I am recovering from a fever caused by my tonsillitis. or "tongsil" as I like to pronounce it. No, not an excuse as to why I'm not making any post. I'm not posting becoz I ran out of topic for June. (▰˘◡˘▰)
Here we are in July, starting the other half of the year. Hmm.. reflection time?
I started off slow this year with blogging; 1 post in January and 1 post in April. and I'm still not sure what drove me to make 12 posts in May. I guess I was just motivated to do so 🤷. I know what drove me with making 11 posts in June; competition with myself. LOL I know, I have issues.
Anyway, reflections..hmmm..
I've done a lot of self reflects this year, in fact, I've been doing that a lot since last year. mostly on things like, "Why is this happening to me?" "Oh maybe it's karma" "I should control myself from doing that/ acting like that" "Not everybody gonna like me but that doesn't mean I should stop being nice" "Don't be too nice though or people may step on you"
Also, I've been thinking a lot about "Cutting people off". I had this thought a lot last year too. I'm not saying I'm gonna be better off without these people or that I'm gonna get lonely since my circle of friends is already so small, but I think, I just wanna be happy. and if cutting people yang continue to bring me heartaches will bring me peace, then, so be it.
Let's talk about Happiness.
to me, shopping, in any type, shape, or form, is my temporary happiness.
What I've been longing for is true happiness; a peace of mind, and a lighter heart.
That's the kind of happiness that I'm looking for.
I'm not sure I'm getting there or not yet but I'm pushing thru. Hwaiting 💪
Speaking of happiness, coming back to this blog bring me a sense of purpose. a sense of purpose leads to accomplishing a certain task. and finishing a task brings me happiness/joy, no matter how small.
I know me posting here doesn't give me any financial income 🙄 but it gives me something to look forward to. It gives me the momentum I need to practice on for my next project. You know, posting at least once a week, preparing notes on what to post, etc. Blogging keeps me busy, it helps me from just looking at my phone for hours at night, it stimulates my brain. and as mentioned above, when my mind feels that sense of accomplishment, I feel happy. 💖
Another part of happiness, I am back to reading!
I finished reading Wonder by R.J. Palacio and I feel accomplished and happy 🤗
Currently reading (already half way thru) Songs About A Girl by Chris Russell. I believe this book has a sequel. I remember seeing it at the book shop but I'm not sure and I haven't Google to be sure.
wow, yo girl can write!
dam!
Ok, i think, that is enough for this post. Thank you for reading this far. 🙇♀️
I'm planning on making a post about my scary experience in Seoul next. So, please anticipate. 😉
Until then, ciao~
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I hope you are doing ok now!! :C
ReplyDeleteFor me, happiness is still a blurry sight- I still don't know. I read tons of theories about it but they seem super idealists (and I hate it tbh haha) but they might be right, I have no idea. I know that cute trinkets, shoppings and food make me happy but I wonder if there is anything beyond that. :| /puttingonthinkingcap
Oh, to add: I cut lots of people too once I don't meet them on regular basis. I do feel guilty but it never lasts that long, only a week at most haha then I moved on. When I finally talked to them again after years it felt great, but when I meet them again, suddenly I rmb why I cut them off to begin with hahahaa my life is a whole world of inconsistencies XD
DeleteI am recovered! ┏(＾0＾)┛┗(＾0＾) ┓
Deletehahahah I laughed out loud at "suddenly I rmb why I cut them off to begin with" 👈 same.
omg! how can I forget? food definitely makes me happy too! lol
but, yeah...I'm just torn between being nice or be even. 🤷 hard to be consistent in our world nowadays, you gotta continue to change and adapt all the damn time.