SHINee World VI: Perfect Illumination in Singapore

Here comes 2024 Recap number 1.

I went on 2 Mar 2024.

I posted my SHINee concert pictures arah my main IG on 6 Jun 2025.

I thought I posted them arah my second IG jua before that but apparently I didn't. 

I posted gambar merchandizes saja.

Here are some pictures to share from the concert.

Finally in the pearl aqua ocean myself. 😭

I was at the side of the stage where views were only great when they go to the center of the stage and I took picture from the back LOL

PLUS cOnew nada at this concert - masih ya hiatus. He was already on one when I bought the ticket but I was still hoping in 3 months he will appear but ovvy I was wrong. I mean, we gotta support our other members ya? 🤭

They did come to the side and waved but my views were covered by tali2 stage lights ...sigh.. 

Also for this concert, I commissioned a friend (juwapapeterie on IG) to make me some charm bracelets - coz your girl nada the barang2 to create one. I created the backing card myself at least. hehe I think I did a very good job at it.

Only problem is, I didn't get to pass them around. I was too shy and overthinking and ended up not doing anything about it. huh. I was embarrassed to share them on IG coz you know, didn't share them out kan LOL but now, I think, I'm gonna face my fears and post them here (only becoz I know no one really come here ahahah). So, I guess I'm gonna have to give these out on the next concert - with new backing card obvously..#stopoverthinking

All in all. I was a little disappointed during that concert coz:

1. my expectation was Onew is gonna be there but he wasn't. 

2. I overthink about my seat mate - I came alone and I was wondering if the girl next to me was drunk or something. Nothing wrong with her enjoying herself but I also thought 'aren't you trying a little too hard?' yeah, that was bad of me trying to gate keep SHINee from this girl when in 10 seats radius, she was the only one with the correct amount of enthusiasm for the concert while I was shying away in my seat and simply wuuhuu-ing at appropriate time. hahaha

3. I don't know man. the malay word I would choose for that concert was "hambar". but then again, that was just me. I didn't manage my own expectation.

4. Song choice. either I was losing it or I was somehow unfamiliar with so many songs. LOL I am losing touch? Am I no longer a Shawol? ahahahah Ok, maybe bukn unfamiliar but they were playing mostly my least fav SHINee songs bah..yatah aku macam, nyeh...

What I'm going to take from this experience was that I didn't have to go next time if another member is missing. Coz the goal for me was to see all four of them in a concert. My first SHINee concert I went to was back in 2011 for SMTown. also in Singapore. I missed the one in 2012 when they had their concert in Singapore on my birthday. So, all I ever wanted ever since missing that one concert is to at least go to another one before I became too old to fangirl LOL - so yeah..I don't have to go if the concert is missing a member. I can go to the next one when it's confirm all four of them is gonna be there. And sekiranya lambat lagi for a SHINee World, maybe I can go to Onew's solo concert  first in the meantime. We'll see.

Let me share some photos from the Encore, when Onew finally came out of his hiatus. 😭

Credit goes to respective owners of these lovely photos (some has watermarks)

When In Seoul. Conclusion.

hold up! you think I am done?

You thought wrong. I need to share to you my thoughts on about going to Seoul.

Hi.

Yes, I am not done yet! but really this will be the last of this series.

So, my self Q&A for Seoul Trip.

1. How was it?

It was a good experience. for first-timer, I think I did well with the planning. 👍🏻


2. What I don't like about Seoul?

• Obviously I don't mean the entire city. but from where I've been, I'm gonna say, I don't like riding the train during rush hour. not gonna even try to compare it to Japan rush hour. like, no.
• For some reason, I came across a lot of snobbish young adults, or even older. Like, apakan? Tinggi sangat kah darjat mu that you have to look down on me?
• THOSE. FUCKIN. CULT. DUO. I'm serious about that mini anxiety attack I got every time I remembered it.

