the Fear

it's an old song. first listened to it, last year, during our annual dinner. it's so general-meaning. I like it. xD it's been awhile since i last post a lyric, so i guess for my last July post, i put this one up.

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don't care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

And I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
Cause everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at The Sun and I'll look in The Mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm onto a winner

Chorus
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
Cause I'm being taken over by the fear

Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and cussing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I'm packing plastic
And that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
And it's not my fault it's how I'm programmed to function
I'll look at The Sun and I'll look in The Mirror
I'm on the right track yeah we're onto a winner

Chorus
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
Cause I'm being taken over by the fear

Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner

Chorus
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
Cause I'm being taken over by the fear

the Fear (i Don't know) - Lily Allen.

SHINee-mida xD

yes, the boys are back. SHINee 2nd Album; Lucifer.



the first single is *SO addictive. I'm not surprise if it becomes my top 25 soon. ahahah and the mv is *SHINY awesome! ahah i especially love the dance routine. it's as awesome (if not better) as Ring Ding Dong's. DAEBAK!

here's the tracklist from the album:-
(list taken out from allkpop.com. *thank you*)

01. UP & DOWN
02. Lucifer
03. Electric Heart
04. A-Yo
05. 욕(慾) (Obsession)
06. 화살 (Quasimodo)
07. 악 (Shout Out)
08. WOWOWOW
09. Your Name
10. Life
11. Ready or Not
12. Love Pain
13. 사.계.후 (Love Still Goes On)

I've listened to all. erm, one (or more) yg i remember liking are A-Yo and WOWOWOW. Life's and Quasimodo's vocal arrangement is *SO good~! esp Onew's vocal. amazing~~. Lucifer tu jgn kira lah. atu, sudah semestinya. ahaha

I feel so bad.

coz It feels like am replacing SuJu with SHINee. ahaha juz feels like it sja..sigh. maybe becoz I've spent so much time (for the last few days) watching and downloading SHINee's Hello Baby atu kali.

and speaking of Hello Baby, it's a reality show on KBS. the show is about celebraties taking care of a child. and this time around SHINee become appa (dads). SHINee's one aired in January 2010 (kh?) It was so sweet. I fell in love with SHINee all over again from this show. *sigh dreamily* I know i said I like Minho (I STILL DO, MAI! ahaha) but after watching HB, i think am falling for Onew sangtae too. TAPI KAN, smua pun drg kiut wah rh HB tu. even cJonghyun yg aku nda berapa suka atu pun aku suka wah rh HB. ahahah oh, well...they'd make a good appa one day, that's for sure. and, I didn't know Key is like, girlish (he's like, the umma in that show) and Teamin (the maknae) is like, the baby expert, always doin research and such to help baby Yooguen's development or how to deal with baby's tantrums.
and the baby, Yoogeun, he's so lucky. and he's *SHINY cute! and they kept on saying that he looked like Minho. I failed to see the resemblance. ahahah

alright, this should be enough for this post. Next post, I think am going to post some lyrics up. I think lah, liat mood cana lu...

and to SHINee, like Leaderssi Eeteuk said on MUBank last time, "SHINee comeback, Hwaiting!". ahaha

p/s: the (*), it doesn't feel right to use SUPER in this post. ahaha psl, usually, when I put SUPER in any of my post, I have SuJu in mind. So, it doesn't feel right to use SUPER in a SHINee post, does it? :P haha juz my point of view. and it's my blog, watchu gona do bout it? ahaha

the Need to

I feel the need to post this now or otherwise, i will never ever going to post it. So, let's cut down to the chase.



1) Inception.
watched this with the gengs; Buzz, Kuch and Judin. supposed sma Zawir jua but he couldn't make it. So, juz us four.
Leo DiCaprio was in it. Ellen Page too.
character(s) I like:- Arthur and Eames. they were like, hating each other and enjoying when the other was in pain or the sort. ahaha
minus how am feeling bout the movie now: They're all brilliant actors.
rate on the movie? A for the graphic. B for believable characters. and C for storyline.
APATAH MEANING NYA TU? WAS IT A DREAM FROM THE BEGINNING? or there's gona be an Inception 2? if ada, Bring it On! ahaha like, NOT! cukup th mental skali...

2) Salt.
Yeah, I know. It was not in my movie-to-watch list. cKuch bwa, kakanya mau liat. ;D
Angelina Jolie was in it.
Action pack berabis. mcm, Literally Action speaks louder than Word.
Russian history. i like~ and I always knew that Russians were always brutal when it comes to torture, so, I need to push pass that to accept this movie. ahaha (ada lagi tu~ xP)
rate? A+ for the actions and storyline. i like the fact that aku nda suspek apa2 from the beginning of the movie. (my brain is working a lil slow xP).

