Happy Dragon Year 2024

Hi.

Happy New Year! 🐉

Yes, I'm still holding on to this blog page.

it's almost a year from when I last posted on here too LOL I am not going to explain myself anymore. You already know how I be; motivated to the max now and be gone the next minute.

Anyways, life updates!

Um. I turned a year older. I got one 'false alarm' health scare in Mar 2023 but when I returned in Apr 2023, turned out that doctor was just making hasty conclusion. 🙄 

and I was obsessing over How To Train You Dragon like never before. Becoz now! I have access to the internet and I can search everything that franchise releases; the first TV shows, the mini movies, the netflix series. I read somewhere that the latest series in the franchise does not include our favorites but it is a story about the descendants. I haven't got around to look for them on the internet. Sabar. I will get to it soon.

Anyways, next..in bullet point form;

Work Life. 

Welp. still in the same department. I applied to a few positions late 2022 and early 2023. Only one menyangkut for an interview. It's an officer level and I didn't hear anything else after that one. I kinda knew I wouldn't get it anyways coz it was known that that you wouldn't get promoted to Officer position if you didn't have a bachelor degree. Sigh. but at least I tried. and stopped trying to apply i think after Apr 2024 coz I was rotated into a different unit and I simply focused on that for the whole 2023. You know, manatau now I feel better about working there. I did. for a while. and then. back to square one.

Also, our leaves are being monitored this year. coz big projects. and we have a new boss jua and the restructuring of our department is a nightmare. Not saying it's not working. I'm just saying, changes are always hard.

Yatah, I wanna go back to the original plan; tukar department and slowly moving out of the company. 

I mentioned this last year; I think it's better for me to change environment.

Let's try again this year.

Travels. 

1. Soooo..Westlife concert was underwhelming? LOL only becoz I thought i watched every Live Concert DVD they ever released and they sounded the same, gais! Their live vocal really do sound like that! I was impressed but also like, yeah-i-expected-that. Or maybe I was underwhelmed becoz I thought I would go nuts when they appear on the stage and I didn't HAHAHAH mau tah jua kan go crazy. but yea. It was a fun memory for me. albeit it being so calm. and no Encore coz we (people seating around me) agreed that they old already, 10pm is the max. LOL at least I reached my hotel by 11pm.

2. My next travel was in June 2023. to Japan! like I waited so long for this trip! another solo. and I was satisfied. I went for 11 days? and by the 9th day I was so fed up with everything and I wanted to go home already LOL. So i guess I didn't really want to move to Japan then. ahahah 

Remember how I lost so many footage from my very first solo Japan trip? Well, on this first solo after covid one, I restep the places I went di Osaka. I skipped the one in Kyoto, the TOEI Kyoto Studio Park. but from my train, I could see a huge Evangelion back's as we passed thru.

Obviously, things don't happened the same way twice. So, I ended up not doing much re-stepping but re-visiting the place and gained new experienced instead.

3. I went to Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia in end of September 2023. Yeah, I know. I don't know how I did it but it happened. this trip was actually a company trip. Ovvy I paired with my colleague. It was enjoyable and I appreciate my quick hands in applying for it LOL 

We visited this bridge yang the shape I recognized as, i think, Sarawak official bird, Kenyalang. I told my colleague that as we were walking, I felt the bridge moved but she said that maybe I was too tired and had a headache. I insisted one more time after that and she insisted that she didn't feel anything.

The next day, as we took taxi kan, the uncle taxi tu asked if we have gone onto the bridge and we replied yes. The uncle continued about the sejarah, and get this, I wasn't crazy. 🤯 the bridge was meant to move! It was designed to make you feel like you were walking on the birds' wings! (That was genius by the way but too bad for people yg gayat like me. I can go on roller coaster and feel nothing but walking on tinggi places like that bridge, no thank you. Begarak2 tah lagi.) The look I gave my colleague tho 😏

4. and last travel for 2023 was in December. This one a bit sacred. I went for Umrah. When it was confirmed, I cried and barely sleep fro 3 days and 3 nights (I remembered becoz it was over the weekend). but alhamdulillah. Kalau nya Allah jadi, jadi lah ia.

5. As for 2024 - I have one planned for End of Feb 29th. XD another concert gais. guess who? SHINee!!!! omg! ani aku excited a little more. coz I have SO many concert merch that I can finally used! Kan dulu bali and jadikan perhiasan. Now I can use them! The concert will be on 2nd Mar. and I found out today that apparently the date clashes with Taylor Swift's. No wonder SHINee's started at 4pm. I thought that was just the time you should start going to the venue. LOL Anyway, once again, I haven't bought my flight ticket nor my hotel. Laik, semoga hampit.

