September BuJo theme

 Yooo.. I forgot to share my BuJo September theme. 

I mean, I shared di IG plang sudah. eheh but the sharing on this blog must continue~~

I don't think I was in dillema for September's theme; I did some research, nothing was catching my eyes. and when Amanda's posted her video, I thought, yeah, let's recreate her September theme.

it's easy and soooo me! I mean, I grew up in the era when internet was just starting so this theme is a tad bit nostalgic.

put my own little twist to it, with my picture. coz September IS my birth month. and color scheme is love 💜💜💜

I started this page last month. 

Data Balance. I mean, look at the amount of time I spent on the internet! 😅

I think it's a good addition.

oh I should mention, its been a year since I started this BuJo theme thing! yay! can't believe I have been doing this for a year. as in, a year doing a cover theme for the month. I used to just write words and paste some pictures whenever necessary. 

One good thing doing this? Helps finishing my countless number of unused journals/notebooks. When starting this, I have used two journals/notebooks. 😝

So now.

what are we gonna do with October?

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How to upload songs to your iPhone

Hi guys.

Not related but I wanted a good thumbnail LOL

let's thank my nephew for giving me the inspiration to make this post today 25th May (and will be scheduled to post in June 😉). 
I mean, this was not the first time people ask me about how to download songs for their iPhone but today is the first time I thought of doing this.
So, let's start.

but before that,
This guide is for people who didn't want to buy songs via iTunestore app and only wanted to download the "free" one. and we all know we can't just download them directly to our iPhone.
Also, please take note that I'm a window and Google chrome user. My steps may differ for mac users.


Step 1.
You must have a computer or laptop. not to discourage you or anything, but if you have neither, I can't help you.

you might be thinking, "what if I borrow someone else's computer?" ...continue to read below..

Step 2.
Download iTunes for your computer here.

when finished downloading, you should see this on your desktop.

Step 3.
Google and download your songs.
Here's one example of where I download my kpop songs

Of course, you can always Google whatever song you wanted to download. but please, only download from trusted websites and at your own discretion!

Once downloaded, the files should go to your 'Download Folder'. or if you're not sure, you can always check that bottom strip (as pictured)

Step 4.
FINALLY to the iTunes part.
Open your iTunes and it's time to fill you iTunes with songs you already downloaded.
Click, File, then Add Files to Library, pick your songs, and click Open.

Your songs should be seen in the Recently Added tab/folder.

Step 5.
Once all your songs uploaded in your itunes, it's time to upload them to your iPhone!

Connect your iPhone with your computer via USB and your iTunes will automatically connect and began syncing.

CAUTION! if this is your first time connecting your iPhone to your computer and iTunes, there will be a notification pop-up on your iPhone and you need to accept that first or your iPhone will fail to connect.

Step 6.
Once your iTunes finished syncing with your iPhone, you can now check your iPhone's Music app and your songs should all be in there.

and you are done! 👏

When you have more to add, repeat Steps 4 and 5, and then click on your iPhone icon in the iTunes and click Sync. coz if you don't click that Sync, nothing will happen. 
Always remember to click Sync and Apply whenever asked.

To answer the "what if I borrow someone else's computer and iTunes?"
the thing about iPhone that everybody should know by now is that, it can't be duplicate. or it can but it can't be maintain.

Let me explain: 
my iTunes already sync to my iPhone. So, when other iPhone connect to my iTunes, yes, that new iPhone can be sync and have all my existing song lists but the moment that new iPhone have any update, and is updated, everything from my iTunes in that iPhone will be gone. 

ALSO, when that new iPhone sync with my iTunes, that new iPhone will have all my info as well, since my iTunes is my iPhone back up, and we don't want that, do we? 
So, for security reasons, I will never again help people that way (I helped 2 people like this in the past 😐)

in conclusion, if you don't have your own computer for your own iTunes, this is guide is not for you.

but no worries!

they have Spotify now. I have not try it. but you can stream your songs there. I believe it uses data? I'm not sure. Check it out here.

I'm sure there are of other ways to listen to songs. You just have to Google it. Make Google your bestfriend! 😂

I hope this guide is simple enough for beginners but if it's not so, you can always comment below and I will try to help you some more 😉

Until next time,

Ja ne~~

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Aging like a fine wine?

Hi guys!

first of, Happy 11th Anniversary to SHINee 🎉🎉🎉

second of all, in light of anniversary topic, I decided to discuss something related to how I'm aging. since you know, anniversary means another year past and another year you're growing older.