3. What I like about Seoul?

• Kind ahjummas. During my research, I read a lot about angry ahjummas and prepared myself for it. But surprisingly, they were the most kind and sweet people I met in the entire trip.
• Korean Skin Care products so accessible! and those Free Gifts upon purchase are real.
• Being approached by fellow Muslim who are Korean. one time, in subways, an ahjussi bagi Salam to us and we without hesitation jawab and he calmly introduced himself "I'm Korean Muslim". I just bowed my head and smiled. Sometimes those little gesture from strangers calm me.

4. Will I'll be planning to go back?

Maybe. but as mentioned in previous post, I have mini anxiety attack when I think about the CULT and heavy traffic on the train during rush hour. COZ ONE TIME! I LITERALLY BOUNCED OF AN AHJUSSI TUMMY OUT OF THE TRAIN! not a good memory! I ACTUALLY STOPPED AT A TIANG AND HUGGED IT! I WAS THAT TERRIFIED! 

I don't know man. Maybe its just me with my anxiety around crowded area. BUT IT WASN'T THIS BAD WHEN I WAS IN JAPAN. AND I WAS ALONE!

I don't know. Maybe if I went there with a guy friend or with a bigger group, maybe I will consider it.

and with that, I'll end this series here with a videoclip that was released in the beginning of my Kpop craze; 

Super Junior & Girls' Generation - SEOUL.

hmmm.. I might come back. there are places in this MV I didn't get to visit.

Where Shindong and Sunny met

That Han River Bridge thing.

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3 Major Problems

Hi guys,

today, I'm gonna talk about the three major heart-beat-stopped-for-a-second moments I encountered this year.

but first, let's enjoy my new favorite 😚

Ok, onwards~ ⚔️🛡️

No. 1, my fuji cam memory card.

It was in July 2019 when this memory card somehow went 'blank' as I was busy transferring files. 
Like when you open the folder, there was nothing in it but when you check the properties, there were 'used space'. I am no tech master but after some youtube research, I was able to save most of the pictures tho sadly, not the videos. 
It was ok. Sis redha.
I need to buy new memory card for that camera anyway.


No. 2, my transcend Harddisk.

this happened in September 2019. I think this should explain me missing in September 2019. LOL

really, this is the most heartbreaking one.

you know when your computer asked you 'fix' something and it says 'recommended'? I believe you should ignored it. BUTT for some reason! I didn't and clicked 'Fix' and when another pop up asked if I am sure and any unsave items will be lost, I clicked, 'Ok'. and after it was done, I continued to work again but for some reason, I can't access the previous folder that I opened from my harddisk (you know, from the 'recently open' tab). So, I when to 'This PC' and tried to open the folder via there but still cannot. It says, the folder no longer available or something. I panicked. and tried one more time. still the same.
other folders still there but I finally realized there were missing folders.
I checked my movies; from about 50 movies, I now only have 8 movies.
I checked my Kpop Shows/Clips; same thing, I only have a few left.
I checked my kdrama; I only have the oldest ones.
I checked my Story/Fictions; the one I have been working on all year! is gone. 
I finally checked my personal photos; everything from April 2018 till September 2019, gone! all my videos that I have left unedited, all my August 2018 KL trip photos, all my February 2019 Seoul trip, GONE!

I actually froze!
and I did not exaggerate when I said, I shut down my laptop, and actually went to bed AND actually prayed that this was all a dream and when I wake up tomorrow, everything will be back to normal. it was just a temporary glitch.

