hi

*nangis in kpop 😭

this is the only, THE ONLY, place where I got all my kpop songs, or kpop related artists' songs (thus their Japanese/English songs too).
Sungguh sedih.
I think I found out about it on the first week of June coz I was finally rajin to download NCT Dream repackaged album Beatbox.

When the first thing I saw was the Thank You & Goodbye. 

Panic, sad, and even feeling of lost. 

but there is nothing we can do, obviously.

Sad as I was, I think word of encouragement and thanks would be better.

Yes, I start with being shooketh, but I ended it with thanks.

Like for real, as long as I know kpop and understanding my way around ipod/iphone/itunes, they have been part of that journey. So really thank you🎔for your relentless service on providing kpop songs for download for people who still preferred manual download and syncing songs from itunes to iphones. 😁 you the MVP 🥇

what are we going to do going forward?

search for other options.

and I found at least 2 that works for me today; https://ilkpop.com and https://matikiri.wapka.co 

the ilkpop is where I found the latest of NCT Dream Beatbox and Onew's first Japanese album

while matikiri is where I found the two songs that I like from Kimetsu No Yaiba / Demon Slayers 😏

I'm surprised at the speed the songs are being downloaded but listening to them now, they sounded awesome;normal so 🤷 I guess they work. better ada than nada, right? 😇

my favorite color

Hi!

proper greetings this time. 👋🏼

took me a while to start this one coz I was checking whether I have made this kind of post before or not. but couldn't find anything on it. So, here we are.

...30 years laterr...
I found the post. I mentioned my 3 favorite color in here. I'm afraid I'm gonna contradict myself about how Purple isn't Male-related LOL.

My favorite color. hmm 🤔 It goes from liking Lime Green, to Colors, to Purple, to Orange, then to Mint, then anything Pastel, then Yellow. I mean, I don't know how people can have just one favorite color.

The reason why I have so many is becoz, back in high school, I remembered feeling very envy with other friends; they be buying cute items from this Knic Knac shop with their favorite color and i couldn't buy any coz they didn't have that cute thing in my favorite color, Lime Green. Apparently, Green isn't a color for a girl?
I think from that moment on, I try looking for my next favorite color, you know, just in case the no.1 color isn't available.
WHO MADE THE RULE TO ONLY BUY SOMETHING IN YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? AND KALAU NADA YOUR FAVORITE COLOR, YOU KENOT BUY? WHO?!

but that was before. I'm all grown up now and have a shopping problem. BHAHAHAAHA

sigh

anyway, my favorite colors. Lets discuss.

Pink

90s Power Ranger. Pink Ranger. Kimberly. oh how I love pink ranger! but I have to mengalah with my cousin, and ended up liking Yellow Ranger. coz she the other female ranger.
Then fast forward to high school. oh how I hate pink. coz a classmate was sooo minat Pink that everything she owned was pink. argh. but I guess I was just jealous LOL coz I wasn't 'supported' to buy whatever I want.
That was then. Now I like pink. in pastel. coz its prettier. rose gold is another shade of pink and is prettier.

Light / Lime Green

ok. this one is funny. I only like it coz I was following my sister. this is also during my highshool period. I remember she had all her stationery and books' wrap in that Lime Green color. and I was following everything she did. coz I always want to be my sister. *cue Ashlee Simpson - Shadow. LOL I think I was in that Lime Green phase during Form 5, Lower and Upper Six.
I stopped liking it tho.
but now I'm accepting it again.
coz

NCT!

Purple

This was when I began understanding that favorite color is supposed to be your own. and I remember thinking, what can I buy that represent Harry Potter? This was before the existent of Pottermore and its House Sorting. At that time I, as everybody else's too I'm sure, a Gryffindor, which is red but I don't want that to be my favorite color, so I rack my brain and came up with purple coz in book 1, Dumbledore was wearing a Purple robe.
LOL
still one of my favorite color now but the only reason i avoided it, if I can help it is becoz I don't like seeing one color in my wardrobe.

Orange

Onew. I wasn't able to buy official merchandise and I was looking for things that I can relate to Onew. and he was one of the MC on a show and his 'jacket' was orange color (other MCs were wearing diffent color from each other too). so orange.
I seldom choose this color nowadays.

