Hi guys!
I thought of this topic as I was writing the post with Sulli's solo; My first kpop comeback from my favorite.
My first comebacks for a few favorites; SuJu, SHINee, f(x), BoA, Girls'Generation.
Here's what Comeback means:
When I said 'my first', I meant the comeback that I actually looking forward to watch on KBS (the only Korean Channel available in our TV cable) 's Music Bank (a Korean music show) after I get to know the group and listening to what ever they have released prior to that comeback. So, let's go!
1. Super Junior - No Other.
Ok, so, I was looking at their Single list on wiki and my first comeback should've been It's You. coz I was obsessing over SuJu since Sorry Sorry but I guess, I was just obsessing and didn't really understand the concept of Korean Music Show until No Other came out. No Other wasn't even a title song, it was from the Repackaged one. I remember the last stage they did of this song was when SHINee made a comeback with Lucifer. I remember becoz Leeteuk shouted "SHINee Comeback. something something..hwaiting" during the stage. LOL sorry, I don't understand Korean much.. Let's share that video
dam! I missed 2nd Gen group. and SuJu is my first Kpop group. Oppa-deul, saranghae
2. SHINee - Lucifer
Ok, this obviously related to the above.
I was beginning to obsess over SHINee at this point coz I was obsessing over SHINee Hello Baby.
I'm not sure if it was but this song reminds me of how I started investing to much time and money on SMTown.
ohhhh SHINee performed first, then SuJu, coz, Goodbye Stage. Ok, understand.
3. f(x) - Danger
Ok, this one kinda hazey but I remember obsessing (yes, I'm easily obsessed!) over this song the same time I obsessed with SHINee and SMTown concert. or somewhere along that road. f(x) is the first Kpop girl group that I really like.
Now I remember how the idea of this post came to me. the GIF I used on previous post was taken from f(x) Official MV for Danger.
4. Girls' Generation - The Boys
I'm telling you, this list is base on that year SMTown became so big and doing world tours. around 2010/2011. The year I become full kpop stan!
I wrecked my brain for stories behind this choice and actually, OH! was the first comeback I followed but only thru the Music Video. Does that count? maybe. but let's stick to comeback stages, yeah? (my list, my rules muahahaha)
I'm reminded to why Hyoyeon become my bias. Her rap here. sharp!
5. BoA - Hurricane Venus
this probably was everyone's first comeback of BoA after a while. becoz this was five years after her last Korean album released. I remember watching this and thought, "that's how you do live" coz I was so used to watching her (via youtube of course) live in concert.
it was such a good performance! No one can beat this Queen. She does more live concert than live music shows!
I think that is enough for this post, yes?
I did say mini.
So, hope you enjoy this share and maybe can share your favorite kpop comeback stage too in the comment box below.
for now, ciao~
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Saturday, 29 June 2019
Friday, 28 June 2019
Betrayed
Hi guys!
Another quick post.
Today I wanna talk about Sulli, a former f(x) member.
I know, shocking. She was never my favorite but when she was in f(x), I cheered for her too by default coz f(x) is my fav girl group.
until~ she decided to leave f(x) to pursue acting. 🙄
I only ever know she acted in one movie after she left f(x) and that movie wasn't well received. I also think she was in one historical kdrama but I don't know what become of that.
Mostly, I saw her in mainstream online kpop media coverage over some 'inappropriate' posting on her personal IG (this part, I'm on her side: it's her Instagram and her life, she has all the rights to do what ever she wants) and being featured in/on magazines.
So, when SM announced last week that Sulli will be releasing a song, I rolled my eyes so hard that I fear you will see my whites from then on. LOL I was so annoyed and hating. dah tah aku memang anti kedia when she left f(x), telling people she wanted to act but barely doing any acting, and now, she's releasing a song?!
I feel the same way I did when Brian, former member of Westlife, left the group then not even a year later, releasing a song as a solo artist; Betrayed.
You ARE a singer when you were in the group. I 👏 JUST 👏 DON'T 👏 GET 👏 WHY 👏 YOU 👏 HAVE 👏 TO 👏 LEAVE 👏 IF 👏 YOU 👏 GONNA 👏 END 👏 UP 👏 BEING 👏 A 👏 SINGER 👏 STILL 👏
Ok, lah, lemme justify their actiona:
Another quick post.
Today I wanna talk about Sulli, a former f(x) member.
I know, shocking. She was never my favorite but when she was in f(x), I cheered for her too by default coz f(x) is my fav girl group.
until~ she decided to leave f(x) to pursue acting. 🙄
I only ever know she acted in one movie after she left f(x) and that movie wasn't well received. I also think she was in one historical kdrama but I don't know what become of that.
Mostly, I saw her in mainstream online kpop media coverage over some 'inappropriate' posting on her personal IG (this part, I'm on her side: it's her Instagram and her life, she has all the rights to do what ever she wants) and being featured in/on magazines.
So, when SM announced last week that Sulli will be releasing a song, I rolled my eyes so hard that I fear you will see my whites from then on. LOL I was so annoyed and hating. dah tah aku memang anti kedia when she left f(x), telling people she wanted to act but barely doing any acting, and now, she's releasing a song?!
I feel the same way I did when Brian, former member of Westlife, left the group then not even a year later, releasing a song as a solo artist; Betrayed.
