Final Top 25 Songs of 2019

hi guys!!

Yes, December! the end of an era! the start of a new day! I mean, not yet but soon. 
Since it's end of era, I thought, I need to make some posts before the year end. 🙊

So, for a start, I'm just gonna share my top 25 listened to songs as of 21st Dec 2019.

Don't be too shock with the number of NCT songs on this list LOL.

Hmm... I guess good songs truly never expires. as you can see, I still listens to old songs a.k.a Celine Dion's Faith (2003) and Charice's One Day (2011).

Best album download this year?

I'll share a few 😎

this one is maybe a little bit bias;

1. I love Princess Jasmine

2. this live action has Will Smith

3. SPEECHLESS IS POWER!!

this is the most unexpected one. I fell in love with the entire album (pretty rare occasion for me).

her previous album that I downloaded, Brave Enough, I only listen to 4 songs out of 18.

you know i have to include this one 😁

the faded ones are the one i untick coz i usually untick songs that I often skipped when they come in the shuffle.

WESTLIFE IS BACK!!!! 

I love this album 

💟💟💟

this is a rare one. I saw her posting a clip from her Blueming MV and I thought the music sounded good. So, I downloaded the album and I am not mad.

it's a good album.

I only ever download one song of hers; Gloomy Clock (feat SHINee Jonghyun) and you know why I downloaded that song. LOL

There you go. Glad to realize that listening to music is still a very big part of me. I'm happy that this still remains. 💖💖

what about you? 

What's your favorite for this year?

Share them in the comment box down below. maybe I'll find my next songs or album to download. 🧐

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LINE Play 2.0

hi Guys..

LINE Play

I think I've talked about this before and I remembered my ex-work mates laughed at me for being 'passionate' with a game sampai making a post about it. I didn't feel offended tho. Instead, I take it as a compliment. LOL 
coz to me, anything that helps me escape the real world (and its heartache) is a good thing.

this post is inspired by below youtube video.




hashtag relatable.


So, LINE Play.


I started back in 2013.
Actually, I'm not sure when but the new updates and upgrades has this:

it indicates when my avatar was created but they called it the 'Avatar Birthday'.

recently the game has major updates. they came at the right time, I was already neglecting the game for awhile before that. I mean, adalah I play once in a while, collecting gems thru finishing the basic quests. but, yatah tu, kalau ku malas, malas lah ku main. 

Like in the video above, most of their 'shops' didn't have any update for years. and if you wanted new things, you gotta get them in the Gachas and the good ones (a.k.a. Disney ones) cost 'cash' (real money) instead of 'gems'. the one that cost 'gems' usually not that interesting? cute, but i can get by without.

I remembered downloading this game becoz it reminds me of the Facebook game called Pet Society. they have the same concept; do daily quests which consist of visiting friends, clean, water plans, pet their animal, to get gems (a.k.a. money).

So you can imagine how boring this game became after a while. 🤷



Now, as I mentioned earlier, they have new updates; 

- The Garden. kira, doing something outside the house lah ni.

- Atelier. erm, kedai jahit?

The materials needed in the Atelier can be obtain from The Garden; harvesting the tree for 'Drops', mining the rock for 'Fragments', and fishing for 'textiles'.

i didn't get it in the beginning, I even 'give up'. LOL 
but i tried again and I'm getting the hang of it now. which makes me wanna play more.

currently I'm busy collecting materials for my Atelier. it kept me busy, at least. I get to make new outfit. I doubt I can finish a single task. when you 'craft' it, it was like a lottery, either you'll get the one you want or not. i guess that's the basic thing for LINE Play; try balik2 sampai dapat. LOL

the daily quests now includes the 'Footsteps'. 

Usually, once I finished the quests, that's when I finished the game as in click out or tap out. 
Why I even bother finishing the quests? Because! when I finished a quest, I earned points for My Circle.
AND when I earn points for My Circle, I can get free gacha ticket for a limited edition Gacha. currently its going-to-the-movie themed. I like it. I love the Popcorn head. 

i think kan, the Gachas from Circle are the only Gachas I like nowadays, 
coz 
1. Free Gacha Tickets! 
2. New theme every month. 