So, yeah.. I wana go movie marathon the Sorcerer's Apprentice and Despicable Me. when bisai?

Hari Itu dalam Sejarah...

on 27th July 2010, at around 8ish to 9(almost)10ish, I went to Klinik Kerajaan di Berakas.

why? Sore throat (felt so karing) and slight fever.

When I got there, it showed that my temp was 37.9degree So, i got sent to the "fever clinic".

waited there for almost 1hour plus. and at around 9plus plus got called in to see the doctor.

So, the doctor asked me what's wrong and i told him about my sore throat. then he agreed about me having a fever (coz he'd seen in the NURSE's report yg my temp was 37.9). there was a small paused and he said, "there's a possbility that you're pregnant" AND I WAS LIKE "what??!!" and he said, "am a doctor, i've seen alot of things" but i cut him off and said, "but am not married yet" and he kept on insisting that he's a doctor and he has seen a lot of things and that people get pregnant (or simply he wanted to say yg people have sex EVEN before they got married).
AND THEN he asked me when was the last time I had my period. i told him early june since i HONESTLY could not remember when and he was convinced that I'm pregnant. you know what makes me so angry? that he said, if i don't have my period by next month, i should check on a pregnancy test plus he said, "no matter what you said"
before he dismissed me, he give me advices about eating bubur or soup if i don't have the appetite to eat then something about using 'wap air panas' to sooth down the mucus in my throat.
I was SUPER shocked. i walked out of the room without another word.

So, mistakes he made:-
1) he didn't bother checking down my throat. I have a case of 'tongsil bangkak' which usually the cause of my high fever.
2) he only check the left side of my lungs.
3) he ASSUMES.

Mistakes I made:-
1) i should have told him that I dun even have a boyfriend instead of saying "am not married yet"
2) i should have counter attack (again) by saying "So you think I sleep around lah?"
3) i should have insist on him checking my throat
4) when he said "i've seen alot of things" i should have shot back, "what kind of things? Miracles? like Nabi Allah, Isa?"
5) I need to remember when's the last time i had my period. when I got home, i checked, it was end of June.

I was so angry I couldn't rest well yesterday. I kept on waking up feeling like I wana go back to that clinic and slap him in the face. what kind of doctor are you?? 1) he humiliates me infront of his "staff" 2) he didn't even bother checking my throat.
SIAL punya doctor. klu nda mau jadi doctor and check patients thoroughly, JANGAN JADI DOCTOR.

or maybe he assumed those things becoz of my red hair? COME ON LAH! judge-mental much?? do you know that many of those girls who wears tudong, does prayers (tunggang langgak) day and night and pretended to be alim are the one yg actually paling be-ulah dari aku? I know bukan semua plang cematu but do you know? GAWD! one-minded banar. sudah lah ko!

Lucky he prescribes me with antibiotics and allergy pill for the throat. If this is some kind of a joke that he planned on patients, he got the wrong one. I have his name on my MC and am not afraid to file a complaint.

Maybe you think that I'm overreacting but you should see his face when he convince HIMSELF that I was pregnant. stupid that doctor! mana inda medical practices dBrunei ani are falling behind. having such person sitting on a chair that are meant for REAL doctor. stupid.

awu, luka ego ku. sakit hati ku. and from today onwards, nda ku mau lagi tu k klinik kerajaan ah. bodoh betul itu doctor. (awu, inda ku kira, ku sumpah berabis ya ni. peduli ku!)

Are you ready?

annyeong~~

Long time no see...

I shall post my view on Inception on the next calender date ( I promise you, it won't be pretty xP) and for now, I'm juz gonna post this...xD

tada~

what do you think?

I always thought camera shots are deceiving. So, i guess u'll just have to wait till we meet in person to see how the color actually turns out on my hair. ahahah

BUT I LIKE IT! although..

i was scared at first, when I saw the changes in colors when the dye was still on my hair. I thought it'd be extreme. but it turned out subtle. am glad.

mission coloring my hair for the second time? Succeed.

p/s: lupa ku warna nya ah. all I can remember is Auburn. Red Auburn? i don't know. I forgot. :S ahaha

Bored much?

yup. am bored. I don't even know what am doing half the time.

neways, I was checking over my DVDs the other day and there are still alot of them yg I havent watch. :S why do I keep buying new ones again? ahahah Gawd! i need to stop this obsession (shop for things I don't need)

So, I watched Greta last Sunday 18th July. Hilary Duff was in it (and later on, I found out yg she's the Executive Producer).
and~ I don't like that movie. It's so...I don't know, trying to hard perhaps? I don't know. I don't like it. oh the characters are believable as the synopsis says but I don't know. Are you people actually out of ideas what kind of movie to produce? and when the movie finished kan, I was like, "that was short. I haven't even finished processing what's the movie was about" ahahaha...

and I read somewhere bout her previous movie, 'What Goes Up'
(which I have AND havent watch xP), and they said something about "Hopes it's (Greta) better than What Goes Up".. So, am contemplating whether or not to watch What Goes Up. :S

then I realised. This Greta reminds me of some previous years' movie, Georgia's Rule starring Lindsay Lohan.


this two have the same plot; Bad Girls being sent to Grandma's place. and for them to be not 'bad' anymore. Greta is almost similar (in many ways) to Georgia's Rule. It's crazy.