I went window shopping with my mom last week at Rimba Point. My mom wanted to check some ready made baju for Raya.
As we walked around, we came across a socks stall. I never knew that I was but I. LOVE. SOCKS. especially the cute printed ones. and you wouldn't believe how the socks game had been stepping up these past few years! *cough* kpop *cough*
the pricing is 1 for $5 and 3 for $12.
My mom got interested and I asked her to pick which one she likes as I went and choose mine. Ten guesses which one I choose.

I picked the one with the fries print first and my mom was, "inda kan katun". I stopped for a minute and replied, "why not?" while in my head I was thinking, what's wrong with picking such cute socks? they're just socks and no one really sees them. Is she calling me out for picking a socks that is not my age appropriate? Yes, I was so defensive by her comment.
but soon after that, I thought, maybe she thought i was picking a socks for her. LOL No, mam. this cute socks is for me. since, you know, 3 for $12.

From the above story, I was reminded of a story not too long time ago.

I was going out with c Zawir and he somewhat say the same thing, "macam kanak-kanak" in regards to a fashion choice I made. We were window shopping too at that time. I think.
I forgot what it was but I remember thinking, "so my outfit today is childish lah" or something along the line "I'm not dressing according to my age?"

Hmmm..i think it was about a shoe pick. I really could not remember.

So,

I'm 31, becoming 32 this year.

it's not like I don't want to dress my age or appropriate to my age but

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WORK IT TOOK TO DRESS DECENT?

I mean, i do try to dress nicely for work. Yes, I prefer wearing pants most of the time coz they make me feel skinnier than I actually am LOL.

but for weekends? I prefer to dress comfortably.

As far as I know, I do dress appropriately. I mean, have you seen these famos women? 

they are definitely much older than me and you're telling me I can't rock my dope white shoes?

What do you think? too much?

I mean, i feel like it is too much since I don't wear that on a daily basis. LOL but look at me, don't I owned that look?!

Hmmm..I don't know. I think my feelings got hurt. Not because people criticize my fashion choice but because people criticize my fashion choice.
you feel me?
I mentioned this a lot, everybody is different.
Yeah~ I did judged the two women every time I came across their IG post on my explore page wearing something "cool" but soon after, I would be thinking, "if a 'mom' can pull that off amazingly, I most definitely can too", you know, turned that negative judging ass of mine into a positive motivational thing instead.

Lagipun, what is age appropriate outfit for my age?
Am I not supposed to wear "cool" outfit?
or is it my size? That a size like me shouldn't be wearing that kind of outfit?
Is wearing a concert merchandise sweater not age appropriate?
Is wearing colorful socks not age appropriate? in what way?

Besides (this is just another way of saying 'Lagipun' without being repetitive LOL!), I'm 31 going 32. I'm not that old.

and I one hundo persen (100%) refused to dress like I'm an old lady.
why?
Because you only as old as you feel.
and I'm don't feel like I'm old yet.

True, I realized that I am growing old whenever I feel sleepy at an unappropriated time. coz apparently getting to bed early is an age factor.
but still, I don't feel like I'm 60 years old and must dress like a grandma.

As unfashionable as I am, I do want to dress 'my age'; whatever that means to other people. To me, as long as I don't show my gummy tummy, or fried chicken thigh, I'm all good. and I try so hard not to dress like a mom. coz I am not a mom yet.

WHY WOULD I WANT TO DRESS LIKE I'M OLD ANYWAYS?!

Even a mom dress more nicer than me.

GASP! A thought just hit me!

IS MY FASHION CHOICE UNFLATTERING TO ME?! ARE YOU SAYING MY FASHION CHOICE IS UGLY?!

OMFG!

i'm ugly.

ok, wait. calm the fuck down.

I still think I dress decent. My choices are fine. If in the eye of other people my outfit "look too young" for "my old face" then, that's their opinion. as far as I'm concerned, I've dressed myself appropriately.

So, you can put a sock up in your opinion. you too, mom. HAHAHAH

Ok. that is enough for today's rant. On SHINee anniversary too. sorry boys, my life does not revolve around you all the time.

😂

I hope you enjoy reading.

You the MVP.

until next time,
ciao~

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A/N: do you know what makes making a blog longer to compose and publish? the pictures attachment. Yes, the gambar2. Baik lagi menaip what's in your mind down ni, you can finish in a minute. but the pictures? especially when you thought of an old picture you took in the year you don't even remember? Good Luck.

Positivity VS Negitivity

Third Day of Raya.

I have never been so care-free.