Last month, October was Halloween themed (obviously),

September was Summer Breezy Camp themed, 

and August was Under-the-sea themed. of course, 

I hardly ever get a complete set, but still, most of the time, I can make a full outfit from the theme.  

  

Hmm.. i guess My Circle is one of the reason I still play this. I mean, at least, it really is something new every month.

Obviously this is just something I can go far at in the virtual world. I don't gain anything valuable for the real world other then:
1. Don't gamble. nobody really wins.
2. A peace of mind.

basically, I like this game. it's the only one yg I feel the most interactive?
Upside? good for letting time pass. 
Downside? too much time wasted!

Don't worry about me being too consumed by this game. I usually play when I actually have time to spare; lunch break and at home. this is not the game you play when you are doing something else. 

what about you guys?
any game you play at least once a day?
share them down in comment box below.

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Plan With Me inspo

hi guys.

funny seeing me posting in the afternoon. 

I woke up early today, I guess when you're as old as I am, waking up early by nature is the norm. I needed to pack some things for storage but of course I procrastinated for hours. By 10am baru tah ku get up from bed and started the packing. it didn't take long tho, by 11am, I took a shower and prepared my stuff for my journal.

which brings us to our blog titled today! Plan With Me inspired by AmandaRachLee

first video I watched from her was actually the one with How to Calligraphy tutorial. at that time, I didn't really understand how youtube works. I only subscribed to her last year and since then I've been watching her do her Plan With Me series.

As far as I know, up until (maybe) two years ago, I only ever know one type of journaling; pouring my heart out in a book. So, I only ever enjoyed Amanda's videos thinking I'm never gonna do what she was doing coz I feel like her style is more for people who needs to organize their life. I am not saying I'm organized, you dam well know I am not. LOL besides, what the cook am I supposed to organize, I don't have an hectic life.

but last August, I was like, "Let's follow Amanda" coz she was doing the 80s theme and it was mostly patterns, I thought it will be easy enough for me to follow.

I know Amanda's do a Calendar for the month, Mood Tracker, Habit Tracker, weekly spread, sometimes Brain Dump, and sometimes Playlist.

Initially, I made it so complicated in my head. thinking about what use is it to me to be doing a calendar, weekly spread, brain dump, etc? then I thought, the journal I'm going to use is still very private and I just wanted to add colors into it (not that I don't already have pasted pictures in it), soo I said to myself, 'let's just do the cover, the quotes, habit and mood tracker, and playlist'. and that what's I've been doing for three months. 

Here's a look at my recreations:

August 2019: The 80s

the pastel tho. also, I have most of the colors Amanda was using. I felt 'included' or 'fit in' for once. LOL

I somehow skipped September. Even I don't know what happened in September.

October 2019: Ornaments.

Yeah, don't ask. 

November 2019: Coffee and Tea.

definitely my favorite. LOVE the color scheme.

For the first two months, as you can see, I missed 'filling in' my trackers. I guess I forgot. You see, I don't really write on a daily basis anymore so obviously when i don't write, I don't open the journal, and when i don't open the journal, I don't fill in.

That is why, for November, i decided to set an alarm to remind me to fill in my trackers.

Also, please ignore the previous Mood Trackers. I can't figured out how I was feeling most of the time, especially when i only fill in once every two weeks. I mostly choose neutral to take the easy way out. LOL 
Henceforth! for November, I'm gonna write down what ever or how ever many moods I have for the day. Yes, I have a lot of mood in one day. i don't know how you can just have one. unless people are doing an 'overall' mood. I don't think I can 'overall' my mood. Lemme try and adjust with this November entry first. See how it goes.

As for the Habit Trackers, this is the trickier part.
I went from having 9 Habits, to 6 Habits, to 4 Habits. 
obviously from experience, I realized, i don't have many habits. Unless you consider 'Procrastinating', 'Sleep', or 'Daydreaming' as a habit. Well i think it is, just, I prefer not to glorified those habits.

I add my own spread, Book Read.
I only done two so far. both I have shared in previous post but I'm going to share the second one here.