So, conclusion = I HATE both movies! (I wonder if I ever post bout Georgia's Rule in my previous blog. I juz hope I didn't say I like that movie :S ahaha)

p/s: am bored as hell...but in no mood jua..cana kn tu? I wish I could stay at home for the longest time. No work. No hassle. No nothing. wouldn't life be easy then?

finally..Spring Waltz

yup..finally..I finished watching Spring Waltz..



i took me what? 2months? more? I'm pretty sure more. malas ku check my previous2 post yoh.

So, as always with the Korean drama. Love triangle. Heartaches. Tears (BUCKET of it). Complications. the Bitch. what else?

OH! MY SIWON!! ahaha he's SUPER HAWT. well, not as hot as he is now, but HAWT! his character was so annoyingly funny (hmm..m not so sure now. coz all i remember is that I went all giddy when his scene was up. ahaha this reminded me of that time when I was watching 14 Blades and how I reacted towards Wuchun's appearances in that movie. xP)

ANYWAY..overall, minus all the complications and heartache that movie had caused me (yup, I was feeling so annoyed thruout the 3 dics that I watched since yesterday afternoon), am giving the overall series B-. juz for the fun of it. xP but the ending is quite nice and acceptable. So, A- for the ending coz after much consideration (mcm apa sja..ahaha) I find the ending sweet~ ;D.

Oh, have i mentioned that i DID NOT shed a tear for this series? No? well, now am telling ya. Heartless ku meliat ceta ah. ahaha annoyed berabis wah ku. oh, I love the part where Daniel Henney, who played Philip, spoke in English. well, most of his part was. I find it nice coz i dun have to worry bout missing the subtitle when he did. and too bad Jae Ha n Philip didn't continue to speak in German towards the final episodes. they stopped soon after the reach Korea. hmm..too bad. It would have been nice.

whatelse? oh. that Jae Ha/ Soo Ho character, is super cute. what's his real name? *googled* Seo Do-Young. hmm..I have no idea how to pronounce that. ahaha sama, that Eun Young character *googled again* played by Han Hyo Joo, towards the end of dics 3, I noticed something. She's like the female version of Eunhyuk of SuJu. banar~!! the smile, the lips, the eyes when she cries (yes, I've seen Eunhyuk cries alot of times). Sama~! so I wonder if they're like brother and sister p seeing the name, doubt it. tapi SAMA~!! ahahah majal~ xP

I guess that's all for now.

will post something else on the next calender date.

annyeong~ xD

Here It Comes..

i decided to post this one first before the other, which, yup you've guest it, I will post on the next calender date.


My Quote Project; No. 4

“We all love to hate
and let others lead the way...

Same questions we keep asking
won’t hear the answers
Cause we're scared of what we'll find...” - Nothing to Say by Slash (feat. M Shadows of A7X)

“All of my regret
will wash away somehow
but I cannot forget
the way I feel right now” – Rob Thomas’s Little Wonders.

“Cause you’re so perfect
and no one measures up
all by yourself
you’re all messed up” - the Veronicas’ Everything I’m Not.

“They say that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe
But I, I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave
Sometimes I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder” - the Rasmus’ In the Shadows.

“Why is this all so confusing
Complicated and consuming
Why does all this make me angry
I wanna go back to being happy” - Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus’- Don’t wana be Torn.

some may realise, that for the last few posts, it seems like most of the quotes are a lil harsh or devil-ish. no, not gona say "I'm sorry" coz I DO mean 'em. that's how am feeling at the mo.

and here's something for the newbie (you MAY know who you are..): Once ko buat jahat, go all the way. DON'T BE SORRY. klu ko sorry, jan buat jahat lain kali..araseo?! [learn it from someone yg pernah ada experience mcm ko]

can I continue my movie list here? of course I can..

i wana watch the Inception.
Leo DiCaprio. n that Page girl from Juno? trailer looks nice. mcm 2012. gravity n all. intriguing. i wana watch.

