2026, in search of Happiness. If it means enjoying every little trinkets and stationery on the daily, then so be it. Coz temporary happiness, is still happiness.
If Nicole Kidman and Robbie William said Something Stupid is by saying I Love You, you might be in for a surprise in this story of mine. a person said (about me), "She so stuck-up now becoz her loan just approved" as in the money I loan from the bank has been released. This is not even a recent story. This was said (about me) like two three years ago. I only finding out now. Of course my reaction was utter shock. Like, dumbfounded, even.
One question, how does your mind works?? Duit dari loan atu is nothing for me to be proud of. I am currently still paying back the bank for it. Who on their right mind be proud of having a loan? (what's hutang in English?) (Google translate please) (Hutang = Debt) WHO IS HAPPY HAVING DEBTS?!
MY GOODNESS! Point of the story: 1. she be trippin 2. No, it's not about my loan that I treated you badly 3. I just don't like you HAHAHAHA
here's a quote I once shared on IG
Some people still need some growing up to do. sigh.
I'm sure I've mentioned it at a hundred times before that I write fictions, right?
there was one time when a friend complaint to me and she said, "cBryan saja jua eh! nada lelaki lain kh?".
I was gobsmacked and ashamed
but it didn't stop me from continuing to use 'Brian' as the main male lead in my story. ┏(＾0＾)┛┗(＾0＾) ┓
Moving on~
Yesterday, when I was on my way home, as I changed the radio channel,
I heard Uptown Girl was playing.
but it was almost finished and I whined for changing the channel a little too late.
but another Westlife song was playing after that and from just the intro, I started fangirling; squealing like I have never heard the song playing on my iphone/laptop before.
the song was Something Right. the radio station was having some double request segment of some kind.
It maybe a 'sekadar' moment for you
but listening to ANY Westlife song kena play on air is such a nostalgic moment for me.
to cut things short; Westlife is such a big part of me growing up, its bittersweet listening to someone playing/listening to their song without me asking them to. T.T
Anyhoo
how about I share with you guys the awesome-est live video concert for Uptown Girl
the best live performance for this song, in my opinion.
lets clap and sing-a-long !!
I'm not Swedish but I wish I was everytime I see this. ＼（＾○＾）δΊΊ（＾○＾）／
I wanted to apologize to people that I annoyed during my Westlife phase
but you should know: I was happy with my obsession (yes, I use the word obsess coz thats what I was back then)
and every time rakan2 sebaya point out my obsession to me during a meet up or a gathering, I felt such pride in that. I don't know how else to explain my feelings but I was proud of who I was back then (with my obsession towards Westlife sahaja. not the other things)
at least when people hear Westlife, they thought of their 'crazy obsess' friend, Az Nuur. (¬‿¬)
It's been ages since I last seen my hotmail via laptop/website. and today, because of some emailing issue, I ended up using the website version of hotmail using my laptop. boy was I surprised and confused. I'm not some IT savvy person and anything i did manage to do on the internet are mostly basic. I mean, REALLY fcking basic. (eg, this blog design. I used Templates!) So, when hotmail kept asking me to send a 'security code' to 'purple.and.lime@hotmail.com' mail, I was like, "Oh, 'purple and lime' ani sample email kali". It's not. it hits me, after several tries, that I OWNED purple.and.lime@hotmail.com! I don't remember why I made it. probably out of 'sakai-ness'. you know, since at that time, making a hotmail account is so darn easy. maybe. I don't know. seriously, I have no idea! and then when I tried to change it, came out another email address that reads 'pu****@hotmail.com' (Yes, cematu kana buat.. I don't know kana censored kh apa kh.. I know, what the hell right?) I'm so confused! why on earth did I make this weird hotmail accounts?! but luckily, after a few more headaches figuring out this 'Outlook', I managed to get thru all the securities and updated it. Once that's done, I decided to clean my inbox. clearly i didn't 'clean' much using my phone (coz usually, I open my mail and delete everything). and along the way, I unsubscribe to this hmv newsletter (again, wtf