Studio Ghibli

Finally~!

I finally get to watch more Studio Ghibli movies.

The first was Spirited Away.

my first and I love.

and second, The Secret World of Arrietty.

Saoirse voiced Arrietty. I like this one. it reminds me of Thumbelina.

Third, Kiki's Delivery Services.

I really wanted to like this one but I can't. 

Fourth, Howl's Moving Castle

becoming my second fav.

and Fifth, My Neighbor Totoro.

erm. Totoro's noise is unsettling. I don't care if he supposed to be cuddly and ish.

I think I heard Dakota Fanning voice in the female character lead voice. for the Eng dub btw. I haven't bothered to Google to confirm.

Yes, I watched them in English dub. you know how lazy I can get with watching anything with English sub.
Although, I'm re-watching Howl's Moving Castle in its original dub with English subs. I just wanted to know how different the feels going to be. So far, I'm impressed. but in my opinion, the Japanese dialogue makes more sense?

I think at some point, I'm reading too much into these movies. and judged too hard. These are beloved by many and I'm being critical. dam. I need to chill. am I the only one yg need to take a breather and broaden my mind before watching anything coz If I don't, I become so salty? Just me?

Anyway, what I like to focus on a lot to was the graphics, the designs, the feels in these movies. They are very exaggerated but it fits? am I explaining this right? pokoknya, I love the colors! its 2D but it felt real? I don't know how else to express it. its just cool. I enjoyed that part in all the movies.

and from there, I felt motivated to write again.

That's one of the reason why I wanted to share this; I just wanted to share that I'm motivated to write my story again. 
I haven't properly start the 'writing' part but I'm getting clearer things on what I want my storyline to be like. In my head. 
All thanks to these movies. Each one of them has different environment/world and the way they were laid out in the movie helped me laid out my own. It's refreshing and I can't wait to share my first chapter on AsianFanfics.Com. All I need to do now is to just start writing. LOL


What other movie from Studio Ghibli I should watch next?


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Posting Story again

I posted on AFF again.

a oneshot story.

I'm nervous but I am also relief that I finally did it.

Thanks to Aziz for the brief pep talk.

v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

before I posted it, I was worried about how many people will bother to read it? ಥ_ಥ

Then after I posted it, seeing people actually bother to view the 'foreword' section, I was thankful. At least people are aware that the story exist.

I'd be lying if I said I was not down knowing people saw the existent of the story but not reading the actual story.
I was down.
but I said to myself; if I continued to post on blogspot knowing I don't have that many readers, posting on AFF is no different.

the only difference is; 
here on blogspot, its all real (albeit covered), 
on AFF, its entirely fiction (sorta :P)

You see, people like me, need to just get on with it. Just Do It. 
coz if we don't, we will end up procrastinating. forever. and we know procrastinating is not a progress.
at least, me posting that story is a step forward for me.
Small steps but still moving forward.

So, Yay me! for finally posting a story up on there.

Currently preparing the next story to post. I've been working on it for months. I just feel like I need to continue looking for that 'it' factor before finally posting them.

I am trying to write something out of my comfort zone. You know, challenging myself.

Hopes I pull thru.

Pray for me.

xD

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Productivity

Last last weekend, I decided to delete my new Story (well, not so new) I posted on AFF (stands for Asianfanfics.com if you don't already know).

I posted this last chapter

and as you can see, I was informing my 4 subscribers that I'm deleting the story soon.

but the next morning, when I opened my AFF tab, I saw someone subscribed to my story.
I was supposed to delete it in a few hours but I posted the above late and faktor umur, I slept earlier than I planned to and had to do it the next morning.
As any writer would be, I was happy and had a second thought about deleting the story.

So,
I reread the story (the one that I already posted).

and I was surprised.
I was actually doing pretty good (if I can say so myself).
I say this because I've been telling myself that my layout or how I laid the words are crappy.
the fact that I only have 4 subscribers since I published it on 5th Apr 2015, makes me believe that I'm a crappy writer.

but as I was reading the second chapter, I thought to myself, "This is actually pretty good"
well, not JK Rowling good but you know, good enough for me and I'm actually satisfied with what I have posted.

then, I wondered, why was I so negative before?

I guess, it was the same issue that I had here, in blogspot
I was thinking too much about what other people think or how they would take this or how many comments I would get.
The fact that people are all over EXO in fanfics right now and all the older SHINee fans isn't on AFF anymore, demotivate me to continue posting my story.
the fact that I was lazy and procrastinating af isn't helping either.
I think too much about what other people think.
I should go back to being me and post what I want and how I want to.

