Having a Guy Friend

I used to have a couple more guy friends (other than my old classmates from high school) through out the years.

but now, noted the 'used to'? 
Yeah
I didn't type that wrong.

I distanced myself from them because they have a girlfriend and she is jealous AF.
or as some Bruneian love to say, "Penjeles Kan Mati".

I understand pulang. I understand how they feel. Aku kan perempuan jua.
But I hope these 'ladies' also understand the reason I stayed away was because aku menjaga hati durang supaya inda 'continue' kan jeles-jeles lagi. 
Not because i Have feelings for your boyfriend.
I am usually a neutral person, yg when a guy friend ada girlfriend and he brings her to our group outing, I usually treat her like she's one of us too. 
but these ladies usually maintain a cool facade and i think i'm not that dumb to not take a hint. like, awu, boyfriend mu, ambil chia~~

Now these couples are married and I think I was blocked from the guys' IGs too. 

I just feel sorry that our friendship ended that way.

But seriously guys, it's not you, it's your wife.

hahaha

take a chill pill.

Maybe it's because aku single kali. maybe I, somehow, mengeluarkan aura 'desperate' for a husband or something that makes them think that I'm after their partners.

Are you for real?

Yes, of course I wana get married too and have a husband but woman, I am not that desperate. Banyak lagi lelaki Korea for me to pick from; example, SHINee has 5 member I could choose out from. *ketawa gulik-gulik pasal pakai example lelaki Korea*

So, to my other guy friends yg girlfriends durang are my another extension of friends, you guys punya girlfriends are the awesome-st kerana memahami erti persahabatan (or dalam bahasa Inggeris nya: for understanding the meaning of friendship).

and just a little foot note: When I like a guy (like a crush or something), I can hardly utter a single word in front of him. So, if you see/hear me chatting away lively and/or enthusiastically, that is not it.

to those who think that this post is somewhat insensitive and thought "She's single. She doesn't know what she's talking about. Wait till she's in their shoes" well, maybe you are right. but why don't you give it a thought or two; how do you live with such insecurities? how do you live without trust? If that was the case, shouldn't you be single?

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See this hunk?

Yeah, it's him I want.

You and your protective ass can chill.

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Not hating. Just stating.

nothing annoys me more in the world.
like, keep your insecurity to yourselves.
or at least, if you can't, go to the people who would like to humor you by saying something that you wanna hear.
coz I certainly won't be humoring you.

Just so you know.

cr: as shown in the water marks. I'm just sharing this awesome creations. thanks to the respective owner. :)


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the IN thing

So, there's this IN thing right now; the easy peel nail polish. not sure if it's the brand but the stickers had MY MALAEKA on it.

(the morning after I applied the nail polish)

I was intrigued and bought one too.
It was easy to peel off alright.

(easy peel like everyone was saying)

It's just ...it cost me BND6. for 8ml. like, WTF?!

even SilkyGirl's, SkinFood's, Etude's, FaceShop's, and Holika's nail polishes cost me less than BND5/BND7 each and they're more than 11ml each! like WTH?!

the fact that this easy peel off nail polish couldn't even last a day (becoz the polish is glue-like, it peeled itself slowly as I made constant contact with water) tick me off. 

 (almost half the day gone and it peels off on its own at the edge)

to me, nail polish are supposed to last longer. they are meant to stay longer. Not that I wear mine often but when I do, i like them to stay at least two days after application (coz normally I got bored after two days and removed them off via nail polish remover).

what become of my nails when i peeled them nail polish off?

dry-looking and scarred, like the nail polish peeled off a thin layer of nails too. 
I don't like it. 

I know the nail polish remover isn't that great either but at least it doesn't make my nails looked like they've been scraped.

I was just disappointed with this product. Not worth my $6 and it's very small. the phrase "untuk main-main" ticked me off even further.
I know why it was the IN thing now; for muslims women who bought this, they just find it convenient. they could easily peel the nail polish off before prayer. and re-applying them again afterwards. peel off again for the next prayer. re-applying. peel off. re-applying. 
Macam, why make life so hard? Why not do what I do; using it during 'the time of the month' saja? Easy. applied once, then remove them three four days later? instead of applying-peel off-redo-ing every few hours. a day? 
why not?

a/n: sorry for the horror of my dry/ugly-looking/nails/cuticles. hahaha sedang mencuba untuk merajinkan diri memakai lotion. :P

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Wait till you're a lot older

This is a random rage post.

there was a post on IG (a  Kpop confession acct) 

and I agreed to it.

then some kid decided to give some of us (who agreed to the confessor) a piece of his/her mind.

So, I got angry. I know I shouldn't be. I should've have known better and let it go or shit. but I think I'm gona post a piece of MY mind here. In my blog. 

