Too Soon

there are two things that I find too soon for me;

1. to read Five Days Left by Julie Lawson Timmer

2. to watch Along with the Gods : The Two Worlds

the book was too raw for me coz I tried to baca on early Jan. but by the beginning of chapter 3, I can not take it and stopped.
the story was about a woman sick with cancer and planned to take her own life at her own term. Instead of waiting for the cancer to claim her life, she decided to take her own life before the cancer did.
the part yg made me felt a lump in my throat was when she set the date of when she's going to take her life.
I feel like Jonghyun was like that too. He already set a date. there was excert from an interview where he said he wanted to rest in Dec/2017 no matter what. I just thought, as I read that book first chapter, "he planned it"
there was that security guard punya witness account about what Jonghyun was doing in the last moment at the apartment he rented; he was driving fast and making lots of noise with his car. a fan said he was contemplating. He must've had second thoughts. sigh
every time I thought if this, there are lots of "if only"

The Two Worlds was a lot tougher to handle but I get thru it. (Pasal liat diwayang. nothing else I can do but watch sampai habis LOL)
this one lagi dashyat. my heart skipped a bit part the funeral scene.
as we know, I have read a lot of article during/after Jonghyun's funeral.
Part yg aku feel was when the movie's main character's mother sat in front of her son potrait and then there was an annoucement about putting the body into the casket.
during Jonghyun's, a post said his was done privately in the presence of  his loved ones.
So, from reading to watching and hearing an enactment of that scene is hard.
I shed a tear towards the end of the movie. bukan nangis berabis. just shed a tear. LOLbut really ut was mostly becoz I was so emerse in that movie. argh! no wonder it become 2nd highest grossing Korean movie. thumbs up

I finally understand when people posted warnings before continue reading a post.

I felt a lump in my throat and my hear skipped a beat from the above. I'm sure others might be a lot more emotional and will be triggered easily.

Some still need to time to heal

I don't know if I am healed or apa, but like i once said, you can never get over a death of your love ones, you just learn to cope and move on.

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Composed on: 15th Feb 2018
Edited on: 14th Mar 2018

1. finished reading Five Days Left (read most of the book on 3rd and 4th Mar, and finished the rest on 9th Mar) and boy that was tough! I kept catching my breath at some parts. I kept wondering if that was what went thru Jonghyun's head. Like, he kept having second thoughts but certain things happened and his decision became more resolute.
2. Life goes on.

Surprise, Surprise

So finally finished watching the Malay drama/tv series, Tuan Anas Mikael.

Started at around midnight and finished at almost 7am this morning. 

LOL

I woke up at around 3pm after that. 

Anybody who is anybody knows how much I'm not really pro-Malay drama/movie 

but Tuan Anas Mikael is an exception.

it's an adaptation from a malay novel of the same name 

(No, I didn't read the book). 

the two leads were played by Aaron Aziz and Zaya Zya.

the story line revolved around this poor girl becoming a housekeeper at this rich and young bachelor house, the bachelor 'arranged' future fiancee delirious-bratty attitude, the fight over inheritances, and how in the end everyone is bloody related. 

like, whaaaatt  ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ

I first watched the first few episodes at Kuch's house last year; there was a rerun of the series that one weekend and we were watching that for our 'hang out'. and I got so into it.

I think i fell for the way Aaron Aziz and Zaya Zya portrayed the main characters. Kiut!! I was literally squealing (Yes, squeal. Ask the other Geng Keras) especially during the 'baby, mummy, daddy' part. I know would have gag were it to be from another drama/series but at that time Aaron and Zaya presented that moment well. their facial expressions were the BEST! in that drama. 

I was laughing non stop at 2am-3am. some episodes are just crazy funny. well done you guys! 

my reaction to this Tuan Anas Mikael was the same way when I watched Korean drama. 

it's that cute, i tell you!!

I once thought Lisa Surihani has the best expression when acting but I guess not anymore.

Zaya Zya has the best right now! almost comedic! she's awesome!

anyway, BEST MALAY SERIES I'VE EVER WATCHED IN MY LIFE! (I said 'in my life' because I can not recall any other malay drama/series/movie that can top this).

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a/n: I didn't do what I'm supposed to do this weekend. hahah lain plang kaja ku.

Diana

I finally watched Diana, a movie starring Naomi Watts 

and its about the love story of Diana, Princess of Wales, after her separation from Prince Charles. 
I don't know much about the late Lady Di, but she was actually very famous for her humanitarian acts and charity works.

I only know about her during her funeral news/coverage. the news was so huge that it was all over the radio (Brunei used to have a live broadcast of Capital FM, a famous UK radio station at that time) and Television. I even bought a magazine that solely covers the Funeral with Prince William and Prince Harry shown on the cover. and I am ashamed to tell you that the reason I bought the magazine was because I thought Prince William was cute. (LOL-ing at my childishness)
but being me, I ended up being more curious about the history rather than the scandal that surrounds her at that time (or more correctly, I don't remember reading anything about her scandal at that time. it's when I was older that I heard and understand what was really going on before her tragic death)

So, watching the movie, I wasn't much interested in her lovey-dovey side. I just wanted to see how much truth was put in it. I like how they relived or revamped features or dresses or scenes and speeches from the real ones. I know they're not all truth but it made me happy thinking that they're showing a 'behind-the-scene' footage/story from what I used to see old pictures. I've always loved the "history" behind things. It made you connects and understand a little more why things happened the way they did.

One thing I need to point out though. Towards the end of the movie, it was showed that Lady Di was actually the one who exposed to the press of her whereabouts when she was on vacation with Dodi. As much as I want to understand her intention was actually to catch the attention of her former boyfriend, Hasnat, I just thought that she shouldn't have done it. I mean, she could do little with the coverage, don't you think? She was already being swarmed by paparazzi as it is. I don't know if that part was made up or not but as I said, it would have been less stressful if she hadn't.

all the time when I was watching this movie, a One Direction song kept popping into my mind. it was called, Diana.


 
even from when i first heard this song, I was thinking about Lady Di. the chorus lah, very fitting. but thats just me. Lady Di is the only famous Diana that I know of.

After the movie ended, it occurred to me that yesterday would marked the 14 years of her death. She was killed in a car accident in Paris on 31th August 1997. in the movie, they remake the final moment of her life, thru the security footage at a Hotel's lift and also exit, and the date on at the bottom of the screen was 31.08.97. i feel sad for a second thinking about it. a final moment's in someone's life. how would you feel if that was actually a footage of your love ones?

RIP Diana, Princess of Wales. You showed people what should be done when you were given powers; help the underprivileged and raise the voice of the unheard. You were an amazing humanitarian. 

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all mushy and what not.

during the last day kami dSingapore, i was all sentimental.

somehow, aku rindu banar kn the concert. though aku inda excited memikirkn the hardship we had to go thru before duduk lam venue tu.

I hope nanti ada msa lagi tu go to another smtown concert and relive those happy/excited moments.

In sha Allah.

hehe

A/N: WHEN IS THE NEXT SCHEDULE OUT?! hahah inda penyabar...