Seriously, 
I need to take my own advise into accounts these days.
I've been EVERYWHERE.
as in, my mind isn't here nor there. same goes to my heart.
I don't know.
I need to keep it all together.
I need to get back up and be me.

In regards to my AFF story, I'm going to hide it from public views until such time when I am ready to properly commit to regularly update it.

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disclaimer: I'm not saying I'm going to change straight away. this thing needs time and patient. and I'm trying. please be proud of me trying to better myself instead of judging on how I do things. As i posted once on Facebook, "Just because I'm doing it my way, doesn't mean that I'm doing it wrong"

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Shoot Straight

seriously,
I need to update this story.
I've left it hanging for two weeks now.
No, nothing the matter.
I'm just dead lazy.
hahaha
and to make a legit excuse, for the last two weeks, my weekend had been dedicated to moving things from the old house to the new.

I know, I should be posting this on my blog at asianfanfics.com instead of here but like I said, I am lazy to go there. wawawa 
besides, I want to show off this amazing poster made by ALY_VIP 
she made it for my story.
I am impress by others ability to edit pictures and make posters like this. 
just so impress. 
I remember trying when I was in lower Six. Not a complete failure but not a success either. hahaha
Again, I moved on and now I think it's easier to give such task to people who actually know how and love doing it.


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Writers

after spending so much time on Asianfanfics.com these past years, I realized something.

real authors need real (heavily constructive) criticism.

I mean the most I see people comment about a story is about how cute this character look (when in actualness the author has not even describe their cuteness in words) or how cute the main characters were together (hmm. I guess that's the disadvantage of writing a fan fiction. coz you're using characters from the real life; Kpop artists and such).

Point is, i don't think most of us want this.

I, for one, would love a criticism on the way I laid out the story, my grammar (though i wouldn't listen much on that since English is only my second language. LOL), and you know, REAL criticism!

but I guess (again) I have to take into account that that website if full of hormonal teenagers, who was so keen into the story line alone (without really caring how the words were laid down as long as there's the name of their fav kpop artists in it) than how it was laid out etc etc.

I'm not saying I'm THAT good! gawd, no. I've got a lot to learn too.

it just frustrates me that I'm posting my story there in the hope that I would get decent, constructive, criticism that would help me improve myself in one way or another, but I got this childish review instead.

I had one good review once for one of my stories and although it stinks and i kinda don't like it in the beginning, I still appreciate it. it got me where I am today.

but since me and that person are not talking to each other anymore, I have no one else to ask harsh review from. 

sigh.

You really don't miss your water, till the well runs dry.

ANYWAY~~

I WANT CONSTRUCTIVE REVIEWS ON MY STORY! 

ANYBODY WANTS TO BE THE REVIEWER?! 

also, desperate time calls for desperate measures.


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Something So Random Part 2

Hello again.
did you anticipate my next post?
coz here it goes

xD

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1. If you could take me to one place and do one thing with me what would it be?

Since I don’t know you that well, I’m just gona bring you to grab a bite or something. Food is good way to ‘break the ice’ (or we could just eat eat eat, smile awkwardly at each other, then bid goodbyes. BAHAHAHA)

2. What is the best dream you've ever had?

OH! I have this dream recently. It involved f(x)’s Amber. I was begging (yes, begging) her to be my friend. I even told her that it was because I want to get close to SuJu-M’s Henry. She was ignoring me of course. Hahahah it was so funny. Because in that dream, I even come up with a storyline for my fiction; get to know Henry and turns out, from a far, Onew was trying to get to know me.

LOL! Some dream huh? I must be reading some fanfics before I went to sleep that night. Hashtag justlaughalong

3. Name one thing about yourself that you are proud of. You must come up with at least one.

Lately this phase kept repeating itself in my head. “I’m proud of what I do” Hastag workplacerelated.

4. Where in the world would you like to go that you haven't gone yet and why? (Not Korea if it's possible I probably know your reasons for wanting to go there)

Ireland. Because, since I didn’t get to see Westlife Live Concert anywhere, the least I could do is visit their birth country just to feel close to them :’)

5. If you could get an animal onesie (think SHINee Hello Baby) in any animal you desire what would it be?

(I think this girl meant ‘onepiece suit’ and I’m gona stick with that coz I really don’t know what she wants. And she did mention SHINee Hello Baby and Onew in Cow jumpsuit came into my mind) a Cow. Like Onew’s.

