Oops, I did it again

I played with your heart,
got lost in this game,
Oo baby baby!
Oops you think I'm in love 
That I'm sent from above~
I'm not that innocent

*laugh out loud*
(font in red coz of Britney's outfit in that mv was red :P)

I got carried away~
Sorry not sorry

hi everyone,
welcome back.

I know, it's been a week! or so, since my last post
and I'm supposed to be posting frequently 'in honor of celebrating my 8th anniversary with blogspot'

*roll eyes*

That celebratory related post is still on, 
just not on today's post.

*ketawa some more*

today, I wana share this thing that popped up on my compose page just now.




and when I clicked 'Learn More', this pop up




if you malas to read, let me tell you some keywords;
Revive, re-share and spotlight.

turned out the post was made Dec 2015. Like, how are you popping up right now? on 4th Aug 2016?!

and then *BAM! it hit me

YOU STALKER!
you've been reading my blog, didn't you?!

(kan my last posts about me reposting/resharing my old posts) 

hahaha stalker blogspot ani~ creep~

as lovely as that suggestion was, it won't be very productive with my post counts.

So, thank you blogspot for the suggestion but no, thank you.

I got stomachache now,
gotta go!
byeeeeee


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a/n: I've been watching too much youtube vloggers to be making intro and ending like this hahahahahahaahaha (LOL-ing forever)

Girl Power

Hello 
before we proceed with our main topic,
some other 'net' topics worth mentioning;

1. First of May most posted:

"It's gonna be May"

2. Fourth of May most posted:

"May the Fourth be with you"

it's 5th of May now and I know, 'ko terlambat roy~' ^o^

oh well < (^^,) >

So today's choice of topic is 
(wait for it) 
Meghan Trainor.

our power lady is well known for her All About That Bass single.
a song that talks about how it's ok if you have flabby skins on you. you shouldn't be sad about it. not all men love skinny bitches, stick figure barbie doll. and it's ok to tell him to 'move along' if your 'big' size is not his type.
in Brunei my size is kinda normal but the baju yg kena sale here are always Japanese-size small. even the one yg ckp 'free size' is actualy just meant 'free size for all the small-size body'.
for a girl who is not a 'size 2' like myself, this song is like a therapy.

her next song yg I'm attracted to is Lips Are Movin
I don't know what this song really means. Maybe it means she knows his a playa and she was cautious about everything that he said to her.
this song reminds me of a certain 'org gila' who broke my heart and make the skeptic that I am today towards sweet-talker guy.

next song: Dear Future Husband.
this song is like a letter to the future husband listing down things on what he should do, what he should know about the future wife, and how the things that she wants are pretty simple.
this song makes me realize that it's ok to demand things from your future husband. I think what caught into liking this song is that part when she sang 'I never learn to cook'  ^o^
hahaha 
if a guy is allowed to list down what his 'ideal' wife should be like, than a lady can do it too.

the last and final song about this power lady; NO



the songs talk about getting a man is not a priority and it's ok to say NO.
Know what you want, when you want it and when you don't.


Now, after elaborating the meaning of selected songs of Ms Trainor,
I'm going to talk about why this particular topic is made today.

a local radio DJ was introducing this song when it made to his Top20 chart one weekend.
He was introducing her song alright but towards the end, he was talking shit.
He said something about Trainor being an 'attention seeker' with her choice of words in her lyrics even from her previous top hit songs. 
So, I'm guessing, he's not too happy when Trainor:
1. dissing skinny people, 2. dissing a playa not being faithful, 3. demanding too much out of her future husband.
hmmm...
You know I over think on a lot of things and you bet I have something to say about this DJ.
He's probably the kind who is against women being in control, who know what they want, and not afraid to speak up their mind. 
Ok, maybe 'against' is a strong word but the way he said it during that time, he made it sound like what Trainor said in her song is wrong.
So, what? Trainor should be like the rest of the other female singer yg sang about being submissive towards men? is that it?
my goodness, what era is he in? 
if this is not what he meant then he's the one yg attention seeking on air. 
or maybe I'm just pissed at how very nonconstructive his criticism was. I just taught being a DJ, you're supposed to be neutral or something that even when you're about to judge people, you need to be constructive with your words. tsk
I used to love his show (coz it plays all the latest songs mostly) but becoz of his stupid comment, I don't even like it when I heard his voice doing an 'iklan'

damn!
I'm not even a fanatic of Meghan Trainor to be making such long post.
I just love her songs.

do your homework before you go to work, man! don't just sprout hateful things like that. seriously. 
there's a different between attention seeking and inspirational.