You ARE a singer when you were in the group. I 👏 JUST 👏 DON'T 👏 GET 👏 WHY 👏 YOU 👏 HAVE 👏 TO 👏 LEAVE 👏 IF 👏 YOU 👏 GONNA 👏 END 👏 UP 👏 BEING 👏 A 👏 SINGER 👏 STILL 👏
Ok, lah, lemme justify their actiona:
- maybe they weren't treated right
- maybe they wanted more say in what they can do artistically
- maybe they always wanted to be a solo artist
sigh
Just becoz I tried to be more understanding, doesn't mean I can't still resent them.
I mean, they left! and for some reason, that separation ends the group!
Ok lah..grateful each remaining members, both Westlife and f(x), ended up doing solo thing successfully, meaning we still get to see them around the entertainment industry.
and let's not forget, currently Westlife is doing a world tour after almost a decade of disbandment. Maybe the same thing will happen to f(x) too? Lets us hope so.
I mean, they left! and for some reason, that separation ends the group!
Ok lah..grateful each remaining members, both Westlife and f(x), ended up doing solo thing successfully, meaning we still get to see them around the entertainment industry.
and let's not forget, currently Westlife is doing a world tour after almost a decade of disbandment. Maybe the same thing will happen to f(x) too? Lets us hope so.
as much as I resent Sulli, I'm curious about her solo. I wonder what kind of genre her song will be.
GASP! DID I JUST PROMOTE HER?!
GASP! DID I JUST PROMOTE HER?!
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Thursday, 27 June 2019
MIB International
Hi guys.
Feeling nice seeing me everyday? wehwehweh
It's becoz I missed so many days in June and I'm just trying to raise the number I posted this month. So...here I am.
the next movie I watched at the cinema after Aladdin.
this was actually Zawir's idea. coz I think he likes MIB 3. I think.
I wanted to watch becoz it's Thor and the Valkyrie lady.
Not giving out spoiler like I did with Aladdin but Aladdin wasn't so much of a spoiler since it was a remake...so, I don't know where I'm going with that. hahaha
anyhoo... 6.7/10. becoz I feel like the storyline was short and somewhat rushed. THE COMEDY THO! funny as fuck. not all the time but most of the time. I enjoyed their comedy most.
I wanna say something but then I realized that could be a spoiler. soooo..I'm just gonna leave the trailer here.
Are you going to watch this movie? and have you enjoyed the first 3 movies? share share share (in the comment box!)
OH!! when I hear Liam Neelson talked, I was like, "GASP! ASLAN!" not as loud as I'd loved to be but "GASP! ASLAN!" becoz earlier in the day, Fox Movies was playing Narnia: Prince Caspian and I watched it like I never watched the movie before. yup. "ASLAN!"
ok, bye.
wait! one more.
Fun Fact: In Brunei MIB means something else to us Bruneian. it's our (as mentioned on Wiki) national philosophy: Melayu Islam Beraja.
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Feeling nice seeing me everyday? wehwehweh
It's becoz I missed so many days in June and I'm just trying to raise the number I posted this month. So...here I am.
MIB International
the next movie I watched at the cinema after Aladdin.
this was actually Zawir's idea. coz I think he likes MIB 3. I think.
I wanted to watch becoz it's Thor and the Valkyrie lady.
Not giving out spoiler like I did with Aladdin but Aladdin wasn't so much of a spoiler since it was a remake...so, I don't know where I'm going with that. hahaha
anyhoo... 6.7/10. becoz I feel like the storyline was short and somewhat rushed. THE COMEDY THO! funny as fuck. not all the time but most of the time. I enjoyed their comedy most.
I wanna say something but then I realized that could be a spoiler. soooo..I'm just gonna leave the trailer here.
Are you going to watch this movie? and have you enjoyed the first 3 movies? share share share (in the comment box!)
OH!! when I hear Liam Neelson talked, I was like, "GASP! ASLAN!" not as loud as I'd loved to be but "GASP! ASLAN!" becoz earlier in the day, Fox Movies was playing Narnia: Prince Caspian and I watched it like I never watched the movie before. yup. "ASLAN!"
ok, bye.
wait! one more.
Fun Fact: In Brunei MIB means something else to us Bruneian. it's our (as mentioned on Wiki) national philosophy: Melayu Islam Beraja.
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Wednesday, 26 June 2019
Ok, what is this?
hi guys,
just a short one today.
I'm gonna be the first to say this,
SM, what the fuck is this ish?
and what the actual fuck is "Zimzalabim" ?!
Obviously I have not look for the romanize video yet and to be honest, I don't want to. coz WHAT THE HELL IS ZIMZALABIM?!
below comment made my day though 😂😂😂
. . .
just a short one today.
I'm gonna be the first to say this,
SM, what the fuck is this ish?
and what the actual fuck is "Zimzalabim" ?!
Obviously I have not look for the romanize video yet and to be honest, I don't want to. coz WHAT THE HELL IS ZIMZALABIM?!
below comment made my day though 😂😂😂
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Tuesday, 25 June 2019
been on both sides
hi guys!
let's discuss Marshmello & Anne-Marie - FRIENDS vs Westlife - Obvious.
I've been on both sides of this story. Yes, I see them as a story. 😂
When I first listened to FRIENDS, I understand it right away but didn't think too much of it. but few days ago, as my phone shuffled to the song again, I was like, "dam!"
the lyrics was like,
"We're nothing more than friends, You're not my lover, more like a brother...don't mess it up, talking that shit, only gonna push me away...Haven't I made it obvious, haven't I made it clear, want me to spell it out for you? ...We're just friends"
Like, there are people I wanted to dedicate this song to 😏
but also, at the same time, "dam!" I was reminded of the time I was on the other side. back in my teens. LOL
Westlife's Obvious read like this:
"We started as friends, but something happened inside me...You never seemed to notice me turning on my charm or wonder why I'm always where you are..I've made it obvious...Every time I asked you out, you never move past friendly...you never know how I stare when we're alone or wonder why I keep you on the phone"
basically, back in my teens, I was Westlife's Obvious and the guy probably was thinking Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS. but in my 30s, I'm Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS and the guy is insisting Westlife's Obvious.
been on both sides of this story. wow. just, wow. the realization hit me hard. must be the age factor? 😂😂
This realization also put things into perspectives. as in, I shouldn't be so mean about it. coz I have been on Westlife's Obvious side and I know how my heart aches over it. but being kind DOES NOT MEAN giving in tho.
