It hits. Hard

It suddenly dawn on me that, probably this time next year, I won't be hearing anymore reciting of the Surah during Tarawih time.

It saddened me. 

I've been living right besides a mosque for half of my life (most probably more) and my feel for Ramadhan and Syawal depended so much on hearing reciting of Surah during Tarawih and the Takbir when Syawal comes.

Sigh. 

I guess this is the part where I should follow this quote; Live life today, deals with tomorrow when it comes.

Masa, insyaAllah, masih panjang. I still have like more or less a year to not worry about my feel just yet.
Enjoy the moment. 

Besides, it's not like masjid jauh jua dari rumah baru atu. Well, not as close as the one we have now but yeah..maybe it'd be more festive there who knows.

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AhlanWasahlan Ya Ramadhan

Selamat Menyambut kedatangan bulan Ramadhan


:)




Alhamdulillah, kita berjumpa lagi.

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Emotions

Emotions run high today. or rather, kemarin.

It was the final day before the half-yearly bank closing etc plus we were all anxious about finishing our workload in fear that on Saturday would be the public holiday for Ramadhan.

Rude words were exchanged. Snide remarks shouted everywhere. Particularly from this woman from another unit. I admit that it was partly because of me being 'serious' to her. and when I was raising my voice to my juniors, 'the' woman screamed back to me. Well, she had her back at me but I knew it was meant for me. Macam, dude! Terasa plang di sana atu!
Panas lah hati ku. Malu pasal, luan jua inda betauliahnya bekeraja ani? I know tani satu department, tapi meneriaki cematu atu (walau cemana stress pun kau) kurang ajar bah tu. Besyukur ku kalau ku marah, aku prefer diam2 walaupun hati ku rasa kan teriak2. Satu, ko memalukn urg. Dua, ko memalukn diri sendiri.

Tapi lapas tu we were ok coz I asked her why she screamed so loud when I was raising my voice to my juniors. She said she couldn't remember why she screamed. I think, we both became adult there; eventhough kami tau what happened tapi we decided to let it go.

and then, I realised, in that place, we are all Dobby.

Yes, Dobby the HouseElf from Harry Potter series.
Why?
Because, We are slaved to the management. We hated them for being too cruel and even so we still love  our job (and that overcome the shitty environment). At certain point we also defended them because they are our 'master'.
Macam Dobby kn? Slaved, mastered but we love our job. (I mean, I love my job and my routine. I just hate the environment)
of course, we are not bound for life at BBB.
I could just walk away but I have commitments to take care of. bukan urg kaya kn sanang2 beranti bila 'had enough'.
If only...

Anyway, I just thought of a phrase; memang bulih meminta maaf and memaafkan. tapi hati kalau sudah tersinggung, sampai mati pun masih ingat. 
bak kata pepatah ong puteh, 'Forgive but Never Forget!'.

Yatah, kadang2, baik diam2. Kalau marah, jan luan ikut emosi and cakap suka2 hati or teriak suka2 hati. take a deep breath and think for a moment. Ingat, klu tani memalukan urg, bukn maruah urg sja gugur, meruah tani pun ikut gugur. Why? dah tani inda lagi terhormat kn urg, cemana urg kan hormat tani? Kan?

Ani untuk muhasabah diri ku jua. Kan aku ani pun pemental jua. tapi tujuh taun ku keraja, inda ku pernah meneriaki urg cematu. Sungguh kurang ajaran! Inda betauliah! Awu! sakit ati ku masih mengenangkannya. I know aku patut bersih kan hati pasal inda lagi batah Ramadhan tiba tapi..eh. adang tah. ada yg inda beraya karang taun ani. Hahaha ganas..

eh..baik tah..

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Sigh

Remember how I was so excited about the SMTown concert in August? I am no longer in that phase.

I have finally decided that I didn't wana go to Seoul for the SMTown concert and just wait for the next SHINee World Concert 3.

Well, that dream kinda crash and burn.

Not because I don't want to go, but because they (SHINee/SMEnt) announced that SHINee World Concert 3 in Jakarta will be the final concert in the series.

They announced it during the concert (and I found out thru Twitter).

I duno if I should be relief or complete depress.

Relief because now Onew can really rest well.

Completely depress because; BILA TAH KU KAN JUMPA cONEW NI?!

I think durang make the Jakarta one the last concert pasal cOnew. kan he's recovering from his throat surgery. maybe he can not recover dalam masa terdekat ani. So, instead of postponing the concerts, they decided to finish it early. Lagi pun, they've traveled to South America for the concert too. I guess that covers the concert 'quotas' or something.

this theory is purely untuk menyamankan rasa hati ku.

-_-

So sad. I was told by 'beloved' friend's' to save money for the upcoming SWC3, thinking of going to the one in Singapore if they planned on bringing the concert there.

but I guess ... Not.

