping a conversation going, ok? 

moving on~

a/n: One down, three to go (if the opportunity arises)

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Throw Back Thursday

I can be pretty artistic, if I wanted to be

I made this (I think) in 2004, coz of the 4sci2. and I strongly believe it was also when ArtAttack (the original version) was pretty famous. ahh I miss that show. 

my sister said I made this for the fun of it. I guess she was right.

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Finally

I finally figure out who GoGo Tomago (from Big Hero 6) 

reminded me off when she did her skate thing;
c Cappy from Robots.

Cappy did that skate move thing when they were fighting the bad guys and when I saw Tomago 'skates' in the Big Hero 6 movie, i kept thinking I've seen that move before.

and now I know it's from Cappy.

Not saying Tomago copied Cappy. I'm just saying that Tomago reminded me of another character.

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20th Sep: Part 2

... continue ...

second half of the day, we spend it di Aquaria KLCC.

again, another one yg I kinda just set my mind into "Just go with it! for the fun of the trip!"
I wasn't a big fan of the sea. Walking down the beach isn't my fav pass time either actually. It's hard to explain why I'm afraid of the sea. I guess, the sound it makes when you're in the water. that silent. *shudders* I don't know eh..let's just stick to 'I'm scared of the deep blue ocean'. (LOL)

anyhoo...

it was hard taking picture in there. such dark place and most picture didn't came out well. 

the fish are all so BIG! like, is that even wise keeping them all in that place? 0_0

from the entrance, we have a school of piranha. 

I video it because it reminds me of Tantor, from Tarzan.

I took a lot of pictures at the Aquaria. I just don't remember what fish is what name. LOL

an Electric Eel.

on the side of the aquarium it says, "Caution! High Voltage"aku pigang glass nya atu nada tkaran punnnnnnnn -.- 

 Beaver! mcm Narnia!

Awkward pose.

I was amazed how the view from different angles are so different. Klu from atas, seems small. Sekali, from the sides, so big and the water a lot deeper. +_+

Pari-Pari.

Catfish yg BESAR (this photo actually freaked me out)

 Katanya, the glass made the real thing 30% more smaller.

mcm, basar kan that fish in real life.

Tunnel of Fish? I was excited.

Interesting pose, Az. 

there were just a lot of varieties of ocean life. I can't post all the pictures here (coz, I'm lazy wawawa)

the tour was short. but it was packed. I enjoy the knowledge I gained. heh

Next!

We walked to the Suria KLCC for ...?? JELLY BUNNY!

now, remember on the previous post I said I was worrying about my "dying" phone? well, it was becoz of Jelly Bunny. My sister wanted me to take picture of all the pretty shoes there before I purchase for her. with my phone less than 10% per cent that time, I was anxious.

but no worries. I managed to snap and send pictures to her until my phone died.

the shop was eerily similar to the one we have here in Brunei :S

I ended up buying 6 pairs of Jelly Bunny. xD I'm a happy bunny indeed. (coz I was born in the year of Rabbits LOL). cBuzz bought 2 pairs ;) Welcome to the club bebeh!

I saw Kinokuniya sign as we walked our way out of the mall but since we were both ngaleh sudah, and I already bought books from the other night, we decided to call it a day and balik hotel semula.

We made last minute shopping that night and bought our dinner arah kadai2 hampir hotel kami. we went home earlier too. around 8pm ++ we ate our dinner and after that started to packed all our things coz the next day we have to be bright an early di Airport. we slept at around 12am ++ in the middle of watching Harry Potter 7 part 2. hahaha

I kinda miss that hotel bed now. so fluffy.

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Reading is Fun

I finished this book couple of weeks ago. It was a fun read and an eye opener. a lot of perspectives too. made me feel lucky that I already lived in a Muslim country.  i know there are a lot more sentences that I like but these are a few that i managed (when I say 'managed' I mean, the one that I 'rajin') to take.

this is true. in Brunei particularly. when you work as a banker or work as a clerk in a govt offices, people would often say, "ok jua tu" and I always thought 'why wouldn't it be ok?' why can't people just say, "alhamdulillah". Luckily for me, most of my cousins (the fav anyways) are all very supportive and nice. 

this one hit home real hard. its exactly how I feel on first day of Syawal.

Just give it a read and you'll love it.

