RBAF Day

I just find out yg Memorial Day sama dengan Royal Brunei Armed Forces Anniversary.

credit to Gavin G

Yesterday, 30th May, a cousin was posting something about 'Selamat Hari Jadi Askar to those yg masih lagi askar, yg sudah retired, yg bekas askar etc etc' in our family group. I know one of them was a military personnel.

then a moment later, it occurred to me yg my late dad was a military personnel.

I don't know how you address people in military with accordance to their ranks and positions, so I'm just gonna use 'military personnel'. I know in Brunei, we have 3 types of Askar; Land, Air and Navy. *ketawa smpi kluar aing mata* mcm Scout jua aku mendifferenciate atu. LOL

my dad was 'Land'.
once again, I duno any military terminology, I apologize.

anyhoo,
there's usually a fun fare/exhibition of the military in one of their base every anniversary.
I never been to one in such a long time.
the only memory I have was the one from when I was little and my dad was still around.
I know there were pictures of that moment where I was so 'kusut' LOL coz I was so thirsty and I remember when I told my dad this, you know what he did? He brought me to this camp and asked people there for a drink and they gave me, what? Guess again. Hot Nescafe. *naik one kirai* that should quench my thirst. thanks dad.

it was a very funny memory when I think back.
I'm always so 'manja' and 'such a baby'.
I was the middle child (One older sister, One older Brother and Two younger brothers after me) so attention towards me was a little limited.
but my dad was, as I remembered him, always been so fair to all of us.

I wish I could have known him like how my uncles and aunty known him. or how my older sister remembered him for that matter.
all these years, I've always heard nothing but how very kind and nice person he was.
I wish I could've seen it (what people said/describe) with my own eyes, make my on decision of who is to me, on my own.

I guess, that's just not meant to be.
I'm still thankful of how I am where I am without him.
there was a time when I wondered if I'd be a spoil brat if he was around. coz I have the potential to be the worst of spoil brats if given the chance.
LOL

Of course, I miss him. missed how ever little memories I have of him. with him. of course I do.
I was 6 when he passed away. obviously the memories I have with him isn't as many as my sister who was 12 when he passed. I envy her sometimes. but I know it pained her more having those long memories of him. she misses him more.

The reason why I make this post was becoz, after the RBAF greetings, another cousin send out a birthday greetings for her sister, who passed away some years ago.
and I realized, I don't even know my dad's birthday. I only know the date of his passing.
I wana be upset of this fact but I'm not. not really. coz in my defense, I was too young to remember any trivia details like his birthday.
besides, it's not what he wants me to remember now that he's gone. I'm sure of it.


this post has gone from me not knowing any military terminologies, how to address military personnel in accordance to their ranks and positions, to remembering my dad.

He didn't die in line of duty but this first time I'm posting about RBAF, I dedicate this whole post in remembrance of him.

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An Update

So, Jonghyun's first full (if you can call an album with 9 songs is full) album was out last week and I was surprise at how well accepted my ears were to the songs.

especially proud of Dress Up.

on another note,
I found out SM been releasing (I don't since when) a lot of its Station (an SM Digital Music releases)-project songs.

on 25th May, Amber released her 3rd songs from her Crossing releases. its called Need to Feel Needed.

a very nice song. and a little motivational. or maybe a little Self discovery kinda songs. how ever you want to see the songs to be.
similar to the first two release: Borders and On My Own.


and few days ago, another SM news; Luna will be releasing her solo!!!!!
FINALLY!!!

it says somewhere that the song, Free Somebody, will be a little techno.
I was a little skeptic. coz Luna is f(x) vocalist and techno doesn't really promote vocal, does it?
I know Luna has an amazing vocal but it would be great if that's what they're promoting in her solo, right?
Her mini album will be released next week on 31st May.
One question: Kenapa kan DHL?
*laugh till batuk2*

since where on SM News, Lay of EXO also releases his song for the Station project.
its called Monodrama.

mv already out but I haven't got the chance to check it out. I laughed at the thought of the song being so drowsy (coz of that one episode from EXO showtime).

Sekali nya membuat promotion cSM ani, all out in May; Tiffany, Jessica, Jonghyun, Amber, EXO, Station, Luna.
Oh wait. Jessica no longer SM. HAHAHAH 
oh well... still, a lot of releases from SM.


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In lights of Jonghyun oh-so-yellow MV,
I bought new phone case

LOL
LOVE IT!