I didn't on my laptop for two days. 
I went to work, blur. I came home, didn't dare touching my laptop for two nights.
Until the third day, I decided, I need to push thru and check once again to make sure. 
I told myself, first we check properties, if the memory still reads 100+ gb left, it means, the hd only hide my stuff and I can retrieve that like I did with the memory card.

but of course, when I checked, I have 600++gb left to use. I knew the moment I saw that number that there is nothing more I can do. 
Everything is really lost.
You know when thing was so bad you can't even cry? that was exactly how I feel at that time.
I was so heartbroken! 💔💔💔
The pictures. They were my memories. I can redownload the movies. the tv shows, the kdramas, but I can't recapture those pictures. I can't even rely on my own memory to retrieve them. My heart ache remembering this. Sigh.
My stories. My fictions. My own writings. My effort. everything from 2018 onwards is gone. Yes, some of them are unfinished but that doesn't mean I would chuck them out. Especially the very latest one. that's the most hurtful. I have so much love for that latest one. Lucky I did write down some plots in a note book. I'll try to recreate from there but it wouldn't be the same.
You can't make the same thing happened twice.

but I said, it's ok. sis redha. 😞

and quickly afterwards, I found out, that my USB extension thing was the problem. 

it shaped like a strawberry. I bought it @ Miniso Singapore back in 2017.

It was faulty for a while before the 'missing folder' happened but I thought it won't cause such catastrophe. I suddenly reminded of what happened to my memory card; this must be the reason too. 

I straight away put the thing away and not use it again. I just have to work with only two USB port for now.


No. 3, my Laptop.

Yes, My laptop! this one is pretty recent, 4th Dec 2019 to be exact.
at that time, I was multi-tasking; watching The Mummy Return, watching AmandaRachLee tutorial for December bullet journal layout, transferring photos from my phone to my hd, backing up my phone via itunes, AND actually doing the December layout onto my journal while the laptop continue to run in the background.
So, as i was just enjoying my "productive" night, the next time I look up, my laptop screen was white. like, WHITE. 

I thought the laptop beginning to 'hibernate' since I can still hear the movie in the background so I touch my mouse, garak2kan sikit, but nothing happened. I pressed the Space Bar and the youtube video that I paused (so that i can see the layout more properly), played. I became more panic and decided to just forced shut down my laptop (by pressing the on/off key. If this was an old laptop, i would just pulled out the battery and turn it back on but i can't do that to this laptop coz the batt is built in). After a while I tried to turn the laptop on again, I caught a glimpse of my screen but it turned white again. I tried this several times but still with the same result, WHITE. 
I figured it was the LCD problem (setau~ LOL) since the audio still work.
For the second time this year, I shut my laptop down and exhaled.
I continued with my December journal layout via my phone.
I was pretty damn calm.
the next day, I tried turning on my laptop again but now, it straight away white screen. So, I Googled the place where I bought my laptop, see if they have their own service center, they do. Next, I checked if my laptop still under warranty, it was not. it expired in September. 
which irritates me. This is a new laptop by the way. I barely have it for a year and its already faulty? MY VAIO LASTED FOR ALMOST 10 YEARS BEFORE I BOUGHT THIS NEW ONE! and to prove my point, I actually took out my vaio and turned it on, and BITCH IT STILL WORKED! and I almost want to continue my work there but then I realized why I bought the new one, the internet connection (both via wifi and USB) didn't work properly. Like, 😒
So, I left it. Like, not gonna think about it. not gonna bother do anything. I mean, i could bring it to the service center but fixing it means money and I'm currently on a strict budget. and also, I've been doing a lot of online shopping LOL...Soooo....🤫 
I mean I could spare money to fix it but I have other important engagement waiting, so I don't want to risk it. and it's not urgent. So, i don't want to fret.
UNTIL 16 DEC 2019.
I cannot tahan, I have some new ideas to type, yeah yeah, I can do that on a note book but i prefer to do it via Words. faster to type. Also, NCT U - Coming Home was released and I need to download that freaking song.
So, I went to the servicing center. Tepakai duit, tepakai lah. yang penting! laptop ku dapat dipakai.
I approached the counter and was happy to find the lady attending is very friendly. I explained to her what happened and she was ..skeptical? Like, I'm not making any sense. Coz to her understanding, it can't be the LCD problem (coz I insisted its the LCD. 🤣 memandai~~). So, she turned my laptop on and WHAT DO YOU KNOW?