0_o?? ahaha

yeah, ahahah. am bored and I'm actually torn between to post 'this' first or 'that' one. You know how I feel about posting two things in one calender date, right? If you don't, let me clear things up for you; I DON'T LIKE IT.

it's not that i can't, i can ( i did it twice or more already BUT still, countable xP), i juz choose not to. It's, hmm.. (how to put this nicely?) Not nice.

Still not seeing the sense/ point/ or watever? Here's another thing; IT'S MY BLOG, AKU PUNYA SUKA LAH!!

So..tik tok. What should I post about first? *organising things on my MSWords*

I shall write bout this dulu; I haven't watch Toy Story 3 and also Eclipse. bali DVD th sja ni usulnya. ahah kesian~

Have I mentioned yg aku mau liat the Sorcerer's Apprentice? (to watch the Trailer, Click Here)


n the Last Airbender?


n the Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader?
(seriously, I couldn't find the Officially movie poster. but I'll post the link for the trailer lah. Click Here)

ahaha I know I've mentioned the first two. Narnia, DEFINITELY goin to watch it tym premiere. I DON'T CARE. eh, wait. main sudah the Last Airbender kh?? I hope alum coz I don't wana missed the premiere. xP I juz hope I wont be too disappointed once aku liat nanti coz I have so much expectation for that Movie. sigh~~

Hey, look! I've make a post. ahaha I shall continue with the other post on the next calender date. ;D

annyeong~

I Hate My Obsession...

yes, thats right. I HATE my obsession.

Why?

Pasal ia slalu buat aku nangis~~~!!!

bukn cWestlife eh..atu, zaman ku dulu2 sja tu xP. ani psl cSuJu.

their 4th album Bonamana repackaged album was released last few days (kh?) and there are 4 new songs. 3 of them; No Other, All My Heart and Goodbye (A Short Journey), brought tears to my eyes. because all three of them has one meaning; SuJu + E.L.F = One Love.

sigh.

gila eh.

prediction was that Bonamana would be SuJu final album. psl, all member will be entering the army one by one. 5th July (which is today), cKangin masuk army. yatah.

FALUIZ! ahaha bahapa th ku ni tears2 ani? mcm nada kaja lain sja...

oh well.. enjoy while it last...

By the way -

HAPEE BUFDAY PAPA FILAN!!

31st is it? *calculate first* yup 31st. you're getting old, lad. ahaha

Good Morning July

yup! a VERY good morning to you all.

I juz realised that I haven't posted about Karate Kid: Jaden Smith and Jackie Chan.

So, Karate Kid. watched June 19th. with Kuch and Zawir. was actually wanted to watch Toy Story 3 but since show till 9:30pm sja that day and full, cancel and watch Karate Kid. show 10:30pm.

IT WAS AWESOME.

you know me. anything martial arts fascinates me. xD what I love about this movie is that it didn't drag. and I laughed real crazy from the beginning! ahaha remember the part, "Ni hao mao? yadda yadda~" "Dude, I'm from Detroit" "Oh..*awkward pause*..what's up?" HAHAHAH it was almost predictable but no. the Learning process is awesome. and of course, the ending. best of all. (awu, mls ku kn buat pnjng2, nda ku tpikir jua. xP).. So, A++. esp when I found out yg Will and Jada Smith are two of its producers. *wink* am a Smith Family biased. ahahah xP
and speaking of Smith, cJaden ah, bnr2 mcm bapanya. gila!! fall in love ku slajur. ahaahhah bnr~ like father like son and cKuch kept on saying, "klu darah seni atu, darah seni th bnr" something catu lah..ahah He even recorded the soundtrack with Justin Bieber. now, I know how people hate this guy so much, but am gona stand my ground; He has a VERY nice voice. but I don't really favour that One Time song though. there's just something that bothers me, that song. YATAH KN, balik sja ku dari movie atu, tarus wah ku download lagu atu. and play in repeat. ;D first, when we were walking out of the cinema, cKuch was asking me who sang the final song, since (of course) I recognized Justin B's voice, that's what I told her lah. She said "mana tau cJaden since ya yg blakun". and you know what, she was right. When I first listened to the song and heard the beginning part of Jaden's rap 'session', I was like *clap* "Banar eh!" and tweeted bout it. ahhahah sigh~ He's gona be as big as papa Will. I juz hope he stays grounded (as in keeps his feet on the ground) and not become like those retards; example Lindsay Lohan or Britney (nope, I don't have any male references).

Next am wana watch the Toy Story 3, the Last Airbender, the Sorcerer's Apprentice (bru ku liat ya punya trailer that night. Nicholas Cage and that guy who voiced Hiccup in How to Train Your Dragon. what's his name again? malas google) and maybe Eclipse (depending on mood cKuch and Zawir. aku mau liat sal cDakota Fanning sja which am pretty sure nda bnyk ya punya scene..).

So, yeah...