Something Stupid

If Nicole Kidman and Robbie William said Something Stupid is by saying I Love You,

you might be in for a surprise in this story of mine.


a person said (about me), "She so stuck-up now becoz her loan just approved" as in the money I loan from the bank has been released.

This is not even a recent story. 
This was said (about me) like two three years ago. 
I only finding out now.

Of course my reaction was utter shock. Like, dumbfounded, even.

as posted on my IG,

So, I made this into a loop. Coz I found out something so stupid yesterday. Something so stupid I cant stop saying how stupid it is. 🤣 #icant

A post shared by Ajeerah Awang 🇧🇳 (@zeevengeance) on Jun 28, 2018 at 12:59pm PDT

One question, how does your mind works??

Duit dari loan atu is nothing for me to be proud of. I am currently still paying back the bank for it. Who on their right mind be proud of having a loan? (what's hutang in English?) (Google translate please) (Hutang = Debt) WHO IS HAPPY HAVING DEBTS?!

MY GOODNESS!

Point of the story:

1. she be trippin
2. No, it's not about my loan that I treated you badly
3. I just don't like you


HAHAHAHA

here's a quote I once shared on IG

Some people still need some growing up to do. sigh.

. . .

Positivity Vibe

Someone posted/created this in our office's pantry's whiteboard.

my initial reaction?

-.-

because, 

I hate that place.

bahahahah

but when i thought about it again,

at least, one of us still have hope.

One question though,

"Why is she posting her own photo up in the office pantry?" (bottom left corner)

0_o

vain much?

LOL


. . .

those sing-a-long songs

for some audit purposes, our office has been radio silent for a while. maybe longer than a while.

Last few days though, someone turned on the radio again, and we've been listening to Brunei's No. 1 radio station, Kristal FM.

I forgot what day this happened but they happened on two separate days.

Now, the radio sound is pretty close to me, like 3 tables away.

So, that day 1, I heard a familiar melody. In my head I was humming along to it, until the chorus came, quite a number of people in the surrounding section sang a long. including myself. not so loud though. Just to ourselves but still other people can hear.

and upon realizing what was happening, we all laughed.

the song was Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On

My heart was happy.

and then, on day 2,

same thing happening again, but this time, the song is more upbeat and people almost sang from the beginning to end. only different was no one laughed at the end. like it was just a normal thing to sing a long in union to a song, during working hour.

IT WAS AN AWESOME DAY! almost

I think it was a stressing day to some that singing a long is the best remedy. :)

the song was Spice Girl -  Wanna Be

✌.ʕʘ‿ʘʔ.✌

music really bring us closer together

unless you are some judgemental wannabes, you can go f*** yourself

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HAPPY 1000TH POST!
FINALLY I MADE IT!

*throws confetti*

Reality

this really happened

Someone was given a bouquet flower at the office

but she didn't want it

rupanya they broke up already

I told her, before she throw the bouquet away, I want to take picture with it

which at the end of the day, I did take picture with.

#shameless#iknow#LOL

and also, we shared the flowers among us (6 people), I took two.

I put them in my Coffee Bean recycled cup.

Moral of the story;

when it's over, it's over.
Jangan tah bagi flower segala.
sayang saja duit
ending nya, the girl will not want the flowers and throw them away
or worst
bagi arah colleagues nya HAHAHAHAH

. . .

This is Me

I've been trying to post something positive or something kpop but it's kinda hard, especially when your real life (outside this virtual world) is soooo negative.

ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ

I should mention that I am trying not to be so negative, not to be angry all the time and most importantly, trying not to lose myself.

It has been pointed out to me that I wasn't the same person as I was before. 

hmm...

Initially, I was shocked and upset finding that out coz it sounded like a bad thing coming out from the 'pointer's' mouth.
but being me, I over think it. 
Of course I'm not the same person as I was before!
I'm a living thing, I evolve!
Egg.

I guess the pointer only meant that I no longer follow their wishes.
Before, I used to just do what I was told coz I was afraid of being 'frown upon' which ended up me being bullied into doing other people's job too.
but now that I built up my own confidence, I questioned everything before I do what I was told to do.

It has also been pointed out to me that I've been watched and turned out, I have quite the temper.

Surprise.

They told me that I have an attitude problem. they even put that on my appraisal.

Lovely.

I wanted to be honest and say that I don't have an attitude problem but God knows I do, so, yeah, I have an attitude problem. 
the question is, why? Coz if they've been watching me, they should know that I don't just act up out of no where.