tarus ku cakap, "EH! mau ya" and the lady just laughed. and she chuckled again when she saw my background (beautiful Jaehyun). basically my laptop worked fine in front of her 🙄
She wondered if I ever shut my laptop before it properly shut down? or if I ignored any request for window update? or if I shut down my laptop before it finished updating?
awkwarddd~~
Seeing my face, she was like, "maybe pasal atu kali tu" and she proceeded to check my updates and true enough (me looking at my laptop with narrow eyes: traitor) I have pending updates.
After several more guidance from the lady, I thanked her and left.
Safe to say I felt stupid but at least I don't have to pay! that's good. coz the lady was just checking over the counter so no need to pay.
I went to my sister house afterwards and do all my updating and restarting there.

AND when I get home, I quickly back up my phone again coz its been two weeks since the last time I back up (coz I'm buying a new phone in January 2020, it's crucial I maintain a constant back up before that happened, just in case). Next, NCT U!!!! I need the new song ASAP! 

As I opened my internet browser, Chrome, 

tap in my fav downloading web (oops) and WOOSH. white screen again. 
I thought, is it the website? OMG 😱 VIRUS! 😱
I force shut down again. wait until I hear the 'soft' click indicating that the laptop did shut down. and On again. I see normal, turning on screen, then as I clicked the browser, trying to load the website again but seconds later, turned white once again.
AND repeat! 
but this time, I use a different browser, Microsoft Edge, 

to open the website. to check, if its the website or if its actually Chrome. 
The website load just fine and I actually managed to download the song.

I figured it must be that Chrome yg causes my white screen. I uninstalled Chrome to stop myself from accidentally opening it and causes my screen to turn white again.

and now, everything when back to normal.

I have new background.

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There you have it. my 3 major tech problems this year.

💔

Lesson Learned:

BACK UP! back up upon back up.

I didn't realize how dependent I was with my laptop.
For example, my stories. Usually, I only print out finished stories. but after what happened, I wished I printed out the unfinish ones too. Especially the one I was working on since last year. Yeah, I did print the first EVER draft but I changed a lot of the storyline after that. I regret for not printing them out but I didn't know this was going to happen, did I? 
*another heavy sigh* 
ah well 🤷‍♀️
benda sudah jadi. 
hashtag sis redha.


what would you have done in this situation? would could have been done better?


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😅 I didn't expect it to be this long. LOL 


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Aladdin

Hi guys!

Welcome back. 

I realized, as I'm preparing for this post that it's been a long time since my last movie review post.
and what's more awesome than starting again with reviewing Aladdin, the live action version that came out 23rd May 2019.

I watched the movie the next day, 24th May, and was crazily madly in love with it!!!!!

Ok, brief background story, I'm a huge HUGE fan of the classic Aladdin. I watched it many times as a kid. Like, I claimed myself (on the internet, username etc) as Princess Jasmine from when I was 16 years old! and I remembered when I started working, old colleague even bought me a Princess Jasmine pillow! I was that obsessed! 

but of course, as I got older, I wasn't anymore.

UNTIL!

Will Smith posted the live action trailer on his IG. He played Genie and I saw that Naomi Scotts played Jasmine and I was like, "GASP! WHEN?!" coz, One, Will Smith? my fav actor of all time. Two, Pink Ranger as Jasmine? BRING. IT. ON. 
and also, I was feeling nostalgic.

So, when the movie premiered, I was like, I have to watch this. and I did.

In the cinema, as the iconic Disney's castle intro begins, I literally took a deep breath and told myself, "don't high expectation", and exhale. Best pep talk I've ever given myself! coz as the movie started, my mind was open and I allowed this movie in. Yes, there were moments where i remember thinking, "hmm..not as the cartoon but ok" but I don't hate the not-like-the-cartoon bits. In fact, I fell in love with them and for someone who was so obsessed with the cartoon, that's saying something!

and don't get me started on the songs.
Like, music to my ears! I love them! I usually don't like new version of my fav songs but these OST are amazing! love love love! 

