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Hi guys

I am late! 

I was supposed to post something on April 1st but I was just not rajin enough to on my laptop to do so.

Thus, here I am, April 7th.

Tomorrow's gonna be a touchy day and being me, I might forgot about it. So, that's a good thing.

I've been trying to read again.

I got thru a few chapters of Patrick Ness - More Than This.
up till chapter two, the story line reminds me of Constantine, the movie, where Keanu was in the parallel hell world scene. 
currently my book mark is in chapter three.

I also got thru a few couple of chapters on AFF; 
a story by Peanutbuttercup, called Water Lily. Click here if you are interested to read them. I'm not sure if you have to log in to read that but give it a try. ;) I don't call her story 'a fanfic' becoz her style of writing is beyond that. She's an awesome writer. So go and check it out, tell her Vengeance sent you xD

Usually, when I started reading, I become so in my bubble. 
and apparently that is bad for the society.

*mata ke atas*

but society can suck it

coz at the end of the day, I'm gonna have to take care of myself.

Also,

I've been trying to write.
I've wrote (checked Word)
*ketawa dulu*
hahahahaha
I must've love the number two. coz, I wrote two chapters baru. 
hahaha
it's still stagnant in chapter three. :P

I wanted to write and read again and I have this notion; I should just 'start'.
no matter how little the progress is, it is still a progress.

I wana feel like I have something more to do with my life after work.

I don't want to always feel like I need to go home just to scroll thru all my social media on my phone.

There has to be more.

I wanted more.

I just typed 'hope I will be myself again' and deleted it.

It made me wonder, 

who am I?

Coz I don't really know anymore.

I've been reading quotes where they say "it is ok if you are not who you are a year ago. becoz that's just mean, you are growing"
but
there's also this scene from Khloe's Revenge Body episode where a participant was trying to be his old self again coz the he now is so withdrawn from the world and became anti-social.

So, is the me now better or not?
I feel like I'm not better.
I feel so stagnant like my third Chapter. 
I feel like, I need to be my old self back to move forward.

The old me usually have so much to do during the night that doesn't involve scrolling thru social media on her phone.
Some nights, she would write. another night, she would read. other nights, she would try and do some fancy DIY on her journal.

that's the me that I wanted to be again.

I just want to have that creative momentum going again.

coz the me now is not really feeling good on the inside.

. . .

Japan Trip Day 2.1

I know this is long over due but give me a sec.

I remember planning to have 1000 posts by 6th December
and I'm telling you now that it's not gonna happen.



Because, my life is so hectic and weekends are always tiring, i don't know anymore.

So, I'm just gona continue posting stuff up until the end of the year whether or not it'd reached 1000 posts.

Besides, the point of celebrating an anniversary is to celebrate the existent of something, right? 

So, chin up.

. . .

Japan Trp Day 2.1

Still my birthday, 10th Sep and our next tour was at Osaka Castle.

Before kami ke sana, we rehat first di hostel and eat. 

I bought sushi again and that milk drink. keke



By the time we made our way to Osaka Castle, night fell.

We (as you all know) were still very tired from USJ wandering during the day, kaki almost pulak already but we pushed through jua because, bila jua lagi kan?

It took maybe around 5-10 mins walk from the station to Osaka Castle.

Since it was dark already and it was a little quiet a long the way we bumped into a number of people doing their exercising; running, jogging, cycling, etc.
In my head, this scenery wasn't shocking but it was still interesting to know and see that Japanese healthy life style isn't that much different from Bruneians.

Anyway,

the view up the place is astonishing.

the bridge was dreamy.



(my phone doesn't do justice! but later on, Buzz found out what her phone could do and we took awesome pictures for the rest of the tour)

Once we arrived at the station, we found out that the tour of the castle was only during the day - 9am to 5pm. So, we were a little disappointed but time is limited for us at that time so kami carry on saja.

I finally understand just how big the wall stone walls were. 



I saw people taking pictures of the size of the brick/stone before, so I took one for myself too. :p



Seeing as kami inda dpt naik and had a closer look at the place, we sat down at a bench, relaxing our feet. 



Buzz was coming down with a fever too at that time! salute to her for really pushing thru that trip! I am glad that she did coz we both agreed, "bila tah lagi?"

I know I was tired too but I just had so much energy to jump around and take as many pictures I can.






We stayed there for a while.