My hobby.

No, I didn't do a flip thru video of my old bullet journal creations. I actually didn't even post much last year. Like, I know I was always late in terms of dates / days but I really didn't post much. I don't know. Work became a drained again and I just neglect everything. When I did manage to post, they were super late. Like, I questioned myself so many times; what is going on girlie?

Hoping to restart again this year. Maybe not the 'bullet' journal part coz I bought a simple planner. Well maybe not so simple coz it has the Monthly planner, Weekly planner. The planner also provide or prepared other familiar section like the habits section, budgeting, exercise, period, etc for the whole year. Yatah, I thought, I don't need to create my own from the scratch. I can focus on why I have so many journals/notebooks in the first place; to write my most inner thoughts / feelings that I wouldn't or couldn't tell anyone and do all my planning/'shading'/'ticking' in the planner saja.

So here's to a more progressive writing feelings in my joural this year.

oh and btw, I only managed to use one thick journal/notebook last year and it wasn't even filled at the back. Give up ku. move on ku saja to the new year punya buku. Laik, I'm letting go.

I should include this here - I joined a 'community' (of 4-5 people LOL) of crafters. Bruneian. I 'applied' mid Nov 2023 and was included into a whatsapp group early Dec 2023. You know what happened to me in Dec kan? When I rejected their 'project'; creating tags and swapped them, I received a very not friendly text from one of the member, "as agreed before you join here" like, woman. there were no mention of a dateline when I filled in that Google form? 👀

The dateline was in Jan 2024. I agreed coz I scared they kick me out of the group 🤣 but by End of Dec 2023, I announced to the group how I won't be able to join the project afterall coz I was so overwhelmed - work wise and I know I can't commit. only two people bagi respond yang kind. the others macam luke warm gitu. I mean, I told you I cannot join but you insist masukkan my name di sana atu. One of the more kinder people did say to stay in the group if its not a burden and join the next project saja. Bukan kah nice cematu? Ani tarus2 kana attack masa awal2 atu. 

One other thing tho, dah tah my work banyak dateline. I couldn't stand a dateline for a hobby as well. that was a LITTLE disappointing. I wonder if I should just leave the group? I know the dateline is relevant coz the group want to received swapped projects and 'unbox' at the same time. I don't know. I still like the idea to receive something in the mail again after so many years. we'll see.

Reading.

hmm. I tried to read one book in Aug 2023 anddd..4 days, 147 pages. and I neglected it. the writing is good but I just can't. I'm looking at the book cover now and I just realized there was a person on the cover. Blurred but a person. the fuck. how come aku inda realize before ani? ahahah anyways, the book, Jodi Picoult Lone Wolf. I will finish it this year.

Why? coz I finally printed all the book cover of all the books that I have yet to read. Including Lone Wolf, I have 43 books to read this year.

I am officially on a book buying ban.

waitt. ke Singapore in march ani, I already have a list. LOL but only two yang I have not read before. We'll see on the implementation of the ban.

Anyhoo

Umm I start listening to audio books. I actually started like November 2023? and then I stopped. and restart again in Jan 2024. I found them on youtube and it was legit? and I like the reader. for some reason, the books yang I came across atu were the Hunger Games trilogy. That trilogy is chef kiss. Books to Movies adaptation has no competition in my opinion. Anyways, when I finished those, I thought I give the 4th book a try. I mentioned this book last year but I didn't quite mention the struggle. Like, I really hate it. Like, I just hate it.

BUT! that audio book! the reader! omg! I actually remembered some scene of the story and I was surprised about my feelings. Like, I don't hate it like when I was reading it. I was genuinely intrigued about the story (eventhough i already baca the physical book) and curious about what's gonna happen next. Like, wow. 

My conclusion as to why I seem to struggle a lot to read for so many years now is that I need to be in a good mood before I start a book. If i paksa myself so much, it becomes a chore and I hate chores. LOL I'm sure it's mostly my mood. coz there were a couple of time I forced myself to read for 30mins and I ended up so engrossed to the story even when I started it in a not so good mood. 

So, yeah. Mood plays an important role for me to finish reading my TBR pile. 

hwaiting.

Apa lagi yang kan di update? 🤔

oh! you know how I'm barely posting on my second IG with my craft? well, the same goes to my personal ones. All those trips? Nasib lah Westlife aku sampai mempost. My June Japan trip? syukur alhamdulillah I posted 1 in September for back-to-Hogwarts day. ahahaha and the one after that? Nope.

I've transferred all of them on to my HD kemarin kemarin and now I'm either going to post them as a photo dumb or sudah tah, Let it go. delete them from my phone, and move on. 🧘‍♀️ I am in need to clean my phone storage anyways.