Mint

SHINee World. Official merchandises are expensive as fuck. Suho mentioned recently, "capitalism". dam right it is. anyway, Instead of crying over that official SHINee phone case I can't afford, I ended up buying one that is just SHINee color.
still my favorite now. Its funny, coz this color is associated with 'aesthetic' stationery color for some reason. hence, easier to get my hands on. 👍🏼

Yellow

Now, this is from Pottermore. I was sorted once before (not Pottermore) into Ravenclaw but that was before I started picking colors that have some relation to my favorite things. Ravenclaw is blue by the way. So, Pottermore sorted me into Hufflepuff. My initial feeling was 'so I'm not a Gryffindor worthy' but soon after I'm like HASHTAG HOUSEPRIDE BITCHESSS! lol again, official merchandises are expensive as fucckkk and instead of stressing over that, I bought color that associates with my house color. Yellow.
THANK GOD for primark and online seller! #youthemvp
come to think of it, I once choose yellow coz Onew wore yellow jacket twice. Yes, i'm that crazy. hahaha

Peach 🍑

this is definitely becoz of that Ice Peach tea drink. I don't know what Peach the fruit real color is. I don't think it as pink as the emoji indicates. but I like that color. I think this is the pink that makes me like pink again. Then, I bought the Too Faced Sweet Peach Pallette. then that Nivea Delicious Drop Peach&Vanilla flavor lipbalm. then Jaehyun.

BONUS:

Red

*cue Taylor Swift - Red
LOL this one is the most random. I only ever pick this color when I'm buying gadget or its accessories. I know it started with that Sony Ericson w760 Walkman I once had. It wasn't entirely red but it accent was. I bought my sony viao, back then, in red coz it matched with my phone. I wanted to buy a red car just so it matched my phone and laptop. I didn't get to tho.
Now, I owned red laptop and a red car. but really, not becoz its my favorite. I can't put this color in my favorite list actually. Red color is more sentimental to me. My dad used to have a red car. Hmm.. I think that is why. That second last sentence, honestly, just pop up to the top of my head. huh



There ya go. What's behind the color that I pick.
but if you see me picking up color that is not in this list, its becoz its the only nice color that I can pick. Why my color not being there stop me from picking it up/ buying the thing, right? If you needed it, you just gonna deal with the color choices the kadai provides. 😜

What's your color story?

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When In Seoul

possibly, this is part 1 of 5? Possibly. Let's hope I don't get lazy by the end of this post. 😆

Hi guys.

I finally gather enough energy to make post about the time when I went to Seoul in Feb 2019.
I really can't explain why I keep proscrastinating to post. But in all honesty, it's probably only becoz I was lazy LOL
Here I am tho, not being lazy and ready to share memories of my first ever trip to Seoul.

Let's start.

. . .

Knowing me, I would want to visit anything SHINee related place as soon as I land in Seoul! but of course, our flight landed in the afternoon of 11th Feb 2019 and even on my itinerary, I gave ample time to rest. thus, SHINee can only happen the next day, 12th Feb 2019.

So, Day 2 in Seoul.

I went with my friend by the way. I was not on a solo trip. I wish. but no. for good reason. (confirm buat few more parts for this LOL) anyway,
based on my itinerary, we left our hotel, at around 10am to go to SMTown Coex Atrium at Coex Mall in Gangnam. and we arrived there at around 11am

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We’re living in the SMTown!

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but as excited as I was, the SMTown Atrium actually opened at 11:30am, so now we wait.

It was so cold by the way! I forgot how cold but it was so cold! like! I don't remember it being that cold when I went to London back in 2009. 
Point of me telling you about this is becoz, my phone died on me (later on I found out that my battery life depleted and needed to be changed). Lucky my friend was there to take picture and lucky I brought my sony digi-cam along too.

anyway, I held hand with Onew.

There was a wall of brass plagues right on the side of the entrance. Its the hand mold of SM artists.

look at my tiny digi-cam

While still waiting, among the pillars, a few more people arrived. 

crossword: find SHINee

One of them approached me asking, "are you a Shawol?"
Me being the scardy cat that I am, answered hesitantly, "I am"
She explained that she thought I was one becoz of my head scarf color. LOL and proceeded to give me a support gift for Key.

I was so touched, I was speechless. Like, thank u. I didn't expect to meet fellow Shawol on this trip. Let alone to meet one at SMTown Coex!
We get to know each other a little; she was from Malaysia and she was in Seoul for Key's mini fanmeet/concert at the SMTown theatre (I was aware of this event but I didn't bother try and get the ticket of. coz yes, they sold out in minutes. and with my kind of internet, I really don't stand a chance) which was why she was distributing the support gift. She was actually leaving Seoul that night.