6. Name one thing that interests you and makes you smile, so I know what to do for you or buy for you if we ever meet.

Books! And cute stationaries.

7. Have you ever walked into anything? (Window, pole, random object?) I have.

Hahahaha once. at the airport. That automatic sliding glass door. Damn that door. HAHAHAH! (yeah, now you know)

8. What kind of fashion style do you like? On yourself and on your crushes?

Something nice and comfy. Smart looking. But I’m size 100++ so I always feel like anything on me isn’t so pretty :S.

But on my crushes, anything nice and smart (again) something that says he’s making an effort in his appearance. Even in the smallest of measurements. It counts ;)

9. Do you like to go shopping and what do you like to shop for?

I do. On pens. Lots and a lots of them. But I’ve been restraining myself from doing so lately. I have enough trash as it is. ahaha

10. What makes K-pop special and important to you?

Again. It isnt’. Not really. Just, it keeps me going. Another phase of my life that I love so much. ahahaha

11. Name one K-pop person that you want to hug and why.

*rolled eyes* Onew. Duhh. Without a reason. Just because. Hashtag doingthingsthatyouloveaskfornowreason

Question by DubuMint

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doesn't this reminds you of that time when this type of questionnaire was so famous on Facebook?

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Something So Random Part 1

when boredom strikes, you do random shiz.
LOL

I got this questionnaire from asianfanfics.com blog. Ms. dubumints posted them and I meant to repost, answered and tagged her back (and 11 others) but I'm just too lazy.
So, I'm posting this here instead.

Enjoy reading lovelies ;)

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1. Who is your bias & from which group (you can only pick ONE~!)

Onew, of course. from SHINee 

2. Why is K-pop important or special to you?

It’s not so important and it ain’t so special to me. But it keeps me going. My life as dull as fcuk right now. And Kpop news/musics/SHINee/etc keeps me going. (I think I now know why I’m not posting this on asianfanfics. ROFL!).

3. Where do you want to travel to? (Korea by default & plus one more place) <- am="" assuming="" automatically="" go="" i="" is="" korea="" live="" lol="" that="" there="" to="" unless="" want="" would="" you="">...< 

Yes, Korea. But lately I’ve been thinking about Singapore a lot. And UK. So, I’m so torn.

4. Which idol do you admire most & why.

I’d say, BoA? Because she admitted once that she’s 30% talent and 80% hard work. Coz I know from the beginning she wasn’t that talented but over the decade, over her hard work, she’s Queen of KPop now. I salute her for that.

5. What is your favourite K-pop song.

Right now, it’s SHINee’s Colorful. I’M SO IN LOVE WITH IT!

6. If you could meet one K-pop idol, which Idol would you pick?

Onew. In a heartbeat. LOL

7. What was the first K-pop MV you ever watched?

BoA’s Shine We Are. (although the one I watched was actually in Japanese but since both Korean and Japanese MVs are similar, it still counts ahaha).

8. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

[Fictionally] Sasha but ever since Kpop, it’s Miyoung.

9. Name one thing that you want to try for the first time ever.

Bungee jumping. Or after watching SHINee’s One Fine Day; Sky-Diving. xD

10. Name the last 5 songs you listened to.

[Lucky I’ve always my player on shuffle so I wouldn’t sound so boring listening to one artists hahaha]

One Direction – Best Song Ever

Westlife – Against All Odds

BoA – the Shadow (Japanese ver.)

Selena Gomez - Come and Get It

SHINee - Spoiler.

11. Which animal is your dream pet?

A freakin Tiger. Like Princess Jasmine had. Like, seriously, I want one. and then named it Raja. 

Question by thenameiloves08

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and then I decided that I will post the next two on two different posts (so I can maximize my number of posts xD)

until then,

anticipate it. (Hashtag LOLingForever)

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I just thought this is funny

Hello again.

rajin kn aku atu? xD

this thing that i'm gona share is something that I read in asianfanfics.com

an MVP (Onew's fan) post this as her blog post and macam apa ku ketawa ah. ahaha

have a look; (i just hope i don't get caught :S)

LOL. cali bah ia ah. like I know I'm obsess with Onew too but...

well..I guess I'm just old. HAHAHAH

Casper lah jua ia bawa2. so ia prefer cOnew jadi pedophile lah, is it?

I would prefer Onew to go out with real, alive woman though. ghost is just, no.

but from the article, the sitcom is for a laugh so i guess it should be ok? *shrugged* I duno. it's not like i'd be able to watch it. it's on SBS. my Astro only have KBS World -___-

So sad.