I think it's healthy to remind someone that we're just friends and I also think it's our right to be FIRM on reminding them that. and if firm means singing like Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS, then so be it.
here's the two songs for listening purposes
Marshmello&Anne-Marie - FRIENDS
Westlife - Obvious
tell me what other points you came up with listening to these two songs. let's discuss in the comment box below.
. . .
let's discuss Marshmello & Anne-Marie - FRIENDS vs Westlife - Obvious.
I've been on both sides of this story. Yes, I see them as a story. 😂
When I first listened to FRIENDS, I understand it right away but didn't think too much of it. but few days ago, as my phone shuffled to the song again, I was like, "dam!"
the lyrics was like,
"We're nothing more than friends, You're not my lover, more like a brother...don't mess it up, talking that shit, only gonna push me away...Haven't I made it obvious, haven't I made it clear, want me to spell it out for you? ...We're just friends"
Like, there are people I wanted to dedicate this song to 😏
but also, at the same time, "dam!" I was reminded of the time I was on the other side. back in my teens. LOL
Westlife's Obvious read like this:
"We started as friends, but something happened inside me...You never seemed to notice me turning on my charm or wonder why I'm always where you are..I've made it obvious...Every time I asked you out, you never move past friendly...you never know how I stare when we're alone or wonder why I keep you on the phone"
basically, back in my teens, I was Westlife's Obvious and the guy probably was thinking Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS. but in my 30s, I'm Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS and the guy is insisting Westlife's Obvious.
been on both sides of this story. wow. just, wow. the realization hit me hard. must be the age factor? 😂😂
This realization also put things into perspectives. as in, I shouldn't be so mean about it. coz I have been on Westlife's Obvious side and I know how my heart aches over it. but being kind DOES NOT MEAN giving in tho.
I think it's healthy to remind someone that we're just friends and I also think it's our right to be FIRM on reminding them that. and if firm means singing like Marshmello&Anne-Marie's FRIENDS, then so be it.
here's the two songs for listening purposes
Marshmello&Anne-Marie - FRIENDS
Westlife - Obvious
tell me what other points you came up with listening to these two songs. let's discuss in the comment box below.
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Monday, 24 June 2019
Selamat Hari Raya
hi guys,
quick update on the blogspot-not-loading thingy: I confirmed that it's my internet connection. Coz, yesterday, when I wanted to update my blog, it refused to load the page. and today, it was ok again. Sooooo...current-internet-provider, bye!
onto the our topic; Selamat Hari Raya!!
a little too late coz it's already the third week of Raya? i think? All I know is, our house already cleaned of any Hari Raya trace. wawawa
This year's Raya is a bit sad coz my baju raya arrived late.
I decided this year that I'm going with the ready-made saja, coz you know, I don't have to paning2 pikir design apa mau buat.
I purchased from Zalora.com on 17th May, received ordered at around 10am on 22nd May, I did quick fittings and they were all too big (I ordered XXL and, rupanya, I'm not size XXL LOL!), went to Zalora.com app to request exchange at around 11ish am, and quickly went to a specific courier service for drop off at around 1ish pm, THAT VERY SAME DAY 22nd MAY!
I only received respond from Zalora.com that 11ish am, them acknowledging my request.
I was panicking when I didn't received any respond by 30th May; they said request would take at least 3 days to be processed, and I was giving them grace period of 8 DAYS!
but of course, I was being understanding, you know, festive traffic and all that cheese.
Finally received an email from zalora.com on 2nd Jun, they just received my returned package. and I was like, "what the actual fuck?" I sent 22nd May and you received 2nd Jun? what?!
on 3rd Jun zalora.com sent another email to me saying my items are on their way.
🙄
by now, I was already so done.
I actually went to SF Express (that specific courier service) on the 4th Jun, to try my luck, to at least ask. coz I've been trying to call them since 3rd Jun but their phone rang a few times and after that, cut off. like, what even? but when I arrived at their office, they already closed.
I tried again on the 5th Jun but still no one answering the phone. I got pissed and didn't bother stressing anymore.
Raya fell on 6th Jun in Brunei, so sis redha and pakai baju lama sja beraya. 😭
It was a long holiday here in Brunei for Hari Raya, we were given 3 days public holidays, obviously, I didn't want to pressure SF Express and just waited till 10th Jun.
10th Jun arrived and I actually logged onto my Zalora account and found out that my parcel already arrived in Brunei on 3rd Jun 8ish pm.
So, I went to SF Express, they were opened, I showed the guy at the collection counter the screenshot I took, and he was actually too calm for my liking.
He checked on his computer and tried to tell me what I already know ("oh, we received the item on 3rd June malam and we-") and I just ✋.
I was surprised at how calm I was when I raise my hand like ✋, stopping him and said, smiling, "can I collect now?" to which he replied, "yes, you can collect today. just give me some time to find your package". I smiled, "thank you". MY CUSTOMER SERVICE ASS AT WORK BITCHES!