I guess I aged well. LOL Not really

Raya used to be such a stressful ordeal but this year, I barely cared.

I'm that pressured to the point that I don't want to care.

It's not because of work. 

Becoz as stressful as work gets, at the end of the day, it's what happened when you go home.

the environment at home is the most integral part of your being. 

I'm the type that shuts office off the moment I walked out of the office. Yes, I may talk about it or the people in it when I meet my freinds but non of that conversation ever been about the work itself. 

When you come home to a house full of negative vibes, that actually put more harm to your health than work could ever did.

If you can't be positive at home after a full day of negativity, then what are you going to be?

yeah yeah

It's all come down to how you react to things.

but everybody has their limits.

There is only so much patient in ones body.

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Too Soon

there are two things that I find too soon for me;

1. to read Five Days Left by Julie Lawson Timmer

2. to watch Along with the Gods : The Two Worlds

the book was too raw for me coz I tried to baca on early Jan. but by the beginning of chapter 3, I can not take it and stopped.
the story was about a woman sick with cancer and planned to take her own life at her own term. Instead of waiting for the cancer to claim her life, she decided to take her own life before the cancer did.
the part yg made me felt a lump in my throat was when she set the date of when she's going to take her life.
I feel like Jonghyun was like that too. He already set a date. there was excert from an interview where he said he wanted to rest in Dec/2017 no matter what. I just thought, as I read that book first chapter, "he planned it"
there was that security guard punya witness account about what Jonghyun was doing in the last moment at the apartment he rented; he was driving fast and making lots of noise with his car. a fan said he was contemplating. He must've had second thoughts. sigh
every time I thought if this, there are lots of "if only"

The Two Worlds was a lot tougher to handle but I get thru it. (Pasal liat diwayang. nothing else I can do but watch sampai habis LOL)
this one lagi dashyat. my heart skipped a bit part the funeral scene.
as we know, I have read a lot of article during/after Jonghyun's funeral.
Part yg aku feel was when the movie's main character's mother sat in front of her son potrait and then there was an annoucement about putting the body into the casket.
during Jonghyun's, a post said his was done privately in the presence of  his loved ones.
So, from reading to watching and hearing an enactment of that scene is hard.
I shed a tear towards the end of the movie. bukan nangis berabis. just shed a tear. LOLbut really ut was mostly becoz I was so emerse in that movie. argh! no wonder it become 2nd highest grossing Korean movie. thumbs up

I finally understand when people posted warnings before continue reading a post.

I felt a lump in my throat and my hear skipped a beat from the above. I'm sure others might be a lot more emotional and will be triggered easily.

Some still need to time to heal

I don't know if I am healed or apa, but like i once said, you can never get over a death of your love ones, you just learn to cope and move on.

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Composed on: 15th Feb 2018
Edited on: 14th Mar 2018

1. finished reading Five Days Left (read most of the book on 3rd and 4th Mar, and finished the rest on 9th Mar) and boy that was tough! I kept catching my breath at some parts. I kept wondering if that was what went thru Jonghyun's head. Like, he kept having second thoughts but certain things happened and his decision became more resolute.
2. Life goes on.

Hello June

These bruises make for better conversation - Bruises, by Train.

"in years to come, the pain you feel now, will make a good conversation starter," said no one. ever. 
We will only ever acknowledge what we feel right here, right now.

* shrug*

No, I'm not in pain.

I'M IN AGONY! 

(┛◉Д◉)┛彡┻━┻ 

TAKE ME OUT OF HERE!

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Question

Caution
long post.

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you know that guy friend who has a girlfriend-turn-wife yang penjeles ya amat?

When Ahmad (bukan nama sebenar) begirlfriend with Sarah (bukan nama sebenar), Ahmad had been avoiding his other friends. especially yg bini2.
the other female friends was told (by the male friends of their circle of friends) that Sarah was a penjeles girlfriend.
the other female friends understand.

and then, Ahmad and Sarah got married.

So, here's a situation:

Erin posted something on social media and Ahmad liked it.
Erin got scared. Scared that Ahmad's wife Sarah would get a wrong idea.
but nothing happened (Sarah did not go and cyber attack Erin, like Erin thought Sarah would). thus, Erin ignored the like and be neutral about it.

Months had passed and Erin noticed that Ahmad liked her posts every now and then. 
Erin was no longer worrying and become curious instead.

masa becouple, you are not allowed to talk or like or heart any other girls' post on social media
but
selepas kawin, you can resume the talking, liking, hearting other girls' post?



