I think I annoyed people

not that I'm not annoying on a daily basis,

but

that last KL trip, I think i offend a couple of sales person. :S

I swear I didn't do it on purpose.

I'm just realizing that I tend to speak English when I'm nervous. 

Now, I'm not trying to justify myself after offending people, but hear me out.

Kalau di Brunei, sanang lah, i usually just trying to 'blend in', 'mix with the crowd', 'speak your lingo', etc when I speak to new people. Cakap Brunei is so sanang. coz my language, kan. nervous2 ku pun, I can still talk.

I'm speaking from my experience at the office when we have mix group of people from different departments and branches during Training.

Kalau di luar negeri, macam Miri lah, from experience, selalunya i just ask/answer in English. because in Miri mostly they speak Kucing or English. but of course, sometimes I forgot that I was in Miri, and speak my malay. LOL nasib Miri people are so accustomed to Brunei Malay.

this is why, time di KL I speak English. 

NOT BECAUSE my English is amajing like Prince Mateen's but because I don't know how to speak in bahasa semenanjung (i think it means bahasa melayu KL?). 

I used to, back when I was 13 and had Bahasa Melayu oral exam and I fooled the examiner into thinking that I'm half Malaysian. LOL I am not, Ma'am. pure Bruneian at heart. :P 

point is, I can't. I mean, i blurt it out a few times on that trip but then I got embarrass and stopped.

2 sales person, I notice, looked annoyed, when I speak English with them. Kira macam aku tu inda pandai cakap melayu lah ah. Bukan inda pandai, sis, different accent/dialek. 

Plus I don't want people to know that I'm Bruneian. for safety reason.

For so many years, people had the wrong idea yg we Bruneians are rich people and when we travel, we must have a lot of money on us. So, we got 'mugged' 'tipu' a lot.

That is why, for pre-cautionary measure, when taxi driver asked where we come from, we lie and tell them we are from KK (Kota Kinabalu, Sabah, Malaysia), because some people think we have similar dialek.

So, that is why I speak English. 

1. to stop making myself looking like a fool trying to speak the semananjung dialek

2. to stop myself from being targeted tourist

I think this is why I have anxiety about travelling alone to KL. :S

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Serious question: How do you spell Dialek? LOL

Guilt Post

three guesses why I like this song?

(▰˘◡˘▰)

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Having a Guy Friend

I used to have a couple more guy friends (other than my old classmates from high school) through out the years.

but now, noted the 'used to'? 
Yeah
I didn't type that wrong.

I distanced myself from them because they have a girlfriend and she is jealous AF.
or as some Bruneian love to say, "Penjeles Kan Mati".

I understand pulang. I understand how they feel. Aku kan perempuan jua.
But I hope these 'ladies' also understand the reason I stayed away was because aku menjaga hati durang supaya inda 'continue' kan jeles-jeles lagi. 
Not because i Have feelings for your boyfriend.
I am usually a neutral person, yg when a guy friend ada girlfriend and he brings her to our group outing, I usually treat her like she's one of us too. 
but these ladies usually maintain a cool facade and i think i'm not that dumb to not take a hint. like, awu, boyfriend mu, ambil chia~~

Now these couples are married and I think I was blocked from the guys' IGs too. 

I just feel sorry that our friendship ended that way.

But seriously guys, it's not you, it's your wife.

hahaha

take a chill pill.

Maybe it's because aku single kali. maybe I, somehow, mengeluarkan aura 'desperate' for a husband or something that makes them think that I'm after their partners.

Are you for real?

Yes, of course I wana get married too and have a husband but woman, I am not that desperate. Banyak lagi lelaki Korea for me to pick from; example, SHINee has 5 member I could choose out from. *ketawa gulik-gulik pasal pakai example lelaki Korea*

So, to my other guy friends yg girlfriends durang are my another extension of friends, you guys punya girlfriends are the awesome-st kerana memahami erti persahabatan (or dalam bahasa Inggeris nya: for understanding the meaning of friendship).

and just a little foot note: When I like a guy (like a crush or something), I can hardly utter a single word in front of him. So, if you see/hear me chatting away lively and/or enthusiastically, that is not it.

to those who think that this post is somewhat insensitive and thought "She's single. She doesn't know what she's talking about. Wait till she's in their shoes" well, maybe you are right. but why don't you give it a thought or two; how do you live with such insecurities? how do you live without trust? If that was the case, shouldn't you be single?

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See this hunk?

Yeah, it's him I want.

You and your protective ass can chill.

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Engage

hahahaha. shockers.

Yesterday, I posted on my FB status something about "engagement". let me share it with you here:

Supervisor: Betunang ko?
Me: . . .
Supervisor: Sama sapa? Urg mana?
Me: . . .
Supervisor: Inda ko menyasal?
Me: 0.0

hahaha and I got like, 6 Likes and 2 Comments on this. and One text in Whatapps.

aku tu kn explain yg it was just some inside joke di office but since I didn't say anything about whether or not aku betunang, ku biar kn lah sja cematu.

heheh sorry to those yg pikir aku betunang. 

ALUM KU BETUNANG. DANGAN KAN BETUNANG PUN HALUM ADA. 

ahahaha

and come on. inda kan aku betunang inda membagitau org2 yg terdekat, kan? well, i did plan kn malas bising2 until kan kawin but that was just what i said before aku betunang. we never know whats gona happen when it actually happen, right? so chillax ebrebodeh. 

hahahaha

but really, I am so sorry. it was supposed to be a funny post. turned out lain plang. I really am sorry for that misunderstanding.

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Sorry, Key

a short one.

When I saw this picture of Key, my quick respond was,"WESTLIFE!!" and points at the picture on the wall beside Key.

ahahah tarang mata ku atu ah...

Sorry Key, I know you're cute, handsome and a diva but I see my Westlife there.


A/N: and I'm still not over the idea yg I never got the chance to see Westlife live. *sob*

xD Hi

Hi people.

first off, SELAMAT HARI RAYA! 

I know, it's almost the end of week 2 of Hari Raya and in all honesty, habis dah kami berhari raya disini ni.

but seeing as I have not been posting anything since..well, forever, so might as well greet.

xD

my Hari Raya was hectic. i've been berhari raya-ing the entire first week of Raya (like, there's no next week or something lol) even came close to being scolded for membawa anak dara urg until 2:30++am beraya. ahaha ah well, bulan Raya ni, bulan bermaaf2an jua kn?

Anyhoo...

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

p/s: who ever said that you won't make the same mistake again?

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