They asked me all the right questions plang but what really ticked me off is that they already know the answer but still want me to say it out loud.
Not that I have any problem on speaking my mind out loud, i just thought that it isn't fair that I'm being singled out and be the bad person alone.
Since they already know the real problem, why not address the 'problem' instead of trying to 'fix' my attitude because of that problem? 
I am channeling Ginny right now and will call this Problem, from today onward, Phlegm.

Seriously, when I'm not focusing on these silliness, I'm ok. my temper only raises when I think about it.
So, I'm gonna leave this here and hoping someone from the office will read this and do something about it.
Yes, issue dari office. 
hahahah
So much for being discreet.
my foot.

Anyway, they said they've been watching me kan? They should also see that temper-mental or not, I still do my job well. Not excellent but at least still exceed their expectation. 
but being the bias person that they are, I'm sure they didn't see that good side of me, only the bad one for them to use against me.

and to that I say,

☉▵☉凸

and have a nice life.

my ability to 'lead' was also brought into question. and all I can think about right now is Dumbledore.
Just because we don't hold higher position, that doesn't mean that we are not right.

I remember saying, "maybe they had forgotten what it was like down here" not exactly in that words but same meaning.

sigh.

I know it's time to go. It's not even worth it anymore.

Random

1. During lunch time, an attachment student tried and made her point across to me; Part-Time shouldn't be given to the non-permanent staff. I stared at her for a few seconds and "student jua banar ah" and I laughed. I think I broke her spirit. 

I don't mind her debating about the term Part-Time should not be used for the non-permanent staff but meaning can varies. just as 'button' do; keyboard button or shirt button. right? Lucky for her aku malas kan debate also; I could have said to her 'wake up. don't be so lurus bendul. Believe me, you can not apply your text book into real life situation'. 

I hope I don't look like this tadi HAHAHAHA

2. a 'sorta' new guy (a handsome one too) whom I thought was my junior rupanya not really. and he scored A1 for his O level English Language. Like, malu ku. Really, my English sucks being in the same group as him. Reality can be so harsh 

3. a colleague (or two) was somewhat terasa with me. Meaning, they sensed that I don't really like them. Because they always talk so religiously but they always act so not really religiously. Eg whenever I heard her voice, she always talked bad things about others. like, I'm not a saint either but i think I have talked about other stuff too other than badmouthing others. In a way, this colleague inda pernah tah kan becakap baik. like, I am not even exaggerating.

4. as I got older (and become more senior in the office place), I become so bitter. it's depressing to see just how laid back most juniors are and how they have it so easy. 

5. I don't know what I want and where I should go from here. 

My life right now; like falling off a chair.

6. Next trip I wana go to Japan. to visit their Universal Studio. they have Hogwarts there.

7. I. AM. BORED

8. Sleep is a passion.

. . . 

one more GIF before i really end this post

Hmmm

this was taken on the first week of June, by my cheeky supervisor.

she thinks she so funny!

hahaha well, she is pulang. she brings up the fun in the office. I really appreciate her friendship in that hell hole. 

Instead of feeling ugly, I honestly like to think that I still have manners while eating in public.

BAHAHAHAH

I thought selama ani aku makan macam cavemen!

So, cheeky supervisor, thank you for showing the 'groupchat' that I wasn't. 


a/n: hate all you want but my shawl look awesome with our BBB tshirt aaand my awesome orange bag is in that picture too. this picture is perfectionnnnnnn 

. . .

Engage

hahahaha. shockers.

Yesterday, I posted on my FB status something about "engagement". let me share it with you here:

Supervisor: Betunang ko?
Me: . . .
Supervisor: Sama sapa? Urg mana?
Me: . . .
Supervisor: Inda ko menyasal?
Me: 0.0

hahaha and I got like, 6 Likes and 2 Comments on this. and One text in Whatapps.

aku tu kn explain yg it was just some inside joke di office but since I didn't say anything about whether or not aku betunang, ku biar kn lah sja cematu.

heheh sorry to those yg pikir aku betunang. 

ALUM KU BETUNANG. DANGAN KAN BETUNANG PUN HALUM ADA. 

ahahaha

and come on. inda kan aku betunang inda membagitau org2 yg terdekat, kan? well, i did plan kn malas bising2 until kan kawin but that was just what i said before aku betunang. we never know whats gona happen when it actually happen, right? so chillax ebrebodeh. 

hahahaha

but really, I am so sorry. it was supposed to be a funny post. turned out lain plang. I really am sorry for that misunderstanding.

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