SIGH~

Inda ku tau kan cakap apa lagi. I am lost for words.

A/N: I miss Onew.

I know he's just a fictional character in my head but not seeing him with the other SHINee members is just, not complete.

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When Boredom Strikes

Hello love people :)

June is almost over and Ramadhan is just around the corner.

Half the year gone and my plan for changes has yet to fall into its place. Hopefully the other half of this year would be more productive, Amin.

anyhoo... last Saturday, I went out with my sister. One part for food, the other for boredom. I brought her to Mabohai 'shopping centre' coz I want to go Starbucks (pasal I haven't go there yet since it opened. macam, panoh saja kan tempat atu, membari ijab) but we didn't pasal kami masih kanyang from Jolibee so we ended up spending time at Toys R Us. 

and I bought ... things.

hahaha I bought this Lego head sharpener. 

Coz its the exact small version of the real Big Lego head that I've been wanting to buy but I don't want to buy coz, dimana jua masa ku kan main lego? hahaha So, bought the sharpener saja pun, jadi tah.


then, I bought two Toy Story character jinglers thingy. it was actually in a small packet and was supposed to be bought at random. but being the smart ass that I am, I 'felt' them packets with my hand hoping against hope that I would get the one that I really want; Woody and the mean bear.

Sekali..

Ta-da!!

Got them!

hahaha Sampah or 'trash' as an ex-colleague of mine once said.

ah well, it was a 'productive' day to say the least; I sweat and sweating is a good sign of losing weight. (bahahah!)

a/n: Hopefully I'll be posting a few more updates before the end of June. and noticed how I didnt use the 'courier' font? boring ku liat. So, I'm changing back to 'trebuchet' xD
 

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New watches

Kekeke 

Thank you Mini Watch Brunei. the fastest online Pre-Order I've ever encountered. 

*thumbs up*

A/N: pakai jam baru th ku ni isuk (Monday. Kekeke)

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*nangis*

as we all know, I plan kan go belayar to KL/Singapore kan..

half way confirm, because, I already booked a Hotel in KL hence, thats my final destination. booked for 19th til 21st Sept.

right now, waiting kan bali plane tickets (pasal cBuzz alum renew passport nya yg kan expired in Oct).

Sekali, tengah2 menunggu ani, kluar chia annoucement dari SM

my first reaction was.. *kusut and kan nangis*

psl? psl my budget right now is all for that KL vacation. if I used them now (SMTown live tix will be on sale on 3rd Jul as stated), alamat makan rumput lah for two whole months, kreta ku bagi minum aing sja. mana lagi insuran kreta ku kn di renew end of August. hmmm...

I really thought the SMtown concert will in November. I should have jot down bila cFahrul ke Seoul last time ia liat concert atu. probably around August too. sigh~

menangis inda belaku nya lagu melayu atu. LOL!

sigh..let me just go and check tix ke Seoul berapa harga nya lu...


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Fandom

I don't know about other fandom (I used to know about ELFs but I am way outdated now, so, yeah..I don't know about other fandom) but Shawols are a little, CRAYZEYH!

why?

well..because of these two recent edit that I found;

Like, I am sorry Kim Jonghyun, I couldn't protect yuuhh. BAHAHAHAHA

and Lee Jinki, well, crazy as it this edit may seem, IF aku ni awesome meng-edit2, I would've done the same thing. 

hahaha chu~ <3 span="">

banyak plang lagi but ani saja yg aku ada save.

A/N: Edit like these made my day!


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Let's Travel!

Baiduri has this Get Away event in September; a 3 days and 2 nights di Kuala Lumpur!!

I was excited sudah tadi kn mau join. sekali, -.- Junior ku ani last minit membagitau yg ia memang kn KL sma family tu on the same date with the Baiduri event ah. -.- in my Unit, we can not dua urg sekali gos cuti, payah cover/reliefs. 
sasak ku selajur!

So, now I'm planning my own (without Baiduri) KL event. or Singapore. which ever yg bisai. and aku berani kn go. LOL.
most probably KL plang yg I wana go to. CURRENCY NYA MURAH!! hahaha SHOPPING!!!

I'm just too excited because the last time I travel was like two years ago. or was it three? So, I wanna go this year. InsyaAllah~

first thing first, LUGGAGE!!

do you think I should get one of these?

aku mau dua-dua. awesome ni mun travel using these lovelies xD

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Nostalgic

I don't remember how it came to be but I came accross Polly Pockets mainan on ebay!

they brought back a very sad childhood memories. Sad but thankful too.