I don't think I waited long, maybe 5 minutes top, and I received my package! I quickly left before my anger raise from the depth of my guts.
Now, let me tell you why I need to rant:
*clears throat
*exhale heavily
I know, ada lagi urang yang lebih susah dari aku, I should be grateful I still have decent baju to wear on Hari Raya.
What I learned from this?
quick update on the blogspot-not-loading thingy: I confirmed that it's my internet connection. Coz, yesterday, when I wanted to update my blog, it refused to load the page. and today, it was ok again. Sooooo...current-internet-provider, bye!
onto the our topic; Selamat Hari Raya!!
a little too late coz it's already the third week of Raya? i think? All I know is, our house already cleaned of any Hari Raya trace. wawawa
This year's Raya is a bit sad coz my baju raya arrived late.
📣📣 STORY TIMEEEEEE 📣📣
I decided this year that I'm going with the ready-made saja, coz you know, I don't have to paning2 pikir design apa mau buat.
I purchased from Zalora.com on 17th May, received ordered at around 10am on 22nd May, I did quick fittings and they were all too big (I ordered XXL and, rupanya, I'm not size XXL LOL!), went to Zalora.com app to request exchange at around 11ish am, and quickly went to a specific courier service for drop off at around 1ish pm, THAT VERY SAME DAY 22nd MAY!
I only received respond from Zalora.com that 11ish am, them acknowledging my request.
I was panicking when I didn't received any respond by 30th May; they said request would take at least 3 days to be processed, and I was giving them grace period of 8 DAYS!
but of course, I was being understanding, you know, festive traffic and all that cheese.
Finally received an email from zalora.com on 2nd Jun, they just received my returned package. and I was like, "what the actual fuck?" I sent 22nd May and you received 2nd Jun? what?!
on 3rd Jun zalora.com sent another email to me saying my items are on their way.
🙄
by now, I was already so done.
I actually went to SF Express (that specific courier service) on the 4th Jun, to try my luck, to at least ask. coz I've been trying to call them since 3rd Jun but their phone rang a few times and after that, cut off. like, what even? but when I arrived at their office, they already closed.
I tried again on the 5th Jun but still no one answering the phone. I got pissed and didn't bother stressing anymore.
Raya fell on 6th Jun in Brunei, so sis redha and pakai baju lama sja beraya. 😭
It was a long holiday here in Brunei for Hari Raya, we were given 3 days public holidays, obviously, I didn't want to pressure SF Express and just waited till 10th Jun.
10th Jun arrived and I actually logged onto my Zalora account and found out that my parcel already arrived in Brunei on 3rd Jun 8ish pm.
like, why didn't I check this thing earlier? LOL my baddd~~
So, I went to SF Express, they were opened, I showed the guy at the collection counter the screenshot I took, and he was actually too calm for my liking.
He checked on his computer and tried to tell me what I already know ("oh, we received the item on 3rd June malam and we-") and I just ✋.
I was surprised at how calm I was when I raise my hand like ✋, stopping him and said, smiling, "can I collect now?" to which he replied, "yes, you can collect today. just give me some time to find your package". I smiled, "thank you". MY CUSTOMER SERVICE ASS AT WORK BITCHES!
I don't think I waited long, maybe 5 minutes top, and I received my package! I quickly left before my anger raise from the depth of my guts.
Now, let me tell you why I need to rant:
*clears throat
- I understand that it was Hari Raya season and it was hectic closer to the date, the least they can do is give customer a call if they couldn't deliver them to their doorstep. I mean, yeah, maybe ada customer yang being fussy as fuck about that but I'm sure I'm not the only one yang willing to collect my items on my own COZ IT'S MY BAJU RAYA DAMMIT!
- that guy at the counter. THE 👏 AU 👏 DA 👏 CI 👏TY 👏! dude, my parcel arrived on 3rd Jun, 7 days later, here I am in front of you, already in the 5th day of Raya wearing old baju, SF Express didn't even bother to give me a call that you've been keeping my items/package for 6-7 days, AND YOU WANT TO GIVE ME EXCUSES AS TO WHY THIS IS HAPPENING? boy ✋, stand up, and quickly get my package before I blow that place up.
*exhale heavily
I know, ada lagi urang yang lebih susah dari aku, I should be grateful I still have decent baju to wear on Hari Raya.
What I learned from this?
- lain kali, order awal lagi sikit if it's for Raya
- supaya dapat exchange far more quickly
- or, check size measurement banar2. last year I ordered from a brand Zalia and the size XL was too fit on me. This year I ordered from brand Lubna, and thought I should order XXL so it'd be a little loose but damn! Different brand has different measurement. So, check that section thoroughly
- Zalora.com still deliver fast to Brunei, within 3-5 working days. I think it's just the exchange that took forever. or maybe it's just during Hari Raya. I have never exchange anything for the last 5-6 times purchasing from them. So, I wasn't aware of that process. and I chose Hari Raya to test that process. Brilliant.
- I almost menyamal but I have 2 items in my basket right at this moment. LOL~!
anyway,
my anger subsides when I returned to work on the 12th Jun and asked Faizah to take my OOTD. wawawa
first two was taken by Faizah, the third obviously not. No idea when the official OOTD with that baju will be done. maybe this coming Friday. it will be up on my IG when done. 😉
hows your Hari Raya so far? I hope better than mine. Mine wasn't bad, I just, lazy. LOL I have other things to focus on 😉
alright, that is all for this post.
See ya tomorrow. Hopefully.
Ciao~
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Friday, 14 June 2019
Me and my Japanese songs
hi guys.
another songs post.
this time, Japanese songs made from Korean songs.