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Reality Check

my real dose of reality check right here.

i should read them more often. just to keep myself in check.

LOL

embarassing, yes, but REAL kick in the head when you realise just how 'mentally ill' you are back then. LOL

I would love to share a few examples to let you guys know what I'm talking about but that would bit the purpose of a 'diary' which is synonym with 'secret'. So, I won't be sharing anything.

let's just stick to 'REAL reality check shit' for now.

hahaha just.. I'm just gonna continue LOL-ing now..

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When I was younger

When I was younger, I used to want things I couldn't get.

and now that I'm older and earned money of my own, I wanted everything.

One (or some) of them being;

Nerf Gun/Arrow girlie version.

balik2 ku liat di Hua Ho Manggis. I know I could afford it but...bila and sama sapa tah ku main tu? 
I'm like turning 27 soon. don't I look attractive (playing nerf like a five year old)? LOL

hanya dalam khayalan tah saja aku own this thing. 

unless kaka mau bali sama aku then we can play together2. wawawawa

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was I harsh?

Hey there.
yeah, it's me again.

Today, I've decided to put my plan into action; Removing photos of me from FB. esp the ones yg I'm not wearing tudung.

I even asked my closest of friends to do it on their accounts too. I mean, I can't remove them pictures if I'm not the one who uploaded them.

Of course, most people are supportive and reacted instantly. while, others, nyeh.

I think I hurt someone today and I can't even explain to them 'why'.

I mean, I can. but I don't know eh.

when I said 'esp the ones yg aku inda betudung', does that not make sense? can't you figure out why I want them remove? It's nothing to do with you or against you, it's about me. and tani sama2 Islam, inda kan inda teklik? especially when you treat FB like your everyday newspaper. Inda kan inda membaca post2 urg pasal agama atu?

Sigh. it upsets me that people thought I just want those pictures remove because I don't treasure the memories. 
WHAT. ARE. YOU. TALKING. ABOUT.
OF COURSE I DO!

but it's not how much affection you show me on FB that counts! it's how much you show me outside of FB. 

I've said it once and I'm going to say this again, FB tu tempat mengambang saja tu.

and that's why I want them pictures of me not wearing tudung removed.

I know it's a lot of work and a lot of hassle but believe me, this will benefit all of us. 

So, once again, THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE! I LOVE YOU! and sorry if I made you do some mini scavenger hunting today. kekeke I really appreciate this! A LOT!

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just. BIZARRE

So, I found out about this 'remove Jonghyun from SHINee' news, like 15 mins or so ago.
and I made it my business to know whats really going on.

Turns out it's about Jonghyun supporting this movement about Gay Rights (or something like that).

I saw his tweet that time and I even saw how it stirred up the cyber world (or maybe just the kpop world). at that time I thought, it wasn't that big of a deal. I mean, to each their own, right?

Skali, today, when I opened my asianfanfics account, I saw someone posted a petition to counter the petition 'remove Jonghyun from SHINee'.
and I was like, "COME ON".
I really still think that it wasn't that big of a deal.

because, Jonghyun was just supporting them thru his own perspective point of view. and I quote "As a celebrity who deals with the public, I feel a sense of loss in a world that does not acknowledge changes."

So what if he's really gay? I don't care! (coz he's not Onew. so, it's fine. LOL)

I mean, didn't the kpop world (or just Shawol) always going on about shipping JongKey? a.k.a. Jonghyun and Key?
Isn't Key a boy/guy/man/male?
don't these people kept on and on and on about what a cute couple they would be?

alright, maybe these people didn't actually petition to throw Jonghyun out of SHINee. maybe it's from a different crowd.

BUT STILL!

it's his life! it's his opinion!

who are we to judge (anybody), really?!

I find it bizarre especially when people wanted him out of SHINee. I mean, come on! without Jonghyun SHINee wouldn't be here. he's that important to that group.

and so much more bizarre that I'm making this post about him. LOL

all I'm saying is that, we all have our own opinion on something. and supporting Gay Rights is Jonghyun's, so why can we just let that be?

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My moments

I know I'm a nice person.

but I have my moments.

Like now.

I would LOVE to elaborate my life story to you but that would be like giving you an excuse as to why I acted the way I did. and I'm pretty sure you don't want that.

So, my deepest apologies. 

Sorry I was such a bitch these couple of weeks.

You probably were a nice person too.

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