face). When? How? Why? I unsubscribe to any update from my youtube account too. and here's the bizarre one; Twitter account. i was on my way to disable my email notification when it asked me to log in and when I did, a message came out saying 'there is a suspicious activity going on' and it asked for some security questions. then aku realized yg the display pic wasn't mine and I was hit the second time. I've changed (via my phone) my username from Vengeance to AjeerahAwang a while back. the funny thing is, why it let me thru in the beginning when I keyed in Vengeance with my current password? I refreshed the page and keyed in the correct account name and password and everything went back to normal. Lucky we didn't panic - Ronald Weasley, Philosopher's Stone. this whole thing is such a nerve wrecking experience! I know, I know. to some, this might be something of small matter. but for me, it is such a big matter. maybe because, I still love my hotmail ID. it's childish, yes, but it holds a lot of memories that are sooooo me, made by me, for me. I don't know how else to explain it but I wish to hold on to something that is me 10-15 years ago coz it feels like I'm losing me these days. . . . ENOUGH WITH SOPPY THINGS! on a brighter note, Pottermore Sorting is back!! and I'm still a proud Badger! Hufflepuff - Where They Are Just and Loyal! I will try and tell you all about it some other time. I know I still owe you guys the story behind my DIY phonecase too. xD until next time! . . .
I've been trying to post something positive or something kpop but it's kinda hard, especially when your real life (outside this virtual world) is soooo negative. α(́◉◞ΰ±ͺ◟◉‵α I should mention that I am trying not to be so negative, not to be angry all the time and most importantly, trying not to lose myself. It has been pointed out to me that I wasn't the same person as I was before. hmm... Initially, I was shocked and upset finding that out coz it sounded like a bad thing coming out from the 'pointer's' mouth. but being me, I over think it. Of course I'm not the same person as I was before! I'm a living thing, I evolve! Egg. I guess the pointer only meant that I no longer follow their wishes. Before, I used to just do what I was told coz I was afraid of being 'frown upon' which ended up me being bullied into doing other people's job too. but now that I built up my own confidence, I questioned everything before I do what I was told to do. It has also been pointed out to me that I've been watched and turned out, I have quite the temper. Surprise. They told me that I have an attitude problem. they even put that on my appraisal. Lovely. I wanted to be honest and say that I don't have an attitude problem but God knows I do, so, yeah, I have an attitude problem. the question is, why? Coz if they've been watching me, they should know that I don't just act up out of no where. They asked me all the right questions plang but what really ticked me off is that they already know the answer but still want me to say it out loud. Not that I have any problem on speaking my mind out loud, i just thought that it isn't fair that I'm being singled out and be the bad person alone. Since they already know the real problem, why not address the 'problem' instead of trying to 'fix' my attitude because of that problem? I am channeling Ginny right now and will call this Problem, from today onward, Phlegm. Seriously, when I'm not focusing on these silliness, I'm ok. my temper only raises when I think about it. So, I'm gonna leave this here and hoping someone from the office will read this and do something about it. Yes, issue dari office. hahahah So much for being discreet. my foot. Anyway, they said they've been watching me kan? They should also see that temper-mental or not, I still do my job well. Not excellent but at least still exceed their expectation. but being the bias person that they are, I'm sure they didn't see that good side of me, only the bad one for them to use against me. and to that I say, ☉▵☉εΈ and have a nice life. my ability to 'lead' was also brought into question. and all I can think about right now is Dumbledore. Just because we don't hold higher position, that doesn't mean that we are not right. I remember saying, "maybe they had forgotten what it was like down here" not exactly in that words but same meaning. sigh. I know it's time to go. It's not even worth it anymore.