Meghan Trainor is inspirational.

and you, mister DJ, you're the kind of person she made the song about.

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This is Me

I've been trying to post something positive or something kpop but it's kinda hard, especially when your real life (outside this virtual world) is soooo negative.

ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ

I should mention that I am trying not to be so negative, not to be angry all the time and most importantly, trying not to lose myself.

It has been pointed out to me that I wasn't the same person as I was before. 

hmm...

Initially, I was shocked and upset finding that out coz it sounded like a bad thing coming out from the 'pointer's' mouth.
but being me, I over think it. 
Of course I'm not the same person as I was before!
I'm a living thing, I evolve!
Egg.

I guess the pointer only meant that I no longer follow their wishes.
Before, I used to just do what I was told coz I was afraid of being 'frown upon' which ended up me being bullied into doing other people's job too.
but now that I built up my own confidence, I questioned everything before I do what I was told to do.

It has also been pointed out to me that I've been watched and turned out, I have quite the temper.

Surprise.

They told me that I have an attitude problem. they even put that on my appraisal.

Lovely.

I wanted to be honest and say that I don't have an attitude problem but God knows I do, so, yeah, I have an attitude problem. 
the question is, why? Coz if they've been watching me, they should know that I don't just act up out of no where.

They asked me all the right questions plang but what really ticked me off is that they already know the answer but still want me to say it out loud.
Not that I have any problem on speaking my mind out loud, i just thought that it isn't fair that I'm being singled out and be the bad person alone.
Since they already know the real problem, why not address the 'problem' instead of trying to 'fix' my attitude because of that problem? 
I am channeling Ginny right now and will call this Problem, from today onward, Phlegm.

Seriously, when I'm not focusing on these silliness, I'm ok. my temper only raises when I think about it.
So, I'm gonna leave this here and hoping someone from the office will read this and do something about it.
Yes, issue dari office. 
hahahah
So much for being discreet.
my foot.

Anyway, they said they've been watching me kan? They should also see that temper-mental or not, I still do my job well. Not excellent but at least still exceed their expectation. 
but being the bias person that they are, I'm sure they didn't see that good side of me, only the bad one for them to use against me.

and to that I say,

☉▵☉凸

and have a nice life.

my ability to 'lead' was also brought into question. and all I can think about right now is Dumbledore.
Just because we don't hold higher position, that doesn't mean that we are not right.

I remember saying, "maybe they had forgotten what it was like down here" not exactly in that words but same meaning.

sigh.

I know it's time to go. It's not even worth it anymore.

Comments

 

People are complaining about Key not having so many lines in SHINee songs
but people forgot about Minho.

Minho been given lesser than Key, I think. Coz Minho mostly just rap while Key both rap AND sing in one song. So, Locket should complaint less.

anyway, ever since their Japanese debut, I feel like everybody in SHINee were given lines equally. Let's not argue about Onew and Jonghyun having more lines now coz lets face it, they are the main vocals of the group.

A/N: I love Key's voice though. don't get me wrong. HECK I LOVE SHINee AS A WHOLE! SO SHUT IT! 

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4 things I hate

(the ones yg i can think of right now)

1. EMPTY DEBATES (I've hated this for ages!).
it's when people starts debating about something they don't know about. or when they only have very small knowledge about. or when their knowledge of the said matter matter is only from back in dinosaur era. 
I am not that smart nor am I that knowledgeable about all matters but at least I won't fight/debate empty.

2. touching/holding Gadgets during meal time/outing.
I hate it. masa ani tah tani kan share those knowledge about life so you wont have to debate empty, share opinions that matters, or just to really listen to our beloved. believe me, you wont die when you just put your phone away. 

3. Barang damit, jadi basar.
I mean, come on. something so patty and you make it that big of a deal? how patty are you? sadang sadang dude!

4. Becali inda betempat.
I understand jokes and I admire people with the sense of humor. BUT mun time serious pun kn beibun, baik tah. Know your time and place.


A/N: I know. two personal post in such a short time? it must be that time of the month. LOL
or maybe human being just pissed me off easy.

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Really?

Did you ever get told off for not wanting to go to a Wedding functions?

