Catching up

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it's the start of the weekend and my body finally decided to shut down.

but I refuses to be sick!

and now I'm with a blocked nose with awesome occasional coughs.

Now,

I finally push myself into renewing my passport this afternoon.
I've been putting it off since it expires in March becoz I have procrastination issues: the anxiety of settling any official documents eg. car insurance and road tax, driving license, travel document aka passport, etc. anything to do with these things, I some what procrastinate more than I do with other things in my life.
NO.
I don't have anything to hide from the authority coz seriously we can't really hide things but I don't know. I just do.
they make me nervous. eventhough I have don't nothing wrong. HAHAHAH ヾ(●⌒∇⌒●)ﾉ
there had to be an explanation to this anxiety coz I believe I'm not the only one with it.

anyway,
that's done.

After lunch
I went and antar kain for baju hari raya.
yes, it's that time of the year again.
and no, it's not too early for us girls. it's actually quite late.
at first I went to this famous tailor in town coz i wanted a certain design done for my baju and I thought they'll do an amazing job at it but not even five minutes in that shop and I was out.
1. the one attending me was soo 'ummm' every time I asked 'How much would that cost?' I don't know if it's my job experience but that constant umm-ness does not portray confidence and made me think that you're just want to charge me randomly.
2. it's wayyyy too expensive! I understand that the tailor attends to the royal family and I understand she has a reputation to uphold or something. but I just find it not worth it. Ok, fine. maybe its just because I'm not fucking rich and I cant afford that bloody tailor. 

So, I ended up going to our (me, my mom's and sister's) old tailor.
I know, why would I wana go to a new tailor for a certain design and not trust my old-came-out-with-exceed-expactation-result tailor? I guess I wanted something new. (I did this a couple of years ago with another different tailor and I ended up going back to the old tailor the next year. LOL. someone didn't learn any lesson!)
and what do you know. I didn't get to do one of the skirt design (becoz my kain not enough width) but I got the other 3. so that's better than nothing. AND! they cost about CHEAP! I sent 5 kain total. so pretty good bargain. the most cheap one cost $31 the most expensive is $50. the earlier shop about to charge me $70 for one design and atu pun balum include lapis inside. my goodness.
alright alright. I'm being bitter coz I'm not rich and I should have known better that I could not afford to send baju to that shop. hahah I just thought I tried. ٩◔‿◔۶
ah well.. i should just stick with the old tailor. they are accustomed to my needs anyway.

so, thats two of the things that needed to be crossed of the list of things to do done.
Ringan sikit bahu and my anxiety lessen.
hahaha I know, I'm such a nerve wreck. (〃^∇^)ﾉ


Hows your weekend so far?
I hope you're having it far better off than mine.

I'm gonna go and continue to watch Criminal Minds season 8 episode 16.

ciao~
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Yesung 1st Mini Album

I really like his entire mini album.

the music is really my style.

I didn't expect it to be.

just like when I started to listen to Taeyeon's 1st Mini Album. I thought that I would hate but I didn't.

my surprised is not without base.

when Kyuhyun's mini albums came out, I only ever like 1 song from each mini album.

when Ryeowook's mini solo album came out, i like a few songs.
So, when Yesung dropped his mini solo album, I thought my hype for it would be the same as I did the other two.

but like I said, I was surprised when I heard the first released song.

Here I Am

mcm stalking jua lirik nya ani. hahah baru baca when I want to post this. LOL
and kenapa ya mesti bali plant? of all the things yg bini2 atu suka hahaha

Ok. stalk-ish (funny) lyric aside,
isn't his voice just *insert 'the boom' icon here* ???

a little background story before I share you another few songs

K.R.Y. (Kyuhyun. Ryeowook. Yesung.) is a sub-unit of SuJu whose main song releases are ballads.
and all three of them is like the senpai of amazing male vocals of SM!
well, not really. there are Changmin, Junsu, Yunho of DBSK. to name a few.
but since I wasn't aware of DBSK vocalists back when I was obsessing over SuJu, lets not go there.

anyway, KRY is like the platform of amazing vocalist of SM!
after that came Jonghyun and Onew of SHINee (not gonna explain myself why Onew was mentioned after Jonghyun coz I love their voices on two different levels)
then baru tah came the EXO vocalists; Bacon, DO, Chen. (I think Luhan should be in this list too but seeing as he is no longer EXO)

what I'm trying to say, K.R.Y. has a lot of practice to get to where they are now. Vocally. I'm no expert but theirs are per.fect.ion.