LOL don't judge me.
Let's us all thank SM and Boa for introducing me to that stream.
I'm going to share with you my old and current favorite Japanese version from my favorite Korean songs.
another songs post.
this time, Japanese songs made from Korean songs.
LOL don't judge me.
Let's us all thank SM and Boa for introducing me to that stream.
I'm going to share with you my old and current favorite Japanese version from my favorite Korean songs.
- BoA - Shine We Are
- Super Junior - Marry U
- Girls' Generation - Mr. Taxi
- SHINee - Hello
- F(x) - Hot Summer
- Chanyeol - SSFW (Four Seasons)
- Red Velvet - Power Up
- NCT 127 - Touch
- Ailee - Heaven
Hmmm.. I'm not even sorry for the SM bias-ness. LOL!!
Imma share the Shine We Are MV that somewhat introduces me to Asia pop culture back then. I knew this one is Japanese. What I didn't know was that the No.1 MV that I watched on repeat was actually Korean. LOL lemme share that MV too.
Boa - Shine We Are (Japanese ver)
Boa - No. 1 (Korean ver)
Do you have Japanese version of your favorite Korean songs? If yes, share share share.
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Tuesday, 11 June 2019
2019: A Year of Change
for some reason, this was in the draft section since 10th Mar 2019 and was empty.
hmmm
Hi guys.
we are now in June 2019! half way thru the year already. wow. time flies.
So, as mentioned, this draft was left empty since 10th Mar 2019. I checked thru my draft notes in my laptop and found one notes that was dated 10 Mar too. It was obviously raw and not suitable for direct posting. I might hurt a few hearts. but do I really care? muahahah
I actually still care, hence, the edited version below.
Here go:
composed on 10th Mar 2019.
Hello everyone and anyone.
I know, I abandoned this page for so long.
I even almost not come back at all.
but here I am.
I really don't know why I should continue to be here. It's not like my life depended on it.
I guess I'm just not ready to part ways from this part of my old life.
Blogging had been my life since forever. I think I started when I was 15? Back when Friendster was a thing. LOL Friendster had a blog feature where your friends got notification whenever you posted something and when I finally switched to Blogspot, none of my readers came along with me.
it demotivated me a little bit but I still continued to post. soon after, friends started making their own blog and we shared/exchanged stories and comments.
As we grew as an individual, I guess people grew out of blogging too. Except me. I'm still here, as if holding up the fort.
more years passed and I mentioned a lot in my posts on how me too no longer 'feeling it'.
Am I grown?
or
Am I tired of holding the fort?
Maybe I am.
I turned 31 last year. I'll be 32 this year. For some reason, that hit me hard.
at first, I thought it was becoz I thought I lagged behind everybody. Thirty One years Old and still the same old me; achieving only in growing old, stuck in the same old routine year after year.
You would think, someone who read a lot like myself wouldn't have such negative thoughts.
You thought wrong.
I used to tell people how I'm a self-motivated person. I began believing in it too.
Until I realized how tiring that ish was (still is).
Your mind is spent and your heart is heavy, do you have any idea how hard it is to stay motivated/positive during that phase?
I also used to think that I was strong mentally and physically.
boy, was I mistaken. LOL
Well, maybe I am strong both mentally and physically or I wouldn't be here talking about this right now.
Realizing all this and accepting that my life has come to this, I decided to let go on a lot of things.
They say it's never too late to push reset and start over.
So, for the past six months I've been working on my well being;
1. Me is enough
2. Me matter
3. I can't change the world overnight. so chill.
4. Stop worrying about what others think of me.
5. Control my emotion especially at work (coz GOD know I have a problem in that ish place LOL)
6. my self improvement is important.
And something happened on my 7th month.
I've worked hard for this mindset and soul to be at peace and for me to fall back into the me from 6 months ago is such a waste of time.
To fall back to the same routine/dark-mindset all over again? I don't have the capacity in my mind and in my soul for such burden anymore.
I used to think "let's just follow the flow" but I don't want to be that easy anymore.
I wanna work hard towards a new goal in life. Especially with my life. I'm important too.
I have the obligation to better myself before I can worry about other people.
I really don't want to go back to 6 months ago. I can't and I refuse. I am only going to focus on moving forward.
Wow! I was so deep back in March. LOL wow.
I surprise myself too most of the time. Every time I read back my old thoughts, I'm impressed on how well I write/type. HAHAHAH and now back to the present.
Like, I said, the above is filtered for 'tayangan umum'. There were two more pages of thoughts but I don't think it's quite relevant for today's title.
I don't think I planned that post as a New Year Resolution coz I hate that term: 'Resolution'. who started that ish? I think i just want to say that I'm trying to change my life routine and be selfish for once. obviously old habit die hard; I can't just be completely selfish. but I'm gonna try.
Have you ever feel or felt this way before? How did you overcome or deal with yours? Share your thoughts down in the comment box.
if you read up till here, you the real MVP. and thank you.
See you in the next post.
ciao~
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hmmm
Hi guys.
we are now in June 2019! half way thru the year already. wow. time flies.
So, as mentioned, this draft was left empty since 10th Mar 2019. I checked thru my draft notes in my laptop and found one notes that was dated 10 Mar too. It was obviously raw and not suitable for direct posting. I might hurt a few hearts. but do I really care? muahahah
I actually still care, hence, the edited version below.
Here go:
composed on 10th Mar 2019.
Hello everyone and anyone.
I know, I abandoned this page for so long.
I even almost not come back at all.
but here I am.
I really don't know why I should continue to be here. It's not like my life depended on it.