Here's the question:

Why is that?

disclaimer: I am single AF and I'm not trying to be know it all about this kind of thing. I'm just curious.

In my understanding, if I don't want him to talk to other girls when we're dating, I certainly don't want him to talk to other girls when we're married.

Maybe it's a trust issue?
you don't trust him when he's your boyfriend
but
you trust him when he's your husband?
PLEASE UNDERSTAND: the 'He' here is the same person.

In my understanding, if I can't trust him when he's my boyfriend, why on earth did I marry him?!

Let's change POV (point of view)

Maybe he was menjaga hati the girl
Ok, he jaga my hati when he's my boyfriend
but
thought it's ok to not jaga my hati when we're married?
Isn't menjaga hati your wife more important?

I really can't do much POV on guys 


Anyway,

I'm just dead curious about this stuff.

coz from Erin's POV, she is scared that Sarah might get the wrong idea. Ahmad might thought that what he's doing is ok. but who knows what Sarah is feeling, right?

I also understand that maybe Sarah isn't getting a wrong idea coz Ahmad married her and she shouldn't be questioning his loyalty and trust him.

Another opinion of mine; Ahmad shouldn't be like that from the moment he berCouple with Sarah. He shouldn't push away his female friends in the beginning to jaga hati girlfriend but after he kawin with Sarah, resume being friends with his female friends again. it's confusing and troublesome.

but once again, I don't know why Ahmad did what he did. Maybe that's the only way he knows how to deal with it?
I just strongly believe that he could've handled it better.

because the moment Ahmad pushes his other friends (male and female) away, they also distant themselves from him. and when he tries to befriend them again, they don't want to.

can you blame them?
I understand if you push away bad influences from your life to be better
but we're friends. 
IF not the best of friends, I'm sure we're good friends of yours.
I get that you can't talk to us (female) to jaga the hati of your girlfriend but did you realize that you avoided going out with our group (have male also) too?
and now that you're married, you wanted to go back to how it was?
are you serious?

that's not how you're supposed to treat your friends.

I understand that married people have commitment but i have never met anyone, who before they were married, pushes everybody away just to keep 'the other half' happy.

that's all that I've got to say.

I could write a novel about this, believe me.

Yes, Erin is me. it's how I feel about the situation. the curiosity is mine.

Once again, I'm single and maybe I don't understand this "sacrifices".

all I can do right now is be neutral and try not to overthink. 

My positivity   It's definitely not me. it's them.

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I am so paning right now

It's been ages since I last seen my hotmail via laptop/website.

and today, because of some emailing issue, I ended up using the website version of hotmail using my laptop. 

boy was I surprised and confused.

I'm not some IT savvy person and anything i did manage to do on the internet are mostly basic. I  mean, REALLY fcking basic. (eg, this blog design. I used Templates!)

So, when hotmail kept asking me to send a 'security code' to 'purple.and.lime@hotmail.com' mail, I was like, "Oh, 'purple and lime' ani sample email kali".
It's not.
it hits me, after several tries, that I OWNED purple.and.lime@hotmail.com!
I don't remember why I made it. probably out of 'sakai-ness'. you know, since at that time, making a hotmail account is so darn easy. maybe. I don't know. seriously, I have no idea!
and then when I tried to change it, came out another email address that reads 'pu****@hotmail.com' (Yes, cematu kana buat.. I don't know kana censored kh apa kh.. I know, what the hell right?)
I'm so confused!
why on earth did I make this weird hotmail accounts?!

but luckily, after a few more headaches figuring out this 'Outlook', I managed to get thru all the securities and updated it. Once that's done, I decided to clean my inbox.

clearly i didn't 'clean' much using my phone (coz usually, I open my mail and delete everything).

and along the way, I unsubscribe to this hmv newsletter (again, wtf face). When? How? Why?

I unsubscribe to any update from my youtube account too.

and here's the bizarre one; Twitter account.

i was on my way to disable my email notification when it asked me to log in and when I did, a message came out saying 'there is a suspicious activity going on' and it asked for some security questions.
then aku realized yg the display pic wasn't mine and I was hit the second time.
I've changed (via my phone) my username from Vengeance to AjeerahAwang a while back.
the funny thing is, why it let me thru in the beginning when I keyed in Vengeance with my current password?
I refreshed the page and keyed in the correct account name and password and everything went back to normal. Lucky we didn't panic - Ronald Weasley, Philosopher's Stone.

this whole thing is such a nerve wrecking experience! 
I know, I know. to some, this might be something of small matter. 
but for me, it is such a big matter.
maybe because, I still love my hotmail ID. it's childish, yes, but it holds a lot of memories that are sooooo me, made by me, for me. 
I don't know how else to explain it but I wish to hold on to something that is me 10-15 years ago coz it feels like I'm losing me these days.

