the Night Sky

In light of me trying to post more often,
I decided to post everything that I have 'jaruk' in this laptop.
As previously mentioned, I have organized most photos for posting, in a folder.
and here come the first one.

Taken on 29th July 2015, 7:12pm-7:13pm

I had to Google
katanya: Venus (left) and Jupiter (right).

These were taken around the same time as when Jessica was making a post about it in her old blog.

I just didn't get the chance to make a post out of this at that time. in other words, I was lazy. LOL



Taken on 13th June 2018, 7:06pm

This one confirmed, the brightest one is Venus (far right). I am not sure what's on the left (barely visible in this photo too, sorry). but I Googled and it is most likely Jupiter.

CLiCK HerE for more.
I am not a sky expert but this website seems legit. 


Anyway,
I have always been fascinated by the night sky and its stars. 
I wish I have a good camera to capture them.

Above photos was taken as I was reverse-parking my car into the garage.
I was curious about the two bright dots in the sky coz I know they can't be stars. So, I took photos for references but never actually doing anything about it until now. LOL #procrastinatingatitsbest

ohwell..it's posted now..and I shall move on to the next post.


Question:
Have you ever wished to just lay on your house roof and count stars?


. . .

DIY progress

Well, not really a progress.

more like, a start.

LOL

I posted some times ago that I wanted to DIY my phone cases using fake whipped cream with decodens.

Eg:

I bought the 'decodens'.

I couldn't buy the fake whipped cream online coz apparently I couldn't 'bring' liquid substance into the country via mail (I don't really know how the immigration works but that's what I understand). 

So I ended up making my own (following instruction from youtube videos) fake whipped cream

and that didn't really work out (coz I think I put too much of a certain ingredient into the mixture). 

I made the above casing and let it dry for at least 3 days but on the 4th day, the 'clay' part pilled off the case and broke into two.

So, that was the end of my whipped-cream-design case.

I have not try to make a new batch coz I sayang to waste the rest of my air dry clay. LOL nanti tah, when I rajin to experiment. again.

So, I moved on to my second idea of DIY case; Bedazzled!

I bought the square shaped 'beads' from ebay. I was trying to remake the above picture.

But I missed calculated (coz the above picture was for iphone 5, my phone is 6plus) thus I have to rethink of the lay out and came out with this:

I used normal, school craft glue to stick all the bedazzled thingy. took me at least 4 weekends on this. I don't know how long the glue will hold the bedazzled for but so far (I've been using the phone case for 2 weeks?) only 3 tiny dots of beads fell off. so, i guess that's a good sign, right? I didn't think the glue could hold it that long. 

Now, I am moving on to my third DIY style; colored/designed paper style phone case.

Went shopping with my sister yesterday (hunting for tudung actually but I'm a woman. I buy things even when I don't need them :P hahaha) and I was looking for Mod Podge at Shabby Chic (an artsy/crafty shop for creative individuals).

it really is just another Craft Glue thingy but with stronger adhesive/effect.

they were out of stock but i found this

the sales lady told me this will make the same effect as the mod podge. I hesitated and put the thing back on its shelf and went to see what my sister was up to.

She was looking for some crafty design papers. they were on sales (everything was on sales in that shop, for krismas); 10 pieces and above and the paper will be $1 each. (normal price ranges from $1.60 to $2.90 each). 

"Good bargain," my sister said. 

Since I was trying to make another DIY case design, i decided to follow suit. 

and boy did I ever.

I bought 11 pieces + a sticker type paper with alphabet and numbers on it.

and when i was about to pay, i ran to the back of the kadai and finally just took the mod podge wanna-be. it was like 'now or never' moment. LOL

So now, I'm thinking of how to put them all together. I was even thinking about cutting off some of my SHINee photos from their album photobooks. I don't know. I haven't quite figure it out yet.

but one thing for sure, I'll be sharing my finished products here. 

and maybe make something out of this 'findings'

a/n: hmm..what do you know, a slow progress is still a progress.

. . .

Youtube, and how I was inspired to make a post from it

have you ever browse something on youtube and ended up on a video not related to the first video you watch?
Same.