I did.

and I often said to my mom, 'Bukannya drg kenal aku punn'.
and my mom would be all, 'pasal kamu jarang mengaga urg' and bla bla bla..

-.-

I am confident to say that among my siblings, I'm the only one yg selalu ikut functions.  but ironically, people only ever remembered my older sister and sometimes my older brother. Mcm, hellew~ masa anak mu number (ke berapa kh?) kawin, aku ganya yg mama ku bawa? nama ku Ajeerah. anak no. 3? ring any bell?

So, I don't get it.

I dun think the concept is right anyway; 'krg kamu kawin nada urg mengaga' if we inda mengaga urg kawin.

because, for example, my sister. She hardly ever go to any wedding functions in her life but during her wedding, bukan lagi panuh kem, sampai inda kan cukup bah kem/tempat duduk/makanan.

So, I think, it's not the anak yg kana count when it comes to attending wedding functions. it's actually our parents.
My mom rajin mengaga urang kawin ani. I'm pretty sure pasal atu ramai urg membalas balik during cKaka tu kawin.

therefore, can I be excuse from attending anymore weddings?

I don't like it.

esp when people started going on about 'Ko bila lagi?' -.-

Honestly, I am fine being single. why do you have to make it look bad that aku balum kawin lagi?

Don't give me bullshit about not having a topic for a conversation. there are plenty of topics to choose from. kenapa mesti 'Ko bila lagi'?

Really, one of these days, I'm gonna start that 'Kita bila lagi?' at a funeral. ahahahaha  See how they'll feel about it.

. . .

the one thing!

went to Miri this morning with ma Sister and brah in Law

and when I was unwrapping things back home, I realized I didn't buy one of the things that I was supposed to buy; baju utk annual dinner this coming 8th Feb.

a.k.a.

 

-.-

I guess I'll just have to make use of the baju that I already have.

or I'll just buy them here in Brunei. wawawawa

A/N: I feel 'kabak2' splurging my money like that. but it's been a while since I done that, so, I guess, it's ok to do it once in a while. ;)

. . .

was I harsh?

Hey there.
yeah, it's me again.

Today, I've decided to put my plan into action; Removing photos of me from FB. esp the ones yg I'm not wearing tudung.

I even asked my closest of friends to do it on their accounts too. I mean, I can't remove them pictures if I'm not the one who uploaded them.

Of course, most people are supportive and reacted instantly. while, others, nyeh.

I think I hurt someone today and I can't even explain to them 'why'.

I mean, I can. but I don't know eh.

when I said 'esp the ones yg aku inda betudung', does that not make sense? can't you figure out why I want them remove? It's nothing to do with you or against you, it's about me. and tani sama2 Islam, inda kan inda teklik? especially when you treat FB like your everyday newspaper. Inda kan inda membaca post2 urg pasal agama atu?

Sigh. it upsets me that people thought I just want those pictures remove because I don't treasure the memories. 
WHAT. ARE. YOU. TALKING. ABOUT.
OF COURSE I DO!

but it's not how much affection you show me on FB that counts! it's how much you show me outside of FB. 

I've said it once and I'm going to say this again, FB tu tempat mengambang saja tu.

and that's why I want them pictures of me not wearing tudung removed.

I know it's a lot of work and a lot of hassle but believe me, this will benefit all of us. 

So, once again, THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE! I LOVE YOU! and sorry if I made you do some mini scavenger hunting today. kekeke I really appreciate this! A LOT!

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Keep Calm moment

So there was this news about Onew giving the middle finger on some radio show (kan selalunya ada rakaman video jua time radio show ani) and it was caught on camera. 

[I chose that picture  because; 1) it shows both the middle finger n Onew and 2) Onew's face. SO CUTE! lol!]

It was probably unintentionally (as in for it to be caught on camera) but people a.k.a. netizens were making such a big fuss about it.

my initial reaction when i saw the article from allkpop? Yawah?? *clicked on the link and read the article*

-___- Pikir ku tah apa. I mean, come on. I tot mcm over vulgarity kh apa kh. rupanya cematu saja. So? He's only human what?

and then, cZawir mentioned aku arah Twitter about that article and I went, "So what leh? I do it all the time .l."

LOL. believe me, he taught me that. he even have that t(-_-t) going on. 

and I tweeted some more after reading them comments:

that news had gone out of proportion for no apparent reason at all. and he wasn't the first!

dammmmiiittt!

but. yeah, I was ok. I mean, come on. 


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