I thought came to mind; post them on here. 🤭

Jom kita gelak sama-sama. 🤣

Yeah, if I managed to do that, I am the best.

Ok, I think that is all for now. Let's hope I be more active this year. Active in writing, reading, uploading photos on social media, and exercise. I need to start exercising soon too. Fed up ku doctor2 ani, asal jumpa appointment, cakap pasal BMI ku saja. naleh ku.

Ok, anyways, thank you.

See ya next time.

Jessi Album

Jessi - UN2VERSE

I thought I've talked about this. Rupanya balum.

I have something agaisnt her for some reason. maybe she reminds me of an old buddy.

LOL

Anyway,
I know she has a new song, Down, out at the moment, but I can't talk about that now since I have not listen to it, yet.

So, lets talk about her first mini album, UN2VERSE

took me forever to finally decided to download the album.
coz I remembered how I feel about Taeyeon and her first mini album, and thought I'd give Jessi's a chance.

boi! I was not disappointed.

I stand by my words; don't judge a song from its MV.

hahahaha

I think I like Arrived. coz it's in English. LOL

Gucci is thug.

Her singing voice is gorgeous. I don't know about her rapping tho. I mean, I can rap along, so thats cool. LOL

Seriously guys, if you want to stan a song, don't watch the MV. Listen to the audio first. coz chances are, you'll straight up hate a song when the MV sucks. 

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the Night Sky

In light of me trying to post more often,
I decided to post everything that I have 'jaruk' in this laptop.
As previously mentioned, I have organized most photos for posting, in a folder.
and here come the first one.

Taken on 29th July 2015, 7:12pm-7:13pm

I had to Google
katanya: Venus (left) and Jupiter (right).

These were taken around the same time as when Jessica was making a post about it in her old blog.

I just didn't get the chance to make a post out of this at that time. in other words, I was lazy. LOL



Taken on 13th June 2018, 7:06pm

This one confirmed, the brightest one is Venus (far right). I am not sure what's on the left (barely visible in this photo too, sorry). but I Googled and it is most likely Jupiter.

CLiCK HerE for more.
I am not a sky expert but this website seems legit. 


Anyway,
I have always been fascinated by the night sky and its stars. 
I wish I have a good camera to capture them.

Above photos was taken as I was reverse-parking my car into the garage.
I was curious about the two bright dots in the sky coz I know they can't be stars. So, I took photos for references but never actually doing anything about it until now. LOL #procrastinatingatitsbest

ohwell..it's posted now..and I shall move on to the next post.


Question:
Have you ever wished to just lay on your house roof and count stars?


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Raya OOTD

I only have 5 outfits this raya and only able to use 4.
the fifth one need some major alteration before I could use it.

Day 1 make-up

Day 1 outfit

Day 2 make-up

Day 2 outfit

Day 3 make-up

Day 3 outfit (if looks could kill)

Day 4 make-up

Day 4 outfit

5th Day of Raya. Back to Work. No make-up. 

Only Camera360 filter. 

LOL

my make up has been disastorous on 2nd day of Raya but I winged it. I must looked like a Zombie. ahahaha but no one bother telling me about it so..yeahhh

I like my 1st Raya makeup though and from that I realized maybe thats 'my' look. the nude/peach look.

I tried to be colorful this year but I ended up with two black shades.
sorry not sorry.

for the first time in a long time, I'm wearing heels again for raya. The black one is from my annual dinner back in Jan 2018, the white one i bought from zalora.com 

two of my baju is from zalora.com , three are made to measure.

Posting this on the final week of Syawal. hahaha So me.

Hope everyone's Raya is full of happiness and forgiveness.


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Make-Up Brushes meets my mom

So this afternoon I went to a cousin's Khatam Al-Quran
and I wore makeup.
Because,
I wana be purrtty.
hahaha

NO,
I wore makeup on weekends coz I need to use my makeup things before they expire.
1. I don't wear makeup on a daily basis
2. I try to wear makeup whenever the occassion calls for it. a.k.a. when I'm not lazy.

here's how I looked tadi

and
here's what I did a few hours later

cleaning my makeup brushes arah sink kitchen. :P

and my mom checked on what I was doing and asked, "apakan ni?"

I'm guessing she actually knew but wondered why they looking like that (I know my mom used to wear makeup too from her old pictures)?

and I answered her, "make up brushes"

She paused and checked some more and finally said, "banyak jua brushes" and walked away.

I frowned and looked at my brushes.

Yeah, I do have many. when in reality, I only ever use maybe 4 of them. LOL

I do used all of them every other time coz I need to know their functions. and to do that, I need to experiment by using them. hence, the cleaning.