BUT! we have youtube! I'm sure someone will be rajin enough to post it there and I'll be downloading it/them then. xD

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Yay me!

I know, you missed me, right?

muahaha.

today's post is about how I finally finished the Listen to Me story that I posted on Asianfanfics.com

YAY ME!

I started on 02 Dec 2011 and finished it on 12 May 2013. it has a total of 32 Chapters.

I know, I'm impressed with myself too.

I didn't think I could finish a story at this age. bahahaha (coz I often abandon a story halfway thru :P)

but yeah, I finished it and and it feels good.
I once thought of becoming an author/writer but I guess this is as close as to becoming one. ;)

but the deadlines were killing me (coz most of the time, I needed to post a chapter once a week. that's one tough job you know).

So, even if I wanted to write another story (that I wanted to post. coz I'm always writing something), I'm going to take a little break for now. or at least write a dozen chapters or so before I decided to post it online. that way, i don't have to think about any deadline or whatever. LOL

Ahhh..we'll see.

nunggu aku rajin lagi kekeke
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Brain Dead

I am brain dead. 

both for this blog and my story in asianfanfics.com 

I tried writing down something. but nothing seems to work.

Or I didnt try hard enough.

I saw a post from FB, shared by a friend. It says, "Read a Thousand books, and your words will flow like a river". I agreed completely. Coz it happened to me once. 

I used to read a lot; English novels, Malay novels. ALL of them. Sometimes I can finish a novel in two days! and it resulted in a lot of unfinished fanfics. LOL. ada plang yang finished but comparing the unfinished sama finished, manang unfinished lah.. ;P

But now, it took me FOREVER to finish a book. -___- and another eternaty to create a story. 

Like I said, I'm brain dead.

Maybe I should force myself to read more of often. Another quotes from Times bookstore, "Reading is to the mind like Exercise is to the body". or something like that. and once again, I *nod nod*

So, I shall finish this current book that I'm reading; How to Kill Your Husband (and other hand household hints) by Kathy Lette. 

Hwaiting!!


A/N: bmobile is being such an ass as of late. internet connection sucks. Telbru, do something about this.

Dull

Annyeong...

I duno if I'm too tired or what but my story on Asianfanfic.com, Listen to Me, is not going anywhere..

like, for real..

I've posted 2 chapters and that was it. I'm done.

LOL!

bukn apa, maybe aku ni nda bleh kana pressure kali (not that anyone is pressuring me to update the story or anything..xP)

or maybe.. payah wah ceta ku ah..nada dhati ku (aseh..) kn mbuat..jalan cetanya tau ku..endingnya pun ku tau..ganya, kn membuat kn ia interesting atu yg ku malas..

yatah kali..i think too much of how others would think of my story, i ended up making a crappy one. I should've just buat mcm yg aku slalu buat random2 atu..

I should've post Stand by You instead.

Listen to Me atu mcm, payah..dull..and too much pressure..

or maybe psl Listen to Me atu based on true story kali..yatah membagi nya payah atu.. nda plang ku mention yg story atu base on true story but still..

Rasa kn ku delete and post Stand by You sja...

hmm.. ottokae??



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So Sakai 2.0

Hello~ Hello~

So..I'm so sakai right now.
I am able to use my Print Screen button. xD (coz I first thought that that thing was not working..)
and know how to crop (arah Windows Photo Gallery) and edit them via Paint.

SO SAKAI!!!

ahahaha
In honor of my sakai-ness am going to show you my routine i do every night when I go online.

1. open four must-opened website; FB (this is my home page), Twitter, Asianfanfic and moi Blog ;)


2. after reloading twitter and reading them tweets, I checked whats updated in Asianfanfic and see who'd updated their blog, I'll go and hog FB.

3. what I do in FB? Clicked on Recent News (though now it's a lil bit confusing. what with the new layout and all), checked who'd been giving me Requests (mostly game request, and I ignore most of them. hee hee hee), and then... on to my Games. xD

3. a) Mall World.

3. b) Happy Aquarium.

3. c) It Girl (erm. nowadays, aku masuk tuk click 'dollors' laying around my It Girl sja..wawawa)

When I played all my games and whatnot, jobless chia ku.

See how I have no life besides the cyberworld?

ahaha not that I care. I'm comfortable with this life. At least i'm still a sport. or i think i am. or at least I know I can do it.

Ok. that's the end of my sakai-ness.

till next time? Annyeong~~ xD

p/s: Click image to enlarge. xD

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