I guess I'm just not ready to part ways from this part of my old life.
Blogging had been my life since forever. I think I started when I was 15? Back when Friendster was a thing. LOL Friendster had a blog feature where your friends got notification whenever you posted something and when I finally switched to Blogspot, none of my readers came along with me.
it demotivated me a little bit but I still continued to post. soon after, friends started making their own blog and we shared/exchanged stories and comments.
As we grew as an individual, I guess people grew out of blogging too. Except me. I'm still here, as if holding up the fort.
more years passed and I mentioned a lot in my posts on how me too no longer 'feeling it'.
Am I grown?
or
Am I tired of holding the fort?
Maybe I am.
I turned 31 last year. I'll be 32 this year. For some reason, that hit me hard.
at first, I thought it was becoz I thought I lagged behind everybody. Thirty One years Old and still the same old me; achieving only in growing old, stuck in the same old routine year after year.
You would think, someone who read a lot like myself wouldn't have such negative thoughts.
You thought wrong.
I used to tell people how I'm a self-motivated person. I began believing in it too.
Until I realized how tiring that ish was (still is).
Your mind is spent and your heart is heavy, do you have any idea how hard it is to stay motivated/positive during that phase?
I also used to think that I was strong mentally and physically.
boy, was I mistaken. LOL
Well, maybe I am strong both mentally and physically or I wouldn't be here talking about this right now.
Realizing all this and accepting that my life has come to this, I decided to let go on a lot of things.
They say it's never too late to push reset and start over.
So, for the past six months I've been working on my well being;
1. Me is enough
2. Me matter
3. I can't change the world overnight. so chill.
4. Stop worrying about what others think of me.
5. Control my emotion especially at work (coz GOD know I have a problem in that ish place LOL)
6. my self improvement is important.
And something happened on my 7th month.
I've worked hard for this mindset and soul to be at peace and for me to fall back into the me from 6 months ago is such a waste of time.
To fall back to the same routine/dark-mindset all over again? I don't have the capacity in my mind and in my soul for such burden anymore.
I used to think "let's just follow the flow" but I don't want to be that easy anymore.
I wanna work hard towards a new goal in life. Especially with my life. I'm important too.
I have the obligation to better myself before I can worry about other people.
I really don't want to go back to 6 months ago. I can't and I refuse. I am only going to focus on moving forward.
Wow! I was so deep back in March. LOL wow.
I surprise myself too most of the time. Every time I read back my old thoughts, I'm impressed on how well I write/type. HAHAHAH and now back to the present.
Like, I said, the above is filtered for 'tayangan umum'. There were two more pages of thoughts but I don't think it's quite relevant for today's title.
I don't think I planned that post as a New Year Resolution coz I hate that term: 'Resolution'. who started that ish? I think i just want to say that I'm trying to change my life routine and be selfish for once. obviously old habit die hard; I can't just be completely selfish. but I'm gonna try.
Have you ever feel or felt this way before? How did you overcome or deal with yours? Share your thoughts down in the comment box.
if you read up till here, you the real MVP. and thank you.
See you in the next post.
ciao~
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Monday, 10 June 2019
Skin Care update
Hi guys.
this post is long overdue. I've tried and failed posting this for 3 times before.
I hope this forth time is the charm.
Skin Care Update.
Al-kisah~
Skin care. my most pet peeve EVER.
I mean I did try to use them earlier, buying a set of skin care products from Skin Food, but I remember only ended up using the face wash (Cucumber) and Toner (Peach) only. LOL like, that was as far as my skin care goes back then.
I only started having proper skin care routine (meaning, other than washing my face with sabun muka), maybe, in 2016? Using facial wash, toner, and essence. I don't know how but I went for the Face Shop skin care set. I made a post on this here if you missed it. Reading that post made me realize how bad I want my face to be flawless when in all actuality, my face just not become flawless.
here's an update:
this post is long overdue. I've tried and failed posting this for 3 times before.
I hope this forth time is the charm.
Skin Care Update.
Al-kisah~
Skin care. my most pet peeve EVER.
I mean I did try to use them earlier, buying a set of skin care products from Skin Food, but I remember only ended up using the face wash (Cucumber) and Toner (Peach) only. LOL like, that was as far as my skin care goes back then.
I only started having proper skin care routine (meaning, other than washing my face with sabun muka), maybe, in 2016? Using facial wash, toner, and essence. I don't know how but I went for the Face Shop skin care set. I made a post on this here if you missed it. Reading that post made me realize how bad I want my face to be flawless when in all actuality, my face just not become flawless.
here's an update:
- the three sets of toner/essence/serum I used in that post actually didn't make major changes to my skin.
- Yehwadam Snow Lotus Pearl Capsule Cream and Yves Roches Serum for Wrinkles and Firmness - not suitable for my skin. no matter how little I put on my skin, they caused very stressful break out.
- Face Masks - I can only use certain face masks. if I'm not careful, they will caused that tiny white heads bump and I will stress out about it.
Realizing that The Face Shop products were not for me, I went and look for other (Korean) products. Read here for a couple of products I did some research on.
here's the updates on that:
- Son & Park Beauty Water - they said to use it as primer before make-up or as toner. Never used it for Primer. I used it as toner and FUCKING FREAKIN NIGHTMARE! omg! I used it right before Raya 2018 too! imagine! there were not many information on how I'm supposed to use it or what the fuck this Beauty Water actually is; is it a Toner? Essence? or I just don't read Korean.
- Cosrx AHA/BHA Clarifying Treatment Toner - my savior!!!! more on this below.