I bought the brush soap/cleaner from Daiso, Miri. it works well.

in the beginning I used hand soap to clean my brushes. that worked o.k. too. I don't think it really matters what soap you use as long as it is not laundry detergent LOL

the rose amd wand brushes are from storybookcosmetic.com but you should know, these style of wand brushes no longer available. however, they do sale other style of wand brushes and just as precious to own. Go check them.

the wood-handled brushes are from the Face Shop.

anyway,

Point of this Post?

No point.

LOL

I just find it funny the way my mom asked and wondered what late bloomer I was.

HAHAHAHA

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Composed on 29th Apr.

my facial regime

Hello friends,
welcome.

This is going to be a long post, so bear with me. (▰˘◡˘▰)


For the past two years, I've been trying to maintain a facial care routine / regime.

From the beginning, I was told to use my products in this order; wash-essence-toner-cream-or-serum. Day routine will end with serum, Night routine will end with cream.

but today, as I "window shop" at Yesstyle.com, I came across this product called Ampoule.

I had to Google that shit coz my brain goes, "what the hell is an ampoule?!"

I clicked on the first link on the first result page and found out (at the bottom of a very long article) 

Ampoule is a super charged serum.

ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ)

macam, why they make me read that long ass article? why they play me?

I also found out that I could've done my routine like this; watery products first, then thickest and richest products last. So, thats like: toner-essence-serum-or-cream.

I. am. confused. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
that sale person wouldn't be giving me a wrong instruction, would she?

I Googled another question; 
which one go first: toner or serum?

Clicked on the first link on the first result page. and it says, it was up to my own judgement.

like, whaaaaa

I once wondered, if I put my essence first after cuci muka and then 5 minutes later applied my toner (using cotton puff), doesn't it seems like I'm wiping my essence off my face kah tu?
I did try changing the routine once; wash-toner-essence-cream, but the sensation I felt on my face at that time was uncomfortable becoz both my essence and cream at that time were thick. My skin is oily to acne prone type. those thick products were not agreeing with me.
So, I went back to the original routine; wash-essence-toner-cream.


but If i were to follow the watery-thickest-richest rule, my current first essence is pretty watery and light although not as watery and light weight as my toner.
should I be using my toner first?
coz in my understanding, and just as the first article mentioned, toner is like a second cleansing after washing. thus, i believe my toner kinda washes off my first essence since i applied that one first before toner.

should I change my routine?

my skin felt rather dry this day.

but only becoz I'm having break out right now (which is normal for me during this time of the month) and I usually avoid putting on products on my face until the scar is gone. I could put on make up but as soon as I get home, I usually clean my face straight away and put on ointment on the trouble area instead.
I know my face. during this hard times, it will protest and bring more breakouts if i put on other facial products.
sigh
I'm old already, shouldn't this type of break out stop already at this point??

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Here's some extra contain!

Products I've used before:

1)

The Face Shop (left to right);

The Therapy First Serum, 

Myeonghan Miindo Heaven Grade Ginseng Whitening Toner, 

The Therapy Anti-Aging Serum.

2)

The Face Shop (left to right);

Yehwadam Revitalizing Serum,

Yehwadam Revitalizing Toner,

Yehwadam Revitalizing Cream.

Currently using this:

(left to right)

Tony Moly - 2X First Light Essence,

Premium Peach Cotton Toner,

Premium Peach Cotton Cream.

this last set of products kinda suits my skin at the moment. they catered my oily skin well. I especially love the peach cream; watery/light but as soon as you rubbed them on your face, it dries quick and not oily or sticky at all. very2 light on the skin. PLUS! smells amazing! LOVE. IT.


Of course, there are other things I used every other time or when I remember to, or when I rajin LOL;

• Face Mask - once a week at least. I am running low on face mask as I'm typing this.
• Yehwadam Snow Lotus Pearl Capsule Cream - this one is a little heavy for my skin, so I kinda scared to use it that often. not even once a week. but it makes my skin glow when I put them on. and I love the smell.
• Yves Rocher Serum for Wrinkles and Firmness - this is a night serum and when I finally bought it early January this year ( i tried the sample before and it works fine with my skin) and used it as my alternative night cream, I got horrible break outs, I freaked out, and stopped using it. but last Sunday, 13th May, I somewhat checking out the serum and again and read the bottle instruction; it says I supposed to use it twice a week. DAMN! no wonder break outs! Sales person, you need to step up your game.

You'd think with all these products my skin will be flawless and glass glow like.

no, honey.

coz believe it or not, what you put IN you body is just as important as what you put ON your skin.

and I put in more grease and salt than I do plain water or any other good nutrition.

┐(‘～`；)┌


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compose start: early April.
second edit: 15 April.