Today, I was watching Justin Timberlake's ESPYS (some sport award show) hosting. He was really funny there. then, I went on watching Jamie Fox's hosting the same event from the previous years. and then, I watched Jamie serenade Serena Williams (that famous female tennis player).
Pastu,
some minutes later
I was watching this



Onew and Luna singing Can I Have This Dance at SMTown Concert in Staple Center NY (I think. if not, maybe the one in Japan, I am not sure and lazy to go and find out where).

LOL

I remember watching Deleted Scenes from HSM3 (that's High School Musical 3 for those who don't know) and also remember watching Sharpay and Ryan version of What I've Been Looking For. I know I kept repeating the A Night To Remember coz the dancing was awesome. 

oh, i found the version of Gotta Go My Own Way that I like most



by Nikki Gil

anyway,
what I wanna know is how did I go from Justin's hosting an award show 
to watching song clips or movie videos of High School Musical?!
like, what is the connection?!

LOL

I could've been sleeping (￣。￣)～ｚｚｚ by now coz I felt so tired and yawning a lot at the office today
but
yeah
youtube happened.

About that Onew/Luna video, I was reading the comment coz there was a part where Onew supposed to be singing but he didn't (I remember during that time, fancams were everywhere and I also remember someone commenting about Onew forgetting his line).
You wanna know what I found?
people going gaga over LuNew. ~(⊕⌢⊕)~
and mostly praising these two singers 

example:


don't get me wrong. Luna is about the only girl in the industry that I ship my Onew with. 
It's just, how deaf and blind a fan can be?
it took several scrolls to finally found sometwo commenting about it

1.



2.


I've forgotten how the song goes in the movie but I know I love the HSM3 version just as much. because by that 3rd movie, Zac and Vanessa sounded a lot mature and less squeaky. 

Others also kept going on and on about how tired Onew looked. 
well, i bet he was, SHINee was promoting Lucifer at that time and Onew was doing a musical too. and they flown across the continent to do a concert there. go figure.

In conclusion, 
I wanna thank youtube for recommeding what video I should watch next.
because of that, I am able to make this post.
I thank you and good night!

. . .

Justin Bieber

shocking right?
hahaha
to me, not really.
Coz I've been listening to  all Justin biggest songs out there since 'Baby'
LOL

I don't really follow Justin Hollywood news.
I only listen to his songs.

You have to admit, he has an amazing voice. and most of his music releases are awesome!

I remember watching  a clip on youtube about how much of a dick he can be. but then I realized that I don't really care. His song is still so catchy and easy to my ear, I can hate him but I can't hate his music.

So,
he just released his new album Purpose and according to Jimmy from SNL, his album had gone to number one on itunes in 99 countries!
If that's not amazing, I don't know what is.

I'm the type to listen (at least!) 3 different songs over and over and over again.

1. What Do You Mean


2. Sorry


3. Love Yourself



I've only ever downloaded song no. 1 
I haven't got the chance to download the others (or in AzNuur words, 'I am lazy kan download2')

Those who said the above songs 'inda lawa', well, BOOOOOO! *throws trash your way*

I share the Live version coz he awesome!


. . .

Hello, Hello

Honestly, the reason behind my lack of posting is because every time I feel like posting, 
it was always about me complaining about ..stuff.
So, in the end, I decided to not post anything.

Let's face it, no one really cares.
I noticed, in many different occasions, that people don't really have an interest when I tried to 'meluahkan perasaan'. I guess they just have their own problem to worry about.
So, I try not to take it into heart sometimes.
I guess, I'm right again. 
Writing things down in my diary is far more satisfying!

muahahah! 

anyways,
that is all for today.
I will try and post something not-kpop tomorrow, or later after midnight.

I sincerely hope that your days had been far better off than mine.

a/n: at my age, I finally understand what they meant when they say, "Quality in friends versus Quantity".

. . .

This is Me

I've been trying to post something positive or something kpop but it's kinda hard, especially when your real life (outside this virtual world) is soooo negative.

ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ

I should mention that I am trying not to be so negative, not to be angry all the time and most importantly, trying not to lose myself.

It has been pointed out to me that I wasn't the same person as I was before. 

hmm...

Initially, I was shocked and upset finding that out coz it sounded like a bad thing coming out from the 'pointer's' mouth.
but being me, I over think it. 
Of course I'm not the same person as I was before!
I'm a living thing, I evolve!
Egg.