Continuing on~

let's share a duet now.

first up, with Dalchong of CHEEZE. Spring In Me.


I don't know who she is but her voice is very nice.
and this song is like that time, after all the heartaches and this song promises a new beginning.
or something.
my hearteu~

second up, feat Chanyeol of EXO. Confession.


I know. cChanel *fangirling*
noh. not really.
I was always clapping when this song plays. rupanya it's a cute confession song. or trying to confess.
still very the cute

I would love to share all the songs here
but this next one would be the last song that I'm gona share here

it's call Your Echo


I'm telling you, I only learn the translated lyrics while doing this post and I cried during this one.
I guess I have a hunch yg it's sad song but I didn't think it'd be this sad! what the hell Yesungie?!

as mentioned, that would be last song shared here.
If your internet is as awesome as mine, this page will take longer to load.
hahaha ha

but your internet is the awesome-st in town, you should click the link in the videos to listen to the rest of the songs with Eng Sub.

I bet SuJu's future concerts gonna be really long coz they have alot of solos out now to add up to their list of SuJu songs as a whole. (the KRY, EunHae duo)

I would definitely go if was still a 'fanatic' elf. Lucky for me that I'm a 'fanatic' Shawol now.
but I wouldn't mind going to another SMTown concert.
sigh. I miss SMTown.

*clap once*

alrighty,
that is all I have for you guys tonight.
hope you enjoy all the cool (although some are sad) songs.
See you on the next post
ciao~

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Winter's War

Caution: Spoiler Alert!

I thought I'd love this movie to death

but boy was I wrong.

reason to watch this movie:
1. Emily Blunt
2. the trailer said its the story before Snow White, so my expectation was maybe its the story of the step mother, knapa ya jadi jahat and all that.
3. Emily Blunt.
4. I figured there's gonna be a fight for power between the two sisters and the Winter sister died coz she wasn't in Snow White and the Huntsman
5. Emily Blunt.

hahaha I really like her. she's versatile. I watched her played a snob character in Devil Wears Parda, and then being poise in Young Victoria and being funny as hell in 5 Years Engagement and she sings in Into The Woods! i know 4 movie saja to be all 'she awesome' 'great actress' but you gotta admit, she really is brilliant!

anyway,
I watched the movie and I was very disappointed.
the acting, the scenery, the funny punch line, were all on point.
but the storyline kinda suck!

first, the 'story before Snow White' was kinda short.
I thought the entire movie was a story told before Snow White
but it was not even half through the movie!
3/4 of the movie was during after Snow White reclaimed her kingdom!
what was that all about?!
such misleading trailer!

second, even if the trailer was misleading,
I thought the 'Winter's War' part would be on point.
but it's not!
I thought the 'Winter's War' was between the two sisters, and that Freya, the Winter Queen, miraculously win against the 'gold' Queen (that Queen from Snow White and the Huntsman).
sekali rupanya, it was more like a war during winter. or war that leads or turns to winter.
it wasn't even the the Winter Queen yg do all the fighting. it was all done by her 'children'.
memang ada a 'fight' between the two sisters but it was towards the end and almost insignificant.
I don't know. I'm just mad at how the story turned out.
so everything is just a huge disappointment to me.

third, Finnick was there. hahaha
I mean Prince William, apparently the husband of Snow White in Winter's War.
I thought she ended up with the Huntsman?
rasa wah kan masuk kan cFinnick ah! I guess becoz he so famous now.
Sam Claflin. he was in the most famos Hunger Games Catching Fire onwards,
Pirate of the Carribean Stanger's Tide, Love Rosie, and soon (if not already) in Me Before You.
both Love Rosie and Me Before You are movies from books adaptation.

