SPY X FAMILY

 Hi gais.

lets deviate a bit from my 2024 recap posts.

I'm currently (4 Jan 2025) rewatching SPYXFAMILY; now at season 1 ep 6. Kan aku tu kekajutan yg season 3 just ended. and I wasn't satisfied with that season's ending. So I thought, lets do a rewatch. 

To be very honest, every since season 2, I think masa atu aku liat but not really. Most of the time I had my netflix played in the background saja. and seeing how I don't understand Japanese yet, having the anime as my background noise and pretended like I was listening to to a podcast is wasteful 😅 The same went on when I was watching season 3. 

Anyways, so I'm doing a rerun now. 

AND DAMN! I'M IN MY FEELS!

There was a reason why I fell in love with SPYXFAMILY in the first season.

LOID FORGER IS SUCH A GREAT DAD TO ANYA!!!!! walaupun it started awkward but right away, Loid actually cares for Anya's well being. argh! my heart! 💖

Either I'm realizing on this rerun but look at how Loid was holding on to Anya here ~ it's so natural to him! You would've thought Yor will be the one doing this! BUT I guess kira cYor kan the "step mom" so that is why cLoid yang a lot closer to Anya.

also that Save Pwencess Anya in a Castle episode?! argh! My heart! 💗 Mula2, aku pun cringe meliat but when Loid got red faced realizing he had to do this in front of the other agents but still played along?? 💘

I think Loid proposal to Yor is also cute walaupn a little bit psychotic but seeing how their characters' nature are also chaotic, 🤷‍♀️ make sense.

And lastly, just found this on Google and I thought I should it here too. Very cute.

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Penny Thoughts

composed/edited last: 15th Apr
updated 20 Dec 6:32pm
ready to post 20 Dec 7:40pm

This draft was titled Internet and after reading and retyping everything, 
I'm just gonna title it Penny Thoughts (coz Penny For Your Thoughts)


I didn't know how to internet until I was 15.
But only becoz I don't have a complete excess to it.
I couldn't even 'search' for Westlife with whatever search engine there was back then.

I don't know where I'm going with this but bear with me, yeah?


I don't how I started, but whenever anything happened, I would recall back everything that I did before that particular happening.

For example, when bad things happened, I would go back and think of the things I did that wasn't particularly right or nice.

come to think of it, I only ever wonder of the bad things, never the good things.

Sometime I remember old memories in details and I don't like it.
It's funny how I remember them like that but can't remember the important stuff for school/work to safe my life. ๏̯͡๏

I think the reason why I remember the embarrassing part of my life the most is because God is telling me stop being so judgmental coz I'm worse. LOL

Stopped judging people who are less fortunate, like not knowing certain things, becoz you didn't know better back then too.

I think the reason why I was hard on some people is becoz their behavior now reminded me of myself back then and I don't want them to end up doing embarrassing things like I did. (◡‿◡✿)

I want people to be better than me

or, to put it simply

i hate seeing myself in other people, it's not really a pleasant thing to experience.

that is why I want you to be better than I was. than I am.

You gotta.


I was once told, me feeling bad for myself is all in my head and that no one could help me with that.

I don't think I'm even mildly a depress person but that is not something you should say to anyone. If you can't offer a word of comfort, the least you could do is to just nod and make a sympathetic expression.

what if I'm a real depress individual? what if I have suicidal tendency?



Where am I going with this? ◐.̃◐

Right

hahahaha


I'm not going anywhere with this coz I'm only trying to write down my thoughts.

😂😂

I told someone that 2 years prior (me telling her that story), I was depressed. I didn't realize that I was until it passed. When I was telling her that, I only meant how that work environment made me depressed. you know, sharing stories and shiz.
2 years later, you wanna know what I found out ? 
This person told someone else, "She's not depressed. Just seeking for attention"

and I was like, ◔̯◔ "Wow. Thanks".

I think I've talked about depression WAYYYYYYYYY before Dec 2017.

Just becoz I finally more open about it now, doesn't mean I'm going mainstream, ok?

Even if it's now mainstream, that doesn't mean it's any less real to the real sufferer.

Sigh.

I think, with everything that's been going on, it's coming back.

I'm scared that I'm losing it.

Which is why I'm trying to busy myself with so many things.

It's driving me nuts.


For months now, my head has been railing with so many thoughts. 

I mean it always has been but now it's overwhelming.

I feel myself feeling overwhelm by it.


the FAQs include;

Why I feel stagnant?

Why everything I do doesn't seem to be right?

Why is everyone so annoying?

Why can't I stand up?

Why am I not getting any better?


They say I will get over this, there'll be a better day, grass is just as green on this side, time heals all wounds, this too will passed.


But all I want is for it to pass now.

. . .

Not the only one anymore

So, I was browsing my explore page on Instagram

and I saw this



Tarus ku macam, hyperventilating! 

remember that time when I was doing this exact same thing?! (Click Here) 
of course, people have their own views and obviously me and this person have slightly different views on who we think is similar to whom.

So, aku click lah the user name, and found out she posted the rest of her 'versus' or 'version' or 'similarity' or how ever you want to call it.





Excited as I was, I clicked on the OT5 picture 




and saw that she captioned, "before knowing SHINee ...Westlife is my favorite boyband"

Sekali, I comment, "OMG! Me too!! Hiii *waving emoji*"

LOL!

and she replied, "Hahaha hai!!! *Grinning emoji*"

I am so happy about that post! and I heart them all! ahahah

I've always thought yg I'm the only Westlife fan left in this region. So, seeing this kind of post makes me so happy knowing that I am not alone *being dramatic*.

I can sleep well tonight 

LOL~

. . .