I guess the pointer only meant that I no longer follow their wishes.
Before, I used to just do what I was told coz I was afraid of being 'frown upon' which ended up me being bullied into doing other people's job too.
but now that I built up my own confidence, I questioned everything before I do what I was told to do.

It has also been pointed out to me that I've been watched and turned out, I have quite the temper.

Surprise.

They told me that I have an attitude problem. they even put that on my appraisal.

Lovely.

I wanted to be honest and say that I don't have an attitude problem but God knows I do, so, yeah, I have an attitude problem. 
the question is, why? Coz if they've been watching me, they should know that I don't just act up out of no where.

They asked me all the right questions plang but what really ticked me off is that they already know the answer but still want me to say it out loud.
Not that I have any problem on speaking my mind out loud, i just thought that it isn't fair that I'm being singled out and be the bad person alone.
Since they already know the real problem, why not address the 'problem' instead of trying to 'fix' my attitude because of that problem? 
I am channeling Ginny right now and will call this Problem, from today onward, Phlegm.

Seriously, when I'm not focusing on these silliness, I'm ok. my temper only raises when I think about it.
So, I'm gonna leave this here and hoping someone from the office will read this and do something about it.
Yes, issue dari office. 
hahahah
So much for being discreet.
my foot.

Anyway, they said they've been watching me kan? They should also see that temper-mental or not, I still do my job well. Not excellent but at least still exceed their expectation. 
but being the bias person that they are, I'm sure they didn't see that good side of me, only the bad one for them to use against me.

and to that I say,

☉▵☉凸

and have a nice life.

my ability to 'lead' was also brought into question. and all I can think about right now is Dumbledore.
Just because we don't hold higher position, that doesn't mean that we are not right.

I remember saying, "maybe they had forgotten what it was like down here" not exactly in that words but same meaning.

sigh.

I know it's time to go. It's not even worth it anymore.

Hamburger

this had to be the best meme/edit/post ever!

hahahaha

I hamburger you too, Minho

hahahah

. . .

I see Korean-related things EVERYWHERE

You know when you like something so much, everything around you reminds you of it.

Example:

I was at work that one time and a colleague had this hair do 

which reminds me of this 'old' Korean hair do

LOL!

I don't know if I've shared enough here but I'm a big fan of Korean Historical drama. I think I'm more fascinated with their garments than anything else. 
That is why the hair do above became a topic for tonight's post.

hahaha

. . .

Long Overdue

Hello people,
miss me?
Bet you do.

What have I been doing? Nothing important.
Mostly I've been lazying around.
Per usual.
☜-(ΘLΘ)-☞

but I should share with you this;

I am back into planning my birthday trip to Japan. next year.

YAY ME ＼(▽￣＼(￣▽￣)／￣▽)／

It was supposed to be a solo trip.

It could still end up that way.

We'll see.

For now, I am planning this like it is still my birthday solo trip!

I know, some may asked, "Bukan ko kan ke Korea first kh?" 
maybe. 
But I thought long and hard on that. 
then I realized, my love for Harry Potter is far more greater than for Korea. ┌( ಠ‿ಠ)┘

Besides, after Key posted the above picture, I JUST. HAVE. TO. GO. THERE. TOO.

see? still SHINee related mission. hahaha 

I swear, if Hogwarts theme park kena open di Universal Studio Singapore, I'll be going to Singapore, at least, yearly. hahaha Yes, I'm a crazy potterhead.

No matter what, I will see this trip thru. On my birthday. I will make it happen!

. . .

a/n: First thing first; I need to buy that pod thingy for solo-ist trip selfies.

. . .

Happy Belated Birthday

this special post is dedicated to the pretty Jess

Sorry that it is belated but here you go;

Happy Belated Birthday Jessica.
I know from your post you had a blast!

Here's to many more years to come 

. . .

Why You Should ...

this post will be about, how you should really understand something before you jump into conclusion.

or watch an MV sampai habis and after that baru tah plan apa kan di post.

LOL

I was watching f(x) 4 Walls MV for a few times (to help increase the number of view :P) when I cam across Kyuhyun new MV from his second mini album.



Half way thru the MV I was thinking I wanna share this MV with cZawir and tell him "This is what's going to happen to me on my solo trip next year" coz the MV was about a lady travelling alone and somewhat a guy fell for her after a short encounter. 
but as the MV finishes, it turns out the lady was actually dying/critically ill. or maybe she actually died in the MV, I'm not so sure. 
and that stop me from posting/tagging cZawir on FB.

