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Hi guys!
my previous post is morbid (an exaggeration but ok)

hahaha

So, for this post, lets talk, Barbie.

I forgot if I ever mentioned it here but I am a huge fan of Barbie Life in the Dreamhouse series.

Huge huge fan!

Found the series while hanging out at Bazilah's house 2-3 years ago
but they somewhat stopped at Ep 75 and I was very upset about that.
The series actual run was from Jan 2012 to Sep 2015 (I Googled it xP)

Tonight, as I wanted to rewatch all those LITD series, I found a new Barbie series called Barbie Vlog.

I found them on Barbie Official Youtube channel. (you can go and search for them there)

currently its up to episode 34.
each episode runs at 3 minutes top. Similar to LITD.
and
Barbie's a lot younger in her Vlog.
She was an adult in LITD.
Hmm...

anyway,
one episode tug on my heartstrings.




First of all, I've been long not believing in Monday Blues, so when the Episode was named 'Feeling Blue', I kinda rolled my eyes.

Second of all, we all really need to watch a video from start to finish. same goes to reading a post. before we could make a debate about it.

Third of all, I am not about to start a debate here.

LOL

anyway,

When Barbie said "Maybe I'm just being unfair to myself"
It got me thinking, "Yeah, Maybe I am"

Maybe I set myself up so high that when I fall, I got hurt so bad.

I've been into a lot of Emotional Training at work for the past years that I know I can be a better employee from it.

But after my last training, I realized, maybe I set the bar too high for myself.

Maybe I should chill a little.

I shouldn't be too hard on myself when other people sucks.

coz I'm not.

they are.

After acknowledging that, I become a little more relax and start taking my feelings into considerations.

coz who else is going to, right??

Thus, 

If I'm feeling down and not feel like being positive, then let me be.

Sometimes its not about you.

Maybe I'm just moody.

. . .

Barbie's Vlog always end with PACE which stands for Positive Attitude Changes Everything.

right

. . .

I see you in My Dream

I've been dreaming of Travelling Solo for almost 3 years now.

The feeling is stronger now, during this Travel Fair promotion period.

I've mentioned going solo to Japan last time and I still wanted to go solo there again sometime this year and next year but I agreed to go with my sister instead.

but that remained a plan.

I might still go alone.

When I said I want to travel alone, I don't mean the adventure, climbing mountant, go diving in the ocean, jungle tracking kinda solo travel (coz that's what I found when I Google image for solo traveler)
When I said I want to travel solo, I just meant going to cities that I've been to before (eg Kuala Lumpur, Singapore, and Osaka/Tokyo).

My only reason why I want to travel solo is because I want to go at my own pace to where ever I wana go.

Just like how I am here in Brunei;
If I asked friends to go out and they wanted to come along, great.
If I asked friends to go out and they didn't want to or couldn't come along, no problem. I'll still go on my own.

maybe I'm just impatient. (▰˘◡˘▰)

because when decided I wanted to go belayar somewhere and people couldn't make it on the dates that I suggested and they suggest me go on their suggested dates, I become impatient.
I mean, this is my plan, shouldn't you be adjusting your schedule around my plan if you decided to join me?

I know that sounded mean but it's the truth.

I made myself sound selfish too but with the current mental state that I am in, I really don't care.

. . .


Edit: 8th Apr 2017.

I drafted this like end of March but I was not in a good mood composing it thus I decided not to post it out of anger.
Today, I'm in this mental state where I no longer gonna fret about smallest of details in my problems and just go with it.
I am in calm state in midst of the storm.
I don't know how else to explain how my mind works these past few weeks.
Not that I ever know how 

┐(‘～`；)┌

I'm going crazy.

. . .

Face sheet Mask

I am addicted to face mask.

 bought at Guardian, Miri, in January. Proud to tell you that I've used all.

Top 3: I asked my sister to buy me from Guardian, when she was in Miri. (LOL)

Middle and Bottom: I bought them in Brunei's The Face Shop.

I started using them in Sep/Oct last year.
I bought 4 individual sheets first to start off. used once a week.

and then, now, I think I'm mostly addicted in buying them.

I used them! of course! but I should stop, coz I have enough to cover me for the next two months.

I need another hobby that doesn't involve spending money.

. . .

a/n: Not sorry about the sudden HSM outburst.