how he looks like, if you're wondering ^.^

No, this is not the upside of the movie.
Prince William appeared for like 5 mins top jua ganya. again, not very important aside from Prince William telling the Huntsman about the missing Mirror. other people could've informed the huntsman. *shrugged*

fourth,
they should have more scenes on the funny dwarfs!

fifth,
why is the mirror so blur?
I doubt that you can see yourself in it.
but I guess it was more like mirroring whats inside of your brain and heart.
*another shrugged*

I guess that is all that I have to say for this movie.

I hope the third one would we a lot better than this. if ever they decided to make a third installment of this series.

and I should lower my expectation next time.

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Do you remember the time ...

remember that time

when all I ever talked about was Westlife?

yeah, that was the good time.

or the worst for you guys?

I'm sure I've mentioned it at a hundred times before that I write fictions, right?
there was one time when a friend complaint to me and she said, "cBryan saja jua eh! nada lelaki lain kh?".
I was gobsmacked and ashamed
but it didn't stop me from continuing to use 'Brian' as the main male lead in my story. ┏(＾0＾)┛┗(＾0＾) ┓

Moving on~

Yesterday, when I was on my way home, as I changed the radio channel,
I heard Uptown Girl was playing.
but it was almost finished and I whined for changing the channel a little too late.

but another Westlife song was playing after that and from just the intro, I started fangirling; squealing like I have never heard the song playing on my iphone/laptop before.
the song was Something Right. the radio station was having some double request segment of some kind.

It maybe a 'sekadar' moment for you
but listening to ANY Westlife song kena play on air is such a nostalgic moment for me.
to cut things short; Westlife is such a big part of me growing up, its bittersweet listening to someone playing/listening to their song without me asking them to. T.T

Anyhoo
how about I share with you guys the awesome-est live video concert for Uptown Girl
the best live performance for this song, in my opinion.

lets clap and sing-a-long !!



I'm not Swedish but I wish I was everytime I see this. ＼（＾○＾）人（＾○＾）／

I wanted to apologize to people that I annoyed during my Westlife phase
but you should know: I was happy with my obsession (yes, I use the word obsess coz thats what I was back then)
and every time rakan2 sebaya point out my obsession to me during a meet up or a gathering, I felt such pride in that. I don't know how else to explain my feelings but I was proud of who I was back then (with my obsession towards Westlife sahaja. not the other things)

at least when people hear Westlife, they thought of their 'crazy obsess' friend, Az Nuur. (¬‿¬)

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Hello

Hi guys

I was hit with a notion to retire from blogging last weekend
well, I had been thinking about it for a while but last weekend was the strongest I felt about it.

but I thought hard on it and decided that it was mostly because:-

1. I was lazy
2. I think too much of what others would think about how my post would turn out
3. I was very demotivated by no. 1 and 2

So, i thought,
I'm giving this blog another shot.

My last few, lazy, posts were very 'upsetting' and full of anger at some point.
I duly noted my grieving towards the world
and I'm trying not to post such things anymore.

From today onwards, I'm no longer posting about my personal problems/feelings on this blog.
or I can try. .ʕʘ‿ʘʔ.

I'm trying to go back to my roots,
on why I started blogging in the first place:-
a) movie reviews
b) boybands
c) lesson learned

It might take awhile for me to get back on track but for now I have two posts line up for you in the nearest future, so look forward to that, yea?

it's not much, but I guess I have to start somewhere. v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

to my beloved readers:
thanks so much guys for coming back to my blog even though its not been updated for weeks.
and thank you for the 'awakening'.

to my beloved silent readers:
I would appreciate if you guys could leave out a comment or two.
but if you can't, then keep coming back to my blog and help my post's 'views' get higher.
also, thank you! you guys rock!