These two Playlists didn't ikut any theme. I made them when I feel like it.

Yes, it looks like I only listened to certain songs for months and months at a time.

I'm that unchanging.

also, NCT-Jaehyun!! is love!!

And that is all I have for now. Maybe i'll update on another post when I have made more.

So,
what do i gained from doing this 'Planning'?
well

1. it makes me more excited to open my journal; both to write or to try and 'scrapbook-ing'
2. it gives me something to do
3. it helps me occupied; especially the Book Read part. I may not be writing in my journal but at least, I'm filling in my time with reading and not stuck on my phone most of the time.

Of course, it's not for organizing or managing my time this thing that I'm doing. I've done that during work hours, I'm not gonna do that after work hour too.

Now, question of the post: Do you do any journal entry? 
if  yes, what kind? 
if no, would you like to try the above type of journal? 
Let me know in the comment.

Until next time, 
ciao~


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Book Read AugSepOct 2019

hi Guys...
10:45pm now and I should've done this at 9ish tadi but..are we even surprise at this point? 🤷

So, book read update!

I finally finished my mini Harry Potter marathon.
Started in Aug with the Philosopher's Stone
and
Finished last Monday 21st Oct with the Deathly Hallows.

Two books took longer to finish. Partly becoz I was lazy and another, becoz, I preferred sleep over trying to reach my own personal goals.  😂 

For weeks, I've been having very little sleep becoz of my will to finish reading all the seven books (there were other paranormal factors too but that's a story for another post. maybe) so the moment I finished book seven, I was like, "I can sleep now". i'm even feel super sleepy now. that maybe due to my age factor tho.

So, next!

I'm going to reread the Twilight saga!

the smallest black cover is the first Twilight book i bought, I signed 2014 when i finished reading it and that probably when the first movie came out. maybe. 
the biggest black cover (the 10th anniversary I think), I believe i bought in 2018? maybe? if not pun 2017. i bought it but have not read passed first chapter of the 'reverse' version.
the same height of black and white covers were also bought either 2017 or 2018. these three langsung alum pernah baca. Last time I read from ebooks. I bought them becoz its an anniversary edition (the whites) and I wanted a physically copy of my own. for memory sake. 😉

I made this same 'Book Read' box in  my journal.

I'm not gonna set any strict goals this time around. all I want is to read the three physical copies that I have. maybe If aku rajin, I will try and read the Twilight 'reverse' version again. we'll see.

Just in time for Halloween too!

but i doubt I can finish all 4 before 31st Oct. like I said, no pressure.

Ok, that is all for now.

Question: what is the one book or book series you don't mind going back to read over and over again? share you answer in the comment box below.

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Updates!!

Hi guys,

Yes, I have been gone! 
I don't know if I am back coz I said that last time and I went back to being gone.
So.. 🤷

Life updates!
Obviously I'm still very active in real life (or I wouldn't be doing this post now 😜)



First update!
I turned 32 on 10th Sep. 

and I got myself a new car. 

"Wahhh so fancy~" I can already here you guys.
No. 
One, it's a loan. Two, I have a project for buying a new car (i'll update on this nanti 😉). and
Three, buying a new car is actually a long-time-coming thing. I wanted to 'buy' one back in July 2019 but becoz purchasing a car is a long time commitment (in Brunei, as far as I know, it's a loan for 7 years), I have to give a thorough consideration; will I be able to commit myself to it? how will my budget be once I have it? is it sustainable? that kind of considerations.
Some smart-ass will be thinking, "tapi ko single, apa yang kan ko ingau kn?" (but you're single, what are you worrying for?) Well, to that, I say, SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS!



which bring us to the next update; my thoughts on being Single and Worry-less.

For a long time, I've been hearing this "You're still single, no commitment" or "wait until you have family, lagi banyak kan dipikirkan" or "eh single, tapi stress"
💆
Ya Allah, give me the patience to remain classy in responding to this ricecooker!