Even joked about how the Japanese also start 'bejalan2' after Isya prayer. (Becoz in Brunei thats what usually happens too, people starts swarming the mall at around or after Isya prayer). When we first arrived at the place, inda berapa ramai urg but after a while, people keep coming; either jogging, cycling, or just jalan2, at around the time of Isya prayer. *ketawa with tears*

Kami finally made our way back at around 7pm+ almost 8pm



to end this post, I share with you some more photos:

We took pictures at our bunkers



and lupa ku yg i have this picture,



where I bought my sushi supply. twice! while I was in Osaka.
it's the kadai at the Universal City station/place. 

Looking back, 
I kept dwelling about all the things that I did wrong during this trip
makes me wana go back to Japan again and do it right that next time around.

#alreadyplannigformynexttriptoJapan

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Productivity

Last last weekend, I decided to delete my new Story (well, not so new) I posted on AFF (stands for Asianfanfics.com if you don't already know).

I posted this last chapter

and as you can see, I was informing my 4 subscribers that I'm deleting the story soon.

but the next morning, when I opened my AFF tab, I saw someone subscribed to my story.
I was supposed to delete it in a few hours but I posted the above late and faktor umur, I slept earlier than I planned to and had to do it the next morning.
As any writer would be, I was happy and had a second thought about deleting the story.

So,
I reread the story (the one that I already posted).

and I was surprised.
I was actually doing pretty good (if I can say so myself).
I say this because I've been telling myself that my layout or how I laid the words are crappy.
the fact that I only have 4 subscribers since I published it on 5th Apr 2015, makes me believe that I'm a crappy writer.

but as I was reading the second chapter, I thought to myself, "This is actually pretty good"
well, not JK Rowling good but you know, good enough for me and I'm actually satisfied with what I have posted.

then, I wondered, why was I so negative before?

I guess, it was the same issue that I had here, in blogspot
I was thinking too much about what other people think or how they would take this or how many comments I would get.
The fact that people are all over EXO in fanfics right now and all the older SHINee fans isn't on AFF anymore, demotivate me to continue posting my story.
the fact that I was lazy and procrastinating af isn't helping either.
I think too much about what other people think.
I should go back to being me and post what I want and how I want to.

Seriously, 
I need to take my own advise into accounts these days.
I've been EVERYWHERE.
as in, my mind isn't here nor there. same goes to my heart.
I don't know.
I need to keep it all together.
I need to get back up and be me.

In regards to my AFF story, I'm going to hide it from public views until such time when I am ready to properly commit to regularly update it.

. . .

disclaimer: I'm not saying I'm going to change straight away. this thing needs time and patient. and I'm trying. please be proud of me trying to better myself instead of judging on how I do things. As i posted once on Facebook, "Just because I'm doing it my way, doesn't mean that I'm doing it wrong"

. . .

Japan Trip Day 2.0

Let's sub-title this as PICTURES ARE NOT ENOUGH!

and also

SUPER LONG POST

and

I WILL MAKE YOU JELES!! Wehwehweh
. . .

composing this in public coz, my brother.

*rolled eyes*

So, day 2 in Japan was *jeng jeng jeng*

MY BIRTHDAY!!

and I screenshot this


(say goodbye to the 'Slide to Open' features)

lupa ku if this was taken when I woke up or when we're ready to go to Universal Studio Japan.

pokoknya, aku excited and can not wait for Harry Potter!

We bought tickets on the spot. We were supposed to buy them online but for some hassle reason, I decided we didn't. yatah kami bali time di sana sja.
The Q was pretty long but the service was kinda fast, so we weren't there for even 30 mins.
I guess it was just my birthday. (hahaha)

Since it was my birthday, Bazilah actually agree to just go straight to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter part of the USJ.
we actually got turned away once we got to the entrace.
*nangis*

I read somewhere that you need to book an entry tix (it's free).
the reason being for them to control the number of people flocking into HP world.
So, on we went looking for a certain ticket kiosk (as directed by one of the HP helpers).
We got lost.
and my impatient ass almost cried when we couldn't find the ticketing kiosk.
hahah seriously
but once we found it, there were a lot of Qs (coz a lot of ticket kiosks!) and before my ass could properly panic, there were a lot helpers there (coz everything is in Japanese and I was scared of not being able to obtain that entrance tix) and before (once again) my ass could cry, we were helped and we were on our way back to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter.



took this picture coz at first I thought I could keep it but at the entrance, the ticket person ambil balik this tix (instead of durang punch a hole on it or something).
note: Eventhough on the ticket it says 10:30 till 11:30, we actually stayed inside Hp world right up until 4pm or something. they didn't shoo you away or anything if you overstayed.

so, it was a long way away before you could see the Hogsmeade gate.

i found a lamp that actually reminded me of Narnia

(and this pathway is not even halfway to the park!)

and Mr. Weasley's magical car turned beast.