. . .

my blog face is very not satisfying to me. I might change it again.
oh no. looking at Onew is such a satisfaction but its also a distraction.

so, sorry baby, ya gotta go.

Time do flies

it's 16th already
and I achieved coloring my coloring book up to page 3.



I wonder if you should color this book by page
and
once you started, can you pause in the middle and finish it another day?
coz, I can't do that.
Once I started, I wanted to finish it right away. like there's an itch in my heart when I try to stop and continue another day (as you know, I have other things to do other than lazying around, coloring book).
then,
I realized, that the above is not really normal.

Have you ever heard the term OCD; Obsessive Compulsive Disorder?
Well, I don't have it.
hahaha
Because what I have is actually Selective Perfectionist.
I don't know if that exist. but I strongly believe that that's what I have.

Allow me to explain
I'm a lazy person.
I've mentioned that for so many times already on so many levels.
but once I started, e.g. cleaning my room, I can't stop. 
Storyline; I started off with wiping dust off my study table. I will continue to wiped my dressing table, my bookshelves, etc. then, I started sweeping. mopping. dusting some more. the list could go on but you get the idea, right?
I became a perfectionist only when I wanted to be and when the occasion calls for it.

and it does not stop at cleaning.
it continues on at my workplace.
Once I started on job, I have to see it to the finish. obsessing over how many I can finish in an hour or the entire morning.
you know? something like that.
I used the word 'obsessing' because that's how it was.



more to the second meaning.
the worrying.
I might upset my other colleagues in the process. ┐(‘～`；)┌

anyhoo..
this isn't a planned post.

I wanted to make something inspirational but I guess this will have to do

Side note: 
I watched the Huntsman Winter's War. I was disappointed with the whole story plot. i find the title misleading. Either that or I don't understand English. but Emily Blunt is a beauty as ever! love her!

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oh look at that...I Googled it and found it on UrbanDictionary



that should explain it. ヾ(〃^∇^)ﾉ

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April Bunny

I don't know when Easter actually is but I bought easter chocolates


yum!

March is over and I only posted like 4 stories? tsk ᇂﮌᇂ)
but I promise you, my real life is much more productive than that. (^Ｏ^)

1. the March Challenge, created by Esma, I finally finished them.



2. I've been busy fangirling over the Decendant of the Sun drama. and is up to date to episode 11 (coz currently I'm downloading sub-ep 12)



I know I said this before but really, I started this with Onew in mind but (sorry baby!) Onew is not even my secondary fav in the drama! my second fav(s) are the DeaYoung-MyeonJu army couple and the SangHyun-JaAe doctor couple. 

I was thinking last night, Onew did very well for someone who appear 'sekajab-sekajab' in this drama. and in a non-bias opinion, he really is doing a good job. you have to remember, he starred in two musical theaters before, he made an apperance as an apprentice for like 3 mins in that one drama (anu, arah final episode lagi tu LOL) before and he has been in the music industry for 7 years now. So, he is not really new in front of the camera. You have to give him credit.
and his ChiHoon character was clearly made base on his real character and like that teacher from HSM (High School Musical) once said, "playing yourself is a lot harder than playing others' character". . . .
Ok fine! I sound like I'm proctecting Onew but thats what I've been thinking bout his acting.


3. life at work is recently tough. I'm a very short-tempered person as it is and trying not to be is a real struggle. I lost it yesterday and as sorry as I felt, I strongly believe that there's two sides of a story and mine was 'I don't act up for nothing'. meaning, if you didn't start it, I won't be acting the way I did.
but yesterday also help me think back of how things used to be and I certainly don't wanna go back to that. So, lucky I'm on leave today and I could cool down before I start again on Monday.

4. its160 days to go for my Japan trip. 
at least this will motivate me to stay sane.
this is considered as productive becoz lets face it, real life struggle is always a productivity.

5. I slept for more than 10 hours! if thats not productive in this life time, I don't know what is.

and last but not least,
live life today, deal with tomorrow when comes!
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