I only opened the gift when I get back home in Brunei.

it was a mini banner. 09.23 is Key's bday 23rd Sep. Yes, me and him, September babies. 💕💕

the IG tag was Brenda. well I thought it was IG. but turned out it was Twitter handle Brendaaa1104. So, thank u, Brenda. You made my day!

Onward!

We went inside as soon as the door opened. I was taking picture as soon as I get to the merchandise floor but the worker was like 'No picture'-juseyo~ and her hand like this 🙅 and I was like "Sorry" and proceeded to take picture more discreetly LOL

well, as you well aware by now, my my 2018-2019 got erased, meaning, I don't have that much pictures to share. but I did manage to salvage some. So here they are:

These pictures don't do justice to the place. but that is all you're gonna get. Thank my USB extension being faulty and wiped out my photos. ARGHHHH.

and here are the things I bought:

Onew's monster magnet, SHINee chocolate, SHINee Gangnam doll, NCT U Boss Pen, Taemin Want Album, EXO's Keychain. and that "wanna be" picture with Onew. LOL rasa jua bah ahh~~

We didn't stay long at the Atrium. We went out checked the Starfield Library which is just next wing from SMTown Atrium. 

this is not my photo.

It was part library/part bookshop in the middle of a mall? It was pretty to look at but it was noisy? I saw children actually doing their homework at some parts of that place tho. I was not feeling it.
I went to a Kakao store near by soon after.
Liat2 saja. obviously every thing in that store were cute! but I was on a budget and I already splurged on SM merchandises. so, yeah. *cuci mata

I mean, kid, noona trying to take picture here. Move

and we left soon after that. We went to Namsan Tower next.
which I'm gonna continue on the next post.
See you there
annyeong~

. . .

How I spend my time when My laptop was rusak

hi guys!

to answer: I actually spent my time journaling and reading. like,  ALOT!

Yes, I'm very into journal layout these days. all thanks to Amanda!

actually, lets us all thank internet connection, without which, we won't be expose to many great things to enhance our creativity!
so, THANK U INTERNET! (yes, yes. sometimes I like to sarcastically thank OUR internet but this time, I am sincerely thankful)

So, onwards.



Amanda made this Kpop Journal thing last year and it reminded me of the time when I was doing my own kind of fav boyband 'biodata' thing. 😂
but before we go 👉 'there', let me show you what I did early December 2019.

NCT

 superM

Come to think of it, I did all of these when my laptop was 'faulty'! Changing my title from "Kpop Journaling with AmandaRachLee" to "How I spent my time when My laptop was rusak"

I felt guilty at one point, coz I was doing Jaehyun's spread first before I did Onew's. Like, woman, how could you?? to compensate, I did two spread for Onew.

Jaehyun

Onew

caution: read at your own risk or suffer the cringe. 😂😂


Now, back to the favorite boyband biodata thing.

Obviously, I'm talking about the time when I was fanatically obsessed with Westlife.
there was this one book, I made back in 2000/1. It was entirely dedicated to Westlife.
are you ready to see some cringe worthy 2000s entry?
you.could.never.

I mean, look at this cover.

where did I even get this from?!

Look, I even made my own border.

 aren't I creative?

also, look at fetus me talking about 'first and last boyfriend'

😹😹😹

click to enlarge and to read my 2020 comment. 

my First EVER screenshot!

Twenty points to your Hogwarts house if you can guess the MV name?

first EVER collage! 

I mean, not a cute one but still a collage.

this was me copying interview from friend 'magazine' coz I couldn't afford to buy my own copy.

this one is when the news of Bryan and Kerry of Atomic Kitten dating first came out.

walaupun aku nangis, i still want to have a copy of the news.

guys!

this is how you supposed to react to Kpop idols dating news.

Nangis but still keep the happy news.

🤣🤣🤣

I MEAN!

A FOR EFFORT!

GIVE ME FANGIRL OF THE CENTURY AWARD GUYS!

🤣🤣🤣

eottokae, guys?
cringe worthy enough for you?

HAHAHAHAHAH FLASHBACK GALOREEEEE

I hope you enjoy this post as much as I enjoy digging thru my old stuff. it was worth it! I mean, I'm fucking talented! talented at creating non-important thing! HAHAHAHAHA

sigh. 

I REALLY ENJOY DOING THIS!

I SHALL DO MOREEEEE


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Final Top 25 Songs of 2019

hi guys!!

Yes, December! the end of an era! the start of a new day! I mean, not yet but soon. 
Since it's end of era, I thought, I need to make some posts before the year end. 🙊

So, for a start, I'm just gonna share my top 25 listened to songs as of 21st Dec 2019.

Don't be too shock with the number of NCT songs on this list LOL.

