well..I just heard an old song and thought, "this describe EXACTLY how I feel"
Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life
lets quote some of the verses:
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
I know, such deep shit.
but really, this is how I feel.
I'm not even exaggerating.
the one coded in blue is how I think of other people.
I know, that is very negative of me. and very unfair to other people coz I don't know what they've gone through to be what they are just as they don't know what I'm going through.
I don't know since when but I've been saying that I am self-motivated person.
today, I realized that maybe I got that from doing my CV.
which leads me to realize that I really am not (a self-motivated person).
I just thought that I am.
I feel sorry for myself
coz no one else going to be
#ToughLove
#StrongHeart
#ToughLuck
but I guess, that's just life.
a/n: I know I said I'm gona stop posting things like this one but I think its worth the share. maybe this post will motivate other people to be better at controlling their feelings and thoughts than I do.
. . .
*hugs* I know, have been there. But it is perfectly okay to be you, you know? I mean, people say, whoelse can do a better job to be you more than yourself? And don't worry about writing, write what you love, positive or negative.. Even every lowdown posts are appreciated.
ReplyDeleteSometimes even I wonder, I become very self conscious, all of this time, am I writing the right thing?
It is very subjective, so it is okay. Always love reading each of your posts <3
I know this is freakin late but *hugs back*
DeleteThank u so much. You kind comment will motivate me to be Rajin-er to post in the future.
And yes, i try to just post whatever that i want to post but i wonder if its worth the share.
Thanks a million Jess