a Little taken aback by this

I want to quickly get this out of the way before I continue with my final entry for my KL Trip.

xD

let's get on with today's topic;
a Little Taken Aback by This.

as many know, I like to browse youtube.

currently, my obsession is looking up video for Solo Traveler to Japan.

thus, it make sense when below video pops up as a recommendation

Now, you know I've been to Japan back in 2016 and was so in love with that trip that I planned on going back in 2018.

but let's now watch the video first before you read my next set of thoughts.




First of all,
that hurts.

Second of all,
I think I understand what he meant.

I don't know which part I was most offended on, coz in all honesty, I didn't bother looking for muslim-friendly places while planning for my trip. all I care about is looking for the cheapest hostel!

Back in 2016, I noticed all the things he said, about Japanese being scared. 
We were being stopped at the airport once we stepped out of the immigration.
then on the train, there were EMERGENCY ALERT posted on the train monitor. the National Security is on high alert it says. I already thought that it was becoz of us when I first saw it.
Yes, there are people who looked at us dari atas ke bawah.

but apart from those awkward experiences, people don't really care about us. I mean, time kami bejalan to the station, buying food in the convenient stores, boarding the train. Nobody took a second glance at us. PLUS there are a lot more kind people I met than the judging/scared glance people.

Japanese really is a polite country, if you project the same.

It is true when he said, Japan isn't really Muslim-Traveler friendly.
Even when you try to Google, there aren't much. 
of course lah ada muslim friendly eatery but still those places aren't that easy to get to, at least not to first timer. 
From my recent research, Osaka has a lot of Muslim friendly eatery popping up this year and 2018.
even so, masih limited lah.

anyway,
when you watch the video from start to finish, you are gonna hate Mr. Nobita.
LOL
that's my initial reaction, at least.

I was mostly thinking "and you continued to be ignorant?!"

but then again,
it's not like I'm gona live in Japan forever.

I'm mostly gona be there for at least a week at a time. and all becoz of Harry Potter and Disneyland. 

So, I get what he was trying to say;

1. they are just scared. which is natural. I mean, I would too. better be safe than sorry.
2. it seems illogical to work so hard to accommodate a group of people who would probably just gona be there for a week. or sekali atu saja they visit Japan.
3. They can't just throw away their culture just for short-term visitors.

it's like when we want people to respect our home when they come around.
yes, we try to make our guest feel comfortable but that doesn't mean they can just do whatever they want or be too demanding, right?

so yeah... I understand.

but I'm afraid, I'm a little scared to go to Japan now.

LOL

I hope Universal Studio Singapore would have the rights to build their own Wizarding World of Harry Potter soon.

Kalau bukan kerana Harry Potter, I wouldn't be this worked up about going to Japan, banar tah.

hahaha odahnya...

but seriously, Mr. Nobita can say whatever he wants and I can be offended and decided upon never setting foot in Japan anymore.
After all, the world doesn't revolve around any of us and Japan will remain one of the top choices for female solo travel to go to.

I just wish I didn't watch the video.

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Happy For Sungmin

I was 'cleaning' my external HD last Saturday, 13th Dec

and I came across the only episode of TvN TAXI that I had; Sungmin, Luna and Jessica were in it. 

I was a little upset seeing Jessica there; listening to her talk about her trainee days with SNSD. You all know how she got kicked out few weeks ago, right? So, yeah. She's my least fav in SNSD btw. ahaha surprise2 for me to be feeling sad about her not being a SNSD member anymore. 

anyway, long story short, I finished cleaning and went on to browse IG on my phone. then I saw it.

Someone (a fanaccount) post Sungmin's wedding picture. 

I completely forgotten all about it. seeing him on TAXI only reminded me of how he used to be one of my fav in SuJu.

and then I cried.

Tears of happiness. 

really, it was of happiness. like how I feel when I saw Nicky's and Shane's wedding pictures.

I think these idols deserve happiness.
I know I said this idol is my future husband and what not
but let's be real for a sec. I. don't. have. a. fcuking. chance. with. them. EVER.
hahaha awu, sadar ku. 
it's just fun having something to be obsessed with, you know. (It gives me something to think about other than why am I still single. or something. hahaha)
oh well, the new obsess fans don't understand this, yet. But trust me, as you get older, when your perspective changed, then you'll understand my feelings. 
their happiness will be yours too.
and most importantly, YOU DON'T FREAKING OWN THEM. 
YES. I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU! YOU DELUSIONAL FREAK!
hahaha 
I'm just pissed that some fans had the nerve to comment on the other SuJu members IG posts on how upset they were that Sungmin got married. Like, are you fcuking kidding me?
How would you feel, on the happiest day of your life, someone claimed that your happiness made them suffer? like, is this even relevant?
Is me getting pissed over this even relevant?
hahahah
I guess I spent too much time 'hanging out' on the social networks.
I need to get out more.

anyway, Congratulation Sungmin! wish you all the happiness in the world. Saranghae!