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sekadar moment

but still funny.

So, must share.

screencap this from facebook

I don't read all but I guess some of the comments must have laughed at Jonghyun excessive facial expression.

coz someone commented not to make fun of Jonghyun's expression.

I know I shouldn't frown at this ray of sunshine but I just have to.

Jonghyun was the only one yg oba facial nya.. Minho and Key looked worried but Taemin and Onew was like, selamba saja. aku ketawa pasal cTaemin and cOnew atu lah. hahaha
I'm sure that's the reason why this article was made, purely to entertain. aside from telling us that SHINee and interviewer were all ok despite the shook and shock.

another reason why I'm sharing this is because someone mentioned Onew and Uruk. Descendant of the Sun related. *mata berLove*

hahaha

this post title? 'Sekadar Moment' is actually pasal Descendant of the Sun related comment.

*ketawa sampai guling2*

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Yass Kim Jonghyun

Jonghyun will do a comeback with first full album.

tapi kan, macam ada 9 lagu saja. Almost similar pun with the number of songs in his other mini albums.

so, maybe half sja yg kan show ani lah ah.. *being optimistic*

i hope his songs here are more acceptable for my ears this time around.


one question though:
what's with the peanut butter spread?

and of course, Shawol is fast

$100 says Korean Shawol will be sending skippy peanut butter spread to Jonghyun during broadcast?

sedakah kan nya to third world country bagus plang ni drg ah.
artist ani inda payah di bagi hadiah sangat; kaya sudah drg ani. mampu ya bali sendiri (kes inda puas ati lah ni. LOL)

something just pop into  my head when I talk about 'stop buying things for rich people'. I will share something on the next post.

For now, Jonghyun's album will be out on 24th May.

SM love to squeeze every comeback whenever they see fit.

don't they know I don't have that kind of money to be buying albums every other month??

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Girlie

Tiffany of SNSD and Jessica Jung (former SNSD member) released first solo mini album this month.

I wasn't really digging Tiffany's I Just Wanna Dance.

but after a few listen, it was actually an Ok song.

I do like her Once In a Lifetime song the first I listened to it.

Jessica came out a week after Tiffany's.

I instantly LOVE her Fly!

her Big Mini World is catchy too. very cute!

between the both of them, there maybe a little bias-ness in my 'opinion'.
After Jessica was dismissed from SNSD, I was kinda, annoyed, by all the other SNSD members IG posts that led me to unfollow all of them. I was especially annoyed by Tiffany's for no apparent reason. LOL
So, when Tiffany's song came out, I was actually have decided that I'm gonna hate it ahaha and until today, I still refuse to watch Tiffany's I Just Wanna Dance MV.
I listened and watched Jessica's Fly MV and as mentioned, I instantly in love. Jessica's mv is very colorful. I like it.

I haven't read Eng Sub lyrics for both song but base on the English sang, I think Jessica's is more inspirational. Tiffany's is mostly just being bratty.
LOL
Ok, I should stop. I'm really just hating on Tiffany. HAHAHAHA

additional note: I think, Jessica's and Taeyeon's first single were both very inspirational. I like that kind of song.

New Face

So, Instagram has a new face aka App Icon.

From this --v

To this --v

personally, I hate it.

coz old Instagram logo/icon is unique.

why mesti drg change?

Facebook, Twitter, WhatApps and  LINE all have been around long and had been thru a lot of upgrades, but masih pun drg maintain drg punya 'logo'.

Believe me, I'm not the only one who thinks so. 

for me, the old logo is awesome and they should've kept it.

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2016 Puasa Countdown

Check out this website for the countdown.

I don't know how accurate but it seems to be legit

I checked this on 17th May, at 12:00am 

are you excited?

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Be Kind, it's free

Mom is the kind of person who is so nice to other people even if that people was so damn mean to her in the past.

I could never understand her.

until I was a little bit older.
and recent events inspired me to make this post


1. Regarding work
no matter what personal hatred you have to your work mate, kerja tetap kerja. Think of your 'periuk nasi'. No one else will jaga that. so, peduli apa with what they say behind your back or whatever. bukan durang yg bagi ko gaji. So, maintain your work etiquette.

2. Relatives
you know how some cousins don't get along with each other? well, I have them too. and I know my family is not the only one yg ada this kind of relatives. but be kind. biar tia urg bejahat arah tani, jangan tani pun ikut bejahat jua. If like that, sama lah tani dengan durang. it's better to be remembered being the kind one than being remembered the opposite, right?

of course, I'm only human.