Because, I didn't have one as my own. I only got to play the one my little cousin had. You see, she was the youngest and everything she ever wanted, she got them. 
The sad part is that I had to play my cousin's. the thankful part, I still got to play them! 
ahahah Life is fair indeed. ;)
But how I envy my cousin so much at that time. my mom is not the kind yg mendulur and Polly Pocket was quite pricey too. So ..*shrugged* yeah..

these are the ones yg 'we' used to have;

ahhh... berabis nostalgiaaaa!!

this Pencil Case was my fav. I used to show it off in school (eventhough it wasn't mine to show off hahaha)

this Big Mansion was amazing! with the 'glass' patio and came with a Car.

this was the biggest price of all; a Cinderella Castle~! Came with the carriage and all!

They don't make this anymore. 

the pencil case alone cost a few hundreds euros! and it was labelled 'Boxed. Unopened. Classic collection'. mcm, tempted ku kan bali. If I was an impulsive person, I would have. :P

Mainan nowadays berjurit and not as pricey as it was because I have my own money now. :D but of course, everytime I feel like buying, I talked myself into not buying them. because, as much as I want to 'relive' my childhood memory, I am still a 26 years old and I wouldn't know what am supposed to do with it afterwards. Menyamak bilik ku saja.. ahahah

ah well... to each their own. :)

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a Letter

Dear Future Husband,

Please make sure you have a twins-gene in your family. So that we can have twins too!!

and also, we could dress them oh-so-cutely!

like so,

I hope you didn't think I'm crazy. :)

Love, your Future Wife xoxo

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*mata bersinar*

Look what came today!

LOOK!!!

it's my bag! the orange one! the one I ordered online thru malppy.com!

came 15 days after purchase. fairly quick compared to my ebay orders which  mostly came a month or even much later! after purchase. 

Yayy me!! I'll be wearing new bag tomorrow~~ 

*happy and mata bersinar*

A/N: we all love new things! 

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My Shampoo

Bought this fairly expensive (purely out of boredom...LOL!) shampoo 

and it is called 'Cocoa Butter Formula with Vitamin E' by Palmer's.

macam sibanar lah aku membali atu.   hahaha

and wanna know what shocks me? It smells of chocolate~~!!

kira inda paham concepts 'cocoa' lah aku atu. 

Aku terclick pasal the bau when I was falling asleep few nights ago (started using the shampoo 2 weeks ago) and smelled something sweet. I thought I smeared (mcm kanak2 lah jua ah) chocolate somewhere on my face and when I tried to sniff again, I realized that the smell came from my pillow. then baru tah ku terclick with the 'cocoa' on the shampoo bottle. Kan cocoa ni kira base chocolate? LOL lagging much?

So, yeah, chocolate smelling hair it is for now. until I change shampoo nanti. ;)

A/N: nasib ku inda bali yg 'coconut'. I might not like it as much.

Reading is Fun

I have always love reading.
Even back when I was 9 years old and a teacher gave me a story book as a present for being top 3 of the class and I hated that gift. 
LOL
and I also love History.

Just recently I finished reading A Diary of Young Girl by Anne Frank.

(not really the cover of the one that I bought but I'm too lazy to upload my version thus I Googled this and this cover actually came close to the real one)

It's a real diary of a young girl name Anne Frank who had lived in hiding during in World War II. (do Google Holocaust, Germany, Hitler and Nazi for further informations ;) )
I've heard of it during form 6, coz History was one of my big 3 subjects, and since then had been curious about this diary.
I wasn't really been searching for it (as stated in my IG acct :P) but when I saw the book at Popular, Miri, I didn't even think twice. I just took the book of the shelve and pay! (well, not really, I went around the store looking for more books plang before finally paying keke ) I recognized the title and when I read the synopsis, I just thought 'I gotta have this!' and I did. 
I don't know what intrigued me about the book. i thought it'd be about a full account of how the Jews were being treated and killed but when I finally read it, it wasn't of the sort. Yes, she did mention has to how they (all Jews, really) were being treated and in only a few accounts about how people were killed or as we all know now as the Holocaust.
The diary was mostly about her thoughts, and how she felt about being in confinement in such a small place. when I was reading, I felt like I was invading her privacy. coz, terlalu deep. it's like when I wrote down mean things that I couldn't say to people but to my diary only. it was kinda scary seeing it from a different perspective.

When gets me most is that, I can relate to Anne. mostly about writing. We both feel that we are not that talented but we both love it and find comfort in it. So, the whole time reading that diary, I feel her. I understand her.

Here are a couple of quotes I love most from her dairy;

and with that I shall concludes my thoughts on this book.

To those hidden writers out there, this is not a waste-of-time book to read.

Give it a go.

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another sci2 wedding in the houz!!

Congratulation to Iqral and Nisa whose wedding reception was this afternoon.

of course, I met with a lot of school friends.

finally pigang and angkat anak cEdy but not for long because of my cough. 

No sci2 gathering is complete without a picture of these two love birds.

and before balik we jot down congratulation on the 'guest book' ;)

sci2 rules!!

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