- The Face Shop Herb Day Cleansing Cream - this is actually not suitable for me and one of the reason why I completely stopped using any of The Face Shop skin care products.
So, 2018. the year a product from Korea become viral: Some By Mi Miracle Toner. even I was terjebak into buying. LOL but I was desperate!
I was using the Son & Park Beauty Water. my chin was such nightmare; dark skin, jerawat batu, white heads, etc. EVEN on my cheeks! I never had any break out on my cheeks before. I usually only had problems on my T-zone. so, yeah, it's bad!
So, I finally had enough waiting for the Beauty Water to work for me and stopped using completely.
First, I tried using the Some By Mi set.
this is my face when I started using the Some By Mi.
I remembered taking picture every week for this coz the Miracle Toner said 30 days kan, but I only came across these 2 sets.
My skin became better.
That 30 days claim? not for me.
I forgot when I started the Cosrx but I know I straight away used Cosrx when the Some By Mi finished.
Notice how I'm still using the Hydro Max Cream here?
it's becoz it didn't finish the same time as the SomeByMi Toner and Serum, so I continued to use it with the Cosrx, and when it didn't cause any bad reaction, I terus kan je.
Below skin picture was taken when I finished the Cosrx.
yes, masih ada scars and break outs, but it wasn't as bad as when I was using the Beauty Water.
and I went on to use skin care products from Mizon, also Korean products.
This picture was taken in on 31st May. See how I almost finished the Toner? The cream is in a big tub. so, still a lot. I plan on continue using it when I got back to using the same Cosrx Toner and Ampoule as above.
From the skin picture update above, that was when I finally understood and you should understood too on why I said The Face Shop products didn't do shit to my skin. LOL look at how the Cosrx did!
I have never reached that level of flawless with my skin as an adult. like, whaaaaa
but one thing to point out; whilst I was using the SomeByMi and Cosrx, I still use traditional ointment to clear out blemishes. I should have tried and see if the products can do the clearing themselves but they took more than a week to clear which made me use the ointments for faster result. and they did.
my spot treatment.
Green: minyak padas (as I called it. on the sticker it says for gatal2, insect bites),
Yellow: Minyak Gamat (my most trusted minyak for hilangkan scars),
Blue: Vicks (for when the other two minyak is not within my reach. they're all together in this pic for picture purposes only LOL!).
Like, Skin Care company, why you lie?
Ok lah. Maybe this is just my skin. maybe other people skin can heal solely by using the products. Always remember, different skin condition reacts differently to the products I mentioned here.
Extras:
I mentioned this in one of the linked post. this one also no further info whether can for face or not. I tried it once on my face, obviously you cannot see changes using it once, and becoz I was scared, I didn't try using it again the sceond time and just used this as hand lotion instead. it was a good hand lotion. LOL
I bought two of this. the first tub I used as my toner in the morning. I didn't mix with any serum or cream, coz I scared I will break out. I think it contributes to clearing my skin as well. I love the medicated smell. the smell alone cleared up my acne. LOL of course not. I just love the clean smell. :P
These are my make-up cleansing set; Banila Co Clean It Zero cleansing balm (turns oily when contact with skin. amazing at removing your make-up), Secret Key Lemon Sparkling Peeling Gel (a face scrub. this one also has some strong medicated smell. I love how it leaves the skin smooth after rinse), and Daily Skin Strawberry Milk Soap (my current favorite facial soap. 3rd time using this!)
the three products that causes my major break outs and stress. The Face Shop Herb Day face wash (i think I was using the lemon one), The Face Shop Dr. Belmeur Bubble Foam Cleanser (instead of cleaning my face, it brings out all the white heads and puss), and you already know the story with the Beauty Water.
So there you go, an update on my skin care routine.
I'm proud of this post, coz I have skin pictures. although, it bothered me that they look like a slab of meat when cropped like that. LOL my gosh.
When I was doing my reading and watching about skin care routines, they say to understand the ingredients of the products that you are using and I'm like, "who got time to read ingredients?!" and how also, if I do read, how would I know which ingredients that are causing the break outs?
Thus, my only (lazy) conclusion is that:
- when your skin showed some kind of irritation on the first use, you should definitely stop and not think, "Eh cuba lagi lah. mana tau the more I use, the better it gets". No, it won't get any better. trust me.
- imma stick to using the Cosrx for now, becoz Cosrx was when my skin was at its clearest EVER. Yes, I'm using Mizon at the moment. Mizon helped maintain what Cosrx have done for my skin but I feel like I wanna use Cosrx again just to see if it will continue to make my skin clear.
I know, long post but I think it ought to be. (◠ω◠✿)
What about you guys? What's your skin care routine like? any products you would think would work on my sensitive, acne-prone skin? Comment down below.
Thank you if you read up to here. You the MVP.
I hope this post helps, even in the smallest bit, and I will see you in my next post. Hint: Make-Up. ;)
Ciao~
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Saturday, 8 June 2019
How to upload songs to your iPhone
Hi guys.
let's thank my nephew for giving me the inspiration to make this post today 25th May (and will be scheduled to post in June 😉).
I mean, this was not the first time people ask me about how to download songs for their iPhone but today is the first time I thought of doing this.
So, let's start.
but before that,
This guide is for people who didn't want to buy songs via iTunestore app and only wanted to download the "free" one. and we all know we can't just download them directly to our iPhone.
Also, please take note that I'm a window and Google chrome user. My steps may differ for mac users.
Step 1.
You must have a computer or laptop. not to discourage you or anything, but if you have neither, I can't help you.
you might be thinking, "what if I borrow someone else's computer?" ...continue to read below..