Like, No, I don't want that to happen to me next year. *knock on wood*

hahaha tau takut~

but I still like the MV minus the dying. Macam a mini version of fluffy Kdrama!

someone asked in the comment, "Why didn't she just eat her medicine (nangis tah pulang)?" and someone replied "coz there is no water" LOL! egg. funny! but egg. ahaha

Now, back to f(x) 4 Walls MV!!!!



I doesn't reminds me of anything for the last half an hour listening and rewatching the MV. I only thought that its a nice song and the MV could've been better (coz I have no idea what they are trying to tell me with this MV). but in the comment, people kept saying its a copy of SHINee's View. and now I can't unseen the similarity. #damnit

Someone commented something about Sulli looking great in the MV (at 2:16 minute) and when I clicked the highlighted time, I laughed. coz 2:16 brings you to the scene with the brown horse. hahahah! Someone even asked "J-Horse is that you?" hahah seriously! people are dead hilarious in the comment! and egg! completely egg! hahahah


In IG, FB and now youtube channel, I've been seeing Sulli's fans being upset and dissing current four members of f(x).
It was officially announced that Sulli wanted to leave f(x) to pursue her acting career. it's not the other 4 members fault. If anyone to be pitied, it should be Vic, Amber, Luna and Krystal. They are the one yg had to endure the hardship of losing a member and trying to move forward.
I hope f(x) will get all the recognition that they deserve.

. . .

that movie and a comeback

It was more like Funny and Egg!

LOL

I guess I expected that movie to be funny because Jack Black was in it.
and it was nice to find out that from the beginning, the main character was funny AH (as hell) too!

I laughed the hardest (spoiler alert!) during this one scene at the supermarket when Jack Black was spraying himself with deodorant! I laughed coz of his face but mostly because it was so girly and reminded me of a video Amber from f(x) posted on IG some time ago. hahaha so egg~

what I don't like about this movie is the scene towards the end. Literally before the ending punya scene. I don't like it. It's very disturbing. Like, what becomes of the reality?! 
You have to watch the movie to understand why I said it was disturbing. I'm dead lazy to explain. 
hahaha

BUT

not to lazy to mention this before I end this post;

f(x) comeback! 27th Oct! without Sulli!
YASSSS!

MV teaser was out 1hr ago!



looks promising but no high hopes coz SM loves to crash all your hopes and dreams.

So excited for this comeback! coz their 3rd Album comeback was dead short!

f(x) deserves all the love in the world!

. . .

Out of boredom

and laziness.

I went shopping yesterday for new Silver marker (coz the one I had was faulty), and as always, I ended up buying more than just a Silver marker.
I bought these too.

I bought the green ones back when I was doing the August Doodle Challenge (but never actually use it for the challenge).
and now I wonder what I should be doing with them. I still have plenty of kiddies marker pens to choose from, not to mention my Sharpies too.

So what I did today was to color my Ariel. 

I printed the 'coloring' image from the internet (found it on Goodle search).

I know, very sloppy. LOL. well, I'm no professional.

I don't know where this 'coloring' craze came from.
maybe it's from what I've been seeing on IG's explores page; people been posting colored pages from that famous coloring book. I don't know where it originally came from but I know I first saw the thing from Key's IG post few months back. and the written letters were in Korean.

Now, I saw these coloring books at our local bookstore too. Only it's in English. Although I considered it cheap, I haven't got around to buy them. I'm scared that this phase I'm in is only temporary. besides, I am such a lazy person that even if I thought of it, I usually ended up not doing it. LOL

anyway,
i thought I'd share this recent thoughts here;
I once saw someone posted a collection of their sketch books and I thought, "I wish I could draw too" and proceeded into thinking of buying a sketch book for myself.
But yesterday, as I was buying the markers and looking thru some small sketch book to buy, I realized, I am no artist (not the one that draws anyways) and decided to stop the frenzy of buying art supply and such.
On my way home, I kept thinking (and realizing) that I already have a collection of books/journals. they may not be as awesome as the one that those artists have; with their anime like drawings, majestic colors, etc. but my diaries/journals are all and filled to the brim with writings.
I think it's awesome that I actually have diaries/journals collection. 
How many people have such collections? I mean a collection of something you yourself create? I'm guessing not so many.
I remember writing or typing the saying of Anne Frank's, "I may not know how to draw but at least I can write".
So, as I sat here this afternoon, wondering (still) about what to draw, I decided to just let go of that ambition and just settled with coloring instead. I colored so well. LOL