I didn't quite understand the magnitude of my (Hannah Montana) obsession until I realize I have every Hannah Montana songs ever existed. LOL I saw a post quoting a Hannah Montana song and I could sang the chorus in my head. You know that feeling you have when you could sing and hear it in your head and your heart just sort of 'itchy' to listen to the song? I had that feeling at that time. So, here I am, listening to my Hannah Montana songs collection. I don't know how I got so hooked to that TV show. I was 18/19 years old when the show first aired in 2006 and the Hannah Montana character was like 13/14 of age? Maybe I just love the idea of a singer living a double life that sort of thing. hahaha as people who knew me should know that I've always wanted to be a singer. you know, making a living as a singer. (hahaha kata Hasrin, angan-angan atu free) Besides, the songs were/are pretty catchy and, well, basically my style. xD Anyway, right now I am rocking to this song
Rockstar!! a/n: Firefox Mozilla was being an ass and now I am using Google Chrome. still tyring to get use to this layout. . . .
you know how I got myself the 'Wreck This Journal' journal?
one of the things it asked me to do is to paste all the stamp I got in my entire life.
So, I went gathering all my received Stamps and found out I only have a few. *sad face* I always thought I have A LOT.
then, I realized, I received more of by-hand-birthday-card than by-mail-hari-raya-card.
these are the ones I got since I was 16th. It was nice and always so nice to receive a birthday card. it maybe cheap but the thoughts are just, tidak terkira! so thank you friends and families who thought of me a lot on my birthday! jeongmal gomawo! I will treasure this as long as I can. ;)
I was at a family function a couple of weeks ago
and I noticed/realised a lot of things.
their sister-in-laws were treating us like what.
the younger cousins were doing it too.
the cousins, of course, lagi dashyat.
People are just prone to be a blind judge.
I mean, what ever happened in the past had nothing to do with me, or you. it's our parents disputes.
So, what the hell are we doing?
Mom always drag me to 'these' cousins functions because the adults are 'all over it' (so they say). but they'd forgotten what they had done to the next generation of cousins.
I would've act neutral if they would. but everytime I set my mind to be neutral, smiling and greet people politely, they always ended up like a fucktard bitch. EVEN the men/guys/boys.
LIKE SERIOUSLY WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?!
and my mom wondered why I never wanted to go?
Mom knew of course, or knew just a little and often telling me off when I got mad. she said, 'tani jangan tah ikut2an bejahat. Mun inda, sama tah tani jua macam drg tu'.
*rolled eyes*
Tau plang ku. ganya, I'm still just human and a human can only stand to a certain limit.
and My way of not bad mouthing them is TO NOT see them. EVER.
the less I see the lot of them , the better I feel. the less I 'mengumpat'. the less I 'sakit hati'.
I know they're not all like that. they are VERY nice people too. just not much.
and it's just THAT side of that family. always.
I don't know what their problem is.
all I'm asking is, just, GET OVER YOURSELVES. THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND YOU.
. . .
the world is not split into good people and Death Eaters - Sirius Black.
Hellewww.. since I'm having the so called *air quote*writer's block*air quote*, I have a sudden interest in editing pictures. No, not that I've done many, in fact, I have done none. Why? Coz I've forgotten how to use my Adobe Photoshop. wawawa I remembered, years ago, that I can do it. Maybe because of the age factor (plus, Malas Factor) and I haven't done anything of the related, yatah kali aku lupa atu. ahaha or maybe I should update my software? there's that thing that keep on popping up, asking me to update a certain application or whatever. atu kali..hmm.. I'll give it another try sometime soon. but if I continued to face some more difficulties, Google will be my last hope for a tutor. (LOL mcm apa saja...)
Yes, you read it right. SHINee will be making their Japanese comeback soon too, on March 13th. kira back to back lah ni ah comeback durang ani. maju bisnes. ahaha am looking forward to this also. I guess I'll be seeing them alot this year. xD SHINee hwaiting!!
yes! SHINee's making a comeback on 19th Feb. AND I SO CAN'T WAIT! It will be their third full album. first single would be called 'Dream Girl'. (what's with these title? SHINee Girl, Dazzling Girl and now, Dream Girl?) they have released teaser photos of each members. a definite mcDreamy-ness. especially my Onew. xD
are the Shawols ready??
I'm mostly looking forward to the digital release on the 19th Feb. kekeke cr: as stamped on each photos. ;D