Step 2.
Download iTunes for your computer here.
when finished downloading, you should see this on your desktop.
Step 3.
Google and download your songs.
Here's one example of where I download my kpop songs
Of course, you can always Google whatever song you wanted to download. but please, only download from trusted websites and at your own discretion!
Once downloaded, the files should go to your 'Download Folder'. or if you're not sure, you can always check that bottom strip (as pictured)
Step 4.
FINALLY to the iTunes part.
Open your iTunes and it's time to fill you iTunes with songs you already downloaded.
Click, File, then Add Files to Library, pick your songs, and click Open.
Your songs should be seen in the Recently Added tab/folder.
Step 5.
Once all your songs uploaded in your itunes, it's time to upload them to your iPhone!
Connect your iPhone with your computer via USB and your iTunes will automatically connect and began syncing.
CAUTION! if this is your first time connecting your iPhone to your computer and iTunes, there will be a notification pop-up on your iPhone and you need to accept that first or your iPhone will fail to connect.
Step 6.
Once your iTunes finished syncing with your iPhone, you can now check your iPhone's Music app and your songs should all be in there.
and you are done! 👏
When you have more to add, repeat Steps 4 and 5, and then click on your iPhone icon in the iTunes and click Sync. coz if you don't click that Sync, nothing will happen.
Always remember to click Sync and Apply whenever asked.
To answer the "what if I borrow someone else's computer and iTunes?"
the thing about iPhone that everybody should know by now is that, it can't be duplicate. or it can but it can't be maintain.
Let me explain:
my iTunes already sync to my iPhone. So, when other iPhone connect to my iTunes, yes, that new iPhone can be sync and have all my existing song lists but the moment that new iPhone have any update, and is updated, everything from my iTunes in that iPhone will be gone.
ALSO, when that new iPhone sync with my iTunes, that new iPhone will have all my info as well, since my iTunes is my iPhone back up, and we don't want that, do we?
So, for security reasons, I will never again help people that way (I helped 2 people like this in the past 😐)
in conclusion, if you don't have your own computer for your own iTunes, this is guide is not for you.
but no worries!
they have Spotify now. I have not try it. but you can stream your songs there. I believe it uses data? I'm not sure. Check it out here.
I'm sure there are of other ways to listen to songs. You just have to Google it. Make Google your bestfriend! 😂
I hope this guide is simple enough for beginners but if it's not so, you can always comment below and I will try to help you some more 😉
Until next time,
Ja ne~~
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Not related but I wanted a good thumbnail LOL
let's thank my nephew for giving me the inspiration to make this post today 25th May (and will be scheduled to post in June 😉).
I mean, this was not the first time people ask me about how to download songs for their iPhone but today is the first time I thought of doing this.
So, let's start.
but before that,
This guide is for people who didn't want to buy songs via iTunestore app and only wanted to download the "free" one. and we all know we can't just download them directly to our iPhone.
Also, please take note that I'm a window and Google chrome user. My steps may differ for mac users.
Step 1.
You must have a computer or laptop. not to discourage you or anything, but if you have neither, I can't help you.
you might be thinking, "what if I borrow someone else's computer?" ...continue to read below..
Step 2.
Download iTunes for your computer here.
when finished downloading, you should see this on your desktop.
Step 3.
Google and download your songs.
Here's one example of where I download my kpop songs
Of course, you can always Google whatever song you wanted to download. but please, only download from trusted websites and at your own discretion!
Once downloaded, the files should go to your 'Download Folder'. or if you're not sure, you can always check that bottom strip (as pictured)
Step 4.
FINALLY to the iTunes part.
Open your iTunes and it's time to fill you iTunes with songs you already downloaded.
Click, File, then Add Files to Library, pick your songs, and click Open.
Your songs should be seen in the Recently Added tab/folder.
Step 5.
Once all your songs uploaded in your itunes, it's time to upload them to your iPhone!
Connect your iPhone with your computer via USB and your iTunes will automatically connect and began syncing.
CAUTION! if this is your first time connecting your iPhone to your computer and iTunes, there will be a notification pop-up on your iPhone and you need to accept that first or your iPhone will fail to connect.
Step 6.
Once your iTunes finished syncing with your iPhone, you can now check your iPhone's Music app and your songs should all be in there.
and you are done! 👏
When you have more to add, repeat Steps 4 and 5, and then click on your iPhone icon in the iTunes and click Sync. coz if you don't click that Sync, nothing will happen.
Always remember to click Sync and Apply whenever asked.
To answer the "what if I borrow someone else's computer and iTunes?"
the thing about iPhone that everybody should know by now is that, it can't be duplicate. or it can but it can't be maintain.
Let me explain:
my iTunes already sync to my iPhone. So, when other iPhone connect to my iTunes, yes, that new iPhone can be sync and have all my existing song lists but the moment that new iPhone have any update, and is updated, everything from my iTunes in that iPhone will be gone.
ALSO, when that new iPhone sync with my iTunes, that new iPhone will have all my info as well, since my iTunes is my iPhone back up, and we don't want that, do we?
So, for security reasons, I will never again help people that way (I helped 2 people like this in the past 😐)
in conclusion, if you don't have your own computer for your own iTunes, this is guide is not for you.
but no worries!
they have Spotify now. I have not try it. but you can stream your songs there. I believe it uses data? I'm not sure. Check it out here.
I'm sure there are of other ways to listen to songs. You just have to Google it. Make Google your bestfriend! 😂
I hope this guide is simple enough for beginners but if it's not so, you can always comment below and I will try to help you some more 😉
Until next time,
Ja ne~~
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