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ENOUGH WITH SOPPY THINGS!

on a brighter note, Pottermore Sorting is back!!
and I'm still a proud Badger!



Hufflepuff - Where They Are Just and Loyal!

I will try and tell you all about it some other time.

I know I still owe you guys the story behind my DIY phonecase too.

xD

until next time!

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a/n: I'm supposed to be asleep like 4 hours ago.

Sorry, Not Really

as I was buying a new pen (PENS) last weekend, 
I realized that I'm truly a sucker for stationery;
Pens, cute erasers, pencils (although I seldom use pencils now that I'm older), pencil cases, ruler (yes, like, I don't know when I'm gonna be using these lovely pieces of measurements), colored markers (sharpies ones are too expensive, so I often buy the kiddies one in 12s ≧◡≦ ), paper clips (YES.PAPER.CLIPS) and journals. Of course, its not limited to the above mentioned items. It could be so much more.

here are SOME OF my collections;

yes, stashed away in the coolest pen holder EVER ヾ( ~▽~)ﾂ ♪

and these are the new pen and pencil I bought;

the SHINee/Barbie colored pencil.

and this 'partial' DIY triple-colored pen.

you get to choose what color you want for your pen! 
it's that awesome! ♥╣[-_-]╠♥

I chose Pink, Purple, and dark Blue.

here's a video of me putting it (sloppily) together.

I could stop myself from buying SHINee merchandise (coz lets face it, those merchandises sometime cost more than I could afford LOL!) 
but I have the weakest of will to stop when it comes to stationery. like, I really can't stop.

Other girls would be suckers for shoes, clothes, or bags. 
*shrug* 
I guess, thats just me.

"Pen is mightier than the sword," President Sawyer, White House Down.

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another very good friend of mine just got married last Friday. 
I couldn't make it to her Nikah (on Friday) and Bersanding (today) day.
So, I went to her Berbedak saja last night.

Pretty bride in red!

Congratulation Dr. Zai! Semoga berkekalan sehingga ke akhir hayat. Aminn Ya Rabb.

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Just so you know

my current lock screen

ヘ(^_^ヘ)

and also

〜(￣▽￣〜)(〜￣▽￣)〜

that is all.


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Anna?

BBB Annual Dinner is coming up. Feb 8th, 2014 to be exact.

and I think I've decided on what I'm gonna wear that night.

the theme is Fairy Tale.

at first I thought, I wana be Fiona (the one, in case you don't know, in SHREK).

then, I watched Frozen. Twice.

So now, I think I wana be Anna.

the baju is simple enough to make. and design. I think.


but if that doesn't work out, I'll settle with a couple of outfits that resembles Anna.

Yup. fully decided.

BUT! if I can't make it out like the above, I just have to wing it. with Tshirts and Jeans.

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Writers

after spending so much time on Asianfanfics.com these past years, I realized something.

real authors need real (heavily constructive) criticism.

I mean the most I see people comment about a story is about how cute this character look (when in actualness the author has not even describe their cuteness in words) or how cute the main characters were together (hmm. I guess that's the disadvantage of writing a fan fiction. coz you're using characters from the real life; Kpop artists and such).

Point is, i don't think most of us want this.

I, for one, would love a criticism on the way I laid out the story, my grammar (though i wouldn't listen much on that since English is only my second language. LOL), and you know, REAL criticism!

but I guess (again) I have to take into account that that website if full of hormonal teenagers, who was so keen into the story line alone (without really caring how the words were laid down as long as there's the name of their fav kpop artists in it) than how it was laid out etc etc.

I'm not saying I'm THAT good! gawd, no. I've got a lot to learn too.

it just frustrates me that I'm posting my story there in the hope that I would get decent, constructive, criticism that would help me improve myself in one way or another, but I got this childish review instead.

I had one good review once for one of my stories and although it stinks and i kinda don't like it in the beginning, I still appreciate it. it got me where I am today.

but since me and that person are not talking to each other anymore, I have no one else to ask harsh review from. 

sigh.

You really don't miss your water, till the well runs dry.

ANYWAY~~

I WANT CONSTRUCTIVE REVIEWS ON MY STORY! 

ANYBODY WANTS TO BE THE REVIEWER?! 

also, desperate time calls for desperate measures.


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