The Saem

another south Korean cosmetic adventure with me.

Previously, SHINee endorsed Etude House.

Now, they are endorsing another brand called The Saem.

I hated it at first coz in Brunei, Etude House no longer around.

and the other Korean cosmetics brand sold in Brunei are; The Face Shop, Laneige, Skin Food, Missha, and Holika Holika.

but I think after a year or within the year SHINee endorsing  The Saem, I found out yg di Miri, Sarawak, Malaysia has The Saem!

I found out in December 2016 and promised myself yg I will visit that store in Januar 2017.

which I did.

 wehwehweh

but since I bought my facial skin care at The Face Shop, I bought below from The Saem.

Cleansing Tissue, ConcealerFoundation, Lip Scrub, and Lipstick.

I really like this packaging. So nice.

That Face Sheet Mask was a gift.

I asked the sales girls if ada cOnew. both of them went, "siapa tu?"

Me with muka 'you are kidding, right' but decided to laugh it off and asked again, "ada yg gambar lain?"

With their dialect they answered me, they don't have and "only muka ani saja" to which I genuinely laughed at.

Seriously in that kadai, they only have that one picture of SHINee and two photos of Minho. Like, he's not the only SHINee member, ok?

:P

anyway,

I've used the lipstick and ConcealerFoundation.

the lipstick I love becoz its very buttery (as in smooth application) and doesn't dry matte. very moisturizing.

the ConcealerFoundation love most becoz it does exactly as its called; concealed and a good base. but so far, I never actually use any powder after I put this on. to me it looked more natural without the dry powder.

I'm a member at The Saem too.

hahahaha member everywhere!

but since I'm currently using all my skin care from The Face Shop, I don't know if I'm buying anymore from The Saem after this.

coz I seldom wear make up thus chances of me needing a new stock is very slim.

Jadi ta tedapat barang The Saem where cSHINee endorsed.

muahahahaha

#KeranaMuKpop

#SHINeetakemymoney

. . .

a little bit of me

as you all might have figured it out,
I'm an easily pissed person.

So, below screencap pissed me off.

Why?

one,
how very impatient of you.

two.
fcuk off.

and three,
how do you actually respond to people when they compliment you of your beauty/prettiness?


All my life, and I'm not exaggerating, I always think that I'm "not pretty enough" or in my worst case scenario, I feel like I'm "ugly" "I know I'm always second best", etc, that sort of things.

at the same time, I've heard people compliment me; "manis sanyum nya" "you're actually quite a looker" "you're very pretty, Az" to mention a few. and when I hear this, at that moment, I felt good and thanked you.

but do you know what's inside my head before and after that compliment?

of course you don't. so let me tell you.

My mind set will always be "I wish I look like her" or "I just want to be pretty"

and I mean, ALWAYS.

you know in every movie/drama ever made where there is a female-less-attractive character who guys often skipped over or never noticed her existent when standing next to the hot female character? I relate to that girl so hard.

Coz that's how my real life is.

As I grow older, I talked myself into believing that my 'inside' yg ugly, that's why they don't like me.

do you know how fucked up that was? telling yourself that you're not a good person and to just deal with it?

It's very fucked up.

No one should feel that way.

and that guy in the screencap?

If he compliments someone and expected to be praise back with emojis, He can just go and eat dung.

Maybe she is not used to compliments
Maybe she does not know what to say other than "aww Thank you"
OR
Maybe she already know yg she's pretty and typing "aww Thank You" to be humble
Maybe she noticed you and doesn't have any interest in you that instead of typing "ewww pls go away" she typed "aww thank you"

HAHAHAH
nah ko!

either way,
that guy sucks.
becoz to me, if he's a nice guy, he wouldn't be saying 'bitch' to her.
if he's a nice guy, he'll find a better way of phrasing his frustration.
*shrug* Just my opinion.

also, to me, just as soon as he was praising her prettiness,
he went on saying those mean things to her.
He made her feel good one moment and that made her feel like she was shit in the next all in the same text.
You don't go around making people feel good JUST to make them feel like shit.

You just don't.

Maybe you have your mind set to not accepting bullshit from other people

but you shouldn't be sprouting bullshit to other people in the first place.

#Ain'tThrowingShade
#Triggered
#EatDung


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