Let's listen to one of them below:

Naomi Scotts - Speechless



I DIDN'T KNOW SHE CAN SING TOO!

also, there's a Zayn Malik and Zhavia Ward version of A Whole New World, and hmm 🤔..imma stick with "I usually don't like new version of my fav songs" ◎[▪‿▪]◎ but I still like the live action movie version of A Whole New World. movie version is love.


Ok, now, I know I gave this movie 10/10 but I was curious about one thing: 
why is the guard/soldier/army of the Sultan/Agrabah dressed like the Persian army? 
(I recognized the head gear coz I've been re-watching Prince of Persia for the past couple of weeks ٩◔‿◔۶)
I had to wiki that ish, obviously.
but there was no mentioned of Agrabah being made base on Persia. the only Persian thing related to the live action was the Palace set's design. 
thus, I concluded my research with, Agrabah is a middle-east country, meaning, its military outfit can be similar to or influenced by the Persian army which are also from the middle-east.

still 10/10!

In my opinion, Will Smith made Genie his own version. well done *applause*

Side characters that I like: Dalia and Hakim. ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ

I think that is all the reviews I have for this movie.

by the time this is posted, I probably watched the movie twice more. LOL

Thank you for reading this far.

You the MVP. (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

Ciao~

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oh! i bought the Only In Cinema cup
(sorry, couldn't be bothered to take my own picture at the moment LOL)

I'll post proper pictures some other time ;)

for the living

hi guys.

Selamat Berpuasa to my muslim friends. 

Today is already the 7th day. Time flies so fast.

as tradition dictates, I had my second 1L cup milk tea from Easyway. 

and I'm sure I'm gonna have a couple more before Puasa month is over. Since this cup only available during Puasa. (*˘︶˘*)

another common thing during Puasa is Bertahlil (prayer for the one already passed away) and Menyungkaikan (breaking of fast with other people at your house) functions.
No, I have not been to one yet. There will be one function next week tho.

I should also point out that puasa is the month when the one who left before us will come and visit. (Imagine the movie Coco, but instead of worldly gifts, they left when we sedekah prayer to them and they continue doing that for the whole month of Ramadhan). this thought alone makes me a little more emotional than usual. ⊙︿⊙

You know how when someone passed away and there'd be a lot of people come by their home or to their final resting place to pay respect? I've always wondered; did we come or go there becoz we wanna say goodbye to the deceased or to give support to the one left behind?

My sister's bestfriend's mother passed away on 30th April 2019. and I found out from the bestfriend's sister's IG. of course, I felt sorry for their lost. but also I remember thinking, "Not that I know the mom well, but I should go for the betahlil for these two sisters", you know, for moral support. and i did go to the betahlil that night and I finally understand what Dumbledore meant when he said to Harry, "Do not pity the dead, pity the living".
Because the one left behind still need to continue living. and I understand now, why we need to visit them often for the first 40 days. for moral and emotional support.

with that I conclude, at least for me, I come for the one left behind. Because losing someone is not something you can get over with, you just learn to live with it, and we wanna be there for them, to show them, their life is still worth living for, we wanna help them want to continue living.

I'm not saying we should only be extra supportive during Puasa month, I'm saying, be there for the living. whenever. They appreciate it when we come and pray together with them as a form of support. Our small gesture of kindness counts.

That's it. be kind. 
in any way, shape or form.
for the living. 

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Side Note: as I was putting the labels, I found out, I've used that Dumbledore quote once before. LOL. I need new quote. but that doesn't make that quote any less true. (◕‿-)

Flying Money 💸

SO

I actually forgot to try and make a post about this.

Hmm

Maybe becoz I just don't want to talk about how much money I spent in pre-ordering kpop items.