I had a video when I was entering Hogsmeade but I don't know if the internet would upload it today.
(i tried again on the 7th Oct, but video still refuses to load -__- )

I don't have picture of the gate.

once we masuk that place, GAH!
words really inda dpt explain how I felt
this is like my entire teenage years bursting out and greeting the place
everything was like a dream.
the feeling of you wanting to take pictures of everything but you also want to just 'be there'.
like you wish your eyes can just capture everything for you and auto transfer those images from your brain to your phone.
you know that feeling?!

but lucky I was rational and took as many pictures/videos when I could. or remembered to. LOL


of course, there were things yg I didn't take picture of.
partly because I was lazy to snap them. HAHAHA
I mean, COME ON!
I was there in person!
and as much as I want to share with people about my experience (being physically there),
there's just so much photo or video I could share.

But
in all seriousness,
I was just ...IN AWE!
like, I WANA LIVE THERE!

I wonder how the workers feel being there all the time?
I mean, I could die happy there (hahaha)


I'm gonna let the pictures do the talking next. (with captions if I could think of any xP)


Butterbeer (non-alcoholic it says) tasted like a dream~~~~




(trying on my wand, "Give it a wave" Mr Ollivander said)


the female part of the 'Public Convenience'. 
Thats what it says outside the restroom.



If Brunei is hot, Japan at that time was WAY hotter. like, daym!


Coz my brain said, 'Pick your nose, it'd be hilarious!'


Trying on my new move at one of the alley



'Death is just the beginning' The Mummy. not a HP quote.

that maybe the last picture I took from HP world but I will be back in two years time to take some more!! (InsyaAllah~~)

. . .

I tell you, we were already tired from the previous day that by the time we walked out of HP, we didn't have enough energy to play other rides. 
Seriously!
ahaha

So what we did was that, we just walked around USJ.
its definitely bigger than the one in Singapore, thats for sure.
but both still give me that awesome feelings for just being inside the park.

I managed to play the Flying Dinosour, from the Jurassic Park part of USJ.



a very awesome 'flying' roller coaster.

cBuzz didn't join me. So I went solo.

and I could've moved along the Q just fine but I was stopped twice coz I was using a 'headscarf' and this Flying Dinosour ride does not allow people wearing anything that is loose and one of those things include 'scarf'.
Thus, being the strict rule follower that they are, they stopped me twice, trying to explain to me in English that I need to use a certain jacket (that actually was supposed to be used during water ride).
Of course I don't have picture for that coz I actually left my bag with cBuzz. I only had my hand towel with me at that time.
Anyway, I don't know how long I was there 'Q-ing' but once I got on the ride, I understand why they were very strict. the moment before the ride get off, our seats was pulled up from the feet, so we were actually in a 'flying' position.
and the ride was super fast, it actually go up and down, side ways and twisting around. Lucky I didn't feel like puking. I saw mostly sky. a section of the coaster track goes inside a tunnel! 
I was mostly laughing. ahahah coz I enjoyed it so much! I screamed certain area, of course but mostly was feeling so giddy.
hahaha crazy

Lapas tu, we were supposed to Q and watch the Under World show but Buzz wasn't feeling it so we just continued to walk around the park.

I didn't take picture but from the moment we stepped onto the Universal Cit Station, there were a lot of cosplayers. All universal movies' characters of course.
there were; 
1. Sexy Police girlfriend + Prisoner boyfriend, 
2. hot Sexy female/male SWAT team, 
3. Maids, 
4. Minions (Minions are the craze there), 
5. Sexy (stripper like) mom with her kids,
6. Sexy army, 
and 
many many MANY more!
most people actually went there dressing (what we call here in Brunei when people dress similar in color/pattern) Sekayu.
it was all very interesting to watch.

I might not play all the ride outside of Harry Potter world but the scenery in USJ is entertaining enough man! like, daayyymmmmmmm!

hahahah

I think we left USJ at around 5pm kali and we bought dinner before we went back to our hostel.

got lost once though before we finally made our way to rest our feet a bit at our hostel's lounge before we made our way to Osaka Castle.