Being kind is a very exhausting.

not just mentally but spiritually as well.

what the TOOOOTTT

I told you that I'm gona tell you what I watched on youtube that made me go
"what the hell did I just watch?!"



it's a video documentary about the existent of mermaid/merman.

In the beginning it was all very promising, Animal Planet claims the Rights to this video so naturally I thought, this could be it. I was excited to watch this 'never before seen footage' that they were about to share. 

but first, let me clarify:
I believe there are creatures in the deep ocean that we have yet to discover (or not meant to discover). and this believe alone made me scared of the ocean.
Scared of the ocean means, as fascinated as I was with Little Mermaid, I would prefer not be in the ocean to go and find merpeople.

I did come across two fiction-novels revolving around Mermaids; the Forbidden Sea by Sheila A. Neilson and Monstrous Beauty by Elizabeth Fama. and I wondered what books these two ladies read, what researched they gone thru to be able to write such detail 'myth' and back stories about mermaid.

but even with those curiousity, I didn't think much of it.

I got the word 'merpeople' from JK Rowling. She mentioned it in Goblet of Fire.

anyway,
the reason why I went 'what the hell' after watching this movie was because, I read the comments and turned out, that documentary, the 'never before seen' thingy was all 'made for tv' or 'for entertainment' only. 
like, did I just waste 1hr of my life for something that is not even real?!

dammit!
hahaha
I know it's not real to begin with
but I thought I'll be seeing the real mermaid or merman. not the typical fishtail lower body, but you know, something that prove their existent.

I hate it when my hopes and dreams crashed.
I should really listen to my own advise, "Don't believe everything you read/see on the internet"

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Spare Time

I bet you don't know that in my spare time,
I sometimes listen to documentaries on youtube.
I said 'listen' becoz that's what I normally do when I played a documentary video on youtube. Played the video, ignore the moving video and just listened to the audio.

this habit of playing documentary videos from youtube came when I was dead bored with the songs I have on my phone.

I've watched many documentaries including British Royal's jewelries, first and last Emperor of China, the Pharaohs, the Last Tsar of Russia, and most recent, French Revolution.

the most interesting videos I've ever watched were the eight episodes documentary named The Romanovs, the History of the Russian Dynasty. 



the above video is the trailer. you can click here for the first episode if you're interested.

I read somewhere in the comment box that this documentary have a Russian version. someone commented that once you finish the English version, you should watch the Russian version with Eng Sub. I haven't got the 'rajin-ness' to do that. since, you know, I mostly listen to this documentaries and its not convenient for me to be reading subtitles especially when I'm at work.

I don't know what I gained from listening to these documentaries. It's not like I'm going to sit in an exam for the Romanovs History. 

but I did learn some thing interesting.
this Russian royals kehabisan membagi nama to their anak2
and most females who converted to the Russian orthodox also so malas to pick new names.

example:
Alexander - there were 3 Alexander(s) that ruled Russia
Nicholas - there were 2 including the Last Tsar of Russia, Nicholas the Second
Peter -  there were 3 including Peter (i) the Great.

there were also many Alexandra(s), Maria(s), Catherine(s), Olga(s), Anna(s)

apparently Alexander is for male and Alexandra is for female. See how lazy these name are??

here's another example of 'Kehabisan Nama':
Paul I sons - Alexander (i), Constantine, Nicholas (i)
Nicholas I sons - Alexander (ii), Constantine, Nicholas, Michael
Alexander II sons - Alexander (iii), Sergui, Paul, Vladamir Ok fine, this one is a bit original
Alexander III sons - Nicholas (ii), Michael

Maybe to them these are the names of the royals. you know, like the British royals with the name George.
I don't know.
Maybe its all the names they know back in the day. 
no Google to check.
Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ

You all must be thinking I'm sharing something educational here.
maybe.
but really, the reason why this post was made was because of the name choice.
the moment i realized they used the same name over and over again, I just had to make a post out of it.
〜(^∇^〜）（〜^∇^)〜

I have one other documentary movie that I watched that made me go "what the hell did I just watch?!" when the movie finished.

I will share that in my next post.

for now, here's a list of Russia related movies that you need to watch if you haven't already:
1. Salt - Angelina Jolie
2. Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol - Tom Cruise and that Hawkeye guy, Jeremy Renner
3. Anastasia (1997) - my absolute fav! 