LOL

Let's break this ish down;

1. Key!

He is finally doing his solo. Like, a real solo. I know he did the ToHeart thing but to me, that doesn't count as a solo, since he did it with Infinite's Woohyun (on wiki, Toheart is dubbed 'sub unit'. I don't think thats appropriate since sub-unit usually meant for a unit that is form within a unit and SHINee and Infinite is not from the same unit, is it?)
anyhoo
Key is finally doing a solo!
his first single is called, Forever Yours featuring Soyou.



I love this song at the first listen. 

and then he dropped his album, called, FACE,  on 26th November.

I haven't properly listen to this album yet but managed to I listen to Easy to Love in full, and i like the English lyric.





2. ONEW! 

argh. his news are the most devastating.
first, SM announced his enlistment date, 10th Dec.
AND THEN!
THE SECOND NEWS! he's dropping his first solo album, on the 5th Dec. 

like 😒😒 I hope SHINee make SM rich this final two months of 2018.

Onew's album is called VOICE. titled song will be called Blue.

Kononnya, this album is a gift to Shawol/MVP for our undying love and support for him. 
basically, something for us to hold on to while he in the army. or something like that.

SO EXCITED FOR THIS!!

not that he never sang solo before, but previously he sang for OSTs, and for SMStation releases, he sang two duets. So, I don't know, doesn't quite counts.

🤷🏻🤷🏻



3. SHINee Japan!

YES! IT'S NOT DONE YET! titled is not a joke. 💸💸💸💸

SHINee World J presents! a DVD for the special Fan Event they had at Tokyo Dome for SHINee's (i think) 7th anniversary since debut in Japan.

Thus, including the Season Greetings, 
I have 4 kpop items to look forward to this month and in Jan 2019.

as excited as I am, I do have this thought at the back of my mind, that, these releases, are meant to be a distraction for us.

becoz

December.

I can't believe we made it thru the year.

I don't know how I should feel about it.

I keep forgetting anyway, and I kinda prefer it that way.

*shrug shrug shrug*

ok, ok.

let's not go there.

let's enjoy these lovely gifts, shall we?

My wallet does not appreciate my decision this month 😂😂

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Bonus items:

Remember that time when Jonghyun plaglarize Taemin's ACE?

Ever since then, Shawol been speculating other member's solo releases.

this one win. Onew Chicken. LOL!!

*break-time* took me forever to search all the fan made album covers of the other members. Andangnya~~ bila di cari, nada. bila inda di cari karang~~ ada ya tu palak2 dapan mata. I wana say "thanks IG's saved button" but no. you miscalculated how much I saved PER DAY!

*in that spongebob french accent* 2 hours later~

I FINALLY FOUND IT~!
found them like from January 2018 post. like...thanks..
of course, within the two hours, I go toilet, eat snacks, etc.

I realized this Bonus section is getting longer too.

Fan made album covers:
obviously these are the newer version. there were other versions before.

Shawol lived for this shiz! HAHAHAHA

but of course,

reality is different.

hahahahah

I know I saw somewhere a new fan made album cover for Minho's but I am NOT gonna go thru another hour searching for it. like, no.




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Short and Simple

I was browsing, scrolling thru my old post on this blog

and

I realized how I have (had?) two styles; 
1. short and simple, 
and 
2. long and winding.

there were no in between.

LOL

I even dared to post just words. absolutely not a single picture attached.

Impressed!

So, what changed?

What makes me so stressful about making a post?

Why do I feel like I have to explain so much when I post a certain topic?

I was in my late teens / early twenties when I started.
is it the age factor?

If its about the amount of readers I have, its not that much of a difference from back then to now.

So, what gives?

Well,

what ever it is, I would really love to try and post something in its simplest of form.

yeah, sometimes things need to be explained but I hope I don't end up posting a three-pages essay. lol


That being said, 
I just want to say, thank you for being here, lovely readers.
You have no idea how much your time spent here means to me.

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