. . .

a/n: told you its a long post. Thank you for even reading this far. xD this was supposed to be posted yesterday, 6th of Oct but internet being its awesome-self, and the pictures refuses to upload. but, here it is, edited and posted on the 8th Oct.

Hope everyone enjoy their weekend ahead xD

Japan Trip Day 1.3

We will sub-title this post as 'Jalan saja. Bila tah lagi' part A

. . .

So, we left our hostel to go look for USJ, Food, and Data Line.
Buzz asked the Drop Inn receptionist earlier where we can buy a data line and the lady told her that for sure to find them at Osaka Station. because it's a main stop place where every convenient needs at.
So, to Osaka Station we went.
Once there,
pasal kami masih trying to get our bearing, we couldn't get anything right.
endingnya, kami ke Information coutner tah saja, betanya.

Lesson Learn no. 2: Jangan Malu Betanya. When in doubt, ASK.

mula2, the Information lady told us we could buy the data line at their counter but they said they only accept payment via credit card. We only have cash! so we asked her where we can buy the data line and she very kindly show us the direction to the place where we could buy the data line.

Lesson Learn no. 3: READ! and don't assume labels and signs. Most labels in Japan has English.

EXIT signs there are in Yellow color. So, when the lady told us the name of the place we should go (Umeda something), I was looking for a purple label. I don't remember if she showed us a map with purple logo or something but I was looking for a purple colored label.
BUT luckily for us, I read the label the second I could not find the purple colored ones.
and true enough, the Umeda was mentioned on the Yellow colored label.
Remember I mentioned EXIT signs being Yellow? I guess thats why we both skipped the Yellow Labels.
hahaha macam, udah ku pikir kan balik, memang pun ke Umeda atu EXITing the Osaka Station, so that is why the label is in Yellow.
So, follow the labels direction lah kami after that.

We bought our data line and our next destination was Universal City Station, where the Universal Studio Japan is at!!
I suggested to go there was because I don't want to get lost the next day, our actually day going there.



and also, I just couldn't wait for the next day!

first glimpse of my home.



bought dinner


got lost on the train back to our hostel. we decided to eat dinner first before we both pengsan, deprive of food.
seriously, it is not like Singapore. Japan is seriously a bigger country and Osaka is like, sub-big size city.

eating my bento sushi.


I bought two coz aku tamak.
MUAHAHAHAH! 
I finished both, don't worry. not wasting food.
these two cost around JPY500 and JPY600 each. consider expensive lah since aku bali atu around Universal (outside the theme park) area.

this drink is delicious! actually bought at the 7eleven near our hostel.

Lipton Peach Tea

ada Milk Tea flavor which aku nada took picture of! like what?!
menikmati banar rah ku tu sampi lupa kan menggambar.

After dinner, we went to this Tenjimbashisuji Shopping Street.
supposed to be famous.
but when we got there, most of the shops were closed.
and I remember reading somewhere about Friday nights is the night out for the men in Japan, like after work thingy. I couldn't remember the detail well and I malas to search the article now. I'm guessing, that was why most shops were close early, since kami pigi atu at around 9pm++ almost 10pm.



Sekali round saja kami dsana ah...after that balik tah kami, we were so tireddddd and kaki almost fell off already at that point.

we needed to rest well for the next day's adventures.
although I remember we didn't left the lounge area until it was pass midnight. hahaha 

. . .

Japan Trip Day 1.2

we sub-title this post : New Experience

. . .

We 'partial' check-in at our hotel, Drop Inn Osaka. well, actually, bukan hotel. 
it's an hostel.
coz we sleep in bunker bed and eat at the lounge and share bathroom with others.

I didn't take proper pictures of our stay there.
I think cBuzz ada make video of it.
I only took pictures of where I sleep.



The place was surprisingly ok.
the rules weren't that tight.



we stayed for 2 nights and those two nights were a challenge.
coz we stayed in a dorm like room; for about maybe 20 females (yes, separated dorms for male and female. but they also have Japanese style bedroom for 4 people.) and at around midnight, people kept coming and out of the door non-stop. our bed was facing the main door, which must be kept shut at all times, thus the opening/shutting door was very noisy.
nasib kami ngaleh. and I was surprised with myself jua. Usually, I don't sleep well in new places, but i think I slept well from midnight till next morning.

anyway, once we finished our 'partial' check-in ( I said 'partial' because we couldn't get to our bunker yet. they only available at 4pm. it was only 1pm or 2pm when we check-in), I asked whether we can use their shower area, and was SO glad we could, so our next mission was to clean up and freshen up.

bathroom area was just as photographed on Agoda.com
individual shower area, ada doors with locks.
we could bring our luggage into the shower area (coz ada extra not-shower space) and can still change baju inside without having to go out and be conscious about people looking.