Hmm... I guess good songs truly never expires. as you can see, I still listens to old songs a.k.a Celine Dion's Faith (2003) and Charice's One Day (2011).

Best album download this year?

I'll share a few 😎

this one is maybe a little bit bias;

1. I love Princess Jasmine

2. this live action has Will Smith

3. SPEECHLESS IS POWER!!

this is the most unexpected one. I fell in love with the entire album (pretty rare occasion for me).

her previous album that I downloaded, Brave Enough, I only listen to 4 songs out of 18.

you know i have to include this one 😁

the faded ones are the one i untick coz i usually untick songs that I often skipped when they come in the shuffle.

WESTLIFE IS BACK!!!! 

I love this album 

💟💟💟

this is a rare one. I saw her posting a clip from her Blueming MV and I thought the music sounded good. So, I downloaded the album and I am not mad.

it's a good album.

I only ever download one song of hers; Gloomy Clock (feat SHINee Jonghyun) and you know why I downloaded that song. LOL

There you go. Glad to realize that listening to music is still a very big part of me. I'm happy that this still remains. 💖💖

what about you? 

What's your favorite for this year?

Share them in the comment box down below. maybe I'll find my next songs or album to download. 🧐

. . .

Flying Money 💸

SO

I actually forgot to try and make a post about this.

Hmm

Maybe becoz I just don't want to talk about how much money I spent in pre-ordering kpop items.

LOL

Let's break this ish down;

1. Key!

He is finally doing his solo. Like, a real solo. I know he did the ToHeart thing but to me, that doesn't count as a solo, since he did it with Infinite's Woohyun (on wiki, Toheart is dubbed 'sub unit'. I don't think thats appropriate since sub-unit usually meant for a unit that is form within a unit and SHINee and Infinite is not from the same unit, is it?)
anyhoo
Key is finally doing a solo!
his first single is called, Forever Yours featuring Soyou.



I love this song at the first listen. 

and then he dropped his album, called, FACE,  on 26th November.

I haven't properly listen to this album yet but managed to I listen to Easy to Love in full, and i like the English lyric.





2. ONEW! 

argh. his news are the most devastating.
first, SM announced his enlistment date, 10th Dec.
AND THEN!
THE SECOND NEWS! he's dropping his first solo album, on the 5th Dec. 

like 😒😒 I hope SHINee make SM rich this final two months of 2018.

Onew's album is called VOICE. titled song will be called Blue.

Kononnya, this album is a gift to Shawol/MVP for our undying love and support for him. 
basically, something for us to hold on to while he in the army. or something like that.

SO EXCITED FOR THIS!!

not that he never sang solo before, but previously he sang for OSTs, and for SMStation releases, he sang two duets. So, I don't know, doesn't quite counts.

🤷🏻🤷🏻



3. SHINee Japan!

YES! IT'S NOT DONE YET! titled is not a joke. 💸💸💸💸

SHINee World J presents! a DVD for the special Fan Event they had at Tokyo Dome for SHINee's (i think) 7th anniversary since debut in Japan.

Thus, including the Season Greetings, 
I have 4 kpop items to look forward to this month and in Jan 2019.

as excited as I am, I do have this thought at the back of my mind, that, these releases, are meant to be a distraction for us.

becoz

December.

I can't believe we made it thru the year.

I don't know how I should feel about it.

I keep forgetting anyway, and I kinda prefer it that way.

*shrug shrug shrug*

ok, ok.

let's not go there.

let's enjoy these lovely gifts, shall we?

My wallet does not appreciate my decision this month 😂😂

. . .

Bonus items:

Remember that time when Jonghyun plaglarize Taemin's ACE?

Ever since then, Shawol been speculating other member's solo releases.

this one win. Onew Chicken. LOL!!

*break-time* took me forever to search all the fan made album covers of the other members. Andangnya~~ bila di cari, nada. bila inda di cari karang~~ ada ya tu palak2 dapan mata. I wana say "thanks IG's saved button" but no. you miscalculated how much I saved PER DAY!

*in that spongebob french accent* 2 hours later~

I FINALLY FOUND IT~!
found them like from January 2018 post. like...thanks..
of course, within the two hours, I go toilet, eat snacks, etc.

I realized this Bonus section is getting longer too.

Fan made album covers:
obviously these are the newer version. there were other versions before.

Shawol lived for this shiz! HAHAHAHA

but of course,

reality is different.

hahahahah

I know I saw somewhere a new fan made album cover for Minho's but I am NOT gonna go thru another hour searching for it. like, no.




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