Oops I did Again

Happy National Day to all Bruneians!

and it's been almost a month since I last posted here.

I swear I have no excuse.

LOL

So to start of,
I finally received my POET | ARTIST album.

Received within 3 weeks after placing my ordered.
I thought that I was gonna cry when I listened to the album in my car. Yes, I ripped open the plastic wrap as soon as I got into my car. LOL patient is not my virtue. 
I didn't cry. but I guess it's only because I've already listened to the album digitally.
(side note: to me, there's different feelings when listening to your songs; digitally (which includes Youtube), physical CD, and thru the Radio. I can't explain this into words. to me they're just different).

Are you ready for story time? :)

Now, SHINee just had their 
SHINee World 2018 The Best ~ From Now On ~ concert at Kyocera Dome, Osaka, Japan on 17th & 18th Feb.

I was never one to live stream any of SHINee concerts. I have never bother searching for a link to live streams.
I especially cautious of that this time around.
Only because, I knew there'll be lots of tears.

and man, was I right!

I avoided Instagram (my current source of Kpop news :P) for a few hours on the 17th as the concert began.
but late at night, I opened IG and already reading tons from both the fanaccount I followed and from my explore page.
I felt that tuck in my heart again.
I saw a clip of Onew barely keeping it together. from then on, I chose not to open any video and scrolled up fast when a video started playing.

I listened to two new Japanese songs and they're both nice ballads. but of course yg ku dangar atu not full version. when one of the member's voice waver or stopped singing, i skipped that video coz I know I couldn't continue listening.
*deep breath*
anyway,
the next day happened. I finally brave myself to listen to the closing song. Jonghyun voice was included.
and I shed a few tears.
It wasn't even a long video. not even 1 minute. but seeing the 4 of them like that, so kesian. 
:'(

So, when 18th Feb concert started, I was ok to watch and read fanaccounts.
and when they said SHINee members were hyper during performing hype songs, I smiled too.
I said to myself, "they are gona be ok".
BUT
ballad songs happened and they started crying again and my heart ache again.
SIGH

Well, that's the end of my storytelling.

I decided that, this year, supporting SHINee will be very tough.

I mean, of course, I will support them in any ways I can, but it will be very difficult for my heart.

I mean, how do you handle this?

. . .

since I already take picture

I ordered this album on Dec 5th 2017. and received them on 27th Dec.
Imagine how I was feeling on the 18th Dec.
"but I just ordered his album"