After that, we were feeling a little lighter and decided to rest arah the open lounge/common room.
since our last meal was dalam kapal at around ...pokoknya couple of hours before kami land at 9am, I decided we celebrate my bday early and eat the cake.

butt



too bad

i wouldn't know that it was a mousse type of cake.
and it was out of the freezer for more than 6hrs by that time.
Kesian the cake.

but lapar punya pasal, kami ngap! je

We stepped out of the place at around 3pm and when we were to left our luggage at the counter (coz we were told our bed balum ready till 4pm kan), the receptionist said 'you can check-in already' and although I made this -_- (physically shown or not), I was just glad and we both naik the lift once again and go to our dorm and left our luggage before we ventured out in search of Universal Studio Japan.
and food.
and bali data line.

. . .

Japan Trip Day 1.1

Lets sub-title this post as 'Lost'

. . .

As soon as we landed, we both looked for toilet first.
coz our body wasn't cooperating well with us.
hahahah
Once that settled, we both were tired and all our plans actually thrown out of the window.
seriously.

we were looking for the Japan Railway office/counter to exchange our passes when we were approached by the airport police officer.
kami dua tarus nebes
coz we both pakai tudung
maybe ia pikir kami terrorist!

but he said it was just a random security check and we tried to be calm. we ended up asking him where the JR counter was and he helped us.

We did the exchange, and since we were sorta given a free hotspot wifi password thingy, we forgot our intention to buy the data line at the airport.
so basically, we left the airport, board a JR train that would bring us to our hotel, 'blindly'.


(sorry buzz, but I don't have train picture on the first day. ^_^v)


I said 'blindly' because, once we were on the train, the internet was not at all stable (coz, durh! its a moving train) and we couldn't get proper map to our hotel.

and of course, once we arrived at our next station (supposedly 5 mins walk from that station to our hotel) and we were extremely lost.
both tired. both hangry (hungry and angry HAHAHAH).
We first asked help from 7eleven employee. he showed a map, but that was not much help coz we don't know Japan, let alone their local map.
sekali, one last resort, literally dragging our tired feet, cBuzz decided to tanya hawker Machi selling cold drinks. I waited for her in front of a parking area where it was limbu (sheltered from direct sunlight) coz Japan weather was still hot when we got there. like, if Brunei is hot, Japan is hotter. I got sunburn. 
anyway, while I waited, this paci, the parking carer (i think), approached me and tried to help. we both don't speak each other's languages, but what touches me at that moment was how nice he was trying to help eventhough we couldn't really communicate.
a few minutes into it, then came a passersby, we called him 'Uncle' (coz he was a lot younger looking than the paci), and the paci asked him for help too. Lucky for us this uncle know English!
thus, the uncle helped next. he followed the map the 7eleven gave us at first, but after we got lost again, cBuzz suggested he called the hotel and asked for direction. He called, and found out the map was wrongly given to us and very kindly, he helped us walked to our hotel!
We were just thankful! and said thank you to him a lots of time! nasib kami tau cana cakap 'thank you' in Japanese. LOL

At this point, we already regretting our neglect of buying the data line at the airport.
INTERNET IS IMPORTANT PEOPLE!
especially tempat baru.
Lesson Learn no. 1; bali data line before anything else!

. . .

Japan Trip Day 1.0

Seminggu Kemudian~

hahaha

Life is so busy right now and my lazy-o-meter isn't helping either.

Butt

Here goes my so-called Japan Trip journal ...thingy..

Day 1.0

Day one wasn't really in Japan yet, coz we were using Singapore Airline, hence we had a layover in Singapore first before we fly off to Japan.
We left Brunei on 8th Sep at 11:55am and arrived in Singapore at around 2pm.
Our flight to Japan from Singapore was on 9th Sep at 1:25am.
as mentioned on the previous post, our layover was more than 12hours!!!
I tell you, my anxiety level was unbearably high!

for some reason, me and Buzz had matching color baju.



telepasi! seriously, we were both so busy before the trip, we didn't have time to discuss baju.

