been on both sides

hi guys!

let's discuss Marshmello & Anne-Marie - FRIENDS vs Westlife - Obvious.

I've been on both sides of this story. Yes, I see them as a story. 😂

When I first listened to FRIENDS, I understand it right away but didn't think too much of it. but few days ago, as my phone shuffled to the song again, I was like, "dam!" 

the lyrics was like, 
"We're nothing more than friends, You're not my lover, more like a brother...don't mess it up, talking that shit, only gonna push me away...Haven't I made it obvious, haven't I made it clear, want me to spell it out for you? ...We're just friends"
Like, there are people I wanted to dedicate this song to 😏

but also, at the same time, "dam!" I was reminded of the time I was on the other side. back in my teens. LOL

Westlife's Obvious read like this:
"We started as friends, but something happened inside me...You never seemed to notice me turning on my charm or wonder why I'm always where you are..I've made it obvious...Every time I asked you out, you never move past friendly...you never know how I stare when we're alone or wonder why I keep you on the phone"

basically, back in my teens, I was Westlife's Obvious and the guy probably was thinking Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS. but in my 30s, I'm Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS and the guy is insisting Westlife's Obvious.

been on both sides of this story. wow. just, wow. the realization hit me hard. must be the age factor? 😂😂

This realization also put things into perspectives. as in, I shouldn't be so mean about it. coz I have been on Westlife's Obvious side and I know how my heart aches over it. but being kind DOES NOT MEAN giving in tho. 
I think it's healthy to remind someone that we're just friends and I also think it's our right to be FIRM on reminding them that. and if firm means singing like Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS, then so be it.

here's the two songs for listening purposes

Marshmello&Anne-Marie - FRIENDS


Westlife - Obvious



tell me what other points you came up with listening to these two songs. let's discuss in the comment box below.

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Rose-colored boi

found via Google

by Noxmoony on DeviantArt

Rose-colored boy

I hear you making all that noise

About the world you want to see

And oh, I'm so annoyed

'Cause I just killed off what was left of the optimist in me

I'm right at the end of my rope

A half-empty girl

Don't make me laugh, I'll choke

Just let me cry a little bit longer

I ain't gon' smile if I don't want to

Hey man, we all can't be like you

I wish we were all rose-colored too

I want you to stop insisting that I'm not a lost cause

'Cause I've been through a lot

Really all I've got is just to stay pissed off

Leave me here a little bit longer

I think I wanna stay in the car

I don't want anybody seeing me cry now

You say "We gotta look on the bright side"

I say "Well maybe if you wanna go blind"

You say my eyes are getting too dark now

But boy, you ain't ever seen my mind

Just let me cry a little bit longer

I ain't gon' smile if I don't want to

Hey, man, we all can't be like you

I wish we were all rose-colored too

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my motivation to ABS

I am currently trying to tone certain parts of my body 

and i need motivations.

this is one of them





*creepy noona smile*

to entertain you more, go and read comments under that video on youtube. 
you'd be surprised by the amount of intelligence.

bahahahahah

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A/N: I have two emotions; Onew and Anger. tell me which one you prefer me to post.

what the TOOOOTTT

I told you that I'm gona tell you what I watched on youtube that made me go
"what the hell did I just watch?!"



it's a video documentary about the existent of mermaid/merman.

In the beginning it was all very promising, Animal Planet claims the Rights to this video so naturally I thought, this could be it. I was excited to watch this 'never before seen footage' that they were about to share. 

but first, let me clarify:
I believe there are creatures in the deep ocean that we have yet to discover (or not meant to discover). and this believe alone made me scared of the ocean.
Scared of the ocean means, as fascinated as I was with Little Mermaid, I would prefer not be in the ocean to go and find merpeople.

I did come across two fiction-novels revolving around Mermaids; the Forbidden Sea by Sheila A. Neilson and Monstrous Beauty by Elizabeth Fama. and I wondered what books these two ladies read, what researched they gone thru to be able to write such detail 'myth' and back stories about mermaid.

but even with those curiousity, I didn't think much of it.

I got the word 'merpeople' from JK Rowling. She mentioned it in Goblet of Fire.

anyway,
the reason why I went 'what the hell' after watching this movie was because, I read the comments and turned out, that documentary, the 'never before seen' thingy was all 'made for tv' or 'for entertainment' only. 
like, did I just waste 1hr of my life for something that is not even real?!

dammit!
hahaha
I know it's not real to begin with
but I thought I'll be seeing the real mermaid or merman. not the typical fishtail lower body, but you know, something that prove their existent.

I hate it when my hopes and dreams crashed.
I should really listen to my own advise, "Don't believe everything you read/see on the internet"

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Hello

Hi guys

I was hit with a notion to retire from blogging last weekend
well, I had been thinking about it for a while but last weekend was the strongest I felt about it.

but I thought hard on it and decided that it was mostly because:-

1. I was lazy
2. I think too much of what others would think about how my post would turn out
3. I was very demotivated by no. 1 and 2

So, i thought,
I'm giving this blog another shot.

My last few, lazy, posts were very 'upsetting' and full of anger at some point.
I duly noted my grieving towards the world
and I'm trying not to post such things anymore.

From today onwards, I'm no longer posting about my personal problems/feelings on this blog.
or I can try. .ʕʘ‿ʘʔ.

I'm trying to go back to my roots,
on why I started blogging in the first place:-
a) movie reviews
b) boybands
c) lesson learned

It might take awhile for me to get back on track but for now I have two posts line up for you in the nearest future, so look forward to that, yea?

it's not much, but I guess I have to start somewhere. v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

to my beloved readers:
thanks so much guys for coming back to my blog even though its not been updated for weeks.
and thank you for the 'awakening'.

to my beloved silent readers:
I would appreciate if you guys could leave out a comment or two.
but if you can't, then keep coming back to my blog and help my post's 'views' get higher.
also, thank you! you guys rock!

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my blog face is very not satisfying to me. I might change it again.
oh no. looking at Onew is such a satisfaction but its also a distraction.

so, sorry baby, ya gotta go.

Reality Check

my real dose of reality check right here.

i should read them more often. just to keep myself in check.

LOL

embarassing, yes, but REAL kick in the head when you realise just how 'mentally ill' you are back then. LOL

I would love to share a few examples to let you guys know what I'm talking about but that would bit the purpose of a 'diary' which is synonym with 'secret'. So, I won't be sharing anything.

let's just stick to 'REAL reality check shit' for now.

hahaha just.. I'm just gonna continue LOL-ing now..

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