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Feelings

Remember when I said I was a little down these past few months?
well..I just heard an old song and thought, "this describe EXACTLY how I feel"

Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life

lets quote some of the verses:

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place,

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you?

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you're screaming?

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more

Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like

No, you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

I know, such deep shit.

but really, this is how I feel.
I'm not even exaggerating.
the one coded in blue is how I think of other people.
I know, that is very negative of me. and very unfair to other people coz I don't know what they've gone through to be what they are just as they don't know what I'm going through.

I don't know since when but I've been saying that I am self-motivated person.
today, I realized that maybe I got that from doing my CV.
which leads me to realize that I really am not (a self-motivated person).
I just thought that I am.

I feel sorry for myself
coz no one else going to be

#ToughLove
#StrongHeart
#ToughLuck

but I guess, that's just life.

a/n: I know I said I'm gona stop posting things like this one but I think its worth the share. maybe this post will motivate other people to be better at controlling their feelings and thoughts than I do.

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Girl Power

Hello 
before we proceed with our main topic,
some other 'net' topics worth mentioning;

1. First of May most posted:

"It's gonna be May"

2. Fourth of May most posted:

"May the Fourth be with you"

it's 5th of May now and I know, 'ko terlambat roy~' ^o^

oh well < (^^,) >

So today's choice of topic is 
(wait for it) 
Meghan Trainor.

our power lady is well known for her All About That Bass single.
a song that talks about how it's ok if you have flabby skins on you. you shouldn't be sad about it. not all men love skinny bitches, stick figure barbie doll. and it's ok to tell him to 'move along' if your 'big' size is not his type.
in Brunei my size is kinda normal but the baju yg kena sale here are always Japanese-size small. even the one yg ckp 'free size' is actualy just meant 'free size for all the small-size body'.
for a girl who is not a 'size 2' like myself, this song is like a therapy.

her next song yg I'm attracted to is Lips Are Movin
I don't know what this song really means. Maybe it means she knows his a playa and she was cautious about everything that he said to her.
this song reminds me of a certain 'org gila' who broke my heart and make the skeptic that I am today towards sweet-talker guy.

next song: Dear Future Husband.
this song is like a letter to the future husband listing down things on what he should do, what he should know about the future wife, and how the things that she wants are pretty simple.
this song makes me realize that it's ok to demand things from your future husband. I think what caught into liking this song is that part when she sang 'I never learn to cook'  ^o^
hahaha 
if a guy is allowed to list down what his 'ideal' wife should be like, than a lady can do it too.

the last and final song about this power lady; NO



the songs talk about getting a man is not a priority and it's ok to say NO.
Know what you want, when you want it and when you don't.


Now, after elaborating the meaning of selected songs of Ms Trainor,
I'm going to talk about why this particular topic is made today.

a local radio DJ was introducing this song when it made to his Top20 chart one weekend.
He was introducing her song alright but towards the end, he was talking shit.
He said something about Trainor being an 'attention seeker' with her choice of words in her lyrics even from her previous top hit songs. 
So, I'm guessing, he's not too happy when Trainor:
1. dissing skinny people, 2. dissing a playa not being faithful, 3. demanding too much out of her future husband.
hmmm...
You know I over think on a lot of things and you bet I have something to say about this DJ.
He's probably the kind who is against women being in control, who know what they want, and not afraid to speak up their mind. 
Ok, maybe 'against' is a strong word but the way he said it during that time, he made it sound like what Trainor said in her song is wrong.
So, what? Trainor should be like the rest of the other female singer yg sang about being submissive towards men? is that it?
my goodness, what era is he in? 
if this is not what he meant then he's the one yg attention seeking on air. 
or maybe I'm just pissed at how very nonconstructive his criticism was. I just taught being a DJ, you're supposed to be neutral or something that even when you're about to judge people, you need to be constructive with your words. tsk
I used to love his show (coz it plays all the latest songs mostly) but becoz of his stupid comment, I don't even like it when I heard his voice doing an 'iklan'

damn!
I'm not even a fanatic of Meghan Trainor to be making such long post.
I just love her songs.

do your homework before you go to work, man! don't just sprout hateful things like that. seriously. 
there's a different between attention seeking and inspirational.

Meghan Trainor is inspirational.

and you, mister DJ, you're the kind of person she made the song about.

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