" The thing is, I've been obsessed with a boyband before and I know it feels like 'this love is real' right now but trust me 'girls', it is not. It'll die down and you will realize just how stupid you are ..one day. when you're older. and wiser (hopefully). and you'll be too embarrass to admit your stupidity and laugh it off. Dismissively denying shit when everybody (I mean EVERYBODY) seen you being stupid. *scoff* *rolled eyes* puhlease...
Then when you realized that I was right, you'd be like 'BAHAHAHAH! SO TRUE!' "

I know what she commented back to us got nothing to do with what I just typed above but you know what I mean right? No? Ok. read below.

THE POINT IS! I'm not homophobic!  

maybe I am but that's my religious point of view and there's nothing you can do about it. 
I have guy friends who are gay but I'm not like disgusted with them. I am still very much close with them. I just don't disagree nor do i encourage them about it. I have my own beliefs. *giving you the incredulous look*

my reply to that girl was 'Thanks. To each their own, yeah?'
and she responded back by saying, 'Hmm? what?!'

-.-

I just assumed she wasn't English.
and that was when I decided to make this post.

Like the confessor said, we were just disgusted that someone would actually post a Photoshopped images like that.

Why make such a big deal out of it?

OR MAYBE this sk.jongsuk person IS gay or bi or lesbian or transgendered or anything. that's why this post and its comments offended him/her so. Defensive ya di sana atu.
No artists asked you to defend them, so just chill, ok? 
If you believe that we're in the Era, and I quote 'where a lot of people are gay or bi now so learn to deal with it', you should first learn that there are still millions other people millons different views from you. Coz, sweetheart, if you can't be open-minded about other people having different views from you, then, i think, you should just ... *whispers* stay out of the debate club. 
or at least, get to know where you really stand before you argue your case.

TO EACH THEIR OWN! 

I know I'm being childish posting this up but I just wana let it out of my system.

sigh. just wait till you're a lot older (and hopefully wiser too) then you will understand what my rage is all about. 

you're supposed to laugh at comments that are stupid and don't suits you! not make it personal and start an internet war or something. why waste your time like that?! Go study or something!! Jeep!

a/n: I'm an adult and I am allowed to waste my time on the net like this. 

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I know I should be posting my Day 3. I do that one on the next post :D

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4 things I hate

(the ones yg i can think of right now)

1. EMPTY DEBATES (I've hated this for ages!).
it's when people starts debating about something they don't know about. or when they only have very small knowledge about. or when their knowledge of the said matter matter is only from back in dinosaur era. 
I am not that smart nor am I that knowledgeable about all matters but at least I won't fight/debate empty.

2. touching/holding Gadgets during meal time/outing.
I hate it. masa ani tah tani kan share those knowledge about life so you wont have to debate empty, share opinions that matters, or just to really listen to our beloved. believe me, you wont die when you just put your phone away. 

3. Barang damit, jadi basar.
I mean, come on. something so patty and you make it that big of a deal? how patty are you? sadang sadang dude!

4. Becali inda betempat.
I understand jokes and I admire people with the sense of humor. BUT mun time serious pun kn beibun, baik tah. Know your time and place.


A/N: I know. two personal post in such a short time? it must be that time of the month. LOL
or maybe human being just pissed me off easy.

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Family my foot.

I was at a family function a couple of weeks ago
and I noticed/realised a lot of things.

• their sister-in-laws were treating us like what.
• the younger cousins were doing it too.
• the cousins, of course, lagi dashyat.

People are just prone to be a blind judge.

I mean, what ever happened in the past had nothing to do with me, or you. it's our parents disputes.

So, what the hell are we doing?

Mom always drag me to 'these' cousins functions because the adults are 'all over it' (so they say). but they'd forgotten what they had done to the next generation of cousins.

I would've act neutral if they would. but everytime I set my mind to be neutral, smiling and greet people politely, they always ended up like a fucktard bitch. EVEN the men/guys/boys.

LIKE SERIOUSLY WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?!

and my mom wondered why I never wanted to go?

Mom knew of course, or knew just a little and often telling me off when I got mad. she said, 'tani jangan tah ikut2an bejahat. Mun inda, sama tah tani jua macam drg tu'.
*rolled eyes*
Tau plang ku. ganya, I'm still just human and a human can only stand to a certain limit.

and My way of not bad mouthing them is TO NOT see them. EVER.
the less I see the lot of them , the better I feel. the less I 'mengumpat'. the less I 'sakit hati'.

I know they're not all like that. they are VERY nice people too. just not much.

and it's just THAT side of that family. always.

I don't know what their problem is.

all I'm asking is, just, GET OVER YOURSELVES. THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND YOU. 

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the world is not split into good people and Death Eaters - Sirius Black.

Sigh of relief?

was it really a sigh of relief?

Like, really?

this is like, 2007/8 all over again.

Lesson Learned tah apa dsana atu.

hahahah

I'm SO STUUUPIIIITTTTT! *hit face*

took me that long to finally see it??

You're so stupid, Az.

Just.

sigh! 

but at least I can really get over him now.



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