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Wait till you're a lot older

This is a random rage post.

there was a post on IG (a  Kpop confession acct) 

and I agreed to it.

then some kid decided to give some of us (who agreed to the confessor) a piece of his/her mind.

So, I got angry. I know I shouldn't be. I should've have known better and let it go or shit. but I think I'm gona post a piece of MY mind here. In my blog. 

" The thing is, I've been obsessed with a boyband before and I know it feels like 'this love is real' right now but trust me 'girls', it is not. It'll die down and you will realize just how stupid you are ..one day. when you're older. and wiser (hopefully). and you'll be too embarrass to admit your stupidity and laugh it off. Dismissively denying shit when everybody (I mean EVERYBODY) seen you being stupid. *scoff* *rolled eyes* puhlease...
Then when you realized that I was right, you'd be like 'BAHAHAHAH! SO TRUE!' "

I know what she commented back to us got nothing to do with what I just typed above but you know what I mean right? No? Ok. read below.

THE POINT IS! I'm not homophobic!  

maybe I am but that's my religious point of view and there's nothing you can do about it. 
I have guy friends who are gay but I'm not like disgusted with them. I am still very much close with them. I just don't disagree nor do i encourage them about it. I have my own beliefs. *giving you the incredulous look*

my reply to that girl was 'Thanks. To each their own, yeah?'
and she responded back by saying, 'Hmm? what?!'

-.-

I just assumed she wasn't English.
and that was when I decided to make this post.

Like the confessor said, we were just disgusted that someone would actually post a Photoshopped images like that.

Why make such a big deal out of it?

OR MAYBE this sk.jongsuk person IS gay or bi or lesbian or transgendered or anything. that's why this post and its comments offended him/her so. Defensive ya di sana atu.
No artists asked you to defend them, so just chill, ok? 
If you believe that we're in the Era, and I quote 'where a lot of people are gay or bi now so learn to deal with it', you should first learn that there are still millions other people millons different views from you. Coz, sweetheart, if you can't be open-minded about other people having different views from you, then, i think, you should just ... *whispers* stay out of the debate club. 
or at least, get to know where you really stand before you argue your case.

TO EACH THEIR OWN! 

I know I'm being childish posting this up but I just wana let it out of my system.

sigh. just wait till you're a lot older (and hopefully wiser too) then you will understand what my rage is all about. 

you're supposed to laugh at comments that are stupid and don't suits you! not make it personal and start an internet war or something. why waste your time like that?! Go study or something!! Jeep!

a/n: I'm an adult and I am allowed to waste my time on the net like this. 

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I know I should be posting my Day 3. I do that one on the next post :D

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Failing isn't forever

So, I failed again and was very sad about it.

I thought I've tried my best but I guess my best isn't good enough.

My sister said, 'Redha'. and I just nodded. 

I was said for a few hours on Saturday and indulged myself with food from Mr. Baker. 

It was supposed to be a celebration food but oh well...

Now that I've been given a clearer picture of what I should do next, I'm going to, as the Robinson said, 'Keep Moving Forward'. I'm still trying to consult myself to not look back even though its a tat bit hard to do.

I guess, as long as I'm not still here, right?

a/n: listening to Westlife - Try Again.

Why?

Most of the time, I'm not even sure who am I doing this for?

Is it really for me? 

or for whom ever that I'm supposed to prove myself to?

I've always thought, when I'm older, I'd be certain about alot of other things but I guess we are forever the student of life. 
because no matter what you've learned last year or the year before that, you just don't have a clue. or you do have a clue but too stubborn to change your ways.

and why am I so angry all the time? and bitter? why?

I've consulted myself, saying, I'm worth the while. No matter how much I've lagged behind,  I am worth something. 

So, why do I feel like I'm worthless? why do I feel like I'm not good enough?

Am I doing this wrong? Niat tu salah kh?

I just want to know. 

I know and very well adapted to 'everything happened for a reason' concept.  but didn't you wish, even once, that you know what those reasons are?

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Sigh of relief?

was it really a sigh of relief?

Like, really?

this is like, 2007/8 all over again.

Lesson Learned tah apa dsana atu.

hahahah

I'm SO STUUUPIIIITTTTT! *hit face*

took me that long to finally see it??

You're so stupid, Az.

Just.

sigh! 

but at least I can really get over him now.



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