Anyway, to pass the time, we spent our time playing playstation game at Terminal 2 of Changi Airport.
this part is too bad; I didn't take picture.
but the place was over the Koi Pond area.
Google it.
hahahah

Lupa ku nama game nya. It was Japanese base/theme/backstory (coz ada Samurai and map Japan ..thingy), adventure, missions to finish, etc. I suck at it but at least it got my mind away from my nerves. coz seriously, my nerves were everywhere!

~Fast foward~
We boarded plane to Osaka, Japan on time and as we were settling down, one of the cabin crew approached me and asked if I'm 'Miss Awana' and I said 'No' with a smile and continued talking sama cBuzz. until the lady once again said to me 'Is your birthday tomorrow?' then aku te-klik and nodded yes, she greeted me and long story short, She said they had a cake for me which she will give to me once we landed in Japan.
Malu ku!!!
Aku tau sapa punya angkara!!!
I was/am grateful, of course!
but!
argh!
malu ya amat!

After that, no more surprises and before long I was off. coz I was dizzy/nauseated. I couldn't really sleep. I kept waking up every other hour wishing we landed already ahahah inda penyabar~. 
the next hundred times I open my eyes, the cabin lights were on and we began our descent to Japan.

. . .

a/n:



once again, Thank You to my kazen, Ka Tin for the advance notice to your fellow cabin crews!

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Looking back to:

24th July 2014

where I posted 






that was two years ago and nothing much has change about that Key point.

come to think of it, nothing much has change since my Westlife days.

the only big difference I can think of right now is that;
back then, I was so convinced that I'm going to marry cBryan.
Now, I'm convinced that I'm going to marry cOnew.



maybe when i got married someday, I won't be this obsessive anymore 

Being Dramatic o(≧▽≦)o

Ladies and Gentlemen

I am proud to announce

the start of my

just to remind you that the upcoming throw back posts won't be a total 'repost'. they are mostly a 'recap' and 'highlights' of an old post. ✌.ʕʘ‿ʘʔ.✌

with that being said,

the first one will be posted shortly 

(▰˘◡˘▰)

 . . .

I just started learning how to draw with MS Paint (the proper and pro-like way) via youtube (yeah, might as well use that time I spent on youtube worth while). 

So please bear with my sakai-ness. v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

Still not used to

it's the 14th of February and I'm still not used to being in 2016. 
I kept thinking that the year just started when in fact we're almost done with the second month!

it is save to say yg I haven't done anything productive.
1. I didn't even finish checking off 'books I've read' list.
2. I have not move on to my next phone case DIY project.
3. I haven't started any exercise regime (the most MUST DO thing)

as the sun goes down today (when it was still 13th Feb that is), I thought to myself, "I should read a book later" but ended up wasting my time on my phone browsing Instagram over something so irrelevant and by 9pm, I took a shower and after that cooked dinner. and spent almost 3 hours outside leaving my phone charged in my room.

Do you wana know what's the thing, though?
the reason why I left my phone to charge in my room was because i think I've spent too much time on it, rechecking all my social media apps for something so petty! 
i need to get away from it!
it's evil!

and I'm not even kidding!
I know I'm not addicted to drugs but it feels just as bad!

I missed reading books. as in holding onto physical book and reading from it.

I have tons of ebook on my phone but reading from my phone is just not the same.

banar tah tu (it's true then) yg me buying an ipad would be a waste of money;
1. I told people (more like trying to convince myself) that i want an ipad for games and reading my ebooks
2. i used the same reason when I first plan on buying my iphone 6plus. and look where my games and ebooks now? Not played and not read.

Ok fine, I did read Mortal Instrument but stopped halfway coz I decided to start reading Scorch Trial. but same all, I haven't finish reading that coz I only ever open my book apps when I'm not checking my Instagram. which i check all the time out of habit v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

*Iklan* I just realise; it's Valentine's Day. ٩(♡ε♡)۶
hmmm... I should've bought chocolate or cakes tadi. *Iklan*

I saw this lady at the restaurant last Thursday after work and she was reading a book.
She was so engrossed in it that had me thinking, 'was I like that last time?' and had a sudden realization yg that me had long been forgotten.



the above picture says it all. o(TヘTo)

When I got into my room tadi, I thought i'd started reading one of the book but ended up checking where I left off with my own fanfic instead hahahaha
I guess that's a start, right?
but that short lived coz I decided I'm inspired enough to write a post here. ( ￣ー￣)φ__

I feel like I'm lost. like, no sense of direction!
I need to set a short term goals for me to focus on. at least that would give me the sense that I am going somewhere.

. . .