For the longest time as well, I succumbed to feeling that yes, they were right. I'm single. I shouldn't be like this or I shouldn't feel like this. I should be carefree.
until..I come to my senses and brace!
Every one of us, every EACH of us live differently. I have the rights to worry just as much as the next person!
Sapa cakap aku single aku inda buleh stress?! who said that? who set that standard?!
My stress, my worry, or even my my-head-is-so-full-i-can't-brain-anymore, has nothing to do with me being single.
I don't understand how other people associate stress/worry/deep-thoughts with marital status.
THE FUCK WITH THAT SHIT!
Yes, aku single. but do you know, and I am speaking from my own experience here, that I have more commitment and responsibilities than that of a married couple?

Here's a chart to explain:

Ok, right. this chart only talk about MONEY and we all know money is not everything (everything else needs money tho 🤔)
BUT
trust me, when you don't have much, it becomes a struggle. AND I'm not saying I don't have enough. I have enough, ya Allah, alhamdulillah. 
BUT again.
My stress was never solely becoz how much money I don't have.
hmm how can I explain this better?
I'm not by any means "struggling" but imagine, you just have enough to get by and add that up with your environment; at home, at work, or even school! add those stress up, just try and add them up, and tell me ko inda stress? 😕
Sedangkan, from where I sit, listening to your worry about money WHEN I KNOW you have so much more than me, just add work-load, sudah tah ko jadi a banshee.
So, please, imagine, aku single ani, managing home and personal finance on my own, dengan workplace yg very testing, ko rasa, aku will remain, stress-free? I don't have the emotional range of a teaspoon like Ron.

WHO SET THE STANDARD THAT EMOTIONS ARE ASSOCIATED TO YOUR MARITAL STATUS?!

On the contrary, pasal aku single ani tah membuatkan aku kana bagi so much responsibilities. becoz people thought I have NO commitment and they forgotten they have already given me so much before they add up a new one. like, hello? I'm drowning here.

Someone just said to me, "in other words, your the breadwinner" and only then I realized, "yeah, I am the breadwinner" becoz, portions of my money goes to the house and other expenses while other people's money goes to themselves. Like, damn.

Anyway, whatever, sis redha. sis moving on now.

Onward! to the final updates for this post; Depression.

We (when I said we, I meant the kpop world) were shocked once again with the news of dead by suicide.
Sulli, ex-member of f(x), artist under SM, died on 14th Oct by suicide and it was strongly due to the non-stop malicious comment towards her. 
For once, I was numb. becoz she was my least fav in f(x) and I had one post being so mean about her, and I was very upset with that but I can't erase what I have done and for that action, I am sorry, Sulli.
Even though I mentioned in this blog many times before that we will never know what's really going on within that company and what's really going on among themselves, I should have kept my frustration to myself or in my personal diary where only my eyes can see. I should have kept that comment offline. I am truly and deeply sorry, Sulli. my opinions are not your responsibility.
You don't deserve the hate. 
Yes, I only posted one heat post on her but that could be the one heat comment that triggers her. 
I feel responsible.

Currently, in the kpop world, they are petitioning the Sulli Act, an act to punish malicious comment towards celebrities, which they are tying to push for their something election in December 2019. I pray the bill will pass.
People were quick to mention our Jonghyun during this sad times but I am fine. 
After a few minutes updating myself with the news, I decided for myself that, it was better for me to not read so much into it anymore becoz, reading blames upon blames towards SM, towards her EX, towards the anti, won't bring her back. Damage is done. Only thing to do now, is to be a better person from now onward.

Depression is still a taboo topic in this part of the world. 
I have my fair share on that. which I decide from now onward, to never disclose to anyone anymore.
Nobody really care.

So, what do we learn from this post?

1. turning 32 doesn't stop you from starting over with your life.
2. Single people has worries. You, non-single, family person, have worries but at least you have your spouse to share them with. And if you FREAKIN rich heir, you don't have the rights WHATSOEVER to tell me I can't worry about shit. Go sit down, Gemma.
3. Mean comments are mean no matter how well you can justify it. I'm gonna try and not do that anymore. 
4. it's not hard to be kind.
5. I am a strong person.
6. Japan trip 2020 will be my motivation to stay sane. ...LOL!

Ok,

bye.

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