all I'm saying is that, I'm glad that I have this sense of trying to draw. In another word, I'm trying to find myself again thru this. "Try and Error," as one of my fellow Team Building buddy once said. 
It's never too late. the good thing about it is that, at this age, you become less stressful over your error and learn quickly to move forward onto another thing.
it may look like I was giving up but lets face it, drawing doesn't just happened over night (as do success), they took a lot of years to perfect.
Just like writing. I don't just write like this out of no where. It took me my entire high school life to find the confidence to even write this long for your viewing. even when you don't read it! 

I guess, from my point of view, people only ever interested in my art when I have a lot of pictures posted together with any of my lengthy post. So that's what I did all these years with my posts. To keep people interested, I either posted something short with one picture or if I decided on something lengthy, I make sure I have some pictures attached in it before posting.
It gets a little frustrating sometimes trying to figure out what makes people happy with my posts.
BUT
that always short-lived and I ended up posting whatever I want.
xD

. . .

Onew has a sexy back.

No hate.
. . .

Parental Guidance

I was supposed to post a topic on 'Guy Friend' tonight
but I was watching Parental Guidance, starring Billy Crystal (Or you might recognize his voice as Mike Wazowski from Monster Inc)
So, I got side track and decided to share my thoughts on this movie's moral instead.

This movie has been in my external hard disk for so long. 
I was bored and didn't know what else to watch tonight (coz I usually just watch other movies yg I already watched; Easy A, Mulan, Salt, etc). So, as i was scrolling thru the movies I had, I came across Parental Guidance and I double clicked it.

and I just finished crying.

Here's a synopsis taken from iMDb website;

Artie and Diane agree to look after their three grandkids when their type-A helicopter parents need to leave town for work. Problems arise when the kids' 21st-century behavior collides with Artie and Diane's old-school methods.

I think I cried because how Alice, Artie's daughter, think of her father reminds me of how I think of my mother. and the things Artie said, when they had their 'talk' makes me think that is how my mother must have felt.

I've never been close with my mother like other people do. Our relationship is strictly on mother and daughter basis; She's the superior and I am the kuli. I used to think that she raised me wrong but for so long now, I think she did what she was able. The terms 'I learned things on my own' is a lie. I don't learn things on my own, I had other people guiding me. I guess what makes me think that I was on my own was because they were not taught by my mother. All I can remember right now is how often I was being scolded by other parents for my 'unruly' behavior. 
I'm not saying my mom was a bad parent. 
She at least taught me how to be independent.

All I'm putting out tonight is that, we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves just because we were brought up that way. From what I've learned so far (coz believe me, I'm forever learning), you have a choice. You can choose to not be how your parents were. 
I heard sometimes ago that you can't break away from what you've been 'taught' growing up; meaning you are your parents child, and the way they brought you up is the only guidance you had on how you supposed to grow up to be. but that theory is stand to be corrected.
Because I've seen it. I've seen people with such horrible up bringing becoming so successful in life. I'm not talking about them getting better income or better lifestyle though that is the perks but I'm talking about successful for not being in such horrible situations anymore.
That is why I strongly believe you can break away from it.

I know old habits are hard to break.
My mom and I (with my other siblings too) are trying to 'reconcile' our 'relationship' since a few years back; coz we hardly ever talked with our mother like how you talked with your mother, 
but it's hard especially for me. 
The good thing is, we are still trying and willing to continue to try and be civil (coz one way or another, thing always ended up into a 'fight'). 
I think that is the most important thing; Try.
Coz you don't know until you try, right?

. . .

disclaimer: I'm not saying me and my mother don't talk to each other. I'm saying we're just not as close as how other Mother and Daughter relationships that I've seen. Ok? OK.

. . .

the 28th Birthday

Gosh I'm getting old.

but that's just how I feel when I look at the number.

Inside, honestly I feel normal. I still feel, well, me.

10th Sep

Spent most of my day time at home and in the toilet (coz I was sick with diarrhea. I still am ┐(‘～`；)┌)

Evening time, 

I went to the movie with Zawir. thanks for the movie treat, dude! 

he bought me a cupcake 

but since i was still sick, I didn't dare to eat it and plan on eating it at home but in our hurry, we lupa to bring the cupcake with us from the food court. hahaha

Scorch Trials, I can't rate it. Coz I am not happy with the 'zombie Apocalypse' . So, when I got home from the movie, aku tarus download the ebook. page 99 now. and you can just tell how much I love the book already. ◎[‿]◎

12th Sep

Lepak time with Geng Keras (+ 1 a.k.a. Kuch's Husband)

they surprised me with cakes (yes, cakes; a RedVelvet cupcake from Buzz, a rainbow cake from Kuch and Chocolate cake from Zawir; he said, 'no more utang ahh' LOL).

THANK YOU GUYS! You awesome! I was touched and thankful. as cKuch's husband said. "saranghaeyo" LOL (and I replied as I clapped 'my work here is done!') ♥‿♥

I was still sick of course, and felt sorry for them coz I kept disappearing to the toilet like, more than necessary LOL Sorry guys. I'll make sure my health will be in order by the next time we hang out. :D

on a brighter note, it has been a fun birthday altogether. ( ･_･)♡

thank you.

. . .

Why I can't open my IG in public

Coz my feed, at an unknown time of the day, will be filled with below

abs abs abs abs

"My body is ready" is genius though hahaha

trust me, this three posts are like the tip of an iceberg.

a couple of days ago, the same account posted some nasty pornic 'imagine' posts.

I was so horrified that I didn't open my IG for the rest of the day until I get home.

I wanted to unfollow but when she is not so (excuse my language) horny, she posted some legit awesome cuts of SHINee videos and pictures. and she hella funny too.

I guess the Pornography post was her way of being funny. but

OH MAI GOAT! BEHAVE YOURSELF!

These were posted by a 13-16 years old! (or may be she's like 17 or 18 but I duno, I'm not gonna ask. like, why would I wana do that?) I'm 28 (yes! 28 today! Happy Happy Birthday!) and seeing this on my feed while in public still makes me blush/shameful like mad! those posts are pg18 at least!
on another note; I am glad that they are aware of this sex subject coz from what I've read and saw on TV, it is ok to educate youngster about 'sex'. It actually lowers the rate of teen pregnancies. *shrugged*

oh Don't get me wrong. I like watching posts of SHINee's abs, I do. honestly. but when some mother sat next to you while you are waiting in a Q, and she looked at your phone (my iphone 6+ has a big screen and people can just read from beside me!) and saw some skin on it, they won't be very open minded about it. especially in Brunei. as open minded and liberal can one be, it is still a conservative country. :S sorry, makcik. didn't mean for you to see that was all I said in my head. LOL

However, that Onew still has his not-showing-my-body game so strong. 



We MVPs had to accept the fact that he'd forever be private and respect him for that life choice. Like, no, we are content with his body gags and randomness. we. are. content.

about the only thing we can do.◃┆◉◡◉┆▷

But we still have some OnGuns to look forward to, don't we? Lets us be grateful for OnGuns.

For those who doesn't know what OnGuns are, here's what you need to know;

This was from Everybody era.

This was from Law of the Jungle (also during Everybody era).

(also Everybody era) SHINee performing in a club. like, celebrating they all are now legal to enter a club, I guess. LOL

This was from Hello Baby, during Ring Ding Dong/Jojo era.

This was from Lucifer era.

We MVPs may not have OnAbs but our OnGuns are awesome!
hahaha

Onew can be so much cooler but he chooses to be weird, I don' know. 









these are some of the examples. You can enjoy some more randomness when you youtube 'Onew Sangtae' or Onew weird or Onew, I don't know. just try it. You may come across something so weird about Onew one way or another HAHAHAHAH

. . .

You can't be mean, it's my birthday post and I will post as much of Onew as possible.

muahahahaha

. . .

cr: Non of the above images/gifs/videos are mine. I borrowed them for the purpose of sharing my love for SHINee, esp Onew. I don't get paid posting them, Heck